Fidelius: October 1981
Chapter 22 of 24
starmomSet in the time of Voldemort's first rise, this is a tale of choices and consequences, darkness and light, love and hatred, laughter and tears, and of trust and betrayal. Lily Evans, Severus Snape and Peter Pettigrew each provide a piece of the puzzle and, by telling their individual stories, the whole is revealed. By the time we reach that fateful night in Godric’s Hollow, we learn that truth is neither black nor white, and that we are all vulnerable to evil.
This novel-length fic was completed before the release of DH. Illustrations are by anemonesque.
~ 2008 Quill to Parchment Runner-up: Best Marauder Era Fic ~
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~*~ Sunday, October 11 ~*~
Lily
"That's not a real word!"
"Is too!"
"Is not!"
"My mum used it all the time," said James defiantly.
"Right. Use it in a sentence."
"'There are Beriwiggles infesting the rose bushes.' It's a magical insect. Little and red. With long antennae. Nasty things that squirt sticky stuff."
Lily scrunched up her nose in frustration. James was ruthless when he cheated at Scrabble. "I know you are making that up, and you know that my copy of Fantastic Beasts is packed away so I can't verify it."
James cocked his head, smirked in his most infuriatingly arrogant way, and turned his palms face up, inviting her to concede the word.
"FINE!" Lily nearly tore the parchment as she marked down his ill-gotten, fifty-seven points. "How could I have married a reprobate like you, James Potter!"
"If a 'reprobate' means charming, sexy and brilliant, I think the answer is self-evident!"
Lily picked up a small pillow from the sofa they'd been leaning against and smacked him with it. His glasses went flying.
"That's for being a cheeky sod!"
James got on his hands and knees and began to crawl towards her. "You are a marked woman, now, Mrs Potter," he hissed, an evil grin stretched across his face.
"James..." She scooted backwards.
"There is no escape!" In a single leap he landed on Lily, pushed her to the floor, and pinned her there with his body. "You know the punishment for sore losers, don't you?" he growled.
Lily started laughing, shrieking, and squirming to try and push him off. "No! Don't!"
"Look at my pitiful prey... hysterical before I've even begun to do... THIS!" Both hands attacked her torso, all ten fingers flying in a coordinated attack. She screamed at his unrelenting tickling assault until tears ran from her eyes.
"You WIN! Stop!" she shrieked breathlessly.
"Say that I'm the best Scrabble player of all time!"
"Best! James! Stop!"
He rolled off of her, both of them laughing and gasping for breath. Lily looked behind her at the stairs.
"I can't believe we didn't wake him up from his nap," she said, wiping her face with the bottom of her tee shirt.
"He's just being considerate, giving his mummy and daddy a bit of time to themselves."
Lily glanced at her husband, prone on the floor, looking more deliciously dishevelled than usual.
"Very considerate, indeed," she nodded. "After all, parents need play time too." With a push, Lily rolled herself over to land astride James' lap, her hands splayed on either side of his face.
James reached up and ran his hands through her hair, which fell about him like auburn curtains. The late afternoon sunlight filtered through the covered window, creating a golden glow around her. "What shall we play next, Mrs Potter?" he asked softly, his voice deep and resonant.
Lily bent down to brush his cheeks, nose and forehead with light, feather kisses. "This game is called 'Lily ravishes her husband'." With a wicked grin of her own, she claimed his lips, and his responsive moan vibrated through her body.
A high-pitched vibration shot through the room, indicating the protective spells on their home had been breached. It was followed by a single knock on the door.
"Bugger," muttered James. "Rotten bloody timing! Who could it be?"
Lily had scrambled to her feet. "My wand! Where-is-that-stupid...?" she muttered, attacking each of the sofa cushions until one of them coughed up her wand.
Just before James could cast the revealing spell on the front door, a wispy mongoose Patronus waddled into the living room.
"It's Alastor," James sighed with relief as he opened the door. "You could have warned us you were coming, Moody. I nearly had a heart attack!"
"Sorry, boy," said the grizzled Auror as he stepped inside. "Didn't have time to send an announcement. And you're too young to have heart problems."
Lily gave Moody quick kiss on his scarred cheek. "No matter, Alastor. We're delighted to have company, aren't we, James?" One eyebrow lifted in warning as she caught James' petulant scowl. "Would you like some tea?" she asked, leading him to the sofa.
"No, thanks." He pursed his lips and shifted a bit, looking extremely uncomfortable. Lily had seen that look before; she felt a shiver of cold run down her back.
"What's wrong?" The words caught in her throat. The air was suddenly thick with apprehension and fear.
"James. Lily. You...er...might want to sit down."
They both sat on the sofa, and Lily felt James take her hand and hold it tightly. "Go on," said James.
Moody seemed to find a stance that suited him and put his hands behind his back.
"Last night, we caught word from the Muggle authorities that a bomb had gone off in London, near a military barracks. Most of the injured were men from the barracks. But, two 'civilians', who just happened to be driving by, got caught up in the blast as well. The Muggles, with a bit of help from the MLE, have just identified them. Your parents, Lily...."
