Chapter Two
Chapter 2 of 8
rhiannon113Severus begins to use his formidable powers of observation to try and make sense of his new situation.
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For the first time in his life, or whatever this might be, Severus had no thoughts in his head. He opened and closed this mouth stupidly for several moments, his eyes bugging out of his head. This blank state of mind was not a comfortable feeling for him. He stared at her. He stared around the room. He stared down at his own naked body.
His thoughts seemed to come back all at once.
I'm in bed with Hermione Granger, naked.
Wait.
I'm in bed naked with Hermione Granger. I'm diddling a student.
Naked.
I'm naked.
She's naked.
That seems like an awful lot of naked.
Wait.
Wait. Before I did my bit as a codfish, she was quite enjoying herself.
Yes, but she's a student.
Well, was a student.
Naked, though.
Naked. She knew I was naked, and she was happy about it.
Why the hell do I keep thinking the word 'naked?'
"Severus. What is wrong with you?"
He realized he was either dead, dreaming, or delusional. He reached out and poked her in the shoulder.
"Are you feeling alright?"
No, I'm not alright. I'm a bloody pervert. As it turns out, my ultimate fantasy is snogging a student. However, it's not as though there is any reason not to proceed. I did resign, albeit by jumping out a window, but never the less... She's not been at school for a year. I'm dead. This is not real. Why not have a go?
Severus smirked and looked into the lovely face hovering over his. "Are you actually willing?"
Hermione laughed. "Why don't I show you?" With that, she claimed his mouth with her own. Her kiss was rich and full of passion. Her hands were stroking him, her body writhing beneath his. This was better than anything he'd ever experienced.
For the next hour, Severus knew nothing but her hands, her mouth, and all the other delights of her body. At last, they were both covered in sweat. He lay on his back with her body curled over his own. He felt her smile against his chest.
"Severus, gods, that was amazing. That's the thing I think I love most about you...every time with you is like the first time." She raised her tousled head to look into his eyes.
Severus stared back at her. He'd never dared to hope that the afterlife might be so incredibly pleasant. He wondered idly if he could use Legilimancy on a spirit or imaginary being or whatever she was. He'd have to try it later, though. Right now, he wanted to bask in the afterglow of the best sexual experience of his life. He didn't have to pay her. She'd enjoyed it. She hadn't stopped him kissing and touching her to demand extra galleons for extra services.
She rested her head on the pillow again, smiling at him.
"Gods, you are beautiful," he whispered. He meant it. She was so lovely, naked before him and open to his desires. Yes, her body was beautiful to him, but more lovely was the open and luminous quality in her eyes. She was not nervous or guarded here with him; she was not ready to flee. This woman was lying completely relaxed in his arms. If anything, she seemed to be straining to get closer to him.
Hermione leaned in to nuzzle his neck. He felt her mouth move against his skin as she said, "You are too kind, good sir. I wish this could last, but sadly, we will have to get up at one point or another today. There's a staff meeting at three."
Severus pushed her away. "Staff meeting?"
"It's just the typical, end-of-term wrap-up that the Headmaster always has. We should be able to leave as soon as it's finished." She smiled at him. "It won't take long, love."
Severus' brow creased in frustration. He had to teach in the afterlife as well? Perhaps children of the spiritual plain were less obtuse than those of the corporal plain. But still, if he could have a relationship with this delectable young woman, teaching dunderheads was quite a small price to pay. He decided that he didn't want to spend all eternity complaining.
"All right, Hermione. I'll go to the staff meeting. Any clue what Dumbledore will be on about?" Severus asked, hoping desperately that the meeting would be brief.
Hermione laughed and shook her head. She reached out to stroke the top of his head. "Exactly how hard did you hit the headboard? Has it caused brain damage? You should know very well that Dumbledore retired nearly fifteen years ago, and Minerva retired three years ago. Surely you recall that ordeal? She begged you to take the post? You told her to bugger off? Any of this ringing any bells?" She looked concerned and sat up a little.
