Chapter Fourteen
Chapter 14 of 36
sweetflagDespite her obvious terror, Dumbledore puts his plan into motion, and both have to face their own demons as an individual is destroyed to resurrect another.
Reviewed"Ah," crooned a teasingly familiar voice, "you're awake."
Her eyes, after much coercion, focused on a bearded face with twinkling, piercing blue eyes and a concerned expression. Grimacing as bile rose up into her mouth, she tried to swallow, but her mouth was painfully dry. The acid burnt, and with it came rolling, growing waves of nausea. She knew that face! The details eluded her, just as the face of that haggard-looking man had paralysed her while some instinct had demanded that she run. She moaned softly and closed her eyes. Tears threatened, but she'd learnt a long time ago that they were a waste, and all that occurred to indicate her distress was the almost painful sting in her eyes and one stifled, dry sob. Despising feeling weak, she tried to summon the anger, the hate that had fuelled her for so long, but it was gone. She opened her eyes and looked up at the cracked, stained ceiling.
"We restrained you with the Malleus." Dumbledore saw her eyes widen slightly. "Ah, I see that you are familiar with the curse."
She wanted to shake her head in denial, becoming increasingly terrified that she couldn't summon the disbelief and ignorance that she would have expected. Somehow, she knew what he had meant; understood the unfamiliar word. Who was this man? Why did she thrum with terror and yet yearn to cleave to him as if he were some long-sought saviour?
"As you will know, then, the curse is debilitating, but will dissipate with time." He stood and loomed over her. "Time that you should spend considering your position, Ophelia."
That name! Ophelia. She felt her eyes bulge and her breath catch in her throat. It was like an answer to a question she hadn't known she was asking. Part panicking and part jubilant, she looked deeply into the man's eyes. Something flickered in those glistening blue depths only to evaporate too quickly to define, and she found that it heightened her dread and desperation just as it crushed her rising joy. In turn, he seemed to bore into her mind; his gaze was startlingly intense, and under his scrutiny, she felt exposed and raw.
"I can understand that this is a terrifying ordeal for you." His deep voice cracked with the effort of restraining some emotion. "I can only offer you the comfort that what we do will benefit many, yourself included."
Upon his soft words that surely hid his evil intent, she found that her mind was flooded with scraps of tattered memories, of dreams and nightmares that she had thought long buried. His face was there in amongst the carnage of wrecked thoughts. She shuddered and felt herself heave, at which point the bizarre mental cascade ceased, and all she had to focus on were the sounds of their breathing. He had averted his gaze and was staring blankly at the dark, stained duvet. Any sounds or words she wanted to make struggled and died in her reluctant throat. After what felt like an age, he turned back to her, smiling sadly, and his eyes seemingly less penetrating but glistening all the more.
"We have something for you to drink." His face contorted at the fear flaring in her eyes. "I have sat many a night, wondering if there was another way, wondering if this vile act is absolutely necessary, and I have to say that I cannot find an argument potent enough to stay my hand."
Inside, she screamed and writhed; inside, she begged and pleaded; inside, she withered and died.
"I can promise you that you will be released; you will find peace with yourself."
I'm going to die, her mind screamed. This man is going to kill me! No! No! Please... no! Please! Help me! Someone! No!
The bearded man, who looked so serene and gentle as he sat on the edge of the bed, pulled out what looked like a black bulb vase from his inner breast pocket. He looked at it, and his expression was so calm, as if it were nothing more sinister than a cup of warm milk, and he was about to tell a bedtime story.
Get away! Let me go!
She tried to move, tried to slither away, but whatever thing held her was too strong. Nerves stretched to breaking point, her eyes fixed on the strange black vase held delicately in his thin fingers. Her tears, streaming down her face, were the only things free to move.
"You will drink this before the others arrive; they must remain blameless."
No; please don't! I don't know what you want! I don't know! Why? No! No! Oh God! No! Why? Why? Why?