Lily didn't hear her own strangled cry, nor did she feel James' arms wrap around her. She didn't hear the rest of what Alastor said either. All her senses seemed to have imploded at the same time and found it was suddenly hard to breathe. Not mum... dad... not them... can't be possible....
"Lily, shhh..." she heard James' voice reach her and felt his hand stroking her head. It was as if her insides had been ripped from her body. She felt like she might faint, but James' strong and steady arms kept her present. Heart-wrenching sobs finally broke from within her and went on and on and on.
After a long while, only silent tears flowed. James and Moody were talking quietly.
"Was it Voldemort?" she heard James ask.
"We checked the area for magic and it was... inconclusive. The Muggles say it was a typical IRA job, but that hasn't been verified either."
"But, for all the injuries, the only two to...that weren't military...it seems so unlikely to be random. Do you think it could it be payback from the kidnapping attempt?"
"Could be. But we might never know for certain. In the end, Potter, I don't think it matters as to the 'who and why'."
"Petunia!" said Lily in a sudden panic. From within the fog of her grief, she remembered her sister. Lily sat up, grasping the handkerchief that James was handing her. "I have to go to Petunia!"
"The Muggle police will have already notified her, Lily," said Moody gruffly. "I'll take you to see her, whenever you're ready. Neither of you goes out without Auror protection from now on. Direct orders from the Minister herself. She's put all her resources at your disposal, as a special favour to you, Lily.
Lily nodded and tried to clear her head, which felt like it had been stuffed with cotton. "James... Harry?"
James kissed her gently. "I'll be here with Harry, love. Don't worry about us. Go to your sister. We'll be all right."
~*~ Tuesday, October 20 ~*~
Severus
Dawn was just breaking when Severus Apparated to Hogwarts' entrance gates. The air was crisp, and he felt the icy chill of the morning stab through him despite the warmth of his robes. He pocketed his mask and strode wearily through the school gates and towards the castle. He'd wake Albus to tell him the not-unexpected news and then have time for a quick shower and breakfast before classes. Fortunately, the first of these was his N.E.W.T.-level Potions class, so he'd not have to exert himself too much. They, at least, weren't likely to blow up the classroom.
Though his body was tired, his mind was awhirl, not only with the events of the previous evening, but with the sudden turn his life had taken in the past two months. He grimaced as he thought how he'd ironically achieved his goal after all: to turn spy and teach at Hogwarts. Except that he was teaching Potions instead of Defence, and he was spying for Dumbledore, not the Dark Lord.
~*~
Dumbledore was nearly as harsh a taskmaster as Voldemort, for all that he used that infuriating twinkle instead of a Cruciatus. In making his final choice, Severus had knelt before the Headmaster in the hope of saving what was left of his accursed soul. Dumbledore had made it clear, however, that it would take some time before Severus could fully earn his trust. Though, what would he would be required to do to earn that trust, Severus did not yet know.
Surprisingly, the most terrifying moment of his new service came, not in reporting back to the Dark Lord for after he turned spy for Dumbledore as one might expect, but in stepping in front of his Potions class for the very first time, teaching a group of fifth-year Gryffindors and Slytherins. Severus had seen and done terrible things as a Death Eater, but facing these children...who stared at him with curiosity, suspicion and expectation...was truly terrifying.
I'm not much older than they are, he thought in a panic. I don't know anything about teaching. I don't even like children!
Then he saw the red and gold flash of a Gryffindor scarf being unwound from the neck of boy with curly, brown hair. When the unsuspecting student took out his wand, Severus was lit with an unexplainable spark of fury.
"Put that wand away, you stupid boy," he snarled loudly, his voice resonating through the dungeon classroom. "There will be no foolish wand-waving in this class."
His face must have looked fierce because the students all jumped as if they'd been hit with a Blasting Curse. Their eyes were wide with... fear?
"I didn't know we wouldn't be using wands, sir," the student responded in his own defence, his voice wavering a bit, but still strong.
Severus swooped down to tower over the student, who cringed below him. "Nor did you know that you would, Mr. Stebbins. Had you waited for instructions, it might have served you better. But Gryffindors are not especially noted for following rules, are they? Ten points from Gryffindor!"
Stebbins cowered in his seat, ashen-faced, and the Slytherins all snickered. A sudden feeling of understanding and triumph came over Severus. I suppose I might manage this after all. He masked his smirk as he turned with a swirl of his robes towards the blackboard. With a flick of his own wand, the ingredients and instructions for the potion lesson appeared on the board in a near facsimile of his own spiky handwriting.
I might be forced to serve two masters, but these young fools will have to serve me, he mused, turning back to the class.
"Everything you need to create the Draught of Peace is on the board. It is likely to be on your O.W.L. exam. Begin," he snapped. Severus nodded in satisfaction as the students scampered like a horde of frightened spiders to retrieve the ingredients from the supply cabinet.
