Invitations and Obligations, Part 3: October 1978
Chapter 14 of 24
starmomSet in the time of Voldemort's first rise, this is a tale of choices and consequences, darkness and light, love and hatred, laughter and tears, and of trust and betrayal. Lily Evans, Severus Snape and Peter Pettigrew each provide a piece of the puzzle and, by telling their individual stories, the whole is revealed. By the time we reach that fateful night in Godric’s Hollow, we learn that truth is neither black nor white, and that we are all vulnerable to evil.
This novel-length fic was completed before the release of DH. Illustrations are by anemonesque.
~ 2008 Quill to Parchment Runner-up: Best Marauder Era Fic ~
ReviewedInvitations and Obligations (Part 3): October 1978
If one were to ask any member of the Order of the Phoenix where precisely its headquarters were located, none would be able to say for certain. They might guess that it was in the countryside, which would be true, since the usual sounds of the city did not reach Phoenix Farm. The only things to be heard here were birds, the wind, the rustling of the trees, the voices of Order members as they went about their business or the pops! and cracks! that signified their comings and goings. Or, they might say it was south of Hogwarts, which would also be true, because they'd noticed that both autumn and the first snows of winter came later than they did in the colder climes of Scotland. But the only one with the ability to pinpoint its exact location on a map, were he so inclined, would be the Order's leader and Secret-Keeper, Albus Dumbledore.
The Order's headquarters were comprised of an old farmhouse and several outbuildings, all situated in a clearing surrounded by forest. In addition to having been made Unplottable, there was no road...paved or otherwise...which led to it, preventing hikers or other Muggles from stumbling upon it unawares. Even communications were limited in and out of headquarters, to prevent tracking by unwanted eyes, including their enemies as well as their purported allies in the Ministry. Thus, owls did not fly in and out, and broom travel was prohibited. The only methods of permissible communications were the use of Floo fire in emergencies and their individual Patronus charms, conveniently invented by Dumbledore himself. The user's Patronus was a singular form of sending messages, unreadable by anyone other than another member of the Order.
By all appearances, Phoenix Farm was a perfect bucolic setting, but its peaceful exterior masked the seriousness of its true purpose: to provide a logistical centre of operations for the Order of the Phoenix, and its mission to defeat Lord Voldemort.
According to the Ministry of Magic and its official point of view, the Order didn't exist. Unofficially, however, Dumbledore's 'irregulars' were considered a useful resource for underground surveillance and intelligence. This information was used to assist the Ministry's official forces, the Aurors and the Department of Magical Law Enforcement officers, in their efforts to mitigate the increasing number of Death Eater attacks.
Albus Dumbledore, however, had another purpose for the Order. In the face of an official body that was often encumbered by political machinations, bureaucracy, enemy infiltrations, and an unfortunate penchant for corruption, Dumbledore had deemed that it was necessary to establish an independent entity, one that could use the Ministry's resources to its own advantage. He'd learned the necessity of working outside official channels the hard way, in the wasted years it took to finally defeat Grindelwald. And so, while the Order was happy feed the Ministry helpful information, the intelligence they so painstakingly gathered was used by the Order of the Phoenix for its own purposes: to sabotage and subvert Voldemort's plans whenever and wherever possible.
~*~ Sunday ~*~
Peter
Peter was nearly beside himself with excitement in the days leading up to this one, his first day as a recruit into the Order of the Phoenix! James and Lily had already been to their first meeting and began training soon after their wedding, and Sirius had joined shortly after that. Remus, he'd been surprised to discover, had been invited into the Order before he'd even finished school, which finally explained the reasons for his extended absences over the last year. And today was his turn! Early on this Sunday morning, Peter rushed to meet with his former Headmaster in Diagon Alley in front of Flourish and Blotts.
"Good morning, Mr. Pettigrew," said Dumbledore genially as Peter approached. "Are you ready?"
"Yes, sir! How will we be travelling there to..."
"The Farm?" Dumbledore interrupted.
