Part 3 - Chapter 2 - Hermione, the Woman
Chapter 12 of 15
livvy6Severus learns of Lucius' work for the Order. A n argument finally erupts between Severus and Hermione, and she has an interesting discussion with Lucius Malfoy.
A/N: Thanks to my beta, MadBrilliant, and to all those who have continued to read and review. Keep it up! I live for reviews!
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Lucius Malfoy and his family had redeemed themselves during the darkest days of the war. It was only after Severus' own acquittal that he was able to sit down with the remaining members of the Order and discuss all that had occurred after his supposed "defection." He sat in what was now Potter's house at Grimmauld Place with Arthur, Molly, Potter, the many Weasley offspring, Hermione, and Minerva.
"It was an incredible turn of fortune for the Order!" exclaimed Arthur. "Actually, Remus was his contact because he was playing spy for us against Greyback," he explained.
Snape was dumbfounded. That bloody opportunist! Lucius Malfoy: spy for the Cause!
Arthur continued. "Well, we of course were highly skeptical of any information that came from Lucius. But when all the details came out, how the information was getting to Remus, we left it then for Remus to call whether to accept or reject the information given."
"How actually did Lucius go about this subterfuge without the Dark Lord becoming suspicious?" Snape asked.
"Well, it seemed, and you have corroborated this, that he was becoming increasingly unstable during the final year of his life. He seemed to forget at times that Lucius was in the room, since he had lost so much favor with You-Know-Who after the Prophecy debacle. Lucius would gather whatever snippets of information he could and pass it on to Narcissa, who had the freedom to come and go as she pleased. She would go visit Draco, who would then meet up with Remus during his patrols and give him the information. What was interesting was that Lucius was feeding information on you, Severus, because he did not know you were a spy as well!" Arthur chuckled.
Harry spoke up. "It is positively eerie! We discovered the information we had received from Phineas Black's portrait had corroborated Lucius' information. So, we know now there is some truth to it. What is even weirder is that now we know the news we were hearing about your leniency with the students who were "troublemakers," like Ginny and Neville, was given to the Order through Lucius! He was concerned that Voldemort thought you had gone soft and was about to replace you with a Headmaster who would be crueler!"
"We know now, Severus, that you were doing the best you could to look after our Ginny and the other young ones," said Molly while giving him a squeeze on his hand.
Snape was embarrassed. He didn't know what to say.
Arthur spoke up. "The Malfoys' trial is coming up, and I say that we should all make a grand showing to help them. Damn, if it were not for Narcissa, Harry would be dead! They all risked a great deal to secure vital information we desperately needed to win the war. Shacklebolt is behind it. Of course, there will be no medals, or commendations, since they did not fight in the battle, just that they will be able to keep their property and live their lives in relative peace."
Snape grimaced and slowly closed his eyes. "If only that could actually be a reality," he muttered to himself. He did not see the sad brown eyes looking at him with longing...
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Another day in the dungeons stuck with Hermione was giving Snape the migraine of his life. She didn't have to do anything anymore. Just her mere presence was enough to put him in an ill humor and give him a raging erection that refused to go away...
He fumed as she worked on a potion. He was trying to focus on grading essays, but she was driving him mad. She was humming, which was common. Humming was normally what she was wont to do while working. Never before had he paid attention, but as the weeks went by, everything she did was grating on his nerves and fueling his lust for her at the same time.
Finally, he snapped. He threw the essay and his quill on his desk and stood up. She flinched at his fast movement and spilled her phial of dragon's blood onto the floor. He swept over to her, his eyes glittering with murder.
"You stupid, stupid girl! How long must I have to endure your incompetence?" he snarled.
She whirled around, looked hard at him, and refused to back down.
"If you had not startled me, I would not have spilled it!"
"A professional does not react to distractions, Miss Granger!"
"A professional does not continue to sabotage and belittle the people working for him!"
"I have had enough of your insolence," he retorted in a dead calm. "I want you out of this lab and never, I repeat, never come back!"