~*~
Severus cradled the blissfully hot cup of tea in his hands and took a sip. He closed his eyes, relishing the feel of its warmth spreading through his chilled body. Dumbledore sat at his desk, waiting patiently.
Severus finally met the Headmaster's gaze and ignored the pain that seemed to tear at his throat as he uttered the words, "It is as we feared, sir. Voldemort has decided it is the Potter boy."
The ancient wizard barely nodded, his sharp blue eyes revealing nothing. "Do you think he'll move quickly?"
"Despite his efforts to locate them, I don't believe he knows where they are hiding. I expect that he'll strike the moment that he does."
Dumbledore sat back and steepled his fingers, lost in his own thoughts.
After a few minutes, Severus broke the silence. "Sir," he began, trying to excise the panic from his voice, "can you protect them?" He pictured Lily as he'd seen her at the Ministry, her fear etched into his heart. A hollow feeling of desperation came over him.
Dumbledore glanced up to meet Severus' gaze, but Severus did not attempt to block his thoughts and feelings from the Headmaster. It had been one of Albus' requirements of service.
A warm smile appeared on Dumbledore's careworn face. "We will try our very best, my boy. With your help, we will try to keep them safe from harm."
Severus reddened; his shame at putting the one person who had shown him true friendship in mortal peril was close to the surface, and he knew that Dumbledore could see it.
Thankfully, the Headmaster did not comment further, but stood instead. Severus followed. "Go now. Get ready for your day."
He nodded and turned to leave, when a bundle of something shimmering lying on a table near the door caught his eye. Severus moved closer and reached out to touch it. Then, just as suddenly, he pulled his hand away as if it had been burned. "It's Potter's," he whispered in recognition.
"Yes," said Dumbledore in a matter-of-fact manner, "it is James' Invisibility Cloak. I asked to borrow it for a while."
Severus continued to stare at the cloak; memories of Potter using it to torment him flashed through his mind in a series of unbidden images.
"I want you to keep it for a while, Severus. You may have need of it."
Severus stepped away from it and turned back to the Headmaster.
"I don't need his blasted cloak," he growled, the hatred of his enemy afresh in his heart.
"This isn't the time to indulge in childhood enmities, Severus," scolded Dumbledore sharply. "Take the cloak."
Severus glared at the Headmaster, then scooped up the cloak and stuffed it into a robe pocket in a single movement. "Protect her," he said brusquely as he departed from the Headmaster's office.
~*~ October 21 ~*~
Peter
He wasn't scheduled for a shift at headquarters, but a shipment of supplies had arrived that day, and Peter thought it would be a good idea to get it sorted out sooner rather than later. So, Apparating to Phoenix Farm after work, he was surprised and delighted to see Lily feeding Harry at the large dining table as he stepped into the farmhouse.
"Hello, Peter!" Lily said brightly as she spooned some mashed carrots into Harry's open mouth.
"Where's James?" Peter asked.
"He's...."
"It feels so bloody wonderful to get some fresh air!" James exclaimed as he entered the farmhouse, the door banging closed behind him.
"... here!" finished Lily, waving Harry's spoon towards the door.
James peeled off his outer cloak and hung it on a rack. Seeing Peter, he rushed over and crushed him in an exuberant embrace. "Wormtail! It's so great to see you!" Peter couldn't breathe until James let him go. James thumped him heartily on his back. "We didn't expect you here tonight, mate!"
Peter was flushed and pleased with his friends' enthusiastic greeting. "I didn't expect you either, Prongs! Did you get released for good behaviour?" he quipped with a beaming smile.
James nodded. "About time, too!"
Eyeing Harry critically, James spelled away the orange, gloopy mess from his son's face before lifting him up to nuzzle at his neck. This set Harry off in a squeal of laughter, who retaliated by snatching his father's glasses off his face. Lily reached over in a practiced move to deftly pluck the spectacles out of his chubby hands.
"Dumbledore permits us to come to the Farm at odd times," explained Lily as she took Harry from James and set him on the floor. "It's the only place we can escape to. If we didn't have the Farm, I think that James and I would go mad, probably forced into hexing each other out of frustration." Peter watched Harry grab the leg of a chair, trying to lift himself to a standing position. The effort failed and he fell back on his bum with a light thud. The child frowned and stared at the chair in frustration.
James nodded in agreement. "I hate having to sit around all day doing nothing," he said, a scowl clouding his face. "At least when I'm here I can help out a bit and not feel like a bloody layabout."
"Well, you've come at a good time! I could use a hand sorting out a delivery. Care to help?"
James was about to respond when the farmhouse door opened and Albus Dumbledore stepped inside, casting a glance over the assembled friends.
"Peter, I need to have a word alone with Lily and James." His tone was clipped, all formalities oddly...and noticeably...absent.
James shrugged, and Lily gave Peter a wan smile. The Headmaster stared, and Peter stifled his disappointment at being left out...again.
"Not a problem," he said, his smile falsely bright. "I'll just head to the back room and get to work."