Peter surmised that he should be more discreet and nodded. "Yes, sir. Sorry, sir."
"You'll Side-Along with me. I escort all new recruits on their first visit. It helps to ensure security, you see. After today, you may Apparate there yourself or, if needed, by using one of the Order Portkeys."
Peter nodded again, his excitement growing. "But where is the... Farm, sir?"
"Unfortunately, I can't answer that particular question. Again, security and all that. Any other questions, Mr. Pettigrew?"
"No, sir. I'm ready."
Dumbledore held out his arm and, as he took it, Peter was swept along with his former Headmaster to Phoenix Farm.
They set down in the yard of the old farmhouse, which stood amid several outbuildings of what had once been an actual working farm. Peter was pleased to see James, along with a yellow-haired man Peter didn't know, coming to greet him.
James pulled Peter into a one-armed hug. "You made it, Wormtail! Did you have a nice trip? Hello, Professor!"
"Mr. Potter," acknowledged Dumbledore with a smile. "How is the lovely Mrs. Potter doing?"
"She's wonderful, sir!" said James with his usual in-love grin. "Off with Emmeline, working up some pretty tricky charms."
"I'm delighted to hear it!" Dumbledore smiled and turned to the other man. "Mr. Podmore, how are things today?"
"Quiet, sir," the man replied. "Been expecting Dearborn to show today, but we haven't seen him yet."
Dumbledore nodded. "Please inform me when he arrives, will you, dear boy? I'll be in my office. But first I'm going to stop in the kitchen to see if Emmeline has baked some of her special biscuits. I've been thinking about them all day!" He looked down at Peter. "These two will take you from here, Mr. Pettigrew. Good luck and glad to have you with us!"
"Thank you, sir," Peter said, standing up as straight as he could as Dumbledore ambled towards the main house.
"Peter, this is Sturgis Podmore," said James in introduction. "Podmore was two years ahead of us in school. This is Peter Pettigrew, one of ours!"
Podmore and Peter shook hands. "One of them Marauders, eh?" Podmore queried. Peter glanced sideways at James, who was smiling broadly.
"Um, yes," Peter replied, uncertain as to whether this was a good thing or not.
"Good!" Podmore said with a nod of approval. "That means you've already developed some valuable skills, as I've seen for myself. Good for the Order, Pettigrew!" Podmore's square jaw widened into a smile. "I'm to show you around before the meeting, to get a lay of the land. Follow me!"
Walking around the grounds, Peter could see that the only remnants of Phoenix Farm's previous incarnation were to be found in a small, outer barn, where a small number of cackling hens and braying goats were kept to provide milk and eggs for the Order members in residence.
As they rounded the main house, a short witch with long, dark brown hair was tending a nice, large garden, situated near a side door that appeared to lead into the kitchen. Coming closer, the woman paused to look up with a handful of weeds in one hand and tucking a stray lock of hair behind her ear with the other.
"Hello, ducks!" she called. "A new one?" She stood and took Peter's outstretched hand.
"Peter Pettigrew, ma'am," he said. "Pleased to meet you!"
"Dorcas Meadowes is our Healer-in-Residence," said Podmore. "Infirmary duty, basic field potions and supplies and, um, other special projects." Podmore looked at a pile of wooden beams and construction supplies lying beyond the garden.
"I can see that Hagrid hasn't gotten far on the greenhouse, Dorcas," he said with a knowing smirk.
Dorcas stared at the unfinished building with a dark frown. "He promised to finish it before winter, but at the rate he's going, it'll be next summer!"
Podmore laughed. "The book wagers are odds-on that you're right; the money's on springtime." Dorcas flung a clod of dirt at him in exasperation, but Podmore just laughed.
Peter looked at James in surprise. "Hagrid? From school? He's in the Order too?"
"Dumbledore needs every bit of help he can get," James said, "and he trusts Hagrid with his life."