The terror was overwhelming, and her head felt that it would burst under the pressure of her thoughts and mental pleas and cries. With a thundering deep within her chest and sweat running in rivulets from her body, she watched and wept as he leant forward and gently slid a hand behind her neck. As he placed the lip of the bottle against her lips, he tugged tenderly, lifting her head so that it tilted back.
Why me? Who are you? Bastard! Get it away! Stop! Don't hurt me! Oh God! Don't kill me ... please ... no .... Stop!
"I cannot ask for forgiveness; indeed, I do not require it, but I do hope that in time, you will understand why I have to do this." His voice was barely a whisper, but in her fear and terror, her senses seemed amplified and immense.
No... no... no... no ...... no!
Her vision blurred with copious tears, and her mind exploded, leaving mental numbness as the cold liquid poured into her mouth, and her treacherous throat swallowed.
Oh sweet Merlin! ... No.... Merlin?
Never mind ... hush! Let me come back! It's been so long! So long.... back...
Who are you?
I'm Ophelia, dear Veronica; and my dear... I was here first!
Lost in the sight of her eyelids fluttering closed, squeezing the last tears from her lashes, and how her frantic breaths slowed, he failed to register the first knock on the door. At the second, more insistent rap, he slowly lowered her head and released his grip on her neck. Waving a hand, the lock clicked open, and he fancied that there was a longer pause than necessary before the door swung open. Glancing up, he saw Minerva standing straight and focused and Lupin silhouetted in the doorframe.
"The potion will take several hours to have an effect, and then, according to what we know, take a few days to run its course," Dumbledore said as he eased himself up off the bed. "I expect that she will suffer as her memories germinate and evolve; it will be distressing for you to watch."
"Severus explained it," Minerva said soothingly.
Dumbledore nodded solemnly. "We have a very limited idea of who she was and is now; the woman she will become is beyond our ability to fathom. Be careful and wary!" he warned sternly. "Poppy has been told that she may be needed, but other than that, she knows nothing; therefore, be assured that she is available, but only if you need her. Severus is also prepared for any emergencies that may occur due to a reaction to the potion. I will send Alastor up shortly. Please take care...of her and yourselves." He smiled reassuringly at them both and then swept out of the room; the door clicking shut behind him was a relief. He met Moody on the stairs, the grim Auror bristling and wand at the ready.
"Well?" Moody queried sternly.
"I doubt that she remembers much at all; the memories I managed to catch are few and fractured. She has an intuitive grasp of magic; she knows that she can do things that others cannot, and she has mastered the art of using it." Dumbledore spoke quickly and simply; the last few minutes with her had been incredibly draining. "To her, the dreams and nightmares that have teased and plagued her are mere fancies and not the memories of her former life. The adjustment will be harsh."
"Yer think that she will help us?"
"Alastor, dear friend," he said, placing his arm across the shorter man's shoulders as they stood on the stairs. "One thing that we have learnt about Ophelia Black is that she is an incredibly intelligent and sensible woman. She will help us because the consequences of not aiding us are terrible."
"Aye," Moody agreed sadly.
"Choice is a liberty for us all; we must do what we must do." Dumbledore paused and looked up at the shadowed door and the mystery behind it. "We have her and Tom does not, and if that is all the good that comes of this then we must cling to that; how she wishes to move from here is up to her. It is a choice of sorts...not a fair one or an easy one...and, most likely, it will be the last choice she will have." He stroked his beard and smiled sadly. "We face the future better armed and prepared, and hopefully, we will live to regret the cost; but for now, we will be content with what we have."
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48 Reviews | 2.29/10 Average
I'm so glad that the random story widget sent me to this story. I've barely put it down since I started reading yeaterday, forever wanting to see what little gem you'd reveal next. I love how you twisted things with varying viewpoints so that we never really know 'the truth' about the past until Ophelia/Veronica's memories are restored.I'd like to imagine that when Severus got up and walked out of the Shrieking shack, he Apparated straight to Whitehaven.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello. I am sorry about not replying sooner. Thank you for the review. This was my first fanfic, and I enjoyed writing it...and I'm glad you liked it.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello. I am sorry about not replying sooner. Thank you for the review. This was my first fanfic, and I enjoyed writing it...and I'm glad you liked it.
