Draco's Mistake
You Can't Have One Without The Other
Chapter 15 of 31
RachelWDraco makes an error in judgement. (this is part one of the chapter, which turned out to be too long to fit in one chapter).
ReviewedBig thanks to my beta, Nakhash Mekashefah. This chapter is part one.
And, for posting here at the Petulant Poetess, I'd like to thank my readers...yes, both of you.
Severus stirred the simmering cauldron thrice before moving away from his personal worktable to stalk through his classroom. It was his seventh year class, and all were busy with their projects. Hermione was still ignoring him. They were due to perform their 'marital requirements' that night, and she was also due to take her monthly potion, which was what was simmering on his worktable. Perhaps, he mused, he should take some time with her tonight; give her a reminder of what she was missing.
"Mr. Zabini, are you not supposed to be brewing the Property Binding potion?" he asked.
"Yes sir," the stringy young man answered.
"Then what, is that?"
"Um...the Property Binding potion?"
"I see after seven years in my class, you still cannot answer a question appropriately." Snape reached out, taking the ladle from Mr. Zabini and allowing the substance to fall back into the cauldron. "Tell me, what colour should this potion be?"
"Um...purple...sir."
"This is a most creative rendition of the colour purple, is it not?"
Zabini just clenched his jaw and waited, not saying anything.
"In fact...it is such a creative version of the colour purple, that some would even say it was...orange." Snape dropped the ladle in the potion, pointed his wand and muttered "Evanesco." He fixed the young man with a glare and said, "Three feet of parchment due Monday on the correct brewing procedures of the binding potion, as well as an analysis of what could possibly result in an orange potion, Mr. Zabini."
Snape stalked back to the second row, checking on the various potions in progress. For the most part, everyone had brewed their potions adequately. He reached Malfoy, whose potion was perfect, and started to move past him, but stopped when the boy looked at him, a haughty smirk on his face. Snape glared at him suspiciously. Malfoy had grown more and more confident over the last month. Snape wished he could simply get rid of him. He moved on to the back row and glared down at Harry Potter's cauldron.
"Mr. Potter, I wonder if remedial Potions would be in order for you...again...this term," he said. "Evanesco," he muttered, causing Potter's potion to disappear. Potter glared at him angrily, and Snape sneered back at him, daring him to say something. "Five feet of parchment, Mr. Potter, on the properties of the Dragon's Breath potion, due on Monday, and five points from Gryffindor."
Hermione stiffened slightly as he moved in front of her desk and looked down at her potion. It was, as always, perfect. "I need you to remain after class," he said lowly. He waited for a response, but received none, and so he continued on, then back to the front of the class where he added another ingredient to the contraceptive potion and stirred.
The bell rang ten minutes later, and his students packed their things. They already had their assignment for the weekend. Hermione remained behind, but made no effort to initiate conversation.
"Come here...I've completed your contraceptive potion, you may as well take your dose now."
Hermione got up and walked to the front of the classroom, where she took the proffered phial and tipped its contents back, swallowing thickly. Severus watched her, waiting for any sign she was going to say something, but she merely handed the phial back to him and turned to leave. He reached out, placing a hand on her shoulder, and moved forward, pressing against her body.
"Hermione," he whispered in her ear, "there's no need for this." His hands roamed down her body, moving down, then across her abdomen, pulling her back against himself. He heard her breath hitch, and he nibbled her ear. "Are you afraid of me now?" he questioned in a soft whisper.
"No...I'm not," Hermione said. "I just don't want..." she trailed off as his lips found that spot just under her ear. "What happened to treating me as a student in the classroom?" she demanded.
"Class isn't in session now," he reasoned, and then resumed nuzzling her neck, her hair tickled his nose. He ignored the fact that it did feel decidedly odd to touch her in the classroom while she was dressed as a student. He'd spent so many years ignoring students in that way. Still, she was his Hermione, his wife, under her robes. "You will come back to my bed, Hermione. I know you want to; I know you're just as tired of this act as I am."
"Not until you can make some compromises." She stepped away from him, back held straight as she walked towards the classroom door.
"I have the recipe for the potion here...and it will be in the workroom adjacent to the living room. I do believe there are enough ingredients for a large batch...perhaps even sixty doses," he said before she could get too far. She stopped and turned back at him, a look of surprise on her face. It was time to begin negotiating. A full month of silence, glares, and pouting...and nearly no sex, was enough. She was obviously stubborn enough that she wasn't going to take the first step in returning to him, and so it would be up to him to make that first step.
"Why?" she asked him after a moment.
"Surely, you should know that the thought of dozens of women becoming pregnant because of the Ministry's laws, when a solution is easily available, would be undesirable. Be careful...while it is not strictly contraband, it wouldn't do to be caught."
Hermione gave him a single nod and then left. Severus watched her go, glad, at least, that she hadn't simply ignored him. When he had started his plan of punishing her, he hadn't thought she would be so stubborn. He'd also begun to wonder what it was about her that made her so reluctant to give in...she had been doing so well, before. Perhaps, he thought, she was trying to make some point with her stubbornness. He knew he affected her...during their copulation the previous week she hadn't been able to keep from grasping at his shoulders, wrapping her legs about his hips as he thrust into her...it was brief, and he had seen her agitation and disappointment when he pulled away. She was frustrated...in more than one way. He wondered if she'd begun taking care of herself in that department.
Severus put away the last of the supplies and then scanned the classroom for anything out of place before placing his grade book back into the top drawer of his desk. It was time for lunch, and on Fridays he didn't have any classes after noon. He would have been looking forward to spending the weekend with Hermione wrapped around him...and he wondered again if he was going about convincing her to submit to him in the best way. Still, he was agitated with her. He'd been quite clear about what he wanted...what he required of her; there should have been no room for misinterpretation on her part, even considering what she thought she'd found. He knew that most importantly, he couldn't give in...whatever occurred now between them would set the stage for the rest of their relationship...this was the time to be firm.