"Of course," added Podmore, "he can only help when he's here, and Hogwarts keeps him pretty busy." He turned to James. "Not all of us can be 'To the Manor Born', like you and Black. Some of us have to work days to earn a living. Right, Pettigrew?"
They walked towards the back of the Farm. Where the growing fields had once flourished, wild brush and trees had since reclaimed the land.
"Are you and Sirius here every day, James?" Peter asked, feeling a bit of envy flare within him.
"Padfoot is here a fair amount of time. He even has his own room in the farmhouse," James said. "I come during most days, but Lily prefers us to go home at night, after training. Says we need a bit of privacy," he added, pink spots glowing on his cheeks.
They had stopped in a large, open space and Peter observed several odd bits of wood in the shape of houses, fences at odd angles and fake hillocks in various locations.
"This is our outdoor training field," Podmore explained. "Moody has it set up for drills in outdoor defensive manoeuvers. He transfigures the space into whatever we need it to be. We also train in the forest," Podmore said, gesturing to the thick close of trees that surrounded the farm, "and in the main barn for indoor manoeuvers."
"Alastor Moody?" Peter said, his eyes wide with astonishment. Moody was a famous Auror, known for his dogged ruthlessness. Peter had read about him in the Prophet several times. "How can he be in the Order? He's an Auror!"
Podmore shrugged. "Dumbledore has several secret contacts in the Auror Office, including Moody. We may give the Ministry information, but it helps to have intelligence flowing both ways, if you catch my drift."
"Moody is amazing!" exclaimed James. "Scary as hell, but the best. He's tough, though. I ached like the devil after my first week with bruises from head to foot!"
Peter wasn't sure he liked the sound of that. Unless he was in his Animagus form, he wasn't very good at physical exertions, strenuous or otherwise. His mother had always been upset when he was out of breath for any reason, so Peter had made it a habit to avoid any type of exercise.
As they walked back to the farmhouse, Peter discovered that not only was Moody responsible for their training, but he was also Dumbledore's senior officer, charged with coordinating all Order missions. Peter was suddenly gripped with worry that he might not be able to do this. James, however, caught his expression.
"Don't worry, Peter. Everyone gets assigned to the tasks they're best at. I bet your work in the Floo office will be right helpful! But we all have to go through training, to be prepared, don't we? Never know when we might be faced with a surprise attack."
This was not terribly reassuring to Peter, but he nodded to James with a weak smile. It wouldn't do to show he was afraid, not on his very first day.
~*~ Monday ~*~
The next afternoon, Peter was at work, struggling to manage a blockage in the Floo district near Dorset. He'd had to send out a team to the site and was hoping they'd have it all sorted out before the end of the day so he could get to Phoenix Farm in time for training.
Peter heard, rather than saw, his supervisor approach, the tap-tap of his purple boots giving him away.
"Status report, Mr. Pettigrew?"
"Watson and Calloway have been on site, sir, since noon." Peter glanced at the Floo map, with its bright green, pulsing circle. "The flow has increased in that area, so they are making some progress." He pointed to the green dot. "See? It's gotten smaller," he said, his voice wavering.
Mr. Stemwithers frowned, his foot still tapping. "This is the type of disruption that shouldn't have required a site visit, Pettigrew."
Peter didn't respond, but he felt sweat begin to creep down the back of his neck.
"This is the type of disruption that is caused when one is distracted and unable to focus their energies at the task at hand, Pettigrew."
"I-I'm sorry, sir. I'll make sure it doesn't happen again." Peter clutched at his hands and felt his face heat with embarrassment.
"Make sure of it. You'll remain on duty until the situation is resolved." Mr. Stemwithers turned on his purple heel and strode away.
Peter let go of the breath he'd been holding and dropped his head into his hands. His first day at Phoenix Farm had been exhausting and frightening. It was no wonder that he had trouble concentrating at work today. And he'd be going back tonight, and every night this week until Friday, when the newer recruits would be given a night off.