"That's fine with me, you pathetic sod! You have done nothing but goad me and abuse your position since I started on with you!" she yelled as she gathered her belongings and stormed out.
Snape sat down defeated into his chair. Well, he had finally done it, chased her off. It was better this way. She would be much better off. After all, if she stayed, all he would accomplish would be to hurt her.
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Hermione stomped down the corridor to the stairs when she almost collided with Lucius Malfoy.
"Oh, Mr. Malfoy!" she gasped.
"My dear girl, are you all right?" he asked, concerned.
After the Malfoys' exoneration, Lucius had kept a very low profile. The tortures he had suffered under the Dark Lord had weakened him. The vicious Lucius Malfoy no longer existed. A mellow gentleman had taken his place, but Hermione was still a bit leery of him.
"I'm fine, sir," she replied, and she tried to walk past him.
"Please, Miss Granger, Hermione...stop," he asked pleadingly.
She halted and turned around to face him. She could see the worry and concern on his face.
"What do you want?" she whispered suspiciously.
"Please, sit with me here for a spell. You seem to be quite upset. Besides, I am quite winded by all these stairs," he said weakly.
Hermione finally decided she didn't care anymore who knew what about what had been occurring in the lab or between her and Snape. She decided to unburden herself on the wizard.
"I was just thrown out of the lab by Professor Snape. He is so cruel! I mean, he wasn't a nice person to start with before the war, but now, even after all I did to help save his life, it's apparent he still absolutely detests me. I'm so sick of how he treats me!"
Lucius fairly winced at her last words. It reminded him too much of Claudia's final words before her murder.
You are all evil, and I'm sick to death of all this!
She turned and looked into Malfoy's tired, gray eyes. "You know him, Mr. Malfoy. Why is he so miserable? Why does he treat me so horribly? Why should he loathe me so?"
Malfoy sighed and shook his head. "With Severus, nothing is ever clear. He is the most complicated man I've ever known, apart from the Dark Lord," he confided.
He looked into Hermione's eyes and said sadly, "You need to accept the fact that Severus carries a vast amount of guilt and self-hatred inside him. He's been carrying it for twenty years. I wish I could tell you, my dear, but it is extremely personal, and it is not my story to tell."
"Well, if it's about Lily, I already know about her. Harry told me all about it. He told everyone about it just before he killed Voldemort."
"Well, that is indeed a part of the story, but there was another. Her name was Claudia...a pure-blood Slytherin. All I'll say is that she was a pretty young girl who became a beautiful young woman honored with all of the old traditions we Slytherins held dear and practiced before the Dark Lord fell the first time. She had the wildest brown hair! It was a mass of curls and waves gone riot! She was known as 'The Know-It-All,' according to Severus' friends. I was a seventh-year when Severus was a first-year. I never attended school with Claudia. What I was told, until I finally met her, was that she was a brilliant and intelligent witch. What I recall most clearly were her eyes. They were so amber that they looked like the color of brandy! Sound familiar?"
Hermione gaped at Lucius. She didn't know what to say.
Lucius rose and said to the young woman, "Hermione, I will speak to Severus. I will do my best to get him to speak to you about her. But, unfortunately, I cannot make any promises."
He left her then, and Hermione thought she was losing her mind. Was there ever an end to the depths of that man?
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Not Lyssa, her mom. I enjoy and read a lot of fanfiction and liked reading your story very much. It was well written, and you had a good plot. It presented Severus in a very different light, and made him more human than most of the other stories. Congrats!
Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful piece! I was thoroughly immersed in it from start to finish - so much so that I read it in one sitting - it was worth the eye strain!
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I'm so glad you enjoyed my fic! Thank you for reviewing :)Livvy
that was a really sweet story. i loved it.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thank you. It was a hard story to write, emotionally. I really was painful writing Claudia's death... but I'm glad you liked how I put it all together.Thanks for reviewing!Livvy
I am not quite sure how I missed this little treasure, but I am very glad I found it.I love your writing style, and your characterizations. You are quickly becoming one of my all time favorite fic writers!