Just as he was about to lock up the classroom, he felt a tingling in his wand...it was the signal he had set up with Hermione's amulet to alert him if she was in danger. He cursed as he realised she had left alone; he should have made her wait until he was ready to leave, as well. With haste, he snapped the wand from his sleeve and rushed from the classroom at a near run, his wand acting as a guide to point him in the direction she was.
*****
Hermione left the classroom trying to ignore the arousal she felt. It was a weakness that she enjoyed his touch so much, that she longed to return to being with him in his bed. She wasn't going to allow her body's urges to dictate her decisions, though. Besides, if she gave in now, she knew that he would think her a pushover...she knew it was best to set her limits now, to make a point now, because it would make a difference on how things worked between them for the rest of their lives.
Hermione was surprised that he'd made such an offer on helping with the other women trapped in forced marriages. The support group had discussed birth control methods at the last meeting; Treva had suggested they start on something practical while they got to know one another and developed a rapport. There was another meeting set with the smaller sub-group that Hermione was going to be in, that weekend, which was composed of a good number of the women who had married friends or acquaintances to avoid a possibly worse marriage.
Actually, several of the women had already solved the problem through Muggle methods. Many of them were in marriages of convenience (or as convenient as you could get under the circumstances) and their spouses weren't opposed to using condoms to prevent pregnancy. However, one woman had tried that route and had discovered a latex allergy, making that method impossible. Still, condoms were faulty; they could slip, or leak. And so, it would be best to use a good birth-control potion. And although she didn't need to depend on him, the ingredients were hard to find. It had been very nice of him to offer...so she would go to the meeting tomorrow loaded down with contraceptive potions.
As Hermione rounded the corner to the corridor leading to the stairs to go to lunch, she was grabbed and knocked against the wall. Her head hit the stone with a dull thud, and she was stunned into immobility for a few seconds.
"Finally you're brave enough, or stupid enough, to walk alone, Mudblood," Draco Malfoy spat. "Think you're so smart, do you...marrying that traitor to get away from me and my father?"
"Get off me!" Hermione shouted and kicked at him, attempting to use her knee to connect with someplace sensitive, but he was too close to her, she couldn't get at him. She pushed and fought for a moment, before he shook her, slamming her head against the wall of the dungeon again.
"You should learn your place...I thought Snape would put you in your place. I had a chance to find some old memories back home over the holiday that my father had put away. Turns out Snape and my father used to share their playthings. He likes it rough...maybe you like that...do you, Mudblood?"
Hermione's eyes widened at his words before she tried striking out at him again, but he was too strong. He was taller than her by a good six inches, and years of playing Quidditch had left him with a strong, lean body...which he was now pressing up against her. She felt sick as she felt his erection straining against her abdomen, and saw the cruel gleam in his eye.
"I want my father to have a chance to get you...but why should I pass up the opportunity when it's right here in front of me? That traitor Snape isn't here to protect you now."
Hermione renewed her struggles, somehow managing to wrench an arm free. She got hold of her wand, not even pulling it from her robes but merely grabbing the handle in her pocket, and blasted Malfoy with 'Stupefy'. She gasped to regain her breath, pulling her wand from her robes and pointing it down at the prone form of Draco Malfoy. She then saw a great black shape moving swiftly down the dimly lit corridor...it was Severus.
The spell hadn't been very strong because it wasn't aimed squarely at Malfoy. He was merely stunned, and was trying to rise from the floor just as Snape swept down upon him, grabbed him by the front of his robes and hefted him up against the dungeon wall.
"How dare you touch her!" Severus bellowed. He then pointed his wand and muttered a spell; Hermione jumped as she heard Malfoy's high-pitched shriek of pain, as Severus alternately muttered hexes and slammed him repeatedly against the wall.
"Wait! Stop!" Hermione yelled, rushing up to them. She just knew Severus was going to kill Malfoy...she'd never seen him like that...his lips were pulled back from his teeth in a snarl and he radiated fury. "Stop!" Hermione repeated. "Severus...you can't...don't...we should call the Aurors," Hermione said. Somehow cool reasoning had taken over and she realised that, despite the circumstances, Severus would be in deep trouble for killing a student.
She waited for several tense seconds as Severus stiffly resisted pummeling the shaking youth. He then turned to her, taking her appearance in with a sweeping glance over her form.
"Did he hurt you?" he finally asked.
"I'll be fine...it's nothing serious," Hermione answered. Her head throbbed where he'd slammed her against the wall and her arms and shoulders burned, but it was barely noticeable in the rush of adrenaline.
"Go wait in our quarters," he snapped and then pulled Malfoy away from the wall and began dragging him down the corridor, heading for the entrance hall.
"No...I'm coming with you. If you're going to call the Aurors then I should be there...I'm the one he was trying to hurt."
Severus turned and regarded her, his eyebrows drawn together as he scowled at her, then his face relaxed and he nodded slightly. "Very well then, come along."
Malfoy tried begging and pleading as he was dragged to the Headmaster's office, but it was to no avail, as Severus ignored him completely. Groups of students on their way to lunch stopped and stared, wide-eyed at them. Malfoy stumbled and tripped up the steps to Dumbledore's office, as Severus wouldn't release him, instead dragging him practically sideways; he had no option but to try and keep up.
Dumbledore looked up as the three entered his office, and Severus threw the boy in a chair, casting a spell to bind him with magical ropes to it.
"He attacked Hermione," Severus spat as explanation. "Luckily for him, she insisted we call the Aurors. I don't know what possessed him to do this. Tell me boy, you've never been that stupid, why?"
Dumbledore looked sternly at the blond young man, who was now darting his eyes around at the three of them nervously. The Headmaster then rose from his chair and walked with purpose to the Floo, tossing in a handful of Floo powder. Hermione felt weak, and suddenly the office rushed around her as she sank to the floor, barely hearing or seeing anything. She was caught by strong arms and then lifted and placed in a nearby chair. She opened her eyes to see Severus looking at her closely.
