Dreams
Chapter 6 of 32
shellsnapeluverSnape really should brush up on his memory charms...
A/N: Thanks to my betas, Lariope and Lulabelle72. Many hugs to RedSkyAtNight for her fabulous britpicking.
"Do you think I'm going soft now?" a chilly voice whispered into her ear.
Hermione slowly tilted her head back, inhaling deeply as she tried to place that leather scent that was swirling past her nose. She released her breath through parted lips and opened her eyes. She squealed, startled by the black eyes that bore into her own. It was a man's face, although his features were blurry--except for those dark, coal-like eyes. She turned her head, trying to place her surroundings--she was in her room at Hogwarts, but that wasn't her bed--that was her bed from her parent's house...
Suddenly, a cold hand snatched her jaw with bruising strength. She couldn't scream, just groan, as the grip became tighter, squeezing and crushing harder. She tried to pry his hand off her face, kicking out, dragging her nails across his arm, but he didn't budge. Panic raced through her mind--he was going to break her fucking jaw, and there was nothing she could do about it but wait for the sound of bone cracking! She looked up into those black eyes, imploring him to have mercy. Tears fell down her cheeks and over those cold fingers--she didn't understand what was happening...
Suddenly, she was flying across the room! No, she wasn't flying--she had been pushed across, she had felt hands--strong hands--shoving into her upper back. She slammed into the ground on her knees, pain jolting her even as she worriedly swept the floor, feeling for her wand. Ah ha! It was under the table, but as soon as she reached for it, someone was pulling on her legs, dragging her across the stone tiles, scraping her flesh.
"Get off me!" she screamed, clawing at the rough ground, frantic to get away.
"Hermione..." she heard someone calling for her. "Hermione..."
Her muscles relaxed as she laid her head down on her arm, straining to hear her name called again.
"Hermione."
Oh, gods. It was closer, and she nearly melted--that voice--it was comforting, sensual, and she could listen to it all day. She slowly regained control of her breathing as her name echoed softly off the walls of her room. She smiled, lifting her head up. But her room was gone. She was alone. And all around was utter blackness. She felt extremely disorientated as she sat up onto her knees--not knowing which way was up or down. She waved her hand in front of her face, but she couldn't see it. She sat very still, not knowing what horrible things were lurking inside the darkness.
"H-hello?"
The only sound was of her breathing. She blinked--the vast dark was hurting her eyes as they strained to adjust, and the longer she sat in silence, the more nervous she became. Something was waiting for her--she could feel its presence out there, in the blackness.
Suddenly, a deep voice boomed from all around her. "Your written work was something I wouldn't even wipe my arse with. Resident researcher. You will suffer by my hand--"
"Shut up!" she screamed, covering her ears, squeezing her eyes shut and curling into a small ball.
"I want you. I want you. I want you."
"NO!" she cried, rocking herself.
"Hermione," said the soothing voice that she desperately wanted to hear again.
She removed her hands from her ears.
"Hermione. Promise me. I need you. I want you."
She lifted her head and opened her eyes. A soft red glow caught her attention--it was as if it were at the far end of a tunnel--but everywhere else was still completely covered in darkness. She frantically pushed herself onto her feet and started running toward the light, wanting to escape the dark, away from the waiting danger. Her footsteps reverberated in the darkness as she sprinted across the ground, but were replaced by the soft voice repeating her name.
She came within feet of the glowing light, then stopped dead in her tracks. Voldemort was at the end of the tunnel--it was his eyes that were glowing--calling her toward him. Stumbling, she tried to backtrack away from him. He began to laugh as she tried to run away, but she kept slipping on a smooth surface--it was like trying to run up a glass ramp, and she continued to lose ground.
"I'm no longer your teacher! You spoiled brat! Stop trying to fight me off, Miss Granger! You will lose! DO YOU THINK I'M SOFT NOW?" shouted that nasty voice from nowhere, drowning out Voldemort's laughing.
Hermione screamed, cried, and continued trying to run away, but she slipped one last time, falling onto her back. But instead of hitting the ground as she had expected, she continued to fall through the empty darkness. The red glow of his snake-like eyes became smaller and smaller.