Beautiful ending, although I wish you'd left her relationship with Severus a little less open-ended! You imply plenty for me to assume what I want, though. ;) I'm glad you sort of split the difference. I think that was really her best option.I have to admit you've put me over a barrel, now. I'm working on a story where a potion called Lethe's Milk is going to be used. Perhaps I should rename it... or not, LOL. I could come up with another name that similar to something another author uses, too.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I am so thrilled that the ending was alright. I must admit to liking those scenes/stories that give you lots to think about... and I didn't want to set them up together cosy and secure... maybe in a sequel? Please don't rename the potion. I love creating new potions--my biochemistry heritage, methinks.I think the nail has been hit on the head there... I've come across names and places and things that are similar to what I've done or doing. My plan is to hope that no one notices... :P Thank you for staying with this to the bitter end... :)
Oh, what a choice! To face life on its terms or to go to a sterile environment where she wouldn't have any of the pain but would also miss some great joy as well. I don't envy her.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
What's better not knowing, eh? :DLast chapter coming up. I'm rather sad to be ending it, and I hope it doesn't do a disservice to your time and effort in reading it.
I had wondered how it was going to be possible to fool Sirius with Ophelia in the house. Now I understand. Poor everyone, dealing with so much pain. Hopefully, as Minerva noticed, now that everyone knows Voldemort is back, somthing better can happen.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I thought about writing some huge and inescapable series of events that meant Ophelia was out of the way and the house quiet, but, as I have experienced, one event can push us into being absent from our surroundings and those around us--we make it happen sometimes.Thank you for the review
Aw... Arthur and Molly can be so cute.Poor Dumbledore and Moody, though, forced to witness the unimaginable.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello :DThank you,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
.Three more chapters to go... and then the end.
Oh, poor Auror Smith. Somehow I think he got his pound of flesh, challenging Voldemort's very deepest-held phobias in front of his minions.And Ophelia finally finds herself in Severus's arms. Delicious.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Yes, I think Smith got more out of it than Voldemort.You liked that scene: Ophelia and Severus? I fretted and sweated about it. I don't generally write that kind of thing. I'm much happier writing about doom, gloom and angst.Thank you, and I hope you like how this ends.
I like watching her thoughts evolve. That Molly is pretty smart, but she's been through war, herself.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello. Thanks for the review... and still being here. Things are going terribly at the moment, and all I can offer is that this story will be finished; the when is open to debate. Molly, like so many of the women in the books, is a neglected character.
Finally, were are getting somewhere, somewhere where I want this story to be. I hope that Veronica will always be deep inside, gently guiding her thoughts and passions. Even more than Molly, I think that's what was the cayalyst in the kitchen that night that finally dropped the scales from their eyes.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
!I'm so thrilled you're still reading this; it has been an age since I was able to write anything. I'm so thankful. It has taken them a while... thank heavens for Molly!
A lot of things are coming together, here, between the canon and the story. If Sirius leaves the house to go to the Ministry battle, that will complicate matters with Ophelia, who wasn't supposed to be left in the house alone. Hmm... there are other complications there, too. I'm eager to see what you do with it all.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review and your thoughts. :)
I gather the the battle at the Ministry is imminent. I'll be glad to be rid of Sirius Black.I hope there will be lots more of Severus and Ophelia, it's about time time he has some joy and a sense of belonging to someone or something.You said this is HBP compliant, I can live with that. Is it DH compliant? I love it when someone rewrites JKR's ridiculous ending for Snape and has him survive. He deserved so much better than the end she gave him, the whole plot of the series ended up hinging on him and she wrote him as if he were a minor character who didn't deserve a future.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Your wish regarding Sirius shall be granted. It's all winding up for the end, yes.The story won't run right up to the end of HBP, so it's compliant to that point. DH is moot with regards to this tale.I agree, and no matter how many times I read the last three books, I can't shift the idea that JKR had to change pretty much most of what she had planned to pen.I've done three (I think :S) stories where he survives by various means, so I also find his death to be an annoyance. Thank you for the review and still being here :D It's much appreciated.
