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Chapter 28 of 34
Ariadne AWSHermione returns to Grimmauld Place, looking for answers. She does not expect to find Severus Snape. Best Fanon Het (Quill-to-Parchment, Round 2). Runner-up ~ Best HG/SS, 2006 OWL Awards.
Summary: She's back. He's back. And so's he.
A/N: This chapter is dedicated to Corazon ~ wishing you a speedy recovery! *hugs* Thanks to Luna305 for being an exacting beta.
"No matter what is happening between us, Hermione, you and I are not the main actors."
She thought about that for a moment, and then he saw resolve grow in her eyes, in the set of her jaw. "Oh, yes, we bloody well are."
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She was one day old, and she was growing as fast as she could. And everything itched abominably.
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Severus was stunned. "'Yes, we bloody well are'?" he repeated. "Hermione, it doesn't work that way."
"Severus," she said sternly, "the end will be about Harry and Voldemort. Fine." She waved her hand dismissively. "Harry will do what Harry will do, Voldemort will do what Voldemort will do, and meanwhile the rest of us will... what? Lie about like Puffskeins, hoping we get stepped on at the proper time? Host an elaborate drown-our-sorrows fest? Skulk in the shadows, bowed, not broken, dignified, courting and cursing our own meaningful ends?"
His eyebrows had been edging upwards since the word "Puffskeins"; now they seemed to be permanently lodged in his hairline.
"Thank you, no. There are ways around all of these Indemnities. Dumbledore would not be bloody twinkling unless he thought so. He loved us, Severus - all of us, maybe especially you yes, you. You are absolutely the kind of infuriating creature he would take perverse delight in loving."
Perverse?
"Yes, perverse. No, Severus, not Legilimency. I've spent the last six years of my life decoding your face, Harry's sulks, Ron's moods, and Dumbledore's wise, cryptic nonsense. I read Professor Umbridge, and Cornelius Fudge, and knew it was a trap at the Ministry. I have been wrong once - once - when I was eleven years old." She paused for breath, rattled; she'd been wrong about him and the Sorcerer's Stone but she wasn't going to tell him that.
She didn't need to; his lips were already twitching and his eyebrows were slowly re-accustoming themselves to gravity.
"This is insane, Severus, absolutely insane. For six years I've been assimilating into a world I didn't bloody well know existed. Why do you think I read every bloody book in the library? And now I'm stuck in this house - "
And his eyebrows shot up.
"With you, my former teacher,"
He flinched.
She raised her eyebrow at him. "It's a little late to flinch, Severus. Really." And she was off again, up, away from the table, hands on her hips. "You know damn well I'm falling in love with you and I know damn well why you can't say the same in return. You've been using yourself, Severus - you, who've been used by everyone, what's one more? - using yourself as bait, to trap my mind, my heart, my soul, and my - " Just say it, Granger.
Restraint, Snape...
"... and my body, and it's worked, oh, gods, how, and I've fallen, - "
Glorious, his thoughts groaned.
" completely, irrevocably, and it's wrong, and I love it, and I love you, and it doesn't matter, because I'm going to die, you're going to die, we're all going to be dead because no one will say his name, or your name, or that prophecies are absolute bunk just excuses masquerading as explanations. A grand inevitable plan, a sop to everyone's cowardice. 'I don't have to do anything; the Chosen One will do it for me, poor dear boy.' Which is just letting Voldemort's choices dictate reality because it's easier than thinking." She snorted. "Sheep," she said with distaste, then turned, eyes aflame, "Well bloody hell, Severus, but who are the current architects of that grand plan now? Who? I ask you!"
He felt it would be prudent at this juncture to say nothing.
"We are, Severus. We are." A sweeping gesture, encompassing him, Tayet, their notes, the books, themselves. "We have all the pieces I know we do it's the way Dumbledore's mind works and the way you were counting on mine working. Don't question faith, Severus, not when it's standing right in front of you."
Tayet crowed triumphantly.
"All I wanted was to go to school. To learn. It's what I do. And I learn very, very quickly." she spat finally, and glared at him.
One eyebrow this time.
"Stop that. You know what I mean."
"Indeed. That does not, however, negate my response."
"Don't distract me. I'm about to make a grand pronouncement."
Of this he had no doubt. He did, however, hold the thought of distracting her in reserve, and not too far in reserve, either. She was really quite spectacular.
She turned on her heels and sped to the kitchen.