Finally, she landed on a soft bed, bouncing onto it several times as her momentum came to a stop. She buried her face in her hands, crying and shouting to be left alone. But the voice became louder and harsher.
"Miss Granger. Miss Granger!"
Then, she felt hands on her--shaking her, smacking her face, pulling on her legs--she wildly kicked and punched at her attacker.
"MISS GRANGER!"
"WHAT!" she screeched. "WHAT DO YOU WANT?"
"I want you!"
A pillow crushed down onto her face, and she struggled beneath it, gasping for air. She felt something scaling, slithering around her ankles, and she could have sworn she heard muffled hisses around her ear--OH, FUCK! She felt them moving under her thighs, gliding across her stomach, wrapping around her arms! She screamed as long and high as her voice would allow; then, suddenly, her legs were yanked apart and something hard and foreign pushed at her entrance, demanding entry. If she could have screamed any louder, she would have. Without warning, the pillow that was smothering her was pushed off her face, and staring down at her was Snape. At first she wanted to bury herself in his arms, just to know that she was alive and safe--to scream at him to make the fucking snakes disappear--but as she sucked in a breath to breathe fresh air, he snarled, "I'm going to fuck you until you bleed!"
He rammed his dick inside her, splitting her into two. She tried to claw at his face, but two snakes attacked her arms, biting into her skin, the fangs piercing her veins and squirting poison into her, contaminating her blood. She knew this was her death, but she was going to fight until her last breath.
"See what happens when you try to fight me?"
"P-please s-stop!" she stuttered. She could feel the ice cold, tingling poison traveling through her body, and within minutes, she felt dizzy and numb, and Snape's face was twisted as he spilled his seed inside her rapidly slackening form. The last thing she saw before the blackness overcame her was Snape, licking his middle finger, which was covered in blood.
It was pitch black and extremely cold when she jolted out of her nightmare--the sound of her own voice screaming in agony had woken her up. She was lying flat on her stomach, and the cotton sheets were twisted widely around her naked body.
"Miss Granger?" said a muffled voice from across the room.
She froze. Her dream came rushing back at her; reliving it a second time made her stomach flop.
What was he doing in her room?
She fumbled around, desperately searching for her wand. She groped around the large bed, looking for the edge--large bed? What the hell? Her bed at home was big enough for two people--the one at Hogwarts was large enough just for her--but this bed... was huge.
I'm not in my room--which means, I'm in--
"Miss Granger, answer me."
Oh, no, no, NO!
"Lumos! Accio Wand!" she whispered. You stupid girl, you don't have wandless magic yet!
She rolled onto her knees and crawled across the soft bed, swinging her legs off the side and wrapping the sheet around her body. A soft rug tickled the soles of her feet.
The door creaked opened and a sliver of light fell into the room--directly onto her. Even though she was covered with a thin sheet, she felt completely nude as the light shone on her. All she could see was the silhouette of Snape, and it unnerved her.
"Miss Granger, I heard you screaming. Are you all right?"
"I had a nightmare. What happened last night? Why am I here?" she said, tightening the sheet around her body. "And more importantly, why am I... naked?"
"I brought you back here after you lost consciousness down in the Grotto. As far as being... in your state... I had a house-elf undress you and place you in my bed. Your skin was on fire and you were sweating. My room is the coolest area in the castle, and I thought your temperature would lower if I let you sleep down here."
"I don't understand. I felt fine all day yesterday. Why did I pass out?"
"I assume you had a reaction to the wine."
"That's never happened before."
"Elf-made wine is strong--it takes some time to get used to it," he said, opening the door all the way, letting the faint light spill in from the other room. He snapped his fingers, and the candles floating on the ceiling came to life.
Hermione wanted to crawl beneath the covers and hide. The light exposed her nakedness, and to be in a room with a man--this man--covered only in a thin sheet was the most intimidating moment of her life. She felt completely vulnerable and unprotected. She could feel his eyes on her body, and she could nearly hear his mind clicking as he watched her trying to hide herself. She knew he could see into a person's mind, and she wondered if he could see through cotton as well. She wouldn't be surprised--very little about Snape surprised her anymore. And if he could, what did he think about her ugliness--her fleshy thighs, her jiggly breasts, the collar bones that protruded too much--would he bring it up every time he got the chance? But what was she worrying about--she had seen him completely naked--bloody hell, she'd even helped him bathe. If he wanted to cast stones... He had had a hard-on for Merlin's sake!
