Chapter Thirty three
Chapter 33 of 36
sweetflagEvents begin to stretch and challenge the Order. Minerva is struck down by Umbridge's Aurors, and Moody finds out what happened to Smith. At Grimmauld Place, there is a moment of levity and respite between Molly and Ophelia.
ReviewedMolly wiped the tears from her cheek with the back of her hand and sniffed loudly. Through watering eyes, she looked up and away from the source of her torment and caught sight of Ophelia standing in the garden.
“She’ll catch her death!” she muttered, noting the fine but determined drizzle drenching the courtyard.
Clucking under her breath, Molly swiftly decided that the old-fashioned way was that way for a reason and dropped the knife into the sink as she pulled her wand free. Looking down, she glared at the onions and sliced her wand through the air. The glistening white orbs fell apart into small, neatly chopped cubes.
Directing the chopped onions into a bowl, Molly quickly freshened herself and the kitchen up and removed her apron. Oddly, her urge to get the woman in from the cold rain fled when her hand gripped the door handle. Earlier in the month, Arthur had almost accused her of ‘interfering’, insisting she be careful around Ophelia. His words had been quite wounding: as if I’m a meddling busy-body!
But there had been something in his advice. She remembered the strange look in Ophelia’s eye when they’d bickered over a Cottage Pie. Frowning, she forced her hand down until the door clicked open. Ophelia was more settled now; she certainly smiled more over the last few days. It was silly to be worried, but…. Her hand slipped from the handle. Was this something she should involve herself with?
It was quite understandable to be wary of her—Ophelia had been a devotee of the Dark Lord and his arts—and there was something about the young woman which seemed to deter any kind of relationship. Not that she was rude or unhelpful. Ophelia, in recent weeks, had been a Godsend, helping her tend to the Order members who had trudged through, either hungry or in need of healing. Whatever Molly had asked her to do, she had done. Neither could Molly sense any bitterness or resentment in Ophelia for doing such tasks.
While she pondered, she walked back to the window. Her boys knew she could see a lie a mile away, and it wasn’t through Legilimency; it was because she used her eyes and watched. In Ophelia’s stance, she saw someone lost in thoughts, trying to find a way through. Molly shuddered at what could be going through the witch’s mind. Not that she had much to help her construct any ideas. Ophelia was a mystery, one that Dumbledore had made almost impossible to solve.
Behind her, the house was quiet. It was designed to hold silence and concentrate it. At the Burrow, the smallest sound echoed joyously from room to room, but here, sound was trapped, smothered… deadened. Suddenly, Molly craved sound, some noise that life was still going on and that she was a part of it. In the end, it was selfishness that broke down her reservations.
“Ophelia, dear,” she called from the doorway, pulling her cardigan around her, shielding herself against the fine rain. “Come in before you catch cold.”
Tea has always been an important support and prop: a brew and a ceremony that could mend wounds, heal rifts, soften mood, ease tension and put the world to rights. There was something so homely and unthreatening about it, and it was a familiar ritual, ignoring boundaries and bringing everyone to a common level. In times past, it had been a soothing action to keep her mind sane as the world collapsed, and now it helped to create a small cocoon where two women could sit, drink tea and gossip.
But Ophelia wasn’t drinking. Her appetite for tea was as remote as her mind. Molly watched those delicate pale fingers gently drum against the mug and how her compressed lips moved, as though they were desperate to declare some amazing truth. And then she saw it. She saw through Ophelia’s lie. It was difficult to hide her smirk. At last, Molly felt superior.
oXoArthur paused. He knew that laugh. It held undertones to make him blush and overtones keyed to inspire caution. When a woman laughed like that, it was at the expense of men. He hung his coat up and smiled gently despite his concern. It was good to hear laughter in this house, and it thrilled him to hear it coming from his wife’s throat. As he walked to the kitchen, he wondered who was sharing such levity with Molly. As his hand touched the handle, realisation made his scalp tingle and palms sweat. Oh Merlin! He’d never be able to look Ophelia in the eye again.
“Good evening, Molly… Ophelia.” That wasn’t so bad; Ophelia had the good grace not to smirk. He bent down to kiss Molly on the cheek and noticed how her lips quivered and her eyes sparkled with lascivious glee. He straightened and coughed gently. No, he mused, this wasn’t bad at all.
It was a very strange but lovely turnabout. The last time he’d seen them in the kitchen, there had been a nasty tension in the air, and he’d felt obliged to diffuse it before it escalated into something terrible. Now, they worked together to prepare dinner. It was as though the house had been given a good airing. And it soothed Arthur.