He turned on his heel and left. Once in the storeroom, he stared at the boxes that were piled on top of each other but suddenly, he didn't much feel like sorting anymore. He wanted to know what was going on. So, in an instant, Peter changed into his Animagus form and scurried through a hole in the wall. This was not the first time that he had used these secret places to eavesdrop on important conversations, and he turned in and out of hidden passageways until he came to a small opening in the wall that divided the main room and the kitchen. From here he could see and hear very well.
Dumbledore was seated with Lily and James at the table. Lily was rocking Harry, who had fallen asleep with his head resting on her shoulder. Her face was pale.
"Are you certain?" she asked.
"I'm afraid so. A new location has been found. You must go there immediately."
James pounded his fist on the table and Harry jerked in response, but did not wake up. "Damn it, Albus. What's the point of this endless running and hiding? If he wants us, let's call his bluff. Tell him where we are, and we'll be ready to fight him when he shows up!"
Dumbledore appeared to be considering how to respond to this. "I understand your frustration, James, but there is more to the situation than you are aware of. I must ask you to trust me."
Peter noticed Lily clutching a locket around her neck. "We'll go this time," she said. "But how will another move help us?"
"This time, we'll invoke the Fidelius Charm," Dumbledore answered quietly.
"Have a Secret-Keeper?" asked James in a surprised whisper.
"What is the Fidelius Charm?" asked Lily apprehensively.
"A Secret-Keeper is bound by the Charm to protect a secret," explained James. "In our case, the secret would be our location. It affords a greater level of protection in that only the Secret-Keeper can reveal it. Those who do know can't say, and anyone who knew our location beforehand will not be able to recall where it is after the Charm is cast."
Dumbledore nodded. "James is correct. And I would like to ask you to allow me to be your Secret-Keeper."
"Can we choose?" asked James.
Lily looked at James in surprise. "Is there a reason you don't want the Headmaster to do it?"
James set his mouth in a thin line. "Sirius will be upset if I don't ask him. I...I'd like him to be our Secret-Keeper."
No one responded to this right away, and Peter started in alarm.
"I know that Sirius is as good as a brother, James," said Dumbledore, "but I'd like you to think about this."
"I think that he's right, James," said Lily slowly, reaching out to touch his arm. "I love Sirius, but I'm not sure that he is the best choice."
"Why not?" James asked, pulling his arm away from her roughly.
Lily tried to think of an answer that didn't provoke James' automatic and stubborn defence of his best friend.
"I just think that the Headmaster would be the better choice."
James got to his feet and looked between the other two with a defiant glare. "If we have to invoke the Fidelius, then I insist that Sirius be the Secret-Keeper!"
Lily looked to Dumbledore, but the Headmaster raised his palms in acquiescence. "All right, James. If you insist, then it shall be so."
"Then I insist that Sirius tell Albus our location after the Charm is cast," said Lily, equally defiant as she glared back at her husband.
James nodded in agreement and returned to his seat, placated for the moment.
"I will work with Lily to teach her the Charm," said Dumbledore. "I'd like it done as quickly as possible."
Lily scrunched up her face to calculate the time. "With moving and all, I think we can do it on Saturday. Will that be all right?"
"That will have to do." The old wizard stood and gestured for Lily to follow. "Come with me into my office, Lily. This won't take long to learn.
~*~ October 23 ~*~
Peter's palms were sweating as he knocked on Sirius' door, and his heart was beating to a fast and steady rhythm. Doubts kept creeping into his head, and he struggled to squash them.
No, this is the right thing to do. This plan has to work. Everything depends on it. Everything.
The door cracked open, and Peter saw Sirius' surprised expression.
"Wormtail?"
He'd been to Padfoot's flat only one other time, with James. He'd never come on his own. "It's been awhile, Padfoot. I thought we might catch up!" He knew it sounded lame, but he pulled out a bottle of Ogden's from his robes, and Sirius' face brightened.
"C'mon in then, mate!"
******
Convincing Sirius that he wasn't fit to be the Potters' Secret-Keeper was so much easier than Peter could have imagined. As soon as he'd got Padfoot to slip and tell him about the Fidelius Charm, it was proof enough to demonstrate how unreliable Sirius would be with the secret to the Potters' location. Sirius' own well-entrenched pit of guilt over his numerous past misdemeanours, aided by a half-bottle of whisky, was all it took for Sirius to suggest that perhaps it would be a better idea if Peter were to be their Secret-Keeper instead. No one, Sirius had said, would think to suspect someone like Peter!
"I don't know, Padfoot," said Peter with false hesitation. "I'm willing, of course, but James is pretty certain that he wants you. How would you convince him?"
Sirius waved his glass. "Leave it to me, Wormtail. I can convince James of anything."
Peter looked doubtful. "So, I should just show up with you tomorrow? Don't you think we should tell them in advance?"