"Miss Granger, are you all right" he said, stepping further inside the room, interrupting her panicked thoughts.
She lifted her chin up, determined not to be a cowardly lion, and said, "I'll be fine. It was just a nightmare. Thank you for taking such good care of me. If you don't mind, I'd like to get dressed, eat, and continue my research."
"Certainly," he said, nodding once before turning on his heel and closing the door behind him.
Hermione walked over to the foot of the bed and retrieved her neatly folded pile of clothes from the bench and quickly dressed. Her wand was sitting at the bottom of the pile. She did a quick flick, and the bed was made. She tucked her wand into her hidden pocket and headed to the loo.
When she emerged, he was sitting on his sofa, flipping through a Potions journal.
"Better?" he asked without looking up.
"Much," she said, bending down to pick up her satchel.
"Where are you going" he asked, still not looking up from his reading material.
"Well, I haven't been able to search those artifacts in Dumbledore's office as you suggested a few days ago, so I think I'd better head up there before he returns."
"You can use my Floo. I'll be working in my private lab this afternoon if you need me--refilling the hospital wing's supply of potions takes a few weeks to accomplish."
"Thank you," she said, walking over to the large fireplace. She took a pinch of powder from his stash and disappeared into the dancing green flames.
"Good morning, Fawkes," she said as she stepped out of the fireplace and walked past the small bird who was perched on his stand.
He lifted his head, yawned and then softly cooed at her.
Chuckling to herself, she sat her satchel on Dumbledore's office table, rummaged through her bag and pulled her notebook out. She clutched it to her chest and began gazing around at the amazing décor. The ceilings were high, and the stained-glass window reached from floor to ceiling, casting sparkling rays of different coloured lights across the room. There were many trinkets and knicknacks in the room, sitting on the shelves and tabletops. Dumbledore had a vast private library of books. Hermione noticed not only books about magic, but Muggle books about gardening, knitting and cooking! She laughed out loud, imagining the old Wizard reading how to properly bake bread and make jam roly-poly Her laugh vibrated off the walls, but it was oddly quiet. Usually when she was in here, she could hear the murmurs of the portraits. But today, they were silent. Actually, now that she started looking around more closely, she noticed that many--no, all--of the occupants of the frames were gone.
Except one.
And it had to be him. Hadn't she been forced to listen to enough of his snide ramblings while she and the boys were searching for the Horcruxes? Apparently not. He was staring at her with his cunning eyes, his hands folded neatly on his lap. She wondered why the other occupants wandered off for the day--maybe they all left when Dumbledore was gone.
"Professor Black," she stated as she walked past the large portrait.
"Snooping again, Miss Granger?" he replied.
"Excuse me?" she said after she finished reading the small note that she found addressed to her. It had asked her to look at the artifacts that were laid out on the table and was signed by Dumbledore.
"You heard me."
She ignored him and starting waving her wand over the objects, searching for warding spells and traces of magic. It took her nearly two hours to go through the items. When she found that nothing was harmful, she began tinkering around with the trinkets. None of them seemed especially intriguing; some looked like dark magic detectors, while others were everyday objects like stirring sticks for potions or pocket mirrors. She was writing her progress in her notebook when she heard the former headmaster say, "What did you think of the Grotto, Miss Granger?"
Her head snapped up, and she slammed her book shut. "How did you know about that?"
"I have my ways."
Snape, she thought bitterly. She hastily gathered her belongings, feeling suddenly uncomfortable--the silence of the room and his twisted humour was making the hairs on her neck stand on end.
"In a hurry? What a shame. Before you go though, I wanted to ask how your boyfriends are doing."
She was nearly at the fireplace and stopped. Why did he want to know that? She faced his painting. "Harry and Ron are my friends. And for your information, I don't have any boyfriends. And I don't want any."