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it.Livvy
First thanks for such a wonderful story of hope and redemption. This hasn't always been easy to read, the feelings involved were at times overwhelming. It is what it is and what had to be in order for Snape to have a happy future. I liked how you ended the story, "It was far from over. There would still be demons to fight and fears to confront, but she loved him and he loved her.
It was enough.
He could start again. He had found a way "
Perfect.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thanks! I'm you liked how I ended it. There are too many things to work on and deal with. One good shag just can't fix all of that.Thanks for reviewing!Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thanks! I'm you liked how I ended it. There are too many things to work on and deal with. One good shag just can't fix all of that.Thanks for reviewing!Livvy
oh my goodness, I didn't see it coming. I totally understand her saying what she did but not in front of voldermort. Especially since I don't believe Severus truly "loves" Lily. Wants her beyond reason, yes. But to get Claudia killed, I can imagine the hell he's really going to feel when he meets Hermione. Looking forward to the rest of the story. Love your story.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thanks! I planned it to be a big shocker and for it also for foreshadow a similiar death Severus would be a part of in the future. Her death will haunt him.Claudia had kept silent for so long and gave so much it was the last straw. Being a pure-blood she didn't think she would get killed. But...Thanks for reviewing!Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thanks! I planned it to be a big shocker and for it also for foreshadow a similiar death Severus would be a part of in the future. Her death will haunt him.Claudia had kept silent for so long and gave so much it was the last straw. Being a pure-blood she didn't think she would get killed. But...Thanks for reviewing!Livvy
livvy, you are a superb writer. your characters leap off the page and are so true. this was one of the most powerful stories i've read (one of the other most powerful stories was also one of yours). and you had me in tears. i agree lily was leading him on. thanks so much for sharing your time, talent and vision. you rule and reign!
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Aww! Thanks, girl! I'm glad you liked it!Thank you!Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Aww! Thanks, girl! I'm glad you liked it!Thank you!Livvy
The story and plot were GREAT! Soooo complex. I really liked how Lucius pushed him to talk to her. I'm so happy he could see Hermione, and not her just as a subsitute for the two girls. I really believe that they live on, happy. And I'm sure he has his setbacks, but she is there to support him, and he respects AND loves her to the core of his soul.SOOOOO good. Hugs~
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I'm so glad you liked it! I really wanted to leave like that: open-ended. There was no way for everything to be fixed like that and I really wanted to let the reader decide how they thought things would end for them.Thanks for reading!Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I'm so glad you liked it! I really wanted to leave like that: open-ended. There was no way for everything to be fixed like that and I really wanted to let the reader decide how they thought things would end for them.Thanks for reading!Livvy
ooooo loved that part! how he thought of her will wanking! LOVED IT! He is finally growing up and knowing what love is i hope.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
He still has a lot ahead of him, but he will start figuring it all out. Unfortunately, he is still highly mentally unstable from killing Dumbledore. It reminded him too much of how Claudia died.I know-I love the thought of Severus masturbating, I don't know, probably because he seeme to be a person who denies himself so much and never lets his guard down in public. SO the thought of him in private losing himself in very naughty thoughts is very ...Yum! LOL!Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
He still has a lot ahead of him, but he will start figuring it all out. Unfortunately, he is still highly mentally unstable from killing Dumbledore. It reminded him too much of how Claudia died.I know-I love the thought of Severus masturbating, I don't know, probably because he seeme to be a person who denies himself so much and never lets his guard down in public. SO the thought of him in private losing himself in very naughty thoughts is very ...Yum! LOL!Thanks,Livvy
oh sev. what are you to do?