A fresh cup of tea was placed before him, and he was surprised to see Ophelia smiling down at him; he returned the smile, thanking her and easing forward to pick up the welcomed drink. Over the rim of the mug, he watched the way she moved around the kitchen and leant in to listen to Molly. A smile played around her lips, and her eyes, when he had caught them with his own, reflected a newfound gaiety and lightness. He turned his attention to Molly, who was basking in Ophelia’s attention and presence. Oh, he knew what had made his wife laugh like that and what now bound these two women; he just wondered who had brought it about. The mug stopped on the way back to the table and his eyebrows twitched upwards when his mind offered a candidate. He eased back in the chair and smirked, hiding it behind the Daily Prophet.
Dinner had been the happiest she’d had in a while. Arthur had followed Molly and treated her like one of the family, and Sirius had seemingly caught their good mood, adding to the feeling of camaraderie. Molly chatted about her children, sharing her joy and concerns, Arthur divulged his love of all things Muggle, and Ophelia found that she could excite and dazzle him further—until Molly shushed them. Between forkfuls, Sirius joined in, sharing some of his ideas and glowing with some newfound energy and purpose. Obviously, the last few days with Remus had lifted his spirits. Ophelia didn’t mention the cries she’d heard, but they seemed to have released a torrent of pain, leaving Sirius lighter; he had found some relief, and she was glad.
Ophelia surprised herself by sharing some of her stories; she told them of Mrs Mathieson, of her life in Whitehaven in a one-bedroom Council flat, and her constant need to find something that she couldn’t define. She knew now what it was, but she kept that secret to herself… Molly knew though—her smirk said as much.
The meal was rounded off with coffee, and soon, they went their separate ways; Ophelia was none too surprised by Arthur and Molly’s rapid departure, and she giggled at the blush Arthur flashed when she caught his eye on the way out. Sirius had excused himself soon afterwards, leaving Ophelia to the pile of dishes. The sudden emptiness was quite daunting, but she accepted it. She knew she wouldn’t be empty again.
oXo“How is she?” Dumbledore asked even before Snape had straightened from the fireplace.
Severus dragged a hand through his hair and faced Dumbledore’s almost frantic anxiety. “She’ll be fine; Poppy is transferring Minerva to St Mungos in the morning.”
Severus watched him sink into an armchair and stare up at him with a pained expression. The shadows seemed to grow around them, swallowing the very air in the sitting room. Outside, rain battered at the small leaded windows, and a wind howled down the chimney.
“I doubt it reflects the severity of her injuries,” Severus soothed. “Umbridge was eager to question Minerva, so Poppy arranged the transfer to help frustrate her plans. Although…” he added quietly, his throat constricting with emotion—he could still see the stunners striking and sending her arcing through the air, “I believe the rest will help Minerva’s recovery; at the school, she’ll feel compelled to return to her duties sooner than is wise.”
Dumbledore scrutinised the wan face before him and knew that Severus had feared the very worst—they all had. He glanced down to his own trembling hands: he had too. It had been inevitable. He knew this, but knowing it would happen and then seeing it realised in the attack on Minerva were two entirely different things.
“I cannot stay long,” Snape said urgently, interrupting Dumbledore’s thoughts. “Several Death Eaters have been assigned the task of breaking into the Department of Mysteries.” Dumbledore stiffened and Snape swallowed. “From the level of agitation within the ranks, I suspect they’ll do it soon: over the next few days.”
They both paused; they knew what it meant. Voldemort was after the prophecy. While they studied each other’s faces, seeing the shared realisation, Dumbledore saw Snape’s cheek spasm and noted a corresponding, sympathetic tremor in the dark man’s hands. He quickly dismissed querying it; he knew how the Cruciatus could linger, its pain echoing in abused muscles. The Dark Lord had once obviously remembered Snape’s incomplete rendition of the prophecy, and as he now pondered it, so his body remembered the Dark Lord’s retribution.
“I’ll keep the Order at the ready and alert those who’ll be watching over it.”