What? Blast. He went after her, demanding, "What are you doing?"
"Taking this war to Voldemort, Severus," she informed him, as if she were late for the Hogwarts Express and the First Years were running amok on Platform 9 3/4.
"What?" He lengthened his stride.
"I'm Flooing Minerva... "
He stopped in front of Mrs. Black's frame. He, Mrs. Black, and Phineas Nigellus exchanged a look, a look that required no translation because it had not changed in centuries the look of Slytherins in the presence of a rampaging Gryffindor.
Tayet zoomed into the hallway.
"... and then I'm..."
The kitchen door swung closed behind her, and he was through it like a shot. "And then you're what?"
Thud. Tayet hadn't flown fast enough.
Hermione looked at him with another look that had not changed in centuries, a particularly Gryffindor look, though only seen rarely from the males of the house. It was the look she had given Draco Malfoy. Once.
Draco would run before it, now, although he would seem outwardly to be walking.
Severus was not Draco. He closed the distance between them, captured her lower back with his hand and pressed himself against her. Very quietly, he said, "You were saying?"
"And then I shall burst into flames if you don't kiss me," she smiled. That smile.
He laughed throatily. "Floo Minerva." He dropped his voice and hissed one word into the skin behind her ear. "Hurry." He caught her skin between his teeth closed them, sharp, not painful, and she felt his tongue on her skin and
- her hands flew to his arms, clenched, hard -
- then she pushed him away.
"Oh, I will, Severus. I will." Her eyes searing, slow, before she turned to reach for the Floo powder. "One thing."
A rumbling sound that she took for an affirmative.
"Do you know where you can lay your hands on Peter Pettigrew?"
It was definitely not the way he had hoped that question would end.
A very aggrieved looking Tayet appeared and landed on the table. She glared at the kitchen door, glared at Severus, rustled her wings, and preened her tail feathers.
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"Headmistress?"
Minerva looked up from her paperwork at the sound of Hermione's voice from her private quarters. Rising from her desk, she hurried to the hearth.
"Miss Granger? What is it, child?"
"Is Hagrid okay?"
"Yes, he and Grawp are both how did you know?
"Would you please ask Professor Dumbledore's portrait to join us?"
Minerva looked at Hermione sadly. "He's still slee - "
"He's faking. Tell him, please, that if he doesn't join us I would be happy to make a full report in his absence."
Minerva hurried into her office, casting an apprehensive look over her shoulder at Hermione.
Severus sat down beside Hermione with a mug of coffee and ran a fingertip lightly along the line where her jeans met her ankle. She batted at his hand. Tayet trilled.
Minerva returned, completely ruffled, and Dumbledore appeared in one of the frames on the wall behind her. Minerva was staring at him, and he was staring at Hermione. Neither one looked particularly happy.
"Excellent. Thank you, Headmistress. Thank you, sir."
He nodded, but said nothing.
Minerva finally sputtered, "How long have you been awake?"
Dumbledore opened his mouth to speak, and Severus' hand trailed higher on Hermione's leg. Severus squeezed her calf, and traced an idle fingertip lightly back down to her ankle. She smacked him on the thigh. He smiled into his coffee.
"I'm sorry, sir, but that will have to wait."
Both professors stared at Hermione.
"Professor Dumbledore, you are aware of the Indemnities, yes?"
He nodded.
"Are you aware that I have finished the list?"
He nodded again. "Phineas Nigellus..."
"Yes, of course he would have."
"Finished it!" Minerva said, shocked. "So quickly?"
Hermione sighed inwardly, and asked Dumbledore, "Are you aware of the workarounds?"
Minerva drew herself to full height. "You've found a way?!"
"Two. So far. The inanimate Horcruxes. Yours and Molly's."
Minerva's hand fluttered to her chest and she groped behind her for the nearest tangible object. Her hand came to light on a bookshelf, on which rested a picture of a family. Hermione couldn't see their faces clearly, and she didn't want to.
Dumbledore regarded Hermione with keen interest, but he did not seem surprised. "So, Miss Granger," he began.
Following the line where her jeans met her lower back, Severus drew a light, slow, deliberate line on Hermione's back. Then his fingers brushed her wrist, then her ankle, then his hand pressed firmly on her right hip.
"Excuse me for a moment, please."
Minerva's hearth was empty, and she turned to Dumbledore's portrait.
