43: 9/19/1996
Chapter 43 of 47
Fawkes_07Hermione lets Snape in on her little secret.
ReviewedA/N: Thanks to Vorona for beta-ing this chapter for me, ages ago, (while I was still posting chapters in the teens) and helping me balance sexy vs. scientific on the Legilimency!
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She was shopping with her mother. He remembered the outing; he'd checked it during that first time through her memories, but he hadn't seen anything out of the ordinary. She'd hidden it expertly. Well, well, a shopping trip. Snape loved her sense of humor, but he would make her pay for this.
He was sure she'd tricked him into a gentleman's worst nightmare, namely hours of prodding through rack after rack of clothing without any actual purchases. It was a pleasant surprise to find that the trip was already over. Hermione and her mother boarded a trolley of some sort, bumping and jostling their way home to a nondescript row house with nasturtiums overflowing from the window boxes. He wondered if she had grown up in this house, and though he normally had no interest in such places, he absorbed as many details as he could from the fleeting glimpse of the exterior, just because it was her home.
She took leave of her mother and dashed up to her bedroom with a few small bags. One of them was labeled with a bookstore's logo; he wondered if perhaps she intended to read to him in this way. To his brief disappointment, that bag and others were tossed (carefully) onto her bureau and abandoned, except for one with a twisted paper handle that presumably came from some Muggle department store. She then pulled open her closet to reveal a full length mirror.
Though he was not fully grounded in his own mind and body, Snape reflexively raised his brows with a snide grin. So she intended to show him some new outfit? This could be interesting... to the point of being painful. He both hoped and dreaded that it would be a swimming suit. Oh, you'll definitely pay for this, he thought, and again her mind sparkled with laughter.
At that moment in the memory, Hermione closed her eyes. With nothing to see or hear, the memory became tactile in nature. Physical sensation was tricky in Legilimency; there were too many nerve endings feeding information to the brain at all times, even in silence and darkness. It weeded out nearly 99% of what it received automatically, never letting it register to the consciousness, but all the information was there, in a murky amalgam of distracting signals.
It took all of Snape's concentration to determine that she removed something slick from the dry paper bag. It was soft and thin like a handkerchief, but far too large--perhaps a shirt of some sort. Women's clothing was even more incomprehensible than men's, so Snape resigned himself to wait until she was ready to show him. When her eyes opened, she chuckled nervously and locked her bedroom door, then stepped in front of the mirror.
"Hello, Severus," she said, but he hardly noticed the words, too stunned by her reflection. She was wearing a green... something, absolutely Muggle in origin. It resembled nothing he'd ever seen in the wizarding world, not even on Knockturn Alley. Far too thin and tight to be a shirt, entirely impractical as a nightgown; its function, as far as he could tell, was to drive men utterly out of their minds.
"It's mid July," she continued. "I haven't seen you in weeks. I've been thinking about you, though."
She began to turn slowly before the mirror, peering at her reflection with a critical eye. "Do you like it, Severus? It struck me as something you'd like. Mum wasn't exactly thrilled to see me buy it, but she'll recover." She giggled mischievously, which caused the fabric to ripple in fascinating ways. "I like it. I never thought I'd buy something so impractical, you know. Rather like a ball gown, but worse--outrageously overpriced and you only wear it once in a great while." She giggled again, smoothing the microscopic skirt over her thighs.
"My roommates always look silly in that drafty old castle wearing thin little nighties like this. They end up shivering and hiding under blankets most of the time! Hardly the effect they were trying to achieve when they put them on. But there is a certain appeal to it, isn't there? Under the right circumstances, at least." She smiled wickedly, reaching up to stroke her hair and collect the few stray strands from her face. Raising her arms made the fabric pull taut in a number of fascinating places.
"I suppose if I wore something like this every day, it would become dull," she continued, again twisting her body to display every angle, every curve. "But when I saw it, I thought, 'I could wear that just for Severus.' And if it was chilly, I reckoned you'd let me warm up against you." She winked with yet another impish grin.
Hermione straightened before the mirror, took a deep breath, and let it out slowly. "Severus." She placed both hands on the green fabric over her abdomen. Snape could watch, but not feel; the visual portion of the memory overwhelmed the weak tactile component. Which was, in Snape's current situation, tragically unfortunate. "I couldn't do this in front of you, I'd feel far too self-conscious." Hermione's eyes narrowed in the mirror. Her gaze was fixed on him... no, on her own eyes in her reflection. When he dared look away from her eyes, he found her hands gliding over her body, making the not-dress shimmer over the barely-concealed curves.
Her hands skimmed upward over the silk until the warm weight of a breast rested on each forefinger. She pursed her lips nervously and giggled. "I'm a bit embarrassed now, just knowing you'll be seeing it someday. But I do want you to see it." Hermione cleared her throat and her gaze suddenly flew to the ceiling. She sighed again and returned to the mirror, nipping her lower lip as if steadying her resolve.