Dumbledore stared at the hearth long after Snape had disappeared in a green flash. He knew the Order would want to take the opportunity to destroy Voldemort; they would hasten to the Ministry, but Dumbledore knew one bitter truth they didn’t. Harry had to kill Voldemort… and to do that, he had to die. The thought stole his strength and composure, and he crumpled up in the chair, dry sobs wracking his body. The only thing they could do in the coming days was make it as difficult for Voldemort as possible until Harry was ready.
oXoMoody left the elevator, a deep scowl firmly in place. Rookwood had gone on sick leave, and no one had seen Smith for days. It galled him that no one seemed to care about his friend’s absence. No one should become so invisible that their disappearance caused no concern; no wonder Smith had been so hungry.
His metal leg clanked against the tiled floor of the foyer, and he hoped it echoed right down the very bowels of the Ministry. He hoped that each footfall rang out his anger and disappointment; he hoped it shamed them into action. Such was his anger that when a hand landed on his shoulder, he whirled around with a sneer, his eye swivelling grotesquely.
The owner of the hand stepped back, looking pale, but she’d known Moody for a long time and quickly restored her decorum. She’d been a receptionist at the Ministry for nearly fifty years, and she had dealt with Wizarding society at its best and worst: very little shocked her for long.
“Sorry, Maud,” he mumbled apologetically.
“I’ve never seen you so riled,” she replied cautiously, her keen, hazel eyes taking in his stern features and tense stance.
"Toothache,” he lied smoothly.
“I’m surprised you still have some of your own teeth left,” she quipped, ignoring his mock grimace.
“There’s a lot of the original me left, ye know,” he grumbled. “They weren’t that good.” He ignored her amused smirk. “What is it that yer want, Maud?”
Her smile evaporated, and she lifted a cream envelope. “It came late last night,” she said tightly, part in frustration and part with burning curiosity. “It’s charmed so that only you can open it.”
“Ye could tell that just by lookin’ at it?” he asked innocently.
“Let’s just say that a few of your fellow Aurors will have to use their teeth to cast spells for the next few hours.” Moody smirked, and she tried to school her face away from reciprocating. “I tried to trace it, but it failed.”
Moody’s humour slipped away. “Thanks, Maud.”
She knew that he meant more than just for delivering the letter; the Ministry didn’t have a policy of tracing letters. He carefully took it from her fingers, but she didn’t let go. Surprised, he looked up into her concerned eyes.
“Be careful,” she whispered.
He nodded gratefully. She knew how talented she was, and the letter being untraceable had no doubt alarmed her. He winked and grinned. “As I told ye, they aren’t that good.”
She smiled weakly and let him go.
Moody didn’t know why, but he went to Smith’s house. He turned on the lights, made a cup of tea and sat down, sipping the hot liquid and staring at the letter. It scared him. He feared what it contained because he was damned sure that it had something to do with Smith.
The cup was empty, and he could prevaricate no longer. Picking it up, he examined the envelope carefully, casting spells to elucidate more about it. It was remarkably plain—too plain. Traces had been magically stripped from it to make it as anonymous as possible. Placing it flat on the table, he used his wandtip to unseal and open it up. Something glinted in the light, and underneath, he could see the loops and curves of a written note.
Sick with nerves, he levitated the contents out: a handwritten note and a glass phial. His magical eye told him that the phial contained a memory—it was stained a subtle pink, indicating that it had been ripped from its host. Crushing down his despair, he focused on the note.
The Order will fall… just as this one has.
Short, sharp… sickening.
He needed anger… he needed hate. Without something, he’d never touch the phial.
Smith’s face loomed up, and with it came the needed emotion. With a scream, he grabbed the memory and Disapparated. His cry heralded his arrival, shocking Dumbledore from his thoughts of Minerva and the prophecy.
“Get that damned Pensieve of yers,” he yelled.
Dumbledore said nothing. He simply waved his hand and kept his eyes fixed on Moody’s wrathful face. From a small cupboard, the grey bowl flew smoothly to the coffee table. Moody fell to his knees, and Dumbledore slipped down next to him.
There was the merest hesitation, then Moody poured the silvery contents into the bowl, where they swirled and coiled as unpleasantly as his guts.
“Alastor…”
A blazing, blue eye fixed him in place. “Don’t dare ask if I want yer ‘elp… ye’re goin’ in with me, ye conniving bastard, whether ye like it or not.”
Shapes emerged from the grey mist: Smith, standing tall; a curve of masked Death Eaters; and the Dark Lord. Their gaze followed the chains attached to his ankles and brooms, before seeing the shared horror reflected in their eyes. The memory continued to unfurl, and the tiled courtyard rolled out, the tall spruces lining the distant paths bloomed, and the star-speckled sky covered them like a blanket. In the distance, they could make out the rounded domes of a forest. It was common to many Manor houses; it could be anywhere.