"Yes! No! That's brilliant!" exclaimed Sirius. "You'll already be with me when I go." Sirius leaned over as if conveying something secret. "No, we don't want to tell them anything beforehand. It'll be harder for them to refuse if you're already there," he whispered and then broke into a wild laugh. "Trust me, Wormtail. You'll be their Secret-Keeper before the day is done." A sudden, worried look stole over his face. "Do you think that they'll let you tell me where they live, though?"
Peter reached over to take the empty glass out of Sirius' hand. "We'll ask James and Lily, mate. I'm sure they'll want you to know. I wouldn't worry."
Sirius smiled with relief and lay down on the sofa and yawned. "That's good, mate. You're a great friend, Peter. This will be for the best, I know it." He was asleep within minutes.
"Yes, Sirius. I agree. This is absolutely for the best."
Peter poured himself another shot of Ogden's and sat back in Sirius' armchair, feeling rightly smug and satisfied.
That's right, mate. We'll make sure that James and his family are finally safe.
~*~ October 24 ~*~
Lily
She left James and Sirius to hash it out with each other, going upstairs to put Harry down for his nap, timed so he'd sleep through the Binding ceremony. They'd both been shocked when Sirius arrived with Peter in tow, and Lily was more than a little impressed at Sirius' reasoning for wanting to let Peter be their Secret-Keeper. It was the most thoughtful and responsible action she'd ever seen him take, although she suspected that Peter might have helped.
No matter, she thought, surprised at her relief. It's still a good idea.
When the shouting ebbed to conversational levels, she returned to the living room, still stacked with boxes. They hadn't fully unpacked from their move to Godric's Hollow, a lovely small village in southern Wales. Dumbledore had told them that the eponymous 'Godric' was, indeed, her school House's namesake, and that there were still some magical people scattered about the area.
Lily noticed that Peter was standing awkwardly off by himself, trying to stay out of the line of fire.
"Peter, come sit with me while these two prats sort themselves out," she said, patting the sofa.
Peter sat down next to her, and Sirius looked smug as he crossed his arms. "James has finally seen reason, Peter."
James looked at Peter, running a hand through his hair, a sure sign of agitation. "It's not you, mate. I do trust you, you know."
Peter preened. "I know you do. I expect we just took you by surprise, is all."
"Yeah. Well. I suppose we should all get ready then," James said without enthusiasm. He turned to Lily. "Can Padfoot stay? I want him to know. Peter will tell him after. Is it all right, Lily?"
James' pleading brought to mind a vision of Harry in a few years, trying to wheedle favours from her, and Lily smiled. "Of course he can stay. We want you to be here, Sirius."
Both men looked relieved.
********
After showers and a charm to ensure they were thoroughly clean, Lily, James, and Peter were clad in the simple linen shifts and outer robes with short sleeves that Dumbledore had provided. They stood together in the living room, barefoot. Sirius watched from the sofa.
Lily positioned Peter and James so that they faced each other and instructed them to cross their arms to take hold of each other's forearms, forming the symbol of infinity. Lily positioned herself next to where their arms intersected and placed her wand at the point of their joining. For a few moments, they closed their eyes and breathed deeply, feeling their magic flow from one to the other in conjunction with the beating of their hearts and the breath of their bodies. Then Lily began to chant.
"Est viniculum unitatis.
Ex abuntantia cordis, os tacita voce loquitur.
In spiritu et vertate cognito celanda est."
Lily felt a surge of magic flow from her, through her wand and to the connection made by the two men in an infinite loop, growing stronger each time it passed round. A light yellow glow emanated from their conjoined arms.
"Peter Pettigrew, do you swear to loyalty?" James asked.
Lily noted a slight dip in the flow of energy, but it righted itself instantly.
"I swear to loyalty," Peter replied.
The glow intensified to a bright orange.
"Ex loquitor, ex anima, ex spiritu, protecto fidelitate sit!"
The light exploded around them in a shimmering burst of red and gold.
"Consummatum est."
The light receded and Lily stepped away. Slowly, as if it were difficult to do, Peter and James released their grips, and their arms fell back to their sides. They sank into armchairs, dazed.
"Well. That was bloody awesome," said Sirius, who had been watching from the sofa.
Lily gave Peter and James each a goblet of fresh, cold water. Then she drank as well, feeling horribly parched.
James pulled Lily to his lap and hugged her. "You were brilliant. Flitwick'd be damned proud."
"So how does this Fidelius work, anyway?" asked Sirius, who was looking about the room as if surprised he could see it.
"I think that if you were to leave and try to come back, you wouldn't be able to find the house, or us," explained Lily. "Can you tell us our address?"
Sirius thought and then said, "Sure! You live at... at...."
They all looked at each other and burst into laughter.
Sirius looked sheepish. "I guess it worked, then."
Lily turned to Peter. "Tell Sirius our address."
Peter looked at Sirius with an unreadable expression. "The Potters' live at number twenty-five, Beacon Lane, in Godric's Hollow."
"Twenty-five, Beacon Lane, Godric's Hollow. Got it!" Sirius smiled, clearly relieved to be in possession of this information once again.