"You should go to the hospital wing," he said intently. "Where are you hurt?"
"Um...my head," Hermione answered, her voice sounding far away.
"Headmaster, I will be in the hospital wing with Hermione," he said, not looking at the older man who nodded his assent as he rose from the fireplace. He began to lift Hermione, but she stopped him.
"No...I can walk," she protested.
Despite her protest, Severus did insist on supporting her as she walked down the stairs and to the hospital wing, glaring at any student who looked at them in confusion as he walked through the entrance hall, which was filled with students mingling as they made their way to lunch. He stayed quiet, still churning with anger. One small mistake...one small lapse in vigilance...one small distraction had led to this. He cursed himself for his folly...it was his duty to protect her and had it not been for the amulet he had given her, it could have been much worse. He wanted to kill Malfoy...but he was thankful for Hermione's cooler head. Had he killed him, he would have ended up in Azkaban...teachers did not kill their students. However, Malfoy wouldn't be his student much longer. There was at least some good in the situation; he was going to move to expel him now that he finally had a concrete reason.
They arrived at the hospital wing, Severus walking slowly as Hermione's steps became slower. Once inside, Pomfrey rushed over, asking what was wrong.
"She was assaulted by Malfoy in the dungeon corridor...she is experiencing head pain."
"Well then, get her over here," Pomfrey instructed, bustling beside the young witch who was now pale and sweating.
Severus eased her down on a nearby cot, watching her closely. He surmised, from her pallor and the way her eyes tracked around, that she might have a concussion, and he cursed himself again for not thinking of her when he came upon her. He had been so focused on Malfoy that he had barely given her a second glance. She was standing upright, and so he had assumed she wasn't too badly hurt. She was probably just riding the adrenaline.
Hermione watched him with a confused look as Pomfrey cast several diagnostic charms and then instructed her to remove her outer robe. Slowly, she complied, and saw Severus's eyes track to her upper arms. She looked down and saw the bruises, slowly darkening, where Malfoy had held her.
"She has a concussion and a few bruises. I have a potion for the concussion," Pomfrey said in her clipped tone and then walked away, returning with a phial. "Drink this, Miss Granger," she said, not realising her mistake in names.
Severus scowled at her but said nothing, as Pomfrey checked Hermione over, using several incantations to check for further damage.
"I'll need for her to stay here for the next hour, then you can take her back to your quarters if her condition doesn't worsen. She'll need to rest, but it would be best for her to remain upright, just in case. Observe her for signs of dizziness, and make sure she doesn't move around too much. Is that understood?" she demanded sternly, giving Professor Snape a no-nonsense look.
"Yes," he muttered.
"I'll be down to check on her tomorrow, and she may need to be excused from her classes Monday, as well." Pomfrey bustled off to fill out some forms, and after several moments, Headmaster Dumbledore entered the hospital wing, followed closely by two wizards in Aurors' robes. One was Kingsley Shacklebolt.
They were informed that Draco Malfoy had been taken into custody for assault, and was being treated for his injuries at St. Mungo's before being taken to a holding facility at the Ministry of Magic. They took a brief statement from Hermione, but as she was feeling dizzy, Severus insisted they could continue with that at a later time when she was feeling better. He then answered their questions and gave his own statement.
After just over an hour, the Aurors left. Hermione had dozed a bit, propped up on about four pillows, as they had talked quietly just outside. When Severus returned to her, she sat up.
"Madam Pomfrey says I don't have to stay here."
"Come then, I will walk back with you," Severus said, reaching out a hand to help her up. Hermione looked at him a moment and then took his hand, walking with him slowly to the dungeons.
Hermione thought over what had just happened; she still felt dizzy and her thoughts were muddled. She realised that Severus could truly be scary. When he'd attacked Malfoy, she'd seen pure rage...it reminded her of the time near the end of her third year when he'd been so angry when Sirius Black had escaped...it scared her that he was capable of such violence, such rage. And this was the man she supposedly should trust not to harm her in such dangerous games? However, his arm supporting hers was firm, his stride slow and measured to match her own. He said nothing, but she was aware of his scrutiny as they descended the stairs.
*****
Severus placed the tray of food on the side table next to the couch. She had made a trip to the loo, but otherwise had remained on the couch, pretending to read a book for the last several hours. Dumbledore had come to their quarters to discuss the incident and had then left them alone. "You should eat," he said. He watched her as she looked over to the tray; he'd chosen light food for her: a broth soup and bread. Having had a few concussions over the years, he knew she wouldn't feel like eating much.
"Severus...it's Friday..." she said. "We have to..."
"Yes, it is. You've a concussion, though," he said, scowling at her preposterous suggestion. She could barely walk a straight line or move without wincing. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I have some potions to brew. I'll be in my workroom, the doors will remain open. If you need anything, call me," he instructed. Just before he turned to leave, there was a knock on the door, and he went to answer it.
He scowled down at Ginny Weasley, Harry Potter, and Ron Weasley.
"We heard what happened," Harry said, "and came to see if Hermione is okay." The three stood their ground warily, trying to affect a firm, yet respectful tone. Severus thought a moment, Hermione was in the living room, not her room, but it wouldn't be good to move her.
"Enter," he finally conceded. With wide eyes, the three walked in. "Touch nothing. If Hermione is too tired, show yourselves out. I will be in the next room, understood?" He glared as the three nodded their assent and then he turned to Hermione, who was giving him an amused smile. He scowled at her and then left to brew the large batch of contraceptive potion. He was only doing it because Hermione couldn't at the moment, he reasoned. She wouldn't be able to go to the support group meeting, either, and so he resolved to owl her partner in the endeavour to distribute the potions to any who had not found birth control through other means. And perhaps, if Hermione saw that he was willing to help her out in certain things, she might be more willing to put aside her current silliness and get back into his bed where she belonged.