Moody and Dumbledore also caught sight of faint echoes over the image, as though other memories were superimposed. It explained the pink tinge to the liquid memory: this part of the memory had been forced out to join the one that had been intentionally extracted.
“You may not be aware,” Voldemort declared, punctuating the heavy silence, “but there was once a man—your namesake—who made a pilgrimage for the sake of his faith—much as you have done, if faith and duty were synonymous.”
Moody’s scowl deepened as he shot daggers at Voldemort. Around them, the Death Eaters muttered and shifted expectantly.
“I know of St Onesiphorus,” Smith responded bitterly.
Moody’s anger momentarily withered as shock took control; a whimper escaped his throat. He’d hoped he’d been wrong about the chains.
“I don’t know what’s after this, “ he continued in a low growl, “but I go there with grace and peace, and there ain’t nothin’ that ye can do to make me fear ye or cause me to bow one inch to ye.”
Moody let out a vicious snarl and clapped his hands together. “Ye hear ‘im,” he hissed, slapping Dumbledore on the shoulder. “Gods, Smith, ye’re a mad sod.”
“Ye fear it, dread it… ye fret to stop what must ‘appen to all men at the end of their span.”
They watched as Smith was knocked to the ground, where he writhed under the Cruciatus. Moody stiffened, pointing a trembling finger at the oblivious Dark Lord.
“Ye cannae make ‘im scream,” Moody roared. “’E’ll never give ye the satisfaction.”
Spittle flew from Moody’s lips as rage and fierce pride ran amok within him. Smith had been granted his wish: he was dying an Auror, and the Dark Lord couldn’t beat him.
The curse ended, and Voldemort swooped down upon the prostrate Auror, his breathing hard and rapid.
“I do not fear Death. I will be its master. You will not fear Death; you will fear me.”
“No one can escape Death,” Smith croaked. “’E’s a canny ‘unter, and ‘e’ll find ye as sure as ye will be brought down.”
They almost missed what Voldemort whispered into Smith’s ear, such was the roar of blood in their ears.
“Death could walk at my side and not do so much as caress my shoulder.”
From their vantage point, they saw Smith’s triumphant grin, and his allies silently applauded him.
“Ye arrogant toe-rag,” he gasped. “There ain’t no power to stop ‘im.”
Voldemort moved away and laughed softly. “There is. Every child knows of it. But even without it, I cannot be touched by Death. I have no need for whatever is ‘after this’, for there never will be anything other than this for me… for you.”
“Ye will die, and ye’ll die incomplete.”
Moody and Dumbledore stepped closer, eager to hear what was said; it had been orchestrated by Smith, after all—his dying wish that they know.
“You are a clever Auror. How many others know, I wonder?” The smug smile fell back into place. “No matter; not even my Death Eaters know what or where they are. The destruction of one has done me no harm—as you can plainly see!—and I have more important things to occupy my time. I will not concern myself, and you will die: alone, useless and unknown.”
They had the time to see the chains pull taut, and then their world became a confusing mix of soaring shapes and shadows. Despite standing still in Smith’s memory, they felt sick from the dizzying scene as it hurtled past them, their minds tricked into believing they were pulled along with Smith.
Moody wept as he caught sight of the approaching trees. From ahead, he heard the Death Eaters laugh, and then they dove between the boughs. He couldn’t block out the horrific thumps and thuds as Smith was dragged through the forest, hitting branch after branch after branch. Dumbledore had to delve down for reserves he doubted he possessed to keep from collapsing. They couldn’t go on, and they marvelled that Smith had suffered this and not cried out. Just when Dumbledore thought to end it, the riders pulled up into the sky, lifting them free of the treetops. They purposefully slowed so Smith could see what they were doing.
“Oh Merlin,” breathed Moody, his rage dying in his chest as he watched the very last moments of his friend’s life.
He looked down at the battered, bruised and broken body. He longed to reach out and hold him, to cradle him, to tell him all the things that old Aurors and friends do not tell each other. Smith was unrecognisable when his eyes finally blinked away enough tears for him to see clearly.
It was coming closer; soon it would be over. In the corner of his eye, he saw the brooms diverge and the chains moving apart in opposite directions.
Then, he heard it. What he had thought was the wind was gathering together to form words.
“Moody…”
Stifling a sob, he focused, leaning closer to catch his friend’s final words.