"How long have you been awake, and why haven't you told me? And how does Miss Granger know?" Her features expressed equal parts relief and disapproval, and the lines etched on her face showed that this particular two-part response was one of much use and long familiarity.
"All in good time, Headmistress," he inclined his head slightly. "All in good time." He regarded her hearth serenely. "Which should arrive rather shortly, if I read our good Miss Granger correctly."
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"What are you doing?" Hermione hissed.
"I should have thought that was obvious," Severus replied, dark eyes moving over her face with a promise of what would follow.
"Not now."
And his eyebrow raised again. A challenge. Delightful.
As Hermione returned to the Floo, his hand was on her back, sweeping around her waist, hand opening on her stomach, his thumb caressing minutely, slowly, but inexorably upward. He set down his mug and came to his knees, his other palm flat on her back, following the muscles of her spine, fingers curling around her ribcage...
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"Professor Dumbledore, if you would be so kind as to outline the list to the headmistress, I would be most appreciative."
"Miss Granger, I must insist - " Minerva began.
"Let her finish, Minerva," Dumbledore said calmly.
"Pettigrew. We need to find Peter Pettigrew. Quickly."
The former headmaster smiled quietly. "Well done, Miss Granger."
Minerva's nostrils were flaring but she had the sense to keep quiet, for now.
"Stop that," Hermione said, irritably.
"Miss Granger!" Minerva protested.
Laughing suddenly, Hermione said quickly, "I'll report back in the morning," and her head vanished from the hearth.
Minerva frowned and turned to Dumbledore's portrait, palms out in exasperated helplessness. "The girl is overwrought, Albus. And you," she began, eyes frosty behind her square-rimmed spectacles, "owe me an explanation."
Dumbledore's eyes twinkled. He was already editing his response.
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"You bastard!" she yelped, jerking back into Severus' arms and twitching away from his fingers. "Tickling me, during a conversation like that!"
"Pain is not the only distraction, Hermione. And the two of them have much to discuss."
She twitched, anticipating more tickling. He chuckled, but his hands stilled, possessive, strong, unmoving.
Pulling her to him, sudden, almost roughly, he warned, "I will not promise to stop, Hermione, not when your skin is alive to my wish." Holding her close, he turned his attention to the top button of her blouse. "So many buttons. So little time. No man alive could resist..."
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If either "man" or "alive" really applied, there was one who could, and he was in the park across the street from Number 12 Grimmauld Place, red eyes scanning the row of houses, seeking, sensing... he could almost taste her... somewhere close... somewhere very close... somewhere...
"Wormtail," he whispered, eyes unblinking, still sweeping the houses. "Your arm..."
He reached out the tip of his wand.
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In the kitchen, Severus hissed in pain.
Hermione's eyes were enormous. "Again?"
"Not a warning," he gasped. "Now." In one smooth movement, he was masked and gone.
Tayet screamed.
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230 Reviews | 5.53/10 Average
Such an amazing, complex story. Hate to see it unfinished, but maybe it will be someday. Faith, right? Thank you, for writing such beautiful tales..
Any chance you'll be able to finish this ? It's such a suspense story, just working up to the climax! I've enjoyed Tayet very much - you have a way with animals.
Response from Ariadne AWS (Author of A Walking Shadow)
...It was finished in '06; I've just not finished uploading it to this site; RL has utterly intervened in my time on fic archives. I think you might be able to find it if you poke around the internet. :)Thanks for reading!
Response from Ariadne AWS (Author of A Walking Shadow)
Hi,
oh this thin line between light and shadow, between earnesty and laughing about the irony, about the funny side of everything.
I am glad he still has his sense of humour.
yes, that woman is the road to hell, but she plasters it with lots of genious and wits and love and passion and fun and perfection.
one really feels how they deserver and need each other.
I like your Snape, may he be non-canon or not. He is adorable.
He was curious to learn about what the Mirror hat revealed her.
Interesting, how Molly took her death sencence.
Always worrying about her family, and now it is her she has to worry about. But it seems she doesn't, or does she?
She couldn’t deny the truth. “I still hate it,” she muttered.
“Good. Use that hatred, when the time comes,” he said. “It will keep you whole.”
I find his advice here very very good and not for nothing I am sure. He is really concerned about her staying whole. He is adorable. also to be seen when he explains about making unforgivables... It is always " am already bruised, so I will do it for you, he did it for Draco, he does it for Hermione, he is a good person indeed.
it's not done because it cannot be done."