Severus was pretty evil there, but it was a calculated risk and it seems to have worked, at least somewhat. I can't believe Rookwood got the drop on Smith like that. Smith should have looked for whatever Rookwood was searching for and gotten it from him. Life is going to get harder for Moody, now, I bet.I could clobber Sirius, but it's too soon for Severus and Ophelia, anyway. They need to wait until they don't need her information so much any more.I love your descriptions of the action. I always feel like I am in a Pensieve with you.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review :) Even the best get caught out. Moody will suffer as a result of this.Yeah... I could clobber Sirius, but JKR got to him first. To be fair, he is trying to be fair and decent.Thank you for the lovely compliment... it's like the ultimate caffeine boost. If only it could get all my real life work done for me. Oh well.
Severus's method was harsh, but it was probably the only way to sucessfully help her. Ironically she had to be blind to find her way out. I'm glad he was able to get through to her.Where does an a-- h--- like Sirius get the right to tell Severus to take his hands off her? What a jerk! He can't get past his own problems to help her, but Severus could add helping her to all the other responsibilities on his shoulders. I hope that Severus and Ophelia can find more thanfriendly solace in one another. I also hope that you plan this to be canon compliant through the battle at the Ministry and non compliant at the end of the Battle at Hogwarts.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I just couldn't imagine Snape being anything else. I tried the sympathetic and caring approach, and I was grimacing as I wrote it. Snape is harsh, and to be honest, I think that Ophelia appreciated his method--she wouldn't have accepted kindness from him.Well... I guess that Sirius is losing so much that he's feeling more possessive and territorial than ever. This is HBP compliant--obviously with some additions--so you know some of the outcomes of this story already.Thanks again for reading my saga :)
I can't remember which was the last chapter you sent me and many of the things i had saved were lost when my computer was fried in a power outage power surgelast spring and didn't make it to the new computer, so I will pick up from here.Sirius is far to selfish and self centered to ever be of help to her, he always has been that way.Dumbledore is a control freak and his ego makes him feel that only he can save the wizarding world, even after death. He has gotten himself to the point where he's fooling himself if he thinks he even has the capacity to really care about anyone except for how they can be used by him to further his plan.He is right though, Severus is the only one who can really help Ophelia. As Moody said, she has no frame of reference and Severus can provide her with that and a lot more, I hope.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
:) I can't rememeber what I sent either; my computer met a nasty end too, and I'm reconstructing chapters and adding in new ones.Odd, isn't it? But Sirius and Dumbledore are set up as the good guys?! This story is going very slowly at the minute, and I'm hoping that in the new year things will be easier.Thanks for staying with the story and the review :)
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Oh, hurrah! So great to see this fic still going.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! It's going slowly at the minute... but it will be finished. This story brought me here... lol... and taught me grammar :D
Thank you for the review and the boost.
Severus had to at least have guessed more than he's been letting on in the present day. Gruesome as it was, I'm sure all those order people probably approved of what she did.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I apologise for the lull in this story. This will be finished, but not until some things are resolved at this end.Thank you for reading the story and all the reviews :)
Well there goes my guess about who her father was. Interesting thoughts about what made Regulus go "bad".
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I'm sorry about the long gap between posts. My computer went 'technical', and I lost a significant amount of work. This chapter was constructed from various emails and handwritten notes.May I ask who you thought her father was?Thank you so much for staying with this story, and thanks for the review :)
Response from Rose of the West (Reviewer)
I had originally thought her father would turn out to be "Uncle Tom". since I couldn't think of a reason he would be so affectionate toward her.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Once I'd logged out, I had the idea that Uncle Tom would be the number one suspect.Tom has his reasons for his affection.Thanks for reading and staying with this story :)
She's thirteen at this point? Quite precocious. I take it these are memories that Ophelia is showing Veronica?