Smith cried out, using the last of strength to say what he longed to say. “I… di… die Auror.”
Then the chains pulled.
Dumbledore collapsed into the chair. Above him, he could hear Alastor breathing heavily and the creak of his boots as he swayed on the spot. They could still hear the wind screaming, the snapping twigs, the groaning boughs and each heavy impact. Above the smell of smoke from the fire, they caught the subtle smell of sweat, dirt and sap. It would haunt them for years.
Moody finally managed to cling to something: duty.
“Smith ‘elped us learn a bit more than we ever ‘oped to,” he ground out, forcing the words past his constricted throat.
Dumbledore closed his eyes and inhaled slowly. “He isn’t aware of the destruction of his Horcruxes.”
“Aye, and he’s confirmed that ‘e’s after the Hallows.”
After an uncomfortable pause, Dumbledore stood and waved his hand. Two glasses emerged from the air to hover between them. Moody reached inside his coat and removed his hipflask. He swallowed and blinked away a tear, then poured two healthy measures. The wizards took the tumblers and raised them high.
“To Smith,” Dumbledore uttered thickly.
“To the best and maddest of us all,” Moody said through clenched teeth. “E died like an old Auror, and Voldemort will grow to dread it.” He downed his whiskey in one, fiery gulp. “May ye have that peace, ye brave bastard. Ye earned it,” he added with a sob.
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48 Reviews | 2.29/10 Average
I'm so glad that the random story widget sent me to this story. I've barely put it down since I started reading yeaterday, forever wanting to see what little gem you'd reveal next. I love how you twisted things with varying viewpoints so that we never really know 'the truth' about the past until Ophelia/Veronica's memories are restored.I'd like to imagine that when Severus got up and walked out of the Shrieking shack, he Apparated straight to Whitehaven.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello. I am sorry about not replying sooner. Thank you for the review. This was my first fanfic, and I enjoyed writing it...and I'm glad you liked it.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello. I am sorry about not replying sooner. Thank you for the review. This was my first fanfic, and I enjoyed writing it...and I'm glad you liked it.
Beautiful ending, although I wish you'd left her relationship with Severus a little less open-ended! You imply plenty for me to assume what I want, though. ;) I'm glad you sort of split the difference. I think that was really her best option.I have to admit you've put me over a barrel, now. I'm working on a story where a potion called Lethe's Milk is going to be used. Perhaps I should rename it... or not, LOL. I could come up with another name that similar to something another author uses, too.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I am so thrilled that the ending was alright. I must admit to liking those scenes/stories that give you lots to think about... and I didn't want to set them up together cosy and secure... maybe in a sequel? Please don't rename the potion. I love creating new potions--my biochemistry heritage, methinks.I think the nail has been hit on the head there... I've come across names and places and things that are similar to what I've done or doing. My plan is to hope that no one notices... :P Thank you for staying with this to the bitter end... :)
Oh, what a choice! To face life on its terms or to go to a sterile environment where she wouldn't have any of the pain but would also miss some great joy as well. I don't envy her.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
What's better not knowing, eh? :DLast chapter coming up. I'm rather sad to be ending it, and I hope it doesn't do a disservice to your time and effort in reading it.
I had wondered how it was going to be possible to fool Sirius with Ophelia in the house. Now I understand. Poor everyone, dealing with so much pain. Hopefully, as Minerva noticed, now that everyone knows Voldemort is back, somthing better can happen.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I thought about writing some huge and inescapable series of events that meant Ophelia was out of the way and the house quiet, but, as I have experienced, one event can push us into being absent from our surroundings and those around us--we make it happen sometimes.Thank you for the review
Aw... Arthur and Molly can be so cute.Poor Dumbledore and Moody, though, forced to witness the unimaginable.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello :DThank you,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
.Three more chapters to go... and then the end.
Oh, poor Auror Smith. Somehow I think he got his pound of flesh, challenging Voldemort's very deepest-held phobias in front of his minions.And Ophelia finally finds herself in Severus's arms. Delicious.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Yes, I think Smith got more out of it than Voldemort.You liked that scene: Ophelia and Severus? I fretted and sweated about it. I don't generally write that kind of thing. I'm much happier writing about doom, gloom and angst.Thank you, and I hope you like how this ends.
I like watching her thoughts evolve. That Molly is pretty smart, but she's been through war, herself.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello. Thanks for the review... and still being here. Things are going terribly at the moment, and all I can offer is that this story will be finished; the when is open to debate. Molly, like so many of the women in the books, is a neglected character.