Her eyes fell mercifully shut as she deliberately raised her hands up and around, and though Snape already knew what sensations to expect from her fingertips, he was overwhelmed by the exotic pangs produced by her body at the touch of those fingers.
"I've been studying, Severus," she said, her voice deeper, more breathless, her hands continuing their climb to reach into her hair once more. "I bought some books on Occlumency and Obliviation. Of course, I won't know for sure until I get back to Hogwarts, but I think I can hide this memory from you. If all goes as planned, then you won't see this memory until I've proven to you that I've become an Occlumens."
She took a step closer to the mirror. "You insisted that we hold back, Severus, until I could hide my memories. Well, now I've done it! Any other excuses up your sleeve?"
She grinned again, devilishly confident. "Just a rhetorical question, no need to remind me. The age-of-consent issue; I haven't forgotten. But I have good news for you, Severus. If all goes as planned, you will see this memory on Thursday, September 19. Not a particularly significant date in history, to be sure, but quite relevant to this memory. You see, that will be my seventeenth birthday."
Sweet mother of Merlin!
"Severus," she sighed, her breath briefly condensing on the mirror. "Are you ready? Do you want me?" Her voice dropped a major third. "I want you, Severus. I want you to touch me. Just like this." Once again her eyes fell shut as her hands dipped low this time, slipping below the edge of the silk onto the even softer thigh. When they traveled back up underneath the fabric, Snape caught his breath as, once again, he reeled under the delectable response of her body.
Once again her eyes opened, wrenching him from the tactile world to the visual. She twisted her body before the mirror again, making the microscopic skirt flare out to reveal just a tantalizing bit more of the woman beneath it. "I want to touch you. I want you. I'm so ready for you, Severus! Don't deny me any longer! Be my lover. Give yourself to me. Touch me. Take me."
And then he was standing in his office, those same smoldering eyes were but inches away, and he could feel the heat of her body, her breath, her desire, and in the same voice he'd just left in her memory, she said, "Tonight, Severus. Now."
His wand dropped to the floor, forgotten, as he pulled her into his arms. He managed to gasp, "Now," before they both dove into a kiss and the time for language was ended.
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I've warned you that i will continue to harrass you about finishing this story until my dying day. And i always keep my word. Hope you are still around, that all is well for you, and that this story remains on your eternal to do list.
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Sigh. It is. It really is. I need a time machine.
Hello again! I don't know if you are even still around, but reading the rest of this story is on my bucket list, so while I still have breath in me, I shall continue to nudge you toward writing. Hope all is well with you and yours.
SPOILER Warning******In case someone has gone this many years without getting through the last book in the series****************************I hope this new turn in their relationship keeps her from wishing she could just hold hands with someone and walk around the lake. She's had a man now. I can't imagine, at least I hope she doesn't go back to boys. What are you going to do about the Ron thing? She can't go with Ron now. It would would be too mean to Severus! I hope she understands when Albus is killed. Poor Severus! There. Again I'm saying it! I don't mind his sacrifices if I know he will be rewarded with the love he deserves for what he has had to pay to rid the world of Tom Riddle. I hope you work this out so that he doesn't suffer at the end and you'd better not kill him off like the witch who kills small beloved pets like owls, and sweet dear magical creatures like house elves protecting their loved one, cruelly rends twins assunder with one on this side alone without his other half and the other one on the opposite side of the vale tellikng jokes without punch lines! Please tell me you will not follow that part of cannon. You are already forcing Severus to do things I don't know if Hermione can forgive him for. She must forgive him though.When are you going to work on this story some more? Do you know? Are you planing to finish this story or did the last cannon book kill your joy when she killed off our Potions Master in an incredibly un-Severus Snap like end. ....As if the Potions Master of all masters wouldn't have antivenin.
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
You know, it's funny... DH actually kind of DID kill off a lot of my motivation to keep writing fanfic, even though I never really thought of it that way until just now. I wrote my own Book 7 for my kids--HP and the Heirs of Slytherin, it's here on TPP--starting in about 2006, just because I KNEW JKR was going to blow it. I just knew I wouldn't like her book 7. A lot of these fics kind of spun off during the process of writing HoS, including Fair Exchanges. HoS has a lot of legilimency/occlumency in it, and Hermione asks Harry not to look at her dreams. That sparked this story... Anyway, once I finished HoS, I kinda moved on to other projects and my unfinished fics have been sort of waiting on the vine for me. I know how they all end, and some of them are just a few chapters from complete. But part of the trouble with Fair Exchanges is that I hate DH so much I have no desire to read it carefully enough to make Fair Ex canon-compliant. It can't even be HoS compliant, because my alt. universe has even more trouble ahead for Snape. If it's any comfort, though, the last two chapters of this story were written LONG ago, and it wraps up the story in a way I really liked. I posted them on some other ff sites, if you want to go hunting for them. I kept them off TPP, though, because I wanted to post the whole thing properly here.