Lily stood and retrieved a bit of parchment and a quill and handed them both to Peter. He looked at her quizzically.
"For Dumbledore. Write down our address."
She thought she saw a scowl cross Peter's face, but then he nodded, took the parchment and quill, and wrote out their address. When he was done, Lily sealed it with her wand and handed it to Sirius. "Will you see that Albus gets this, Sirius?"
Sirius tucked the parchment in his robes and patted it. "Done, lovely Lily!" he said with a wide grin. "So, I'm famished. Have you any food in that new kitchen of yours, or should I pop out for provisions?"
******
Several hours and many cartons of Chinese takeaway later, Sirius and Peter left. Harry had been fed and bathed and tucked into his cot. Standing over their sleeping son, James and Lily held each other and gazed at Harry.
"It's a blessing that he's too young to know we're in the midst of this terrible war," whispered James. "All he knows is that we love him." He sighed deeply. "I wish that was enough to keep him safe."
Lily's hand reached for her locket. "It is enough, James. It's all he needs."
**********
A/N:
Real life fact: On October 10, 1981, a bomb attributed to the Irish Republican Army exploded in London, England, killing two civilians and injuring forty others outside Chelsea Army Barracks.
I know squat about Latin. But thanks to the University of Notre Dame's online Latin/English Dictionary, and helpful corrections by Agrarrevolution (thank you!!), here's my version and supposed translation of the Fidelius Charm:
Est vinculum unitatis.
This is the bond of unity.
Ex abuntantia cordis, os tacita voce loquitur.
From the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks in silent voice.
In spiritu et vertate cognito celanda est.
In spirit and truth, knowledge shall be secret.
Ex loquitor, ex anima, ex spiritu, protecto fidelitate sit!
From the mouth, the heart, and the spirit, there shall be protection through loyalty!
Consummatum est.
It is completed.
Oh, and of course, we all know that Scrabble is a wizarding game, thanks to Martian HouseCat's fic by the same name.
My endless thanks to both capella_black and songbook99, betas extraordinare!
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Excellent, as usual! But, you made me cry . That cheery little scene at home with the Potter's with Harry taking his first steps that Halloween night, James and Lily so proud. That was just cruel to the reader! I'd always figured that with Harry being 16 mo. old that he had started talking and probably walking by the time J & L were killed. But, it was sad to read such a happy moment in their lives being the same night they died. --- I'll get over it in time for the next chapter though.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm just an evil woman. Next and last chapter to be up soon!Thanks!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm just an evil woman. Next and last chapter to be up soon!Thanks!
Oh my gosh! That was an evil cliffie! And I always wondered how Wormtail had Voldemort's wand? Clever! Does Severus realize Lily is dead? Because I remember in book 7 that Dumbledore told Severus that Lily was dead and he broke down in his office.
Can't wait for the next chapter!
Livvy
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
The next and last chapter will be in the queue shortly! Remember, this was written before DH came out. You can see for yourself how close I came!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
The next and last chapter will be in the queue shortly! Remember, this was written before DH came out. You can see for yourself how close I came!
to lose your parents and not have a good relationship with your sister is ruff. when peter swore to loyalty he never said to what he was loyal. and Severus is dead on.
You wrote: '... Severus finally met the Headmaster’s gaze and ignored the pain that seemed to tear at his throat as he uttered the words, “It is as we feared, sir. Voldemort has decided it is the Potter boy.” ...'I'm just curious about you having Severus referring to the Dark Lord as Voldemort, even if it is in a private discussion with Albus. It's been a long time since I re-read the books and I may be confused with fanon, but I thought Severus was alwas adament about not using LV's name.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm not certain, but I seem to recall that he refers to Voldy as the "Dark Lord" with Harry, but nothing when in conversation with Dumbledore. So it's a bit of poetic license at this point!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm not certain, but I seem to recall that he refers to Voldy as the "Dark Lord" with Harry, but nothing when in conversation with Dumbledore. So it's a bit of poetic license at this point!
I don't know if I have reviewed before now or not, but anyway, I just wanted to let you know I think this story is brilliant! It had been wonderfully written and each time the end comes, I can't wait for the next chapter - even though I know it's going to end in tears!
I do hope that the eighth book that Rowling mentioned she might do would be a book on the Maurauders Era. There are still so many questions unanswered. But, whether or not she does, I'm glad you've written this!
Livvy
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks for your very kind comments, Livvy!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks for your very kind comments, Livvy!
Just lovely… all of it. I love exploring the Marauder's era so deeply. You are taking us on quite a journey. You are so insighful about Peter. And I love how you have set up the circumstances that lead to Lily and Severus' fall out.
I think babies are smarter than adults. This chapter was well put together. Your brilliant you know it . The way you tell a story is awesome.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thank you for your very kind words, Arabella!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thank you for your very kind words, Arabella!
Another amazing chapter! Not only do you write a believeable story, [well, believeable within the realm of fantasy] but [and I too thank your beta readers!] I do not have to trip, stumble and fall over bad grammar, mispellings and dreadful structure. It's heaven, believe me!