Finally, were are getting somewhere, somewhere where I want this story to be. I hope that Veronica will always be deep inside, gently guiding her thoughts and passions. Even more than Molly, I think that's what was the cayalyst in the kitchen that night that finally dropped the scales from their eyes.
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Hello
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
!I'm so thrilled you're still reading this; it has been an age since I was able to write anything. I'm so thankful. It has taken them a while... thank heavens for Molly!
A lot of things are coming together, here, between the canon and the story. If Sirius leaves the house to go to the Ministry battle, that will complicate matters with Ophelia, who wasn't supposed to be left in the house alone. Hmm... there are other complications there, too. I'm eager to see what you do with it all.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review and your thoughts. :)
I gather the the battle at the Ministry is imminent. I'll be glad to be rid of Sirius Black.I hope there will be lots more of Severus and Ophelia, it's about time time he has some joy and a sense of belonging to someone or something.You said this is HBP compliant, I can live with that. Is it DH compliant? I love it when someone rewrites JKR's ridiculous ending for Snape and has him survive. He deserved so much better than the end she gave him, the whole plot of the series ended up hinging on him and she wrote him as if he were a minor character who didn't deserve a future.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Your wish regarding Sirius shall be granted. It's all winding up for the end, yes.The story won't run right up to the end of HBP, so it's compliant to that point. DH is moot with regards to this tale.I agree, and no matter how many times I read the last three books, I can't shift the idea that JKR had to change pretty much most of what she had planned to pen.I've done three (I think :S) stories where he survives by various means, so I also find his death to be an annoyance. Thank you for the review and still being here :D It's much appreciated.
Severus was pretty evil there, but it was a calculated risk and it seems to have worked, at least somewhat. I can't believe Rookwood got the drop on Smith like that. Smith should have looked for whatever Rookwood was searching for and gotten it from him. Life is going to get harder for Moody, now, I bet.I could clobber Sirius, but it's too soon for Severus and Ophelia, anyway. They need to wait until they don't need her information so much any more.I love your descriptions of the action. I always feel like I am in a Pensieve with you.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review :) Even the best get caught out. Moody will suffer as a result of this.Yeah... I could clobber Sirius, but JKR got to him first. To be fair, he is trying to be fair and decent.Thank you for the lovely compliment... it's like the ultimate caffeine boost. If only it could get all my real life work done for me. Oh well.
Severus's method was harsh, but it was probably the only way to sucessfully help her. Ironically she had to be blind to find her way out. I'm glad he was able to get through to her.Where does an a-- h--- like Sirius get the right to tell Severus to take his hands off her? What a jerk! He can't get past his own problems to help her, but Severus could add helping her to all the other responsibilities on his shoulders. I hope that Severus and Ophelia can find more thanfriendly solace in one another. I also hope that you plan this to be canon compliant through the battle at the Ministry and non compliant at the end of the Battle at Hogwarts.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I just couldn't imagine Snape being anything else. I tried the sympathetic and caring approach, and I was grimacing as I wrote it. Snape is harsh, and to be honest, I think that Ophelia appreciated his method--she wouldn't have accepted kindness from him.Well... I guess that Sirius is losing so much that he's feeling more possessive and territorial than ever. This is HBP compliant--obviously with some additions--so you know some of the outcomes of this story already.Thanks again for reading my saga :)
I can't remember which was the last chapter you sent me and many of the things i had saved were lost when my computer was fried in a power outage power surgelast spring and didn't make it to the new computer, so I will pick up from here.Sirius is far to selfish and self centered to ever be of help to her, he always has been that way.Dumbledore is a control freak and his ego makes him feel that only he can save the wizarding world, even after death. He has gotten himself to the point where he's fooling himself if he thinks he even has the capacity to really care about anyone except for how they can be used by him to further his plan.He is right though, Severus is the only one who can really help Ophelia. As Moody said, she has no frame of reference and Severus can provide her with that and a lot more, I hope.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Hello
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
:) I can't rememeber what I sent either; my computer met a nasty end too, and I'm reconstructing chapters and adding in new ones.Odd, isn't it? But Sirius and Dumbledore are set up as the good guys?! This story is going very slowly at the minute, and I'm hoping that in the new year things will be easier.Thanks for staying with the story and the review :)
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Oh, hurrah! So great to see this fic still going.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! It's going slowly at the minute... but it will be finished. This story brought me here... lol... and taught me grammar :D
Thank you for the review and the boost.