She continued, "Severus, it was on your suggestion that the post was offered to James when you refused. How can you have forgotten?" Hermione looked half amused, half frightened. "Sev, are your ears ringing at all? Your pupils look normal, but that's not always an indicator. Perhaps we should run up to the hospital wing and have Lily take a look."
"The Potters?" he asked weakly.
"Of course. That's it. I should have gotten Lily involved the moment you tried to break the bedstead with your skull. I'm going to call her down here." She put on a purple satin dressing gown and walked out of the room.
Severus was so stunned that he could only sit and stare. Not only were Lily and James Potter a part of this reality, but he was apparently on semi-decent terms with Potter. What next?
Hermione had returned, and she was talking, and he was aware that she'd spelled his clothes onto his body. Images flooded his brain, people and places that he'd known. Severus Snape, the horrible Potions master and spy for the Order among Voldemort's Death Eaters, had known the rules and players in his former life. This new existence was horribly unfamiliar. One of the very few things that could make him lose his cool was inconstant behaviours.
When he was gently shaken a few minutes later, Severus was still lost in his own world. There was no way to know why this had happened, but he was sure of one thing. He would not let go of a woman who loved him, no matter what the cost this time.
He was dimly aware of a pair of small hands gently running over his head, accompanied by the occasional rushes of spells flying over his body. After what felt like an eternity of drifting on an empty sea, Severus came slowly back to himself.
He was staring into the most beautiful green eyes. A soft voice was speaking to him, but he was too mesmerized by the emerald pools of light to respond. He let out a slow breath, realising who it must be. "Potter," he breathed, his voice barely audible.
"Well, James will be pleased. Not only have you managed to avoid permanent damage to this remarkable brain of yours, but you've also managed for once in the last twenty-five years to call me by the proper name." Lily's smile was shining on him like sunlight.
"Now, will the two of you please contain yourselves? I realise that you are still in the 'honeymoon' period, but I'm having to invent too many creative, yet plausible excuses for the injuries caused by your acrobatic and apparently marathon sex-life."
Both Lily and Hermione laughed as Hermione showed her to the door. Severus could now only focus on the word 'honeymoon.' He and Granger were married? Just another tick on the list of 'things that seem to make no sense whatsoever.'
Hermione walked towards him after closing the door. He noticed that they seemed to be in his quarters at Hogwarts, only the rooms had been altered significantly. There were photos on the wall across from his bed, a vase of flowers stood on an end table, and a handmade quilt lay folded on the back of the sofa.
It had to be true. She must live here with him. He was vaguely reminded of a song from an old Muggle children's movie. "When the gods send you a blessing, you don't ask why it was sent." This was real. It was a happy home, and why or how he had it, he didn't want to question.
"What am I to you?" He could not meet her eyes, but he had to ask just the one time. He needed to hear her say it, to explain how the Princess of Gryffindor had come to be in a relationship. Married. The platinum band on his left hand winked at him as it reflected the golden glow of the firelight.
He and Hermione were married. Pleadingly, he looked into her eyes, hoping against hope that she would accept his need for reassurance, at whatever level it made sense to her, and answer his question.
She stared at him for a moment, and then she moved closer and sat in his lap. Softly and ever so methodically, she smoothed the hair back from his face. She kissed his lips in a tender yet chaste way. Looking at him in silence for another moment, she smiled at him.
"You are my love. You are my best friend. You are the only one who can tell me when I'm being woefully, stupidly hard-headed. You are the one who made me feel alive for the first time in my life. You are the only one who's ever made me feel like a real woman, not some stuffy bookworm. You are the one who taught me what it was to truly love. You are the one who showed me how hollow and empty the world was when I was alone. You are everything."
Severus was shocked to find a single tear rolling down his cheek. He hated showing emotion. He hated being vulnerable. Yet here sat Miss Grang...his wife telling him that he'd brought forth all her emotional capacities. She was bloody well inviting him to share some deep, personal insight with her. He couldn't do that, at least not at the present.