*****
Hermione smiled at her friends as they walked in. Ginny sat beside her on the couch, and Harry and Ron took the two green wingback chairs perpendicular to the couch. They looked rather uncomfortable, sitting stiffly and looking around warily. They'd only ever been in her room when visiting, which was quite different. The living room held no trace of her influence, and was a nearly clichéd masculine library in style, all leather and wood and ancient tomes.
"Hermione...I'm really sorry, I should have waited for you after Potions class," Harry said guiltily after a moment.
"It's okay, Harry...I'm fine. Besides, you should have seen the look on his face when I Stupefied him," Hermione said, smiling weakly. Her head really hurt, despite the potion.
"Is it true he's going to be expelled?" Ginny asked.
"Yes...he was arrested, too."
"Well, that's one good thing, at least," Ron interjected.
"Yes..." Hermione said. She leaned her head back against the couch, wincing. "Malfoy Sr. and now Malfoy Jr. are out of the picture...finally."
"So you can relax now," Ron said brightly. He then dropped his voice conspiratorially, "And while you're getting better, Snape has to wait on you." Hermione laughed in spite of the pain. Severus actually was being nice...very nice...she felt a surge of melancholy. He really could be nice sometimes...maybe not like most people perceived it, but there were times she had really had a good time with him. Why did he have to be so stubborn over such a little thing? Maybe if he got over it, they could go back to having a good time sometimes. She still hadn't talked to him at all about what he was going to require of her before returning to his bed...it had been a month. A long very month, of ignoring and avoiding him, of strange dreams of snakes and ropes and pits, and she was getting tired of it. But, she knew thinking about problems when she felt so tired only made them seem worse; it wouldn't seem so bad when she felt better, she surmised.
"Hermione, you okay?" Ginny asked.
"Oh...fine Ginny, just a bit distracted is all."
"If you need to rest, we can go...we just wanted to check and see how you're doing. We can come by tomorrow if that would be better."
"Yeah...I think I need to sleep now. The potion is making me tired. You guys come by tomorrow, okay?"
"Yeah...we'll be back." The three then got up, Ginny and Ron headed for the door, while Harry stayed behind, standing close to Hermione. "Snape is helping you, right?" he asked with concern.
"Yes Harry, he is. Don't worry...it's fine." Harry nodded, smiling tightly. She could see the guilt on his face and knew he still blamed himself. "Harry, it was bound to happen sooner or later. He's gone now and so I'll be safer. It could have been worse, really, don't blame yourself."
"All right," he said, but she knew he still did.
After they left, Hermione returned her attention to her cold soup and bread, which was going stale. She halfheartedly dipped the bread into the soup and took a listless bite before placing the bread back on the tray. She didn't really feel like eating.
Hermione yawned widely and then looked back at the book in her lap. Her vision was a little blurred, and it was too much work trying to focus on the pages. Instead, she rested her head gingerly against the couch and drifted off to sleep.
*****
Severus finished with the potion and walked into the living room, pausing to look at Hermione, who was now asleep on the couch, the open book on her chest. He withdrew his wand and cast a calming spell around her, then removed the book from her grasp, placing it on the table beside her. He rose, intending to leave, but when he saw her pull her arms up about her torso, decided she was probably cold. He turned, and lit the logs in the fireplace with his wand and then summoned the coverlet from her bed, placing it over her.
Satisfied that she wouldn't wake for a while, he left their quarters and walked down the hall to the Slytherin common room. The process of brewing had helped him clear his head from the anger he felt against Malfoy, and now it was time to address the rest of his house. It was nearly curfew, and the students should all be in their dorms or in the common room.
He stopped at the portrait and muttered the password. It swung open and he stepped inside. Several students were in the midst of talking, and they all looked at him attentively when he walked in. He saw Pansy Parkinson sitting over in one corner, though, with a very dissatisfied look on her face.
"Zabini, Goyle, Bulstrode, and Parkinson. Go check the dorms; I wish to address the Slytherin house call everyone to gather in the common room."
They looked at him curiously, but moved to comply quickly enough. Parkinson attempted to wipe the scowl from her face, but did shoot him a look before she disappeared into the hall of the girls' dorm. He waited at the top of the steps as the students trickled in, taking seats in the old leather couches, standing behind them, or standing against the walls. When all were gathered, he spoke.
"As some of you may have heard, Draco Malfoy was taken into custody by Aurors today, and he will be expelled from Hogwarts." He paused, waiting for the news to sink in. "He attacked another student not only did he attack another student he attacked my wife, Hermione Snape. I am going to be very plain...I will not tolerate anyone taking action against my wife...any actions taken against her will be considered a personal affront by me and will be treated as such. Is that understood?"
He glared at them, especially the seventh and sixth years who had known Hermione the longest, through her school years. The younger students, whom he wasn't too concerned about, nodded their assent, and waited for him to continue, as they checked to see how the elder Slytherins reacted. He noticed, however, that the sixth and seventh year Slytherins were attempting to cover their reactions of distaste and disapproval.
"Is that understood?" he repeated, in a biting tone.
He received a number of affirmative murmurs and head nods. "Good. Mr. Malfoy apparently thought his place in Slytherin, and my wife's lineage, would mean I might overlook his transgression against me. He will not be achieving much from a prison cell, will he? Let's not allow the misconceptions about the house of Slytherin to be given merit. Our house has a long tradition of achievement, despite recent history of less than worthy members who think to achieve greatness through brute force and threats. Remember that, and think of that when about your business. Getting caught in underhandedness will gain you nothing, nor will trying to forcibly attack those you hold grudges against." He allowed them all to absorb that and then turned swiftly and strode from the Slytherin common room.