Peter sighed but returned his gaze to the map in front of him with resolve. Yesterday, Moody had told them there were going to be gruelling times ahead and they would have to maintain constant vigilance. He'd just have to apply that lesson to remaining sharp at work.
~*~ Tuesday ~*~
Phoenix Farm's main structure was a two-floored, wood-beamed, old farmhouse. In its dining room, Peter and the other recruits were gathered around a magically expanded table, where a Pensieve, several scrolls of parchment, some maps, and photographs of presumed and known Death Eaters were laid about. Marlene McKinnon and Edgar Bones were instructing them on intelligence gathering and analysis.
"Potter, how do you suppose you can identify a Death Eater when they're all in the same ridiculous get up?" Bones asked, looking at James.
There was tittering around the table, but a sharp glare from Bones silenced them at once. Bones wasn't big, but he was solid, and his dark, brown eyes told them he was all business.
James pulled a few of the photographs towards him and studied them seriously.
"You might be able to identify them by the way they walk, or their hair...if their hoods are down...or their voices. If you could get close enough to hear them."
"Excellent, Mr. Potter," nodded McKinnon.
"Their shoes," added Alice.
"Hey, not fair!" Sirius chirped. "She's already learned this in Auror training."
Alice stuck her tongue out at him.
"Children!" snapped McKinnon. Her voice was stern, but there was an indulgent smile on her face. Marlene McKinnon, in contrast to the heavy foreboding personality of Edgar Bones, was light and cheerful. A witch a bit younger than Professor McGonagall, McKinnon was the maternal sort and had taken them all under her wing. But, as with her own children, she brooked no foolishness when it was time to get down to work.
"Alice is correct, Sirius," concurred McKinnon. "And useful information, regardless of its source, is welcome information."
"Quite right," agreed Bones. "Good intelligence can make the difference between life and death in the field." The older man turned to Remus. "Lupin, I think you can provide us with an excellent example to demonstrate this point. Something from your mission this past weekend would be instructional."
All eyes turned to Remus, who looked pained at being the centre of attention and clearly startled at having been called out in this way.
Lily frowned as she watched Remus struggle to respond.
"Remus," she said, "whatever happened, it will be helpful for us to hear. I'm sure we'll all have our share of mistakes."
McKinnon nodded. "She's right. We debrief after every mission and spend the most time discussing where things went wrong. We can't learn from our mistakes any other way. Go ahead, Mr. Lupin."
Remus took a deep breath. "Fenwick and I were conducting surveillance on a rumoured location of a Death Eater hideout, based on information we obtained from a neighbour. We saw robed figures entering throughout the night. It had all the signs of being the right location and we reported it up." Remus paused and swallowed hard. "The next night, based on our intelligence, ten Aurors showed up for a raid." Remus paled and Lily put her hand on his, which was clenched into a fist.
"Go on, Lupin," said Bones, his voice flat.
"It was a trap. The lead was false. We'd been... set up. Once the Aurors were in place, they were attacked from behind. Ambushed."
"And?" prompted Bones.
"Three Aurors were killed and five were wounded."
Alice gasped, her hand flying to her mouth. The Aurors-in-training obviously hadn't been told about this yet, Peter thought.
"Were any Death Eaters apprehended that night, Lupin?" Bones asked, more softly than before.
"No," Remus said hoarsely, glancing shamefaced at Alice. "They all got away."
~*~ Wednesday~*~
Peter found himself struggling to charm a basketful of acorns that had been covered in aconite powder. The charm wasn't holding and the acorns were disintegrating instead of glowing to indicate the spell had taken.
He was also annoyed as he heard Sirius and James off in a corner, laughing with the Prewett brothers, who were in charge of Diversionary Tactics.
"I could use some help here, mates," Peter called to them petulantly.
Gideon Prewett came over and knelt down besides Peter. He thought it was Gideon, anyway. The brothers, although not twins, looked astonishingly alike, both tall and lanky with reddish-blonde curls.
"Sorry, Pettigrew. The blokes there," he said, indicating Sirius and James, "have some smashing ideas that we think might work for us. So, what do you need help with?"