Severus had to at least have guessed more than he's been letting on in the present day. Gruesome as it was, I'm sure all those order people probably approved of what she did.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I apologise for the lull in this story. This will be finished, but not until some things are resolved at this end.Thank you for reading the story and all the reviews :)
Well there goes my guess about who her father was. Interesting thoughts about what made Regulus go "bad".
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I'm sorry about the long gap between posts. My computer went 'technical', and I lost a significant amount of work. This chapter was constructed from various emails and handwritten notes.May I ask who you thought her father was?Thank you so much for staying with this story, and thanks for the review :)
Response from Rose of the West (Reviewer)
I had originally thought her father would turn out to be "Uncle Tom". since I couldn't think of a reason he would be so affectionate toward her.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Once I'd logged out, I had the idea that Uncle Tom would be the number one suspect.Tom has his reasons for his affection.Thanks for reading and staying with this story :)
She's thirteen at this point? Quite precocious. I take it these are memories that Ophelia is showing Veronica?
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thanks for the review. She's thirteen at this point, yes. These memories are those that are resurfacing as Ophelia is answering Dumbledore's questions. They're really to provide some background information, tie in some canon information, and bring everyone up to date with the present day.
I'm very confused now.Why does Dumbledore accuse her of being a Death Eater at the beginning of the chapter and why was he acting so contemptuously? She doesn't seem to me to be a Death Eater. She is now willing to tell him everything she knows about Horcruxes, that doesn't sound like a loyal Death Eater to me.When is Snape going to make another appearance?
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I'm sorry to confuse you.They really don't know anything about her; their investigations yielded a very vague and contradictory image of Ophelia/Veronica. In short, they have to think that she's a Death Eater while hoping that she's not.You know what Ophelia is like, but they have not seen or understood the battle that she's had while coming together. Also, it's a way to get the rest of the story out :D, and there is a lot yet to say about Ophelia. She did allow people to die to gain her freedom from everything--why?Dumbledore has been very keen to give Ophelia the benefit of the doubt, and he's just testing the waters, and I think that after so many years, he'd be better at seeing what was in front of him rather than relying solely upon Legilimency.In this instance, trust Dumbledore. Would she, after everything, trust the friendly, open hand? Or would the harsh and bitter reality of everything be more acceptable?I just thought, I never sent this chapter to you, did I? Eeek! I was so busy with the run-up to Christmas that it went right out of my head... my apologies for that.Snape will make another appearance. I'll send a summary of the remaining chapters.
That wasn't a direction I expected to go, but now it seems so obvious. Dealing with the Horcruxes is more important than anything else, really.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
The books suggest that the concept of Horcruxes had bothered Dumbledore since the end of 'Chamber of Secrets'. The idea prompted him to seek out Horcruxes in the six week holiday between years five and six, i.e. after this story which runs up to the end of OoTP.It's the most prominent starting point for them as far as Dumbledore is concerned.. the rest will be dealt with later.Thank you for reviewing :)
I see nososaintly felt the same as I did. That's why I told you I may have missed something when I read it through the second time. What was going on was too compelling to bother about grammar or anything else. You achieved exactly what you set out to do in that passage with Sirius. I'm glad I'm not prone to nightmares, if I were that would have given me a humdinger of a nightmare.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I never thought of that! I wonder... Write that well that I could pass myself of as being decent with grammar by bamboozling with a distracting plot.... hmmm. I feel so warm and fuzzy about the wonderful reviews; I feel all spurred on and encouraged--I can't thank people enough for their effort and kind thoughts. This fanfic was my very first, and for some reason, I worry and fret, panic and suffer with it.The whole site has been nurturing... *sniffles*Thanks for the review,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
... I'm off to conjure up chapter twenty!
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
I never thought of that! I wonder... Write that well that I could pass myself of as being decent with grammar by bamboozling with a distracting plot.... hmmm. I feel so warm and fuzzy about the wonderful reviews; I feel all spurred on and encouraged--I can't thank people enough for their effort and kind thoughts. This fanfic was my very first, and for some reason, I worry and fret, panic and suffer with it.The whole site has been nurturing... *sniffles*Thanks for the review,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
... I'm off to conjure up chapter twenty!