Once in the corridor, he tapped the wall in a pattern, on the bricks, with his wand. Checking again to be sure there were no students in the corridor, he stepped through the bricks, which had become as an illusion, making it appear he was stepping into the very stones.
He walked along the small tunnel and made two sharp turns, before he came to a stop at a balcony-like enclosure. He took a seat and looked down on the Slytherin common room. He could hear everyone easily, as well as observe them. The balcony appeared to simply be a wall from the inside.
Most of the younger students were returning to their rooms, readying themselves for bed, or were immersed in their studies. However, Millicent Bulstrode, Pansy Parkinson, and Blaise Zabini were huddled together just below where Severus sat.
"Why did Malfoy do that?" Bulstrode was asking. "It doesn't seem like him."
"Goyle said he was hexing his pillow this morning...Hey, Goyle, over here," the stringy Slytherin boy called. The large young man ambled over to them and leaned up against the wall, directly under Severus.
"Yeah? What is it?" he asked.
"You said Malfoy was hexing his pillow this morning...what would he go and attack Granger for? Did he just lose his mind?"
"Don't know," Goyle said, shrugging. "He's just been acting strange the last few months...I think what happened to his dad may have something to do with it."
"I almost didn't believe it when I heard Snape had done that to Lucius Malfoy. My mother said they were friends for a long time," Parkinson said.
"Well, if he's going to betray the Dark Lord and then betray his blood-kind by marrying a Mudblood, why wouldn't he betray any one of us?" Zabini pointed out.
"Can you believe he married a Mudblood?" Bulstrode asked.
"Probably the only way he could find someone to suck his prick," mocked Parkinson. Severus felt his shoulders tightening. For some reason, the usual things he heard students say of him seemed somehow more biting than before.
"My cousin married a Mudblood, too...my grandfather wrote him out of his will. It was some twit he went to school with; she went crying to him when someone petitioned her under the new Marriage Law. I think he just felt so sorry for her he went ahead. He never was very good at passing up a pity story," Bulstrode said, sounding disgusted with her cousin.
Severus doubted sincerely that Treva Bulstrode, nee McGoodwin, had gone crying to anyone or that she had elicited pity, either unintentionally or on purpose. But if that was the only way Miss Bulstrode could think of her cousin with a Muggle-born, then that was what she would think.
"Well, I'll say this...I'm not going to get married at all if I have to marry a Mudblood," Zabini declared firmly.
"Yeah...me either," echoed Goyle. At least one good point, Severus thought. The only way that lump would get a wife was if she had no choice in the matter. Fortunately, the predominant distaste for Muggle-borns kept many of the purebloods from taking advantage of the Marriage Law.
"I'm just glad they didn't make it so Mudblood boys could petition for pureblood women...that would be awful. Getting married to some bloke you don't know..."
Severus saw a small, blond Slytherin boy, first year, listening on the edges of the conversation. He moved over to stand next to the other students and then spoke up. "Don't you think the Mugg er Mudblood girls don't like getting married to men they don't know?"
"What would you know? Besides, they're Mudbloods...there used to be a time when they knew their place was to serve their betters. I think it'll put them in their place, personally," Parkinson said haughtily. The boy, trying to hide his feelings of chastisement, edged back to the desk he had been studying at.
"Yeah," Zabini chimed in, laughing, "You think Snape has put Granger in her place by now?"
"Well, you don't see her waving her hand around in his class anymore, do you?"
Severus scowled, as they laughed and started theorising on what happened in his bed with his wife. He would have liked to hex the little buggers. There was a time when one could take pride in being Slytherin. However, he had some hope that the younger Slytherins, in the time that the Dark Lord was vanquished for good, could be influenced to bring his house back to its former glory. It wasn't for nothing that Slytherin had won the house cup for so many years before Potter came to Hogwarts. Despite his frustration at teaching, he wondered if it might be better to remain, if only to see Slytherin return to power...but perhaps Sinistra might make a better Head of House. His reputation as a former Death Eater might be influential in the wrong way; at least Sinistra didn't have that hanging over her head.
When the topic changed and, eventually, the group broke up to go their separate ways, he left his observation point and went back to his quarters. He had been gone long enough, Hermione was probably fine, but it would be best to be certain.
*****
She wasn't sure how much later it was when she felt a gentle prodding at her shoulder. Opening her eyes, she saw Severus standing over her. He then sat beside her on the couch. "Here, I have another potion for you. This should be more effective for the pain than what Pomfrey gave you earlier." She took the proffered phial and drank. She was surprised to find a blanket draped over her legs; he must have put it there.
"Thank you," she said.
"You are welcome. Are you still feeling dizzy?" he asked.
"A bit. Oh shoot," she groaned. "I was going to -"
"Make the contraceptive potions? It is done."
Hermione turned to look at him, surprised. "Um...thanks, you didn't have to..."
"You were in no condition to do so," he said with finality.
"Okay."
The silence stretched out, Severus staring into the fire, and Hermione doing the same. She wanted to say something...their argument...impasse, whatever it was, couldn't keep going on. It was so silly, too. How long would it keep up? One of them had to say something.
"Severus, can we talk?" she finally asked.
"If you wish, yes."
"Last month...at my parents' house...when I found those articles. I may have overreacted a bit."
"Yes, you did," he agreed.
"Don't you think you overreacted a bit, too?" she asked, hoping he would admit to it.
"No."
Hermione took a deep breath, exasperated. At least the pain in her head was clearing. "Why is that such a big deal to you?"
"I informed you before we married of what I would expect; you agreed. You then went back on that agreement. I never lied to you about what I desired, Hermione," he said evenly.
"It was a lie of omission; you should have told me about all that other stuff," Hermione insisted.
"No, it was not. What you found that day had absolutely nothing to do with what is between us. I told you exactly what I wanted and exactly what I expected. If someone else has similar desires, that is of no concern to me or you if they invent different ways of carrying it out."