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thanks for the review. She's thirteen at this point, yes. These memories are those that are resurfacing as Ophelia is answering Dumbledore's questions. They're really to provide some background information, tie in some canon information, and bring everyone up to date with the present day.
I'm very confused now.Why does Dumbledore accuse her of being a Death Eater at the beginning of the chapter and why was he acting so contemptuously? She doesn't seem to me to be a Death Eater. She is now willing to tell him everything she knows about Horcruxes, that doesn't sound like a loyal Death Eater to me.When is Snape going to make another appearance?
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I'm sorry to confuse you.They really don't know anything about her; their investigations yielded a very vague and contradictory image of Ophelia/Veronica. In short, they have to think that she's a Death Eater while hoping that she's not.You know what Ophelia is like, but they have not seen or understood the battle that she's had while coming together. Also, it's a way to get the rest of the story out :D, and there is a lot yet to say about Ophelia. She did allow people to die to gain her freedom from everything--why?Dumbledore has been very keen to give Ophelia the benefit of the doubt, and he's just testing the waters, and I think that after so many years, he'd be better at seeing what was in front of him rather than relying solely upon Legilimency.In this instance, trust Dumbledore. Would she, after everything, trust the friendly, open hand? Or would the harsh and bitter reality of everything be more acceptable?I just thought, I never sent this chapter to you, did I? Eeek! I was so busy with the run-up to Christmas that it went right out of my head... my apologies for that.Snape will make another appearance. I'll send a summary of the remaining chapters.
That wasn't a direction I expected to go, but now it seems so obvious. Dealing with the Horcruxes is more important than anything else, really.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
The books suggest that the concept of Horcruxes had bothered Dumbledore since the end of 'Chamber of Secrets'. The idea prompted him to seek out Horcruxes in the six week holiday between years five and six, i.e. after this story which runs up to the end of OoTP.It's the most prominent starting point for them as far as Dumbledore is concerned.. the rest will be dealt with later.Thank you for reviewing :)
I see nososaintly felt the same as I did. That's why I told you I may have missed something when I read it through the second time. What was going on was too compelling to bother about grammar or anything else. You achieved exactly what you set out to do in that passage with Sirius. I'm glad I'm not prone to nightmares, if I were that would have given me a humdinger of a nightmare.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I never thought of that! I wonder... Write that well that I could pass myself of as being decent with grammar by bamboozling with a distracting plot.... hmmm. I feel so warm and fuzzy about the wonderful reviews; I feel all spurred on and encouraged--I can't thank people enough for their effort and kind thoughts. This fanfic was my very first, and for some reason, I worry and fret, panic and suffer with it.The whole site has been nurturing... *sniffles*Thanks for the review,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
... I'm off to conjure up chapter twenty!
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I never thought of that! I wonder... Write that well that I could pass myself of as being decent with grammar by bamboozling with a distracting plot.... hmmm. I feel so warm and fuzzy about the wonderful reviews; I feel all spurred on and encouraged--I can't thank people enough for their effort and kind thoughts. This fanfic was my very first, and for some reason, I worry and fret, panic and suffer with it.The whole site has been nurturing... *sniffles*Thanks for the review,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
... I'm off to conjure up chapter twenty!