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Yeah, he's really screwed. And it's going to get much worse.Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Yeah, he's really screwed. And it's going to get much worse.Thanks,Livvy
ah ha! so i was right, she IS a mix of lily and claudia. AND lucius even sees it!!!! I love the line... "stop fighting with the mudblood." bwhahahahahah
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I know, Lucius can be really fun to write if he's not playing the role of a sadist. I have him in a more likeable role. He will continue to talk with Severus about the whole Claudia/Lily/Hermione trifecta! LOL!Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I know, Lucius can be really fun to write if he's not playing the role of a sadist. I have him in a more likeable role. He will continue to talk with Severus about the whole Claudia/Lily/Hermione trifecta! LOL!Thanks,Livvy
wow. WOW. Oh, you really have done an excellent job with this chapter. THe similarites between claudia and lily and hermione... hermione is like going to be a mix of claudia and lily, right? Oh, I am with him... I'd go barking mad. So, now I am feeling a BIT sorry for Sev. Just a bit...
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Yes, Hermione is going to continue reaminding him of the two womwn he lost and it is going to fuck with his mind like crazy! Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Yes, Hermione is going to continue reaminding him of the two womwn he lost and it is going to fuck with his mind like crazy! Thanks,Livvy
So, he is having lots of thoughts of claudia. maybe he did love her and just didn't realize?
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
More like he is realizing all the things he took for granted. He probably relaizes he could have fallen in love with Claudia if he had given her a chance and had not had his obsession with Lily holding him back. It's all just really sad and Severus is the loser in all this-as it should be because he was so heartless and cruel towards Claudia.THanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
More like he is realizing all the things he took for granted. He probably relaizes he could have fallen in love with Claudia if he had given her a chance and had not had his obsession with Lily holding him back. It's all just really sad and Severus is the loser in all this-as it should be because he was so heartless and cruel towards Claudia.THanks,Livvy
i really like how you are intertwining claudia and lily and canon stuff here. It is so logical about the mess he made because of the killing of claudia and her family.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thanks, I really wanted to make a plausible reason for him to seek out Dumbledore that would fit Claudia into it.Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thanks, I really wanted to make a plausible reason for him to seek out Dumbledore that would fit Claudia into it.Thanks,Livvy
oh my god. i fucking hate severus right now. poor claudia. i can't even describe how i am feeling for her. i really hope sev changes.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I know, Claudia didn't deserve what life handed her, although she at least got to speak her mind and call them all for what they were. And Severus will suffer. He will be racked with major guilt!Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I know, Claudia didn't deserve what life handed her, although she at least got to speak her mind and call them all for what they were. And Severus will suffer. He will be racked with major guilt!Thanks,Livvy
Oh, I would be sooooo angry if I were claudia. I would HATE to marry someone who didnt love me in return. I hope she stands up for herself.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
She will and it will be explosive. Unfortunately she won't do it for a long while, she'll still put up with a lot of crap.Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
She will and it will be explosive. Unfortunately she won't do it for a long while, she'll still put up with a lot of crap.Thanks,Livvy
Oooo, looky what I found! It caught my attention because I LOVE the song Hurt. From this story to the one that I am helping you on... wow. I can totally tell how much you have grown in your writing. You should be proud of yourself!Miss Claudia sounds A LOT like Hermione... wonder where you will go wtih this. And ps. love love the pictures on the chapters. brilliant
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
AWW, sucks! Thanks, I'm glad you like the pics. I hope you continue to like it.Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
AWW, sucks! Thanks, I'm glad you like the pics. I hope you continue to like it.Livvy
oh, i am sure it will really haunt him when hermione comes into the picture. oh my oh my.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
It will. He will suffer a great deal.Thanks,Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
It will. He will suffer a great deal.Thanks,Livvy
Fantastic story! I was searching around for a really good story and I'm so glad I stumbled upon this one. Excellent job!