"Can't you even compromise on one little thing?"
Severus turned and regarded her thoughtfully; Hermione met his eyes, not flinching away or trying to avoid him as she had been.
"Perhaps," he finally conceded.
"So you'd be willing to go over the safeword and contract thing?"
"No."
"I'm going to bed," Hermione sighed, fed up with him. A bit faster than she should have, she got up from the couch and took three steps before dizziness threatened to overwhelm her. Severus was behind her in a flash, one arm around her waist.
"Silly girl," he muttered. "You can't move around like that with a concussion."
Hermione gritted her teeth as he walked with her into her room, and eased her to sit on the edge of her bed. Just as Hermione was about to lie down, eyes closed, she felt his hands at her collar, unfastening her robes.
"Stop..." she complained.
"You don't need to sleep in the clothes you've been wearing all day," he said, and continued, first removing her robe and then slowly unbuttoning her shirt. She drew back from him, bringing her hand up to clutch her shirt closed. "Now you're just being ridiculous. Do you think I've forgotten what your body looks like?" She was too tired to protest, and so settled on giving him a grumpy sigh as he undressed her.
"I suppose you like this then."
"What do you mean?" he asked, having removed her shirt, and now was unfastening her skirt.
"You like pain..."
"Hermione," Severus said, one corner of his mouth quirked up in amusement, "there is absolutely nothing arousing about a concussion." His hands drifted up her arms and then to her back, where he unfastened her bra and removed it. "Now...have you taken the opportunity of exile to your room to resume wearing night clothes?" he asked.
Hermione scowled at him. "No," she admitted. Severus looked slightly triumphant, then moved to adjust her pillows and draw back her covers.
"Why are you being so..." she couldn't quite think of a word to describe how he was acting.
He looked down at her, frowning in thought. "You wouldn't be in this position had I remained wary," he said quietly. His gaze sharpened, his eyes glinting as she watched. "Malfoy shouldn't have even had the opportunity to touch you. He won't get that chance again," he said firmly and then turned to leave.
"Severus?" Hermione called. He turned to face her.
"So...let me get this straight...a concussion is bad...but whipping me is arousing?"
He paused for a moment, an eyebrow cocked up, and then answered, "Immensely." He then left the room, leaving her door open when he exited.
Hermione didn't want to think at the moment...and so she closed her eyes. Just as she was drifting to sleep, Malfoy's words came back to her.
"I thought Snape would put you in your place. I had a chance to find some old memories back home over the holiday that my father had put away. Turns out Snape and my father used to share their playthings. He likes it rough..."
What had that meant? She decided it was another of many things she wanted to clear up with him.
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254 Reviews | 5.03/10 Average
I have loved this fic, but I didn't like Ashwinder version 's ending, that ending was so unfair to Severus and it ruined whole story for me, but now I'm glad I found this version, I'm loving this ending, though it's not right or perfect but I can't see my Severus heart broken again and I absolutely love a morally grey and dark Severus ..... Overall the story was amazing, so well written and Smut was mind-blowing, I wish we could have more smut when Hermione returned to Severus in ending and some more story in detail,may be a whole chapter on how she went back to Severus, from Uni to moving into an apartment,their holiday, how she distant herself from her friends, how Severus keeps on giving her potion and how is there se* life now, does Severus still prefer dom-sub kind of stuff, does she enjoy that - I wish we could have all of this in detail in a whole new chapter...... Thank you for this wonderful story and this "Happy for Severus" ending 👍🏻😍
I love how you have them both sticking it out, yet hurting themselves in the process. Most stories have them revolve their problems quickly or just have a brief paragraph saying some time has passed. Great job!
This has been an amazing story. It's everything I want in this type. Snape is a rude, disagreeable person, yet he does care about Hermione in his own way. They are easing into his sexual preference without the typical 'and then she suddenly discovers how much it turns her on.' Even after she allows herself to give in, she isn't totally his slave. And there is some other parts of the story that arent completly revolving around their relationahip. (There could be just a bit more of that) Thankyou! This is such a wonderful story!
I guess this story must have been written before we learned that Snape was a half-blood. Oh, well. I'll just think of it as AU, I guess. :-)
Good lord. So you've made it so that he really IS an abusive and controlling asshole. I'm sorry that's what you wanted to do with this story; I'm afraid I prefer happy endings in fan fiction.
Well, THAT'S a twist I didn't see coming! Very clever trick, to keep Lucius waiting in the wings like that, after we'd all written him off as disabled. :-)
I'm a Heinlein fan, too! Stranger in a Strange Land changed my life when I read it at the age of 12, so none of his other books could ever mean to me what that one did. Still, I read and re-read The Moon is a Harsh Mistress, Time Enough for Love, I Will Fear No Evil, and many others. Thanks for working Heinlein into this story; it's fun to see the references to his books.
Heh. Love the dream at the end.
I'm astonished that Severus would be willing to spend THREE WEEKS with Hermione's parents. One week seems like plenty to me! So I'd say he's bent over backwards to be nice ... and I'm usually on Hermione's side. :-)
Lovely ending.
The ending of this made me a bit sad, but I didn't find it 100% OOC for Severus as some other reviews have stated. Love the story - very well written. Thank you so much for sharing. :)
I liked it :) but I think the ending should have been drawn out just a little more. Because drugging someone isn't really love,or at least not in my opinion. I think it would have been better if she didn't get the potion like in the alternate ending, but they still went on the dates and got to know each other. Hermione really cared for him and it would have turned to love. But it was good overal. The other ending made me cry to be honest. It just seemed like such an un hermione thing to do...but keep writing your good :)
No, no, no, anything apart from Malfoy. LOL enjoying your contract fic very much. Like the road you are taking, uncomfortable for HG but has the bat got a sense of humour after all? We shall see as they say. Off to read some more.
Thanks.