Minerva looked at Dumbledore's portrait. "So naturally you had to try."
I love your sense of humour. makes the dark story lighter, more human more alive.
What a brilliant plan!! You are grand.
Let Pettigrew get imperioused, do the job, and 2 Horocruxes are done. great!!
I bet this works out! it sounds just soo clever.
"She seemed to scowl back"... that made me laugh!! Oh sodding Severus makes a big deal out of her trunk entering his bedroom or not. Her entering his real life or not.I can not quite follwo him here. he lives under the same roof with her. he spent a night in the hiding room with her. he shars his mind or her mind when entering there, he shares the knowledge ot her and his death and how and almost when. Where is the problem in sharing a room or a bed, porperly?I have no idea.he expains it with wait...his rigid sense of honour, his saftey net. all right o,k,. but, still, not so understanable. and then he let her choose. Why? she had already, hadn't she.Her responce : "I'd only hit you with it anyway " was rather taking the tenseness away. good idea. and much more natural than anyhting.And thank you thank you thank you for letting us peek at the soo necessary conversation between McGonagall and Dumbledore.tehe.He solved the problem of how to make her trust in Hermiones source without giving it away or giving to much information brilliantly. Trust her Arithmancy? well, if so, then you must only know, that it can only work with the correct information.Good idea of yours!!As so many others are and were.keep up the good job!!
Response from salvamea (Reviewer)
oh, and I agree with the other reviewer!! not being able to finish reading this WOULD be tragic!or anything like that.
What did he offer to put lower?
His hair?
What had happened? I must have missed quite a bit here.
But The Poenix Tears were healing or fixing someting, this much I know.
And Tayet is fully grown, this I also know.
You descirbe it all so marvellously. it is a real pleasure to read it.
Never blunt, or plump. always a little transcendent, like a little behind a veil, weaving your words in a poetical, philosophical way. very interesting.
thank you for sharing!
he let Voldy bind Wormtail to him. Sounds clever. he is glad about it, so it must be of use for him.
Hermione wanted Wormtail, now she has him.
Still am in the dark about how that would help. But it MUST! please...
Their interrupted lovescene got even more intense after the new developements, it seems to me.. phew. quite a scene.
i wonder why she wanted him in these robes. Everyone would have expected her to be absolutely turned off, but no.
Maybe a chance to dis-charm the brutal character of the deatheater uniform.
What will he do about his new task? find her and bring her to me? he will do that? and when and how? and what will happen there and then?
awful.
I am glad I still can click on to the next chapter. But soon enough I will up to date, and then I will have to wait as patiently as ... Tayet for her feathers to grow?
You mentionted it would be some 30 more?
Happy as I am to hear that, I am also eager to hear that the next 30 will not last for 2 years? got a plan? anything?
the whole chapter was soo funny.
especially McGonnagalls reaction on finding out that Dumbledore was well aware of the going ons and awake for quite a while!! her being furious. I would love to hear THAT conversation!!
hope she gives him her piece of mind!! ha!
and seeing Severus so playfull, and right in the middel of a wonderful seduction HE the bloddy VOLDY comes to summon him. Bad timing.! But what would one expect of the person who has no heart, seven souls and none of them good.
bah.
And he is soo close ..shiver...
Your Tayet is just soo adorable.
How she reads the one persons thoughts and acts in their behalf. I love these scenes. touching.
Is she really just one day old? cant belive how much had happened in this very short time.
So many revellations.
Horrible, to know that you have to die, from the hands of someone you love, and that this willl be a gift too, and that all has to be in a certain timetable or connected to some progresses. awful. unbelievable.
They found the Trapping Spell. and he has to cast it. and either he kills her then, or he will die. also horrible.
She says they bloddy well are the main charactes in this story. well, I think they are both right.
Voldy and Harry on the front line, Hermione and Severus doing the mind-work in the back. both lethal.
I also like your Mrs Black, she is quite tamed now, and her Rommy - I want to know what is going on in the library - game... just sweet.
how sweet, Arthur wants to join his Molly in death. He is soo sweet.
I do so hope that he will not have to. and that she will not have to do this.
Hermione saying farewelll to her parents. what a bitter jounrey, a what she will call her last visit. bruta. so sad.
he has no one to say goodbye to.
Minverva is writing letters.
Hagrid? well, he will say good bye to G....
Molly has her family around.
Very touching scenes.
and Severus asking her to come home, oh so sweet.