"You promise?" he said, grinning. Then, he tilted his head back and laughed--a loud, malicious laugh. She even saw him wipe a tear from his eye.
Hermione's heart was racing, and her palms were sweaty. After having one of his portraits stuffed in her bag for nearly a year, she knew how he worked. He knew something about her and was amusing himself by asking her ridiculous questions. She returned to her private room, wondering what the hell Phineas Nigellus Black had found so damned humorous.
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i have just spent the last 3 days reading this, and i absolutely loved it!! So many twists and turns, it kept me thouroughly engrossed. I think you did a wonderful job with this. your plot is very strong, characterizations are great, and snark is top notch. Thank you for sharing. Kelly :)
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oh, kelly, thank you for spending the time with thi story. thank you for the wonderful review. so happy you enjoyed the adventure1 shell...
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oh, kelly, thank you for spending the time with thi story. thank you for the wonderful review. so happy you enjoyed the adventure1 shell...
Well i've re-read it. Bloody brilliant and I love the ending, I love a ending where I know that SS/HG will have a positive future together. Your a very talented writer. Please keep them coming. Wished I could give your more than 5 stars
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Thank you for taking the time to re-read this! Thank you so much for the review and the stars~
Unable to find the deleted scene--perhaps a link?
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http://shellsnapeluver.livejournal.com/19013.html#cutid1It should be there...
This ending is entirely satisfactory! Thank you so much for this amazing tale of redemption and resolution.You've written both Severus and Hermione true to character, and made both of them work like hell to maintain their faith in themselves and each other.Of course, Severus would have barred Hermione from visiting him in Azkaban. He'd made her promise to make a life for herself without him. The idea of tying her to him while he rotted away in prison was too painful to contemplate. And of course Hermione would try to keep her promise to him. But our Hermione wouldn't stand for him paying such a dear price for finding a way to defeat the Dark Lord. There is nothing so fearsome as a Gryffindor witch who wants her wizard. Kudos to her for earning her law degree and then using what she'd learned to clear him of those ridiculous murder charges. In less than two years they will be able to begin their happy life together, and isn't that what we all want for these amazing characters? I have loved reading every chapter, every word of this story. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for writing such a fabulous love story. I hope to see more stories from you in the future. Congratulations on a job well done! Beth
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Beth,I'm so glad you liked the ending! Thank you so much for all the wonderful reviews, I always looked forward to hearing from you. Many hugs and lots of luv.Shell~
Mwhahahahaaaaaaa! Great story.
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Thanks!!!
whoo, thank you, I read this with much joy.
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Thanks for reviewing and reading it!Shell~
Well SHell, I suppose you could always write an alternative ending as a one shot, just for those who need a dark ending to go with the dark plot. Seriously, he just goes soft. . . please, this dark and maniacal Severus dominated the story, and then he goes all Fluff. . . geeze woman!
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Hahha, I could... I don't think this is too fluffy, though. You might be the only one who wanted that darker ending (besides me), because no one is else speaking up! Hahahah.
Well done, Shell! Very nice ending to a great story! I find it interesting that you chose to make Ron and Harry friends with Severus, I never would have imagined that happening.I like that you had Hermione keep working on Snapes appeal, and that something Severus had deemed inconsiquential ended up working to his benefit. Very well done.Reed
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Yeah, H and R did that for Hermione's sake, to try, and they found out that they could be friends. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!
Thank you very much for the hopeful ending!
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You are welcome! Thanks for reading and reviewing!
That was a wonderful ending. You did a great job with that final chapter. I had no idea what to expect. I alternated between thinking she was dead and that she was Harry's new romance. I can't wait for your next story.
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Oh, good! I kept you guessing! LOL!I'm glad you likey! Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!Lots of luv!Shell~
Great! Thank you so much for writing such an amazing story! I enjoyed reading it. <3
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Awee, thank you!
Lovely ending, thank you for sharing!
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Thanks!!
It's over? But, but ... what will I read now? You're the only one that writes Severus this way. I love Severus, but I REALLY LOVE Severus the way you write him. He's sort of like the essence of, 'what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.' Everything that happened to him as a child and young adult seems to have forced him to be this way, just to survive.This is actually one of the few stories that I caught at the beginning [without playing catch up] and probably the story I have reviewed the most. I will definitely miss the all and powerful Snape; evil bastard extraordinaire. In case you're in doubt, I truly loved the story. Thanks!