The picture of control, honesty and choice,you paint,
is very telling. This started a lot of deep thoughts. - not least in your personal replies to people's passionate letters to you.
Please do keep writing you have a Real talent.
But you did break my heart with both your endings: that two highly intelligent people couldn't let themselves find joy and freedom with each other. together with common sense, and self- awareness, tempered with humour.
Good luck in your new life, and admiration for the bravery and strength, it must have taken to build a new life.
For now I am speechless.
On some times I thought, Goodness ist there anything other than spanking, whipping and fucking all around? This should not mean I didn´t enjoy it in some ways, and after thinking about this I had come to the Decision that your descriptions showed a lot about the live Severus and Hermione had and in which ways they tried to come together.
(I believe I should not write reviews, when I´m tired)
But your end of your Fanfiction was startling. I didn´t expect a lovely happy Couple, whom lived happily together after discussing their Problems. I expected rahter a Couple that had many Problems to deal with each other, but which were also trying.
Your take of an End, was highly surprising and unexpected, but I like it. :)
Best wishes
Dawndancer
I've just read your story and was very impressed that I was so invested in the plot. A sign of a great author is to make the characters very real to the reader. This you accomplised beautifully. However the ending was heartbreakingly dissappointing. I am not averse to un-happy endings when called for but this ending didn't ring true for me.
LOL Loved when Severus' rooms became a bit too overcrowded for his style :)
Haha, well played Albus with the "honeymoon" surprise LOL
Wow, seemed like Lucius to not give up easily..
great chapter, im looking forward to reading the rest of the fic :)
LMAO
That ending was such an anti climax.
what happened? did you get bored writing the story?
On another level the ending is humerous in its absurdity...
I thought that Snape loved her? He resorted to mind control in the end.
hhmmmm
comment?
xoxo
i thoroughly enjoyed you dissecting the power dynamic of the relationship though.
Thanks for you time and imagination
up to chapter 29 it was excellent. some minor quibbles but generally a delight to read - absolutely lapping it up! You have an amazing talent for storytelling. From 29 on however the characters seemed to fall to pieces and IMO no longer conformed with the profiles you had constructed for them thusfar - it became actually infuriating to read - and then the ending was of course just obscene. Rushed and incredibly disturbing (which is a feat considering some of the other quite prickly ideas in the story that went down smoothly) - and worst of all feeling like something tacked on at the last minute or as an afterthought. Perhaps you had grown sick of your own creations by then. It was very disappointing to have laboured with these characters for so long.. to have it all end in a manner neither satisfying nor plausible (and either of the two would have been sufficient really). It was a great story - but a rotten ending.
I've been reading this story since you first started posting it on Ashwinder, and have only now actually put fingers to keyboard to review it.
I loved the way this story was written. Excellent descriptive scenes, lots of Snarky!Snape and an interesting plot. However, the ending is too rushed and extremely disappointing. I've read both endings and feel the same way about both. Whilst the ending on Ashwinder is a more probable ending, I couldn't help but feel that it needed fleshing out a bit more, not to mention the blatant out-of-characterness of both Snape and Hermione. You did so well to keep them both in character throughout the majority of the story, only to have them change in the last couple of chapters. I'll be honest - I hated TPP ending. Not plausible at all, and also very OOC.
It's very obvious that you were getting bored of this story and wanted it finished as soon as possible for the sake for your readers. One thing I learned from writing fan fiction is that if you write purely for the sake of reviews, then your story is doomed from the start. If you ever consider re-writing any part of this, please re-do the ending chapters and preferably using the Ashwinder ending as that was the better of the two.
I have now read both endings, and I find that I disagree with you and most of your reviewers who would claim that either one was a good ending for this story. Now I don't intend this to be a flame, so please just hear me out.Certainly I, like most people, would have liked to see Hermione and Severus end up together (voluntarily) for the simple romantic appeal. But my dislike for these two endings goes beyond that.So you chose to end this story either with them splitting up or together because Severus was controlling Hermione. Great, fine, whatever - brave of you to do something outside of the normal SS/HG stories. However, I do not see the image that most of your reviewers seem to see - an author who sacrificed the popular ending for the more in-character or better-suited ending. No, what I see is an author who was consciously seeking to break the mold of happily-ever-after stories, to do something dramatic and unexpected simply because it was dramatic and unexpected. An author seeking to set up a story that intentionally seemed to follow a normal SS/HG plotline, just so that she could say, "Haha, fooled you!" at the end.Now, I certainly don't mean to suggest that doing the unexpected is a bad thing - unexpected twists and turns are what make these stories worth reading even though there are common plotlines that run through many of them. But when an author sacrifices story flow, plausibility and character for mere shock value, it falls a little flat.And yes, before you protest, I think that you did sacrifice plausibility and character. You clearly sold the ending to your audience using the Severus-is-a-control-freak ploy. But I think that it is just that - a ploy. And I think that a lot of your readers fell for it. But you can't write 30 chapters of great story (don't get me wrong, I liked the story a lot), filled with good plot and character development, and then follow this up with a chapter in which your characters have apparently regressed essentially to the way they were at the very beginning. Well, I guess you can - you're the author - but I just don't buy it. The Severus that appeared in chapter 29 was not the same Severus that featured in chapter 31 - or even chapter 30. Severus 29 realized that he loved Hermione and was beginning to regret his control-freakishness. I do not find it remotely feasible that this Severus can be the same as Severus 31 who would go right back to controlling tactics without any apparent hesitation.But what, you ask, do I expect Severus to do when just as he realizes he loves Hermione, she abandons him without a backwards glance? As it turns out, I find Hermione's characterization in the last couple of chapters equally problematic. In fact, I think that Hermione 30/31 is perhaps more out-of-character than Severus 31. Yes, I can accept that having undergone so much and suddenly having the opportunity to really have a choice for the first time, she might have some second thoughts, might want to take a break to really have some time on her own, apart from Severus, to really analyze the situation. But I do not find it remotely plausible that she would ditch Severus completely and go off to a University