She is being a normal girl, unfortunately for Severus. Severus Snape requires a remarkable woman. Strong, forgiving, able to make her own happiness most of the time and able to consistantly see past the Death Eater Double Spy. He needssomeone who wants him especially because he isn't like any other man on earth. And he needs someone older than Hermione. I would be thinking just exactly what she is thinking. He is looking for a life time commitment. She just isn't there yet. I don't se how this can end well for either of them unless you figure out a way to turn cannon around soon. I hate the way things turned out in the cannon. She ruined everything! I can't stand it. I hope you can salvage this back story so that it comes out much better than the original. Severus deserves better. I hate feeling sorry for Snape, damn it! I want him to show them all. I want him to end up with the best end of any stick.
Poor Severus. I wish she'd run off to Polynesia with him. I hope she's worth it in the end. She has no real idea what he faces here. They are living in the moment when they see each other. He knows more about her than she knows about him. There is so much more to him than there is to Hermione at this point in her life. How old is she, 15 or 16? Well, at least he can have someone pure. I hope she never asks about his other lovers. I don't think she is ready for the answer. I'm not sure I'd be ready for the Centaura. And we know that in his youth he willingly committed rape in this story, though he reqrets it now. I don't know that Hermione could really handle that knowledge. She might be able to handle the idea that he had possibly been forced to do it, but not with certainty that he had ever willingly done it. He's so screwed is she ever finds out all the things he has to do, unless she is a very unusual individual and not very judgemental. I hope for his sake she is as remarkable as he thinks she is.
Hello! I think Draco just passed out! What do you do with this lie. How to explain that 2 men who appeared to absolutely despise one another were lovers on the low down. Would Draco even fall for that? I don't think he has been present at the OP meetings to observed the apparent mutual hatred. Draco doesn't know how much the murrauders stalked and abused poor Severus. Maybe he'll fall fore it. Poor boy wil be manipulated by the Uncle he trustes. That must taste like shit to Severus.
And Hermione can't know about Draco! She would not understand.
Severus Snape is the most adept spie of all the world if he pulls this off. He must feel like he can never get clean from lying regulary to those few who trust him, beastiality, cheeting on his overly homornal girlfriend that he shouldn't be with, but amazingly they actually love each other and trust each other. Now, add buggery in order to manipulate his godson. He must keep Hermione and Draco apart. And what would the dark lord or Albus Dumblebutt have to say about all of this distasteful activity. Dude, when this is all over you are going to need some serious counceling!
OK. What should he do now? I say, let the twirp kiss you so that you can get on his good side and find out his secrets. Hey! It's a dog eat dog world out there right now. Just hope that Hermione doens't find out you cheated on her with 4 Centaras and her worst enemy at the school and all in the same week. It's a fine edge you tread, poor Severus. I actually feel sorry for you.
Lucky in many ways it seems, our Severus. The Dark Lord needed a laugh. Oooooo, let a name slip in there that starts with an H. So who actually rescued the toad in the forest after all? Make up any answer you like. I had assumed it was Albus. But why he would bother is beyond me. Does Severus have to go back to fetch her?
So! Our dear potions master is hung like a stallion! Well of couse he is! Those naughty girls. It's a good thing Hermione doesn't know. And, isn't he terrified of being caught in the act by the stallions while making love to the mares? I'm sure they would kill him. I'm glad he gets some small reward for his hard work protecting Harry. It really is too bad they didn't kill Umbridge. I know Jkr needs her later in the story. I hope she has permanent damage though.
There's no way that will happen under these circumstances. I don't believe it. Girls need a mood or something to get then started.
Don't worry Hermione, dear. After you've been married for more than 3 decades you actually will grow together down there from lack of use. You see, the little man is victim to depression, high blood pressure, diabetes and sundry medications for said infirmities, but eventually this will only spark a sense of resigned bitterness. Dreams though few and far between will be a welcomed relief. So cry no more dear girl and by the gods grab him while you can! Perhaps in your world magic will make these things not so. If that is the case, get over it you silly girl. He must truly be desperate to put up with this. You all must be. I was quite emotional the first 20 years. It was dreadful! Now I am resigned to the fact that what ever you were fighting about the first 2 years are the same things you will be fighting about in 10 years until eventually you just look at him and shake your head. Put up with it or try to train a new one. Here is the most important thing you will ever know. They cannot be trained. Don't waste your time.