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Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
,I'm grinning from ear to ear. Your words really warmed my heart, thank you for saying that. I love writing Severus like this because to me, that IS who he is. Sometimes evil, sometimes a lover, but always, always mysterious and I-will-always-keep-you-guessing. So, I'm really happy you like him too the way I write him. Thank you for reviewing as well! Lots of Luv and many hugs! Shell~
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shocked outbursts of ‘Shell, you’re EVIL’ have truly warmed my heart
Awww. And I think this says a lot about you, my dear! LOL!
Just as your death would’ve destroyed me, being aware that you were out there in the world, living a happy life without me, devastated me.
It is unhealthy and unjust for him to compare those things similarly, of course, but then, that is exactly what Snape thinks. And if we're honest, that's how many of us feel in the same situation, if someone we love leaves us behind and is happy in their new life while we still want them with us. And I think that's what you tapped into with this story -- those untold truths of human psychology, however dark and however much we would like to believe we're above them.
Great work. I'm very proud of you.
Author's Response: Squee!
I didn't realize I was tapping into those untold human truths! But, I'm glad I did, becasue the way you say it, sounds so awesome! LOL!
Thanks for all you did.
XOXOXO
Shell~
Wonderful ending. I loved it. Great job! I'm glad everything is working out for Hermione and Severus after all. ~Jen
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Oh, me too! I feel good about giving them a life in the future! Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!
I am so glad you finished this story. It sounds like you really struggled with how you wanted to end the fic. You are very talented, and I can not wait for the next one! :)
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Thank Livvy! Yes, I did struggle, but in the end, I owed it to all the loyal readers to give these two a good ending. Thank you so much! LoveShell~
Congratulations on a job well done, Shell! I nearly fell out of my chair when I saw that this was updated and finally finished. I love what you did with this and it couldn't have ended any better. It wasn't some ridiculous happily ever after. That would have felt inappropriate considering the tone of the story as a whole. But it made me happy that Ron and Harry and the twins were friendly with Severus. While I think it was only appropriate that he spend some time in Azkaban, I'd have hated to see him rotting away there by himself. And whether she thinks so or not, it really was good for Hermione to get away and make an attempt to move on so she can be sure that he is what she really wants.I had no idea what the new evidence would be, and was still surprised when I found out. But what a great moment to bring back up, because while I as a reader felt like he really was a good guy, despite some of his previous actions, it was nice to be reminded that he really did do some good things throughout, even if sometimes misguided.Thanks for sharing such a fantastic story with us. And a special thanks for forcing me to read this. Yes, I started out reading through squinty eyes, but you held my hand and dragged me on through and I couldn't be happier about it. You've done a fantastic job and I hope to see more from you in the future!
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Thank you so much! Yes, it was very good of Hermione to get away, go into another world and really test her love, because now she knows for sure. I'm so glad I surprised you with the new evidence! I was hoping someone would say so, so thanks. See now, I told you it was going somewhere, even if it did start off really dark... LOL! Thank you for reviewing.*hugs*
You managed a HEA! Kuddos. I loved that story, from beginning to end.
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
LOL. Thank you so much for reading this! Massive Hugs!
Hey, this story is listed as "Completed: Yes" -- where's that last chapter????
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
It is still in queue--they are taking longer than usual, but it should be posted here in next few days. Lol, sorry!
Response from June W (Reviewer)
You know your story is good when you have stalkers begging for updates.
What is Severus up to now? I was afraid he could not be trusted.
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Lol, just keep reading!! thanks~
They definitely know how to have an adventure.
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Oh, yeah! I love writing action-packed adventures!
I can see that Snape is trying to be kind to Hermione but I don't know if I trust him.
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
Trust is a hard thing to come by, hopefully he will earn it from you.
A trip to egypt, that does sound like fun. I wonder how Hermione will react to flying with Severus. I thing it sounds like tons of fun.
Response from shellsnapeluver (Author of Consuming Me)
I think flying with him would be awesome! lol!