You've already had all my comments and know what I think about this chapter, so I won't repear them except to tell you that I thought this chapter was excellently written and that I was happy to look it over for you before it was posted.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thanks for that,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
. Altering the story has been both thrilling and terrifying, and as such, I'm happy and relieved that it's been all for the good of the story. It's opened new avenues of thought and challenging concepts--I just hope that I can do the plot justice now! Thank you for your advice and guidance :)
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thanks for that,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
. Altering the story has been both thrilling and terrifying, and as such, I'm happy and relieved that it's been all for the good of the story. It's opened new avenues of thought and challenging concepts--I just hope that I can do the plot justice now! Thank you for your advice and guidance :)
I liked the conflict between her two sides. I showed that Veronica has a very controlling personality and that the unknown side of Ophelia may be the good side. She Imperiused Topliss and had himfake her death and hide her identity to get away from Voldemort so there must be some good in her.Oddly, I only just picked up on the name Veronica Speedwell. It never struck me while the earlier creeping speedwell was blooming, but now that my other types of veronica are blooming or about to come into bloom I finally caught on.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review :) It was difficult for me to try to formalise some logic behind the situation... Ophelia had been, for want of a better term, 'put on hold' while the new personality of Veronica was allowed to develop, so they sort of existed side by side. When Ophelia was summoned via the potion, it seemed reasonable that there would be two distinct minds left to squabble. I'm not a psychologist, the only thing I know is how to spell it, and the theory may be so off track as to be laughable, but I enjoyed the disparity and the scenes that it engendered... that's my reason and I'm sticking to it!It means a great deal that the name has been discovered... I had Veronica from the start, and it was when I was sipping coffee, just over a year ago, that 'speedwell' caught my eye--it was the flower decorating my mug. Odd how that happens, eh? I was left wondering just how much was down to coincidence... after that, I spent more time thinking about the other names... had so much fun on 'Babies' names' websites... lol.I am so glad that you're still with the story, thank you.I'm working on a Snape chapter, a new chapter eighteen, and it ain't 'arf givin' me grief... lol. When this was first written, I was so intent on finishing it, but now that the pressures have gone and I am more comfortable, I want to fill it out and add the little touches that will hopefully make it more appealing. There was a scene involving Onesiphorus that was removed to keep this from escalating into some huge beast, but I will write it now... ... ooops! I ramble, sorry. Thank you again :)
I was going to say that this reminded me of 'The Exorcist', but then I figured that this is an exocism in and of itself and Voldemort is the demon who must be cast out of her mind body and soul.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review. It's interesting how another viewpoint can make you just stop and stare... I hadn't seen it quite like that before. Thank you, again :)
There's not much that can be said about this chapter. The only thing I can do is just what they are doing, just wait and see how it all works out.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review. I hope that I'm not slipping... *looks worried* I do find writing certain scenes/genres to be quite tough at times... if you think that the chapter needs some more work, then I'd love any comments. Having the reviews helps me to improve, and as this was my first fanfic, I can appreciate that it may be quite rough. The next chapters are being beta read; I hope to upload pretty soon. Thank you for sticking with the story :)
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Sorry, but as an aside... your reviews seem to be duplicated... I'm not sure why they're being duplicated, some glitch, perhaps? :D
Response from Trickie Woo (Reviewer)
I tried to respond to you about an hour and a half ago and I see my response didn't make it through.First, there was no problem with the writing or the content of the chapter. I was expressing my emotional reaction to what Dumbledore had to do. Obviously it had to be done and there is nothing I, or any of your characters, can do about it, so I will just have to sit back and wait to see how things work themselves out.Second, I had problems posting reviews on TPP last night. The one I wrote after I wrote this one didn't show up at all, I had to go back this afternoon and rewrite it and it finally did show up. I have no idea what happened that caused my review to become duplicated. I figured that TPP was working on the system and they must still be since the first response I wrote didn't show up.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for that :D I guess that I'm still a very nervous writer.I had no idea the pains you were going to to review this; I am so humbled. I mentioned in an earlier response that I was thinking of writing more Snape-centric chapters... consider that a given, as a thanks for your efforts. Thank you :)
That's an intersting theory about the dark mark and how it keeps him in tune with all his death Eaters. It sounds quite logical to me.As for the rest of the chapter, the plot still has too many convolutions for me to figure anything out yet, but given time I'm sure I will.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for reviewing. Logical and rather nasty in my opinion *shudders* imgaine not even being allowed to keep your emotions and deepest thoughts private. I hope that you continue to enjoy it :)