He continued to gaze into her eyes and let out a slow, shaky breath. "Hermione, we'll be late for Headmaster Potter's meeting." He might learn in time to be sentimental and sappy, but not yet.
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A little while later, they were seated in the staff room. Severus was trying his best not to stare, but it was nearly impossible. Many of the staff were as he would have expected, but many were different. Flitwick was still there, same as ever. Hagrid was equally as steadfast. Sinistra was still there. Sybil had even managed not to drink herself to death.
Hooch had been replaced by a lovely redhead. As he stared, Severus realised who it was. Miss Weasley, though a gut feeling told him it would be Madam Potter by now. He cringed, hoping her young husband was not also a member of staff. Longbottom actually tripped and fell as he entered the room. Severus assumed that he would be the Herbology master; after all, it had been the boy's only real talent.
Vector was missing, but that would fit. Hermione was the obvious choice for her replacement. He could imagine that her N.E.W.T. scores had been even higher than her OWLs. Poppy hadn't come in either, but he knew from earlier that Lily had taken her place. Though if Minerva was gone, and Potter Sr. was Head, who taught Transfiguration and Defence?
Just then, an earth-shattering, ear-splitting crash erupted from the door. Everyone in the room jumped in their seats. The door swung open, and two rather dishevelled people stumbled into the room.
Behind him, Hermione said, "Gods above, Tonks. Are the both of you alright?" Severus turned to look at her, and then he followed the newest occupants' progress toward their seats. The light of realisation had just dawned on him when a loud voice, full of laughter, came from the door.
"Well, no way to follow that, Lily dearest. Showed me up again, eh, Moony?"
Severus felt like he'd been hit by lightning. He turned slowly to see James Potter framed in the open door. The wizard he'd hated as a boy had aged extremely well, and though he still brimmed with confidence, something of humility was also present in his wide smile.
He allowed his wife to enter, and then he closed the door behind them. As James made his way around the large, oval table, Lily smiled at everyone in turn. She took the seat on the other side of Hermione, and the two began whispering. Nymphadora Tonks leaned around someone to join in. Severus locked eyes with Remus Lupin, who smiled, seemingly still embarrassed over his less than graceful arrival.
James' voice sounded again, and Severus had to fight to keep his features from sinking into an instant scowl. "As both the Lupins and the Snapes have both had injuries today, I think it was a very good decision not to have gone rock climbing in the Lake District this weekend." Though everyone else laughed, Snape tried to smile, but it was really just a grimace.
James continued. "Now. End of term was surprisingly smooth. I'd like to thank all of you for your cooperation in ensuring that the annual pranks of the winning House were circumvented. I'm also pleased to report that the Board of Governors is very pleased indeed with the exam results. This year is our best ever showing. Higher percentages of Outstandings on both O.W.L.s and N.E.W.T.s than have ever been recorded..."
Severus allowed his mind to drift off. He looked at the other occupants of the room. No one seemed vexed by his presence; in fact, they all seemed remarkably relaxed, as though none of them had a care in the world.
Hermione looked especially beautiful. Her eyes were shining as James reviewed the academic achievements of the year. She was positively radiant. He looked over at Lily and realised, with something of jolt, that he didn't find her as appealing as the witch seated to his left.
Snape was startled back into reality as the staff laughed again. "...so as to not keep you all too long. Now, please don't forget, you're all invited to come and stay the weekend prior to the World Cup and attend the game as our guests. I'd ask everyone to stay longer, but if my son doesn't get some time alone with his beautiful wife, Lily and I will be well into our dotage by the time we're made grandparents."
The meeting broke up, and they all stood. Snape heard the excited chatter of holiday plans and anticipation of the World Cup. He noticed how many of them smiled at him, really smiled. Or asked after him since his fall (Lily had apparently chosen a fall to cover the embarrassing truth of his supposed head injury).