without resolving their issues. For one thing, Hermione Granger is not the kind of person who would go off, leave unsolved problems behind, and then make a decision on these problems once she is far removed from the situation. That is, as they call it, the coward's way out, and Hermione is nothing if not honorable and Gryffindorish.And once again, after 30 chapters in which she undergoes a great deal of character development and comes to at least like Severus (even if you don't want her to fall in love with him), I do not find it remotely plausible that she would choose to abandon him and sever all ties with him without any discussion or conversation with him whatsoever. I don't really find it likely that she would leave him at all, but even if she were going to, I do not believe for one second that she would do so without talking to him and hearing him out - after all, isn't that what she kept demanding of him throughout the story? That he not make decisions and take stances uncompromisingly, without acknowledging her perspective? So what kind of a hypocrite would she be if she really would do what you have her doing?So while you may or may not agree with me, I do think that your characters in the last chapter or two are drastically different from the people that you had shaped by the end of chapter 29. Both the control-freak Severus and the I-need-time-to-think Hermione seem to me to be very thinly veiled rationalizations for you as the author doing what you wanted to do with the story, even when it didn't really fit. And I think that is possibly the worst mistake an author can make - trying to force a story to do what she wants it to, or what she imagines it ought to do, when the story wants to go somewhere different. As I said earlier, I have no problems with an author who goes into a story with the desire to write something unexpected. Something different. Something unique. I as a writer have shared that desire many times. But I think that in your attempts to mislead us readers, to make us think that this was just like all the other SS/HG stories, you ended up writing a story that was like the other SS/HG stories. But then you still tried to make it fit your idea of what you had intended to write, and frankly, I think it shows.Now, you may not really appreciate this after all of the rest of what I just said, or you may not think me entirely sincere, but I want to make it quite clear that I definitely thought that this was a very good story - which is probably why I felt inclined to leave such a lengthy, passionate review (if I didn't like it, I wouldn't have bothered, and if I didn't like the rest of it, I wouldn't have felt so strongly about the ending). So just for the record, I thought that it was well-written, and that - as I may have hinted earlier - there was very good character development through most of it. Other than the ending, your characters were engaging, believable, consistent...which, as I said, is why the ending is so jarring and dissatisfying. Because it's so not in keeping with the rest.You probably don't agree with me, and even if you did I don't imagine that you would bother to change the ending, but it seemed that most of your readers were inclined to just accept your flimsy surface justifications for Hermione's and Severus's actions, even though these justifications were not supported by the rest of your depictions of their characters. So I felt obligated to present my perceptions, even if they goes against the majority opinion. Take it or leave it, but there it is. And thank you for the story.
Response from RachelW (Author of You Can't Have One Without The Other)
Wow, what a long review. Hmm... and it's been a while too, though I was curious what might be going on with the fanfic and thought I'd check on it.What happened the last few chapters was that I just could not write what I'd started out intending to write. When I began this story in 2004 (wow), I was working hard to make myself believe i was happy being stuck in a miserable marriage to a manipulative person who spent a lot of thought and energy keeping me from directing my energy and talents into the real world. I had few friends, and every time I began developing a friendship with anyone who was functional and somewhat available, he made sure it didn't last long. By 2008 when I finished this story I was going to school full time and working part time at a local gym, and my carefully cultivated illusion that I was happy had been completely shattered. Along with that, all my carefully concocted ideals about a promise being everything, about anything being workable, about enough love/being good enough/something else could change a person, or make a manipulator become something else.What happened at chapters 30/31 was a major shift in my understanding of the world and of people, and my best attempt to wrap up a story so I could move on with my life (I like finishing things, you see). I just could not write what I had intended when I was writing chapter 24 or therabouts... it just wouldn't happen. Dec 2008 I moved out on my own, no idea how I was going to make it. My ex has made every effort to cause me problems, and is still dragging the legal end of things on because he has to punish me for leaving him. I've had some interesting challenges, I've become self employed, I've found happiness in a great comunity where my ex can't keep me from having supportive, functional friends through manipulations like he did when I was with him, trapped mainly by my belief (which he encouraged strongly) that I was incapable of making it alone. He would use 'martial arts sparring' as a cover to 'accidentally' twist my forearms/wrists and exaserbate my tendonitis which kept me from working as a massage therapist for years.Tomorrow I'm having a ribbon-cutting cerimony with the local Chamber of Commerce to celebrate the opening of my office. I've supplemented massage income with housecleaning, freelance copy-editing (thanks to my beta-reading experience), and other odd jobs. In retrospect I've realized writing this story was a major part of coming to grips with the reality of what my marriage was, even when I didn't know that's what I was writing about. The BDSM was just the fun stuff to make the story interesting, but deep down it was about my attempt to justify to myself that I had made a terrible choice to be with someone because I believed I was incapable of being alone, and felt trapped by having a child with him. I desperately wanted to "make it right" and this story was my attempt to make something wrong right by making Hermione just be good enough to fix Snape. Manipulators, alas, don't change... and the flow of the story stopped when I tried to make wrong things be right.If anyone is interested in what I'm doing now: http://reliefbyrachel.com
While I thought the story started out pretty well, the middle got a little angsty for my taste, but I stuck it out, only to be disappointed in the end. Hermoine, in a potion-induced state of bliss. While I wouldn't put it past Snape, it's just a terrible way to end the story. I can think of a number of different endings, though, honestly, I can't think of any way to tie them to the established story.
Whoa ! I came from reading the other ending on Ashwinder and fair play to you, this is in keeping with the selfish controlling rotten Snape that she married. I was buying the potential happy ending (he's changed !) right up to the point where she drops out of college. The last bit about giving her the potion every 6-9 months is crushing - but thats how vile he is. To control her is everything.