Your story has just given Severus even more humanity than I had accredited to him ... and that's saying a lot! That he decided he needed to stop before the 'big bang therory' that was Lily's death at the wand of Voldemort. Of course there is also the thought that he was never as bad as 'all that' and he joined the Death Eater's at the behest of Albus in his quest for a spy - though why he would feel obligated to do a favor for Dumbledore is beyond me.
With your creation of Lily being empathic, I can see that tying into the "Book Harry" always seeming to have an intuition about things. [Not that he was right about SS.] Which sort of brings me back around to poor Peter and the screaming Harry. Was the baby just startled, or did he, like a kneazle, just know there is something off about Pettigrew!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
If you've ever had to manage babies, this is pretty typical, startle-reflex behavior. Peter IS a stranger to baby Harry. But we can give the babe some extra-sensory credits if you like!!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
If you've ever had to manage babies, this is pretty typical, startle-reflex behavior. Peter IS a stranger to baby Harry. But we can give the babe some extra-sensory credits if you like!!
This story just gets better and better. THe tension is building and I cannot wait to read your description of the Potters' deaths and how everyone reacts to it.
Livvy
I liked how James and Peter became friends. Lily as an empath—interesting take. I think it totally fits her as we know her in canon.
"Coming to Hogwarts, Severus allowed himself just a flicker of hope that his life would finally be his own" Aww =(
Albus payng attention to Severus as a student. Yes. And of course he would have. He probably had a plan in mind for him even then, or was watching closely to see what would become of such a strong, young wizard. I liked that inclusion. You think of so many little details to put in!
Your description of Lily and Severus meeting (officially) for the first time was wonderful. Different than canon as we now know it, but still good nonetheless. I like how she purposely ditched the Gryffindor lot, not only because of their unruliness but to actually be able to work with Severus.
Great chapter! (I'll get caught up on reading eventually!)
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Hi! I'm so glad you stopped by for a read! This was completed before (by about one month!) the release of DH. I got some right, some close and some not at all. But I think it hangs together pretty well, nonetheless!Happy reading!
Have I said before how fascinating this story is. I loved the way you worked in the line, 'Potter’s need to seek attention...', that being such a point of contention of Sev's with the teen Harry. Makes me wonder if you've gone through the books with a fine-tooth comb or does it just gel together for you?
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Do you mean can I quote chapter and verse? hehehe...Sometimes...I did try to weave in echoes of the 'future' into this story, as a way to build up the characters to the point at which we meet them in JKR's tale.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Do you mean can I quote chapter and verse? hehehe...Sometimes...I did try to weave in echoes of the 'future' into this story, as a way to build up the characters to the point at which we meet them in JKR's tale.
So baby Draco had be born to this evil world his nasty family has helped to make. And Severus and Lucius know Lily is pregnant. Peter is a bastard trader. Finally a fic that has James as a dotting father, usually it's all Lily. Thank you. And Severus got to tell her well part of it anyway. Cool.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yeah. I always imagine James as a great stay-at-home dad!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yeah. I always imagine James as a great stay-at-home dad!
I love that Neville's parents are in this story. They rarely are in fanfic. Sirius seems to always found trouble. lol I am going to say this now I do not and will never like Peter the Rat. For those who do, I am truly sorry for you. lol. But I don't. Oh no Severus is the one who killed Regulus. No wonder Sirius can't stand him. Well one of the reason anyway.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yes,, Peter is rather pathetic - in his own peculiarly cluess way.I don't think Sirius ever knew about Snape offing Reggie (in my version!), but then Sirius never needed real reasons to hate him.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yes,, Peter is rather pathetic - in his own peculiarly cluess way.I don't think Sirius ever knew about Snape offing Reggie (in my version!), but then Sirius never needed real reasons to hate him.
This chapter was an emotional roller-coaster. You have definitely not turned me off from the story, and I am eager to read more.
I have to tell you that I very much appreciate the way you wrote this chapter. There is no honor, no glory but at the same time the reader is not left awash in confusing double-talk, vagueness or flowery cover-up. You spit it out and left no room for imagining that war can not be that bad.
Because HP is a 'children's book', the evilness of the Death Eaters is not developed to the fullest. But adults surely realize that once the 'soldier' has joined, freely or was coerced into participation, they do what they will because they are as fanatical about the Cause as the Dark Lord, or because they will be killed if they don't do as told. The Death Eaters need to learn the Unforgiveables somewhere... unless their mum is Bella Black, it's not usually something they learn at home. While Dumbledore's Army was learning Jellylegs Jinx and Rictusempra, the Death Eaters are using Sectumsempra and Avada Kedavra. No wonder it took so long to do in Voldemort.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks! Yes, my vision of Voldemort and the Death Eaters (does that sound like a rock band?) is pretty different from most fanfic writers. I think they'd need to be a pretty organized group of trained terrorists to be as effective as they were - especially in the first war. The leaders are smart and deadly, but with a purpose, as opposed to just death and torture for its own sake. So you'll never see my Voldemort on a throne or throwing around 'Crucio's'. Even, Bella, as sadistic as she is, isn't nearly as wacko as she becomes after spending a few years with Dementors.