He had friends. He had a beautiful wife and real friends, not just colleagues. He stared around at the thinning crowd.
"Alright, Severus?" Hermione asked.
"You've no idea, love. You've no idea."
A/N: Thanks to everyone who is reading! Please take a moment to leave me a review, I'd love to hear any and all comments! *hugs*
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Latest 25 Reviews for What Dreams May Come
133 Reviews | 7.21/10 Average
Yay for a happy ending!
Whew! That worked out nicely.
He'd better ignore her wishes and go after her!
Feeling very sorry for all parties at the moment.
Oh dear, this is becoming tangled!
Wow, how confused Severus must be. And an interesting turn of events between him and Lily. I'm a little afraid to see the fallout from this misinterpreted conversation with Lily.
It seemed like a wonderful dream, in bed with Hermione. Then it seemed like a nightmare having James and Lily in the picture. Is this all in his head? Is this the afterlife? Poor guy must be so confused!
What an intriguing start! Must go find out more ...
I confess. I looked. I had to look. I couldn't bear it if this was to end sadly. I remember the movie of the same name and I absolutely hated it. It was one of the worst movies I've ever seen. I saw it on New Years eve. My husband and I went out with friends for a movie. Our kids were just old enough that we left them alone and called every hour. I told everyone, "I don't do sad movies!" I can't remember what else was playing and what I wanted to see instead, but the other couple wanted to see this one. We never went to the movies with them again. I told them I hated it and it had been the worst movie I'd ever seen. God's that had to be, I checked; only 1998! It feels like a lifetime ago. So much in my life has changed in 14 measly years and most of it sucks! I read the recap in Wikkipeida and I still say the movie was totally fucked up. I hated Robin Williams from then on as well. ...Now I'm scared to keep reading. What to do? What to do! I'll let you know when I decide.
If only this was what really happened to dear Severus. If this is heaven, he has earned by his sacrafice all of these things. He has especially earned the joy of being free from loveing someone who did not love him in return. ...I wonder if I should skip to the end to check and make sure this isn't just some wonderful dream and that when he next wakes, he'll still be on the floor of the shrieking shack, dying. You know what they say about things that sound too good to be true.
Wonderful story. I loved the "glimpse" of what his life could have been, and while I was really annoyed with him that he messed it up so bad, I thought it was great that you didn't make his other life the exact opposite of his canon life. The way his life turned out was just the right mix of both happiness and tragedy. Thanks!
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Thanks! This story was something that nagged at me forever. I wanted to show how very good people, who are desperately in love can sometimes be their own worst enemy! I'm really glad you enjoyed and so grateful you took the time to review! *hugs*Rhiannon
Just getting around to reviewing again--excellent epilogue! Your writing pulls me into the storyline, truly gets me invested in the characters--which is wonderful, other than the fact I feel almost abandoned when the story is over! Great job, and I look forward to reading more of your work :)PS: so what *are* their kids and grandkids named? ;)
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Well, their daughter is called Sabrina. They've also got twin boys who are called Sarson and Samuel. Samuel never marries, he's a rather outdoorsie type. He's a magical naturalist, following in the footsteps of his idol, Luna Lovegood-Skemander. Sarson marries Draco & Astoria's daughter, Ariadne. They have one child called, of course, Severus. Sabrina marries Albus Potter. They both teach at Hogwarts. They have four children: Hermione, Lily, Juliet & Dora (named in honour of Tonks, but much more managable!!). Thanks so much for the lovely review!! I really appreciate your compliments!! I will be back very soon. My beta's already got the first chapter of my next story! *hugs*Rhiannon
Really enjoyed your fic! It flowed very easily...a little OOC for a few of the characters...but heck...this is fanfic and love makes us all a little crazy.So...it was actually quite beliveable about Hermione's jumping to conclusions with Sev/Lily. Been there myself with my hubby and an old friend- not nice at the time but you feel stupid for reaching the wrong conclusion afterwards...no matter what you think happened!You live and learn.Course ..to any woman who does find her man with someone else...it's always handy to have a lot of spare fryingpans around!..either that or a cricket bat!