Now please be quick, and show us what happens at 2 o'clock!!
please!!
What does he mean with his appearance.
have faith!
She worked that out already!!
And how dare he say anything about their "relationship" whatever it may be.
He is so mixed in it, the planner and plotter and everything.
grr.
At least he gave Severus his blessings. sort of.
And he made away with the awful thing hanging between them about his death and guilt or not guilt.
I liked that. Him thanking Severus.
That was the best about his visit, Ifeel.
ah, so they have to take the Horocrux itemst with them through the veil. But how does she mean that they don't have to die then? er?
coming back isn't possible, I thought?
Hagrid will have to kill Nagingi, did I get this right?
Hermione has to give Severus time to run, and when all is done, and Nagini dead, and Harry seperated form his Scar then
HE will KILL HERMIONE??
WHAT IS THAT!???
Why? what for?
Did he make an unbrakable Vow?
About her in person? or about the person he would find fit for the job. And with whom did he make the vow?
urgh, that is soo ugly.
This man!!!
poor Minerva, she took it like a really powerful strong Lady.
wow.
I don't understand. The deatheaters are trying to kill all those who could free or undo the horocruxes? But if they do,then the Horocuxes will be destroyd, I thought?
So it must be the way the people die, that destroys the Horocruxes?
Still in the dark about that.
And poor Hermione had to be veeery strong here. "In what position is he?" well, very often inside her .. mind...
nice chapter again.
It’s not actually impossible to lie about love to someone who has the evidence of your broken soul emblazoned over her heart, but it really is the height of bad taste.
I can't belive it!
He took her on the floor, then, when she cried these black tears? I didn't realise. oops.
and now he wants her love to be safed, but can not provide any love of his own. Tragic.
good hit, Hermione.
I am all caught up now, having somehow lost track of this story. The complications just suck the reader in, don't they? You have to work at understanding, but only because it's richly complicated and savoury. I do hope you come back and finish it.
I love your words are like slow drops of rain....wonderful!! Your Snaape already makes me cry....Alan Rickmans face as he is portraying Severus killing Dumbledore is one of the saddest scenes ever. you have beautifully captured the afetr effects...
I love it I already LOVE it!!
Now things really begin to heat up.
I know Tayet will play a crucial role (hopefully in keeping Hermione alive and/or healing Severus' torn soul that he be able to love again) before all this is done.
Brilliant idea to drop the Horcruxes through the veil. I hope Wormtail's prosthetic hand will be able to pierce it since it is not living flesh, only animated by Voldemort's magic and Wormtail's intent. I suppose intent is the key word here.
Wonderful update, I was beginning to wonder if I would get the chance to finish reading this beautifully written story, because not to would have been a tragedy.
I am completely in love with this story. Thanks for the wonderful update, I can't wait for more.
Phoenix magic is very powerful. :)
Very good, Love the new Phoenix. Looking forward to more.
I think this chapter is key to everything that follows. It's taken a while, but I think I get it. The inclusion of Hermanubis as a healer made the formula so perfect there could not be one name as a solution...it had to be both, but not either/or...it had to be you in the plural. But, because the whole is much greater than the sum of the parts, the prediction of death went up in flames and the phoenix was born. This inverted the passion, desperation, and sacrifice of the formula and its conclusion on the parchment into the faith, hope, and love represented in the phoenix. It is so perfect the way Tayet reflects both the light and the dark of Herminone and Severus combined. Severus' despair, but at the same time rejecting it by tearing off his many-buttoned frockcoat. The spontaneous appearance of both Hermione's and Severus' patronuses. Awe, playfulness, healing, and nurturing. Hermione going back to planning and researching, taking charge, and sending Severus to collect fireflys (nurturing). This is story telling at its best.
Funny, poignant, and a phoenix.
"I'm to stay here while I research. Um...uninterrupted....orders....I have orders."
"It's an acquired taste"...."Dark, bitter, enervating." Sounds a lot like "tall, dark, and brooding."
The agony of getting the formula to work and the wait.....almost unbearable.
The wonder of the birth of a new phoenix....beautiful
Funny, poignant, and a phoenix.
"I'm to stay here while I research. Um...uninterrupted....orders....I have orders."
"It's an acquired taste"...."Dark, bitter, enervating." Sounds a lot like "tall, dark, and brooding."
The agony of getting the formula to work and the wait.....almost unbearable.
The wonder of the birth of a new phoenix....beautiful