I love, "like a raisin through a guinea pig"! I take it you speak from experience based on your picture of Mr. Flibbert, I believe his name was. One of the things that annoyed the hell out of me in the movie version of TGoF was the hormonal Hermione whining and bitching in her high pitched self righteous girl BS. I think she was pissed off just like in this chapter for the entire movie. I realize it is true to life but it is still annoying. I have two drama queens of my own and it doesn't get better when they grow up. I am grateful for grandsons. They are loud and every game requires growling and yelling and running in the house, not to mention accidentally bumping into each other on purpose etc. but I am looking forward to much less drama as when they reach puberty. I look also look forward to Hermione in this story finishing her O.L.W.S. I'm hyper-sensitive from PTSD after raising two daughters.
Here it is 2014 and still no end in sight. Please finish this, it is too good and to frustrating to stop here,
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Sigh... I know. I really would like to finish it someday. Too many projects, not enough time!
You do know that as long as this story sits unfinished, I am going to pop in periodically and bug you, right? Now I am not pressuring you. I know that real life can be a bitch. All I'm saying is that I probably have a good fifty years left in me, and I am going to continue to encourage you until I take my last breath. Oh, but please don't wait that long as I do want to read the end, lol.
Hi Fawkes_07, I have enjoyed this so much! It is of course beautifully written and plotted. I think you've captured all the characters quite well. The sense of humor in this story is wonderful and was a great surprise. Love the interactions between H and Severus, and also between Severus & Draco. I see that it has been some years since you've updated. Please, please don't abandon this story! Happy writing!
Ah, I remember following this story every week. It's a shame RL got in the way and it's gone 3 years-ish without an update. I hope you're doing well and come back to it some day. Thank you for the wonderful half-fic, for what it's worth :)
What the what?? I followed you over from MNFF to see what I'd missed, holy mess!!!! I LOVE this story, it constantly shocks me!!
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
LOL, yeah, MNFF had an issue with the human/centaur thing. Glad you're enjoying it... I hope to finish it someday if I ever get my life back.
wow, this story just gets creepier and creepier, in the most interesting and hilarious way possible. this has to be the best story i have ever read on any fanfiction site. u are an awesome writer; i have never laughed this much at a story. i now see why mnff just couldnt bear it, lol, way too many disturbing things. i just got used to the thought of draco being a sex god in other stories, now u make him gay! bwahahaha, talk about a monkeywrench. im sad snape gave that 16-year-old release to the mares. i wished my girl hermione had gotten a piece of that. now that would have been fun to read and write, im sure, hehe. again, u are brilliant!
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
<laughs> Wow, glad you're enjoying it! Yeah, MNFF drew the line at the "bestiality" elements (though they don't seem to mind human/werewolf and human/veela). Eh, whatever.Hadn't thought of the 16-year gap ending with the ponies... I guess this is sort of a tragic story, huh?
More Please!?!?!? I so like how this story is going. Love the HG/SS relationship. I so can not wait for more.
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Sigh... I know. I really do intend to finish it, and the funniest stuff is yet to come. You just would not believe the times I've had the past couple years--broken ribs, my mom passed away, a new nonprofit opened in town and begged me to write their grants... I don't even READ fanfic any more, much less write it. But someday things will settle down.
I tried to read this story when I was 16 years of age, back then I could barely read English (not my first language) and I had to consult the dictionary every 3 minutes or so but I do remember little bits of it... This amazing first chapter for example. It's so well written and so true to the characters. It's a pleasure to be able to read it again.
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Wow! That's so cool! I'm glad you liked it well enough to come back to it! Thanks!
Aww, Snape's going to be a father. *snickers*
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Not after he gets that potion ready...
The age of consent in the UK is 16 not to mention the use of the Time-Turner so she's actually almost two years older than her peers. She could've consented before.
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Hmm, I suppose so. But she used the date to such a fine advantage... had to go with it.
You are a wonderful writer, and I always look forward to reading more of your story. This is byfar my favorite Snape/Hermione fanfic ever. I thank you soooo much for updating! I love love love everything about it! Are you though, planning to go canon and kill him off in the end, or will I have to wait and see? You make my week!
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Heh, well, I don't like to give out spoilers but I'll just say I don't consider DH as part of canon. So that may answer your question...
I went back and reread the last chapter to refresh the story in my brain. It has been a damn long time woman! Come back to the potterverse! We miss you. Im all sorts of confused about H's trouble in potions. Whatever could it be?
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
Herms was totally upstaged by Harry in potions that year, on account of Harry having the HBP's potion text. She was pretty po'd about that--but she can't tell Snape or that would ruin Harry's surprise. But I think it's funny that she would be in such a good position to blow Harry's scheme out of the water...
ROFLMAO! Oohhhh noooo. Snape, you silly man. I was afraid something like this would happen. Can wizards and centaur breed with each other?! You really do love torturing Snape. It's a fun kind of torture, though.
Response from Fawkes_07 (Author of Fair Exchanges)
*snerk* It IS fun to torture old Sev. Maybe Voldy thinks so too, I dunno.