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I am so glad you liked it! Thanks for reviewing.Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I am so glad you liked it! Thanks for reviewing.Livvy
Hi. I've just read your story and I thought I'd wait 'til the end to leave a review. You'll have to bear with me as I don't usually leave a review when I read. Here goes.It took a bit of time to get into the story at the beginning, but despite my initial reservation about the characterization I found myself drawn into the plot. I liked the way you portatryed Lucius and Voldemort and I found the archaic structure of Death Eater society signing the women off to be the property of the men was convincing.I wasn't too sure about the overtly sexual way Claudia was referred to especially when she was underage. I understand why you did it, but I personally didn't like it.Over and over again Claudia didn't want to be dictated to by the wizarding society and then during the second part of the novel, she's pining for his love and miserable because he's crushing on Lily Evans? This bit confused me a bit. I might have to reread it and see whether this becomes a bit clearer. I just couldn't buy that she would be in love with him after he'd been a grumpy git for most of the first part of the story.The death scene was quite disturbing. Good stuff!Now for the second part of the story : Hermione as a child. While I liked the way you portrayed Severus as a man on the edge, I was a bit squicked about the later parts when he started to get all obsessed with her and desire her. Again I think it's that 'underage + teacher' thing that I didn't like. It put me off to the point that I nearly didn't finish the story , but I stuck with it and I'm glad I did.The last part of the story was so- so for me. I liked the sense that Severus was spiralling out of control and lashing out at Hermione and Lucius was trying to be his friend. In fact, one of the best things about your storywas that you attempted to humanise Lucius to an certain extent and show him as a friend. I had a bit of a problem with the scene where he is overcome by his emotions and pratically tries to rape her after the party and then suddenly she is in love with him and the only woman who can help him heal the wounds of his heart. Umm... not to be facetious here , but he forced her into sex! There's no way the start of that scene was consensual. I found it very hard to believe that she would turn round and accept his sexual advances after that. let alone enjoy it.Right on the whole I decided to give you a 3.5 rating because the bits that you did well were extremely good. There were other bits that I didn't like , but I don't know whether that was down to personal preference or a flaw in the story.Please don't be offended by anyting I said: As I hope I've made it clear I did eventually enjoy the story and I'd like to read anything else you've got. Just no underage sex or rape, please!
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I am glad you left a review, it is always good to get feedback, even if the impression was different than what I intended. I can understand how disturbing it would be reading about the sexualization of Claudia so early on. I wanted there to be that tension of the pure-blood society and their misuse of people. I cannot believe Death Eaters would only be cruel to Muggles and be perfect husbands and fathers at home. I can see room for some compartmentalization, but there would have to be something off, so I chose the dehumanizing of women.Severus' relationship with Claudia was rife with extremes. They fought and he was at times creul and distant, but then there were times they would talk and talk and the sex was very good, especially when she gave herself fully to him.In regards to Hermione, my intention was not to have him "desire" her, just that she would trigger the guilt and shame he felt about Claudia since they looked so much alike. The interest I meant to portray was to be of a respect for her talent and abilities as a witch and Snape's trying to deal with the pain of his past. I do not like underage teacher/student lustings, although I am not against the teacher/student scenario. At the end of Hermione, the child, Hermione was already 17 when he was fantisizing about her. But I can see your point. It can be a fine line. Perhaps, I didn't make my writing clear enough to get the message across properly.I am so sorry the confrontation Hermione had with Severus at the end came across as forced sex, coersion, or rape. That was not my intention. I wanted to portray an emotionally mature Hermione able to withstand the emotional chaos going on with Snape. Certainly, she could not be the woman to cure his ills, that was why I left the story like I did. Severus was going to have to find a way. He was going to have to let things go and move on because he wanted to do it. Hermione just listened as he talked about his past.The sex was untamed and wild. I am so sorry it came across as being forced upon Hermione. I can only say, I probably did not write it well enough to get my intention across. However, I'm glad you found parts you liked and I'm glad you enjoyed the more "human" Lucius. I think we just don't see a lot of that!My fics are mostly darker in nature. It's the kind of writer I am, although the one I'm posting now, "Bookends" has more humor to it and there is no student/teacher coersive relationship between the two of them (SS/HG).There probably won't be many stories of mine you would like, I do deal with a lot of abuse and violence. "Full of Grace" is one that has nothing of sexual abuse in it. "I'll Be There" may interest you as well. That is all consensual.Again, I want to thank you for letting me know your opinions on the fic. I'm sure it wasn't you, I'm still learning how to write and get the feelings I want to convey on paper in an understandable way to the reader.Thanks!Livvy