You've already had all my comments and know what I think about this chapter, so I won't repear them except to tell you that I thought this chapter was excellently written and that I was happy to look it over for you before it was posted.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thanks for that,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
. Altering the story has been both thrilling and terrifying, and as such, I'm happy and relieved that it's been all for the good of the story. It's opened new avenues of thought and challenging concepts--I just hope that I can do the plot justice now! Thank you for your advice and guidance :)
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thanks for that,
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
. Altering the story has been both thrilling and terrifying, and as such, I'm happy and relieved that it's been all for the good of the story. It's opened new avenues of thought and challenging concepts--I just hope that I can do the plot justice now! Thank you for your advice and guidance :)
I liked the conflict between her two sides. I showed that Veronica has a very controlling personality and that the unknown side of Ophelia may be the good side. She Imperiused Topliss and had himfake her death and hide her identity to get away from Voldemort so there must be some good in her.Oddly, I only just picked up on the name Veronica Speedwell. It never struck me while the earlier creeping speedwell was blooming, but now that my other types of veronica are blooming or about to come into bloom I finally caught on.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review :) It was difficult for me to try to formalise some logic behind the situation... Ophelia had been, for want of a better term, 'put on hold' while the new personality of Veronica was allowed to develop, so they sort of existed side by side. When Ophelia was summoned via the potion, it seemed reasonable that there would be two distinct minds left to squabble. I'm not a psychologist, the only thing I know is how to spell it, and the theory may be so off track as to be laughable, but I enjoyed the disparity and the scenes that it engendered... that's my reason and I'm sticking to it!It means a great deal that the name has been discovered... I had Veronica from the start, and it was when I was sipping coffee, just over a year ago, that 'speedwell' caught my eye--it was the flower decorating my mug. Odd how that happens, eh? I was left wondering just how much was down to coincidence... after that, I spent more time thinking about the other names... had so much fun on 'Babies' names' websites... lol.I am so glad that you're still with the story, thank you.I'm working on a Snape chapter, a new chapter eighteen, and it ain't 'arf givin' me grief... lol. When this was first written, I was so intent on finishing it, but now that the pressures have gone and I am more comfortable, I want to fill it out and add the little touches that will hopefully make it more appealing. There was a scene involving Onesiphorus that was removed to keep this from escalating into some huge beast, but I will write it now... ... ooops! I ramble, sorry. Thank you again :)
I was going to say that this reminded me of 'The Exorcist', but then I figured that this is an exocism in and of itself and Voldemort is the demon who must be cast out of her mind body and soul.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review. It's interesting how another viewpoint can make you just stop and stare... I hadn't seen it quite like that before. Thank you, again :)
There's not much that can be said about this chapter. The only thing I can do is just what they are doing, just wait and see how it all works out.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for the review. I hope that I'm not slipping... *looks worried* I do find writing certain scenes/genres to be quite tough at times... if you think that the chapter needs some more work, then I'd love any comments. Having the reviews helps me to improve, and as this was my first fanfic, I can appreciate that it may be quite rough. The next chapters are being beta read; I hope to upload pretty soon. Thank you for sticking with the story :)
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Sorry, but as an aside... your reviews seem to be duplicated... I'm not sure why they're being duplicated, some glitch, perhaps? :D
Response from Trickie Woo (Reviewer)
I tried to respond to you about an hour and a half ago and I see my response didn't make it through.First, there was no problem with the writing or the content of the chapter. I was expressing my emotional reaction to what Dumbledore had to do. Obviously it had to be done and there is nothing I, or any of your characters, can do about it, so I will just have to sit back and wait to see how things work themselves out.Second, I had problems posting reviews on TPP last night. The one I wrote after I wrote this one didn't show up at all, I had to go back this afternoon and rewrite it and it finally did show up. I have no idea what happened that caused my review to become duplicated. I figured that TPP was working on the system and they must still be since the first response I wrote didn't show up.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for that :D I guess that I'm still a very nervous writer.I had no idea the pains you were going to to review this; I am so humbled. I mentioned in an earlier response that I was thinking of writing more Snape-centric chapters... consider that a given, as a thanks for your efforts. Thank you :)
That's an intersting theory about the dark mark and how it keeps him in tune with all his death Eaters. It sounds quite logical to me.As for the rest of the chapter, the plot still has too many convolutions for me to figure anything out yet, but given time I'm sure I will.
Response from sweetflag (Author of Better Not Knowing)
Thank you for reviewing. Logical and rather nasty in my opinion *shudders* imgaine not even being allowed to keep your emotions and deepest thoughts private. I hope that you continue to enjoy it :)