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Yes, it was a bit OCC. I'm sorry if that threw you for a loop. The situation has happened to many people I know, as well. It causes almost as much difficulty as an accusation that is founded. I agree with your 'cricket bat' notion, though a frying pan would be alright in a pinch!!! Thanks so much for your lovely reveiw, I'm so pleased that you enjoyed it! *hugs*Rhiannon
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Yes, it was a bit OCC. I'm sorry if that threw you for a loop. The situation has happened to many people I know, as well. It causes almost as much difficulty as an accusation that is founded. I agree with your 'cricket bat' notion, though a frying pan would be alright in a pinch!!! Thanks so much for your lovely reveiw, I'm so pleased that you enjoyed it! *hugs*Rhiannon
yes! i want everything! would that albus actually was that considerate. but that was beautifully written. thanks so much and i look forward to the epilogue
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Yes, I really wanted Albus to do something to help Severus, for once. The epilogue is mainly a massive lemon... I felt I owed it to them!! Thanks so much for reading and for your amazing reviews. =] *hugs*Rhiannon
Terrific story. But please no (great)grandchildren.
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
LOL I promise, I won't bore all of you with the extended geneology version. Only I'm rather attached to Sev & Hermione, and have had difficulty in ending the story. =] Thanks so much for the review, and for reading. Epilogue should be up soon! *hugs*Rhiannon
Oh, it all makes sense now. Very interesting yet agonizing plot. lol.
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Well, I aim to please/torture! I'm glad you enjoyed it. =] The epilogue should be up soon! Watch out for in-coming lemons!!!!! Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!*hugs*Rhiannon
YEAH!!!! Thank you for putting it right in the end - you have done such a great job with this - thanks for all the twists and turns on the way - really appreciate all of your hard work!!
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Thank you so much! I'm so glad you've enjoyed it. I've had a wonderful time writing it. I love plot twists!! Thanks so much for reading and for reviewing. The epilogue will be up soon - beware of lemons!! *hugs*Rhiannon
Oh, my gosh, that last line was the best! Albus really is a meddlesome old coot, isn't he? Did he really doubt Severus' ability to be selfless? Does the man not know him at all? Anyway, I'm glad that all worked out. Lovely chapter... really! I'm not sure if I care too much about their great-grandchildren, but I hate to see this story end! It's been wonderful.
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Yes, the thought of Severus grinning like an idiot was just too good. =] I don't think Albus ever really doubted him, I think he just wanted Severus to realise that 'different isn't always better'. The great-grandchildren thing was a bit of a joke. I started writing the epilogue, and literally couldn't stop. I did cut it rather short, in th end. Lemon Alert!!! Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!! *hugs*Rhiannon
I'm glad that Severus found his way back to Hermione. He's proven to himself that he truly loves her. Very romantic. I'm looking forward to the epilogue.
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
I'm so glad that you liked it! Thanks so much for writing and reviewing!!*hugs*Rhiannon
Good ending. Nothing like a second change to get it right and be happy. It will be an even happier life because of what he had to go through to have it.Livvy
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
I'm glad you liked my little cheesy ending! =] Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!! *hugs*Rhiannon
This has been fun. I am looking forward to the epilogue.
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Thank you so much for reading and reviewing! The epilogue should be up soon! *hugs*Rhiannon
Do you really want to know the names and occupations of their great-grandchildren? Are you kidding me? Of course I do! I want to know everything! Everything! Well, as much as you and your muse can bring yourselves to write.Having read this latest chapter, I can tell you that "the penny dropped" for me. This is such a unique story, and I've loved every word. Not only are you a very talented writer, but I appreciate the time you've taken to answer the questions I asked in my reviews. I know you forewarned us that Severus and Hermione would be together, but not in the way we imagined. Boy! were you right. I didn't see this coming at all! Well done, Rhiannon, well done! I'm looking forward to the epilogue.A Thousand Points to Your House! Beth
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Thanks for the house points!!! =] I really appreciate all your wonderful compliments, and thoughtful questions. Those are the things that make me enjoy writing! Yes, sometimes a fresh start is just the best way. I wanted the 'mega-happy ending', but I wanted it to be unsual. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all your amazing support!!!! I hope you'll enjoy the epilogue! *hugs*Rhiannon
What a pleasant surprise. I had braced myself for more bad stuff to happen to her.