I just wanted you to know that I've been reading since the beginning and I don't think I've reviewed before, but I wanted you to know that I think it took a lot of guts to write what you wrote. I agree, war is evil and evil acts are committed in warfare.
What was interesting was the sexuality of Severus' examination. I find it interesting that he would make a woman do that under the Imperius Curse. Is Snape deep down a misogynist? Residual mom issues? Lily issues? That he would make a woman do something to a part of her anatomy that is sexual and also to mutilate, as you said, breast, a word he had never said outl oud before, that is very interesting.
Good work on what must have been a gut-wrencher to turn out.
Livvy
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks so much livvy! I really appreciate your response to this very difficult part of the chapter. Yes, it was horrible and excruciating to write this and the upcoming parts of this chapter. I honestly hadn't given much thought to the sexuality issues when I wrote this. The idea that a woman would be picked for Severus for his 'test' seemed perversely right to me. On reflection, though, I think that there is some hatred-of-mother and emulating-father thing going on behind it all. It's just horrible, no matter how you look at it.Thanks for sticking through this!
Response from livvy6 (Reviewer)
Absolutely, my fics are SS/OC and I think there is so much sexual dysfunction and stunted development there with women that it comes out in my writing, not to mention he is a very tense and respressed son of a gun!
I got a very interesting review on my latest story. She commented that my fics seem to deal alot with themes of abuse and rape. What can I say? I think he has an obsession with Lily that is out of control and basically he is a psychiatrist's delight! There's more than enough dysfunction to go around.
Livvy
I love this story, and am eagerly awaiting the next chapter!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks so much! The chapters are going up as fast as the mods push them through the queue!
Your depiction of Severus' possessiveness of his finished potions speaks of the Dark Magic's possessiveness of him. I think of him as being very duty and honor bound, so doing the best he can in his work would be of utmost importance to him. So eager that he does not notice the darkness drawing him in?
Poor boy is so desperate for acknowledgement. It's so sad to think if just one or two things had ever gone the right way for him, he would never have accepted the Dark Lord and could have been one of the most acknowledged, brilliant of wizards to come out of Hogwarts. All but for Fate. [Yes,
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
knows Severus Snape is a fictional character. Really, she does.]
Wouldn't it be funny to listen to Voldemort lisp, 'possessiveness'! He'd get stuck and hiss on forever.
This chapter has a lot of details that help put things together and move the story along.
I liked how you gave a relationship to the Potters and the Longbottoms. You are telling pieces of the story of which I had never given any consideration! Like James' and Lily's wedding, how they got involved in the Order, what Snape did with his life other than at school or once he was a Death Eater . . . And if I didn't know better, didn't know the story or the character, I'd feel almost sorry for Pettigrew. I would be hoping that he would somehow break free or hide or get the Order's help or just flat out refuse in the end. I'd have been hopeful for him, but it makes the story all the more tragic and real, knowing what he will do as per canon as I watch you lead into that. Great stuff so far!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I did try to fit in EVERYTHING that had been unexplained before DH. Fortunately for me, most of it is still unexplained! And the bits that were... well... I think my versions hold up as possible!Thanks again for reading!
This story looks like it will be a wonderful read. I really enjoy stories that elaborate on canon, especially on events that occurred before Harry was born. I look forward to reading this!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I welcome you to my small, but hearty band of readers! Thanks for coming on the ride and for leaving a comment!
Finally nagged myself into leaving a review. I love this story! I've been with it since the 4th chapter and can not believe hardly anyone leaves you a review ... including me .
So I sing your praises for a wonderful, believable story. For being prompt with updates, for long chapters, for not whinning about lack of reviews and for just getting on with it because you want to.
I am in no way a fan of any of the Marauders, much less Pettigrew, but you have given Peter life, demension and reason for being the way he is. I've always wondered about how he ended up in Gryffindor, friends with Potter and Black, how he landed in the Death Eaters ... but didn't care enough about him to think about it .
On the other hand, I'm amazed the Snape fans have not found this story. [Yeah Severus!] Maybe he just isn't prominent enough in the story...
Enough blathering. I like the story!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks for making my day!!! I'm so glad you pushed yourself to leave a comment, especially as there are only a handful of you actually reading it!! This is very much a Severus story, more so as time goes on!
Yay to you!
starmom
Oooo, his boss, eh? I loved how you worked the Prewett brothers in! Can't wait for the next chapter (I'm crossing my fingers that Snape's in it, lol)!!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Hey, there! Thanks for being one of my small band of readers,
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
!! And for leaving a review! Yep, Severus is coming up... and he's not doing so well.
I feel like I could envision it all happening.
Seeing it from everyone's point of view makes it easier to get where they are coming from and to see what they went through.