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
I am glad you left a review, it is always good to get feedback, even if the impression was different than what I intended. I can understand how disturbing it would be reading about the sexualization of Claudia so early on. I wanted there to be that tension of the pure-blood society and their misuse of people. I cannot believe Death Eaters would only be cruel to Muggles and be perfect husbands and fathers at home. I can see room for some compartmentalization, but there would have to be something off, so I chose the dehumanizing of women.Severus' relationship with Claudia was rife with extremes. They fought and he was at times creul and distant, but then there were times they would talk and talk and the sex was very good, especially when she gave herself fully to him.In regards to Hermione, my intention was not to have him "desire" her, just that she would trigger the guilt and shame he felt about Claudia since they looked so much alike. The interest I meant to portray was to be of a respect for her talent and abilities as a witch and Snape's trying to deal with the pain of his past. I do not like underage teacher/student lustings, although I am not against the teacher/student scenario. At the end of Hermione, the child, Hermione was already 17 when he was fantisizing about her. But I can see your point. It can be a fine line. Perhaps, I didn't make my writing clear enough to get the message across properly.I am so sorry the confrontation Hermione had with Severus at the end came across as forced sex, coersion, or rape. That was not my intention. I wanted to portray an emotionally mature Hermione able to withstand the emotional chaos going on with Snape. Certainly, she could not be the woman to cure his ills, that was why I left the story like I did. Severus was going to have to find a way. He was going to have to let things go and move on because he wanted to do it. Hermione just listened as he talked about his past.The sex was untamed and wild. I am so sorry it came across as being forced upon Hermione. I can only say, I probably did not write it well enough to get my intention across. However, I'm glad you found parts you liked and I'm glad you enjoyed the more "human" Lucius. I think we just don't see a lot of that!My fics are mostly darker in nature. It's the kind of writer I am, although the one I'm posting now, "Bookends" has more humor to it and there is no student/teacher coersive relationship between the two of them (SS/HG).There probably won't be many stories of mine you would like, I do deal with a lot of abuse and violence. "Full of Grace" is one that has nothing of sexual abuse in it. "I'll Be There" may interest you as well. That is all consensual.Again, I want to thank you for letting me know your opinions on the fic. I'm sure it wasn't you, I'm still learning how to write and get the feelings I want to convey on paper in an understandable way to the reader.Thanks!Livvy
Livvy, I really enjoyed this ride, with all the emotions of a rollercoaster ( and I LOVE rollercoasters) Very well done and wonderfully wound together. Thank you.
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thank you so much!Livvy
I really dont know how to discribe your story. It was beautiful, tragic and uplifting all at the same time. a job well done
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thank you! Yes, it really ran the extreme of emotions, didn't it? I hope you left it feeling hopeful for Severus and Hermione. I think they'll be just fine.Livvy
Nice finish, and you are right, the promise of a new start
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thank you very much!Livvy
I enjoyed your exploration of Snape's psyche. A very sweet story of healing!
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thank you very much!Livvy
I'm so very glad Severus has hope laid on his path, though Hermione'd rather have a tough hide. Overall, I think I prefered the part with Claudia (a very strange occurrence for the HGSS shipper that I am), but I grew attached to her and watched with (a sick) fascination the tale of her love to Severus lead her to death. I also appreciated your view about Claudia's and Lily's personalities and how they blend into Hermione. Well done!
Response from livvy6 (Author of Hurt)
Thank you very much! I knew this couldn't be a "quick fix" it'll take a long time to undue all the damage Snape has done. But, there is hope and that was the premise of the story, for Severus to find a way to live again with himself. I'm confident he'll be very happy with Hermione.Livvy