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
I can only be cruel to my favourite couple for so long! I'm glad you liked it! Thanks so much for reading and reviewing! *hugs*Rhiannon
I swear! Sometimes men are so clueless! Severus' friendship with Lily was spectacularly manipulated by Lily herself... making all those faces at him to get his attention right when he and Hermione were taking their wedding vows... bitch! And Severus deserves to feel like a fool for not seeing what he was doing to Hermione... sometimes men are so clueless! He should have sat Lily down and given her a talking to when she kept on trying to be the center of attention of his life. Bitch!Now that he has seen what his thoughtlessness has done, and read Hermione's goodbye letter, I hope he can screw his courage to the sticking place and go find her... tell her what a fool he has been, and plead for forgiveness from her and let her know that he has forgiven her. I don't like Lily, and I think your description of her as an "attention whore" is apt. I've known people like this, and they are a constant cause of hurt feelings to everyone around them. James must be made of stern stuff. Either that or he is willing to put up with a lot to keep her in his life.I'm sure that Harry is humiliated and aghast at his mother's behavior. What will become of him and Ginny? *sigh*Now where is our Hermione, and what is she doing? Her letter to Severus completely broke my heart: "I have loved you as much as I could, and I will continue to do so until I die. I’m sorry that it wasn’t enough. Maybe in some parallel universe, you and Lily are happy together. I’m sorry that couldn’t be the case in this one. I hope that you can at least look back on these last years fondly. They were the best of my entire life. I love you, Severus. But more than that, I only want you to be happy. If I cannot make you happy, I will remove myself from the scenario in hopes that if I’m gone, you’ll be free to find the love and happiness that you so richly deserve."Please make it all better. What a fabulous story this is!Beth
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Beth Dearest, I LOVE your reviews, thank you! Lily is a BITCH, as well as an attention whore. As far as the wedding vow thing goes, I once saw that happen. It made everyone who noticed physically sick. Not good. I am glad that the letter worked! No one wants a visit from the 'sappy fairy'. LOL Harry & Ginny are in love and will work through their problems. Harry is sickened by his mother, once he understands it all. He is also pissed at her for coming down so hard on Ginny for cheating, when she'd like nothing more than to do that herself (projecting, anyone?)James is an absolute saint. I took my cues from him from the speech Remus makes about Harry's 'father would have thought distrusting one's friends to be the height of dishonour.' He loves all his friends, he loves his wife. He knows that Severus wouldn't act on anything, and knows that Lily loves him (James) enough to always come back. Hermione is taking some much needed time to think about her life. She blames herself, not only b/c of her insane lack of self-confidence, but also b/c she was upset for so long and never directly confronted Severus. They WILL be back together, but it will not be how you think! I can't tell you how glad I am that you've been reading and reviewing. I hope you continue to enjoy this, and also if you feel inclined to do a 'summation' review after the epilogue, then that would be wonderful. =] Next chapter is in queue! *hugs*Rhiannon
Wow - my heart is just breaking for them!! You have made them so empathic!!! Thanks for your hard work and I can't wait to see this resolved!!
Response from rhiannon113 (Author of What Dreams May Come)
Thanks so much for your lovely comments. I really wanted all the characters to be empathetic (other than Lily).Next chapter is in queue, I really hope you enjoy it! Again, thanks so much for reviewing, and of course, for reading!! *hugs*Rhiannon