Peter explained the charm problem to Gideon.
Gideon scratched his chin and called to his brother. "Oi! Fabian, c'mere."
Fabian ambled over, and the two brothers examined the acorns, lightly brushing the powder off a few, and tried casting the charm themselves.
"It's the aconite," said Fabian. "The acorns are too heavily coated. The charm won't take."
Peter, Sirius and James spent the next hour brushing the powder off the acorns until there was only a fine coat of aconite on each one.
"Ready to try it now?" asked Gideon after he inspected their work.
Peter nodded and took out one of the acorns from the basket, set it on the table, and pointed his wand.
"Illuminate!"
The acorn glowed red before settling down to look like an ordinary acorn.
The Prewett brothers smiled broadly. "Perfect!" they said in unison.
"They'll explode?" asked Sirius, his eyes shining with excitement.
"Definitely," responded Fabian. "Set them where we want, cast a time-delay spell and..."
"BOOM!" yelled Gideon as he clapped his palms together to demonstrate the effect.
"Wicked," said Sirius and James together, looking at the Prewetts with unabashed admiration.
"Great," said Peter without much conviction, as he envisioned himself getting blown to bits.
~*~ Thursday ~*~
After a training session with Moody in the forest, they all gathered around the dining room table in the farmhouse to receive their field assignments for the following week. Moody stood at the head of the table, and Peter looked up with more than a little apprehension, since this would be his first real job for the Order.
Moody glanced around the room at the still dirty and sweaty recruits, his expression indecipherable. Peter noticed Sirius leaning his chair back precariously, his hands clasped behind his head. Moody seemed to notice as well.
"You lot have worked pretty hard this week, but I want to see a double effort this weekend. Potter and Black, don't think because you've been at this longer you can get sloppy!" Sirius scowled but returned his chair to a more respectable position.
"You're all still recruits till I say otherwise!" Moody picked up a parchment and cleared his throat. "Starting on Monday night, you'll report to work in the following assignments: Alice and Frank, you'll be with me and Podmore on Surveillance. This will tag on nicely to your current Ministry assignment."
Alice and Frank sat up straight and nodded. Moody was their boss both on and off the job.
"Potters, you both will report to McKinnon on Intelligence. Black, the Prewetts want you with them on Diversions with Vance."
Sirius preened, happy to have been requested.
Peter waited anxiously for Moody to call his name. Moody scanned the parchment.
"Right. Pettigrew?" Moody looked up to catch Peter's eye. "You'll be on Headquarters Logistics with Doge."
Peter blinked in confusion. They hadn't received any training in Headquarters Logistics. Not wanting to appear stupid in front of his friends, though, he just nodded.
"Lupin, Dearborn and Diggle are all on special missions next week, but they may call on any one of you for assistance, if needed." Moody scanned the room one more time. "Any questions?"
The room was silent.
"Right then. Off with you. See you on Saturday, bright and early. Dismissed."
They all rose from the table and started chattering about their assignments. Peter pushed through them to make his way up to Moody, who was gathering up his parchments.
"Excuse me, sir, if it's all right, I, um, do have a question."
Moody looked up. "What is it, Pettigrew?"
"What exactly is Headquarters Logistics?"
"Easy as pie, Pettigrew. Inventory supplies, stores. Make a list of what's needed. Make sure we have fresh linens here for members who are staying overnight. Doge will fill you in." He gave Peter a pat on the shoulder. "You'll do well, don't worry. G'night, then!"
Peter watched Moody as he swept out of the farmhouse, a bit stunned. He wasn't sure how he felt about his assignment. On the one hand, he'd be pretty safe tucked away here at headquarters. That was a good thing, wasn't it? He looked around the room. Sirius, James and the others were so clearly excited about their tasks. Peter wasn't very excited about his.
Maybe he wasn't good enough yet to be sent out into the field. Moody had been pretty impatient with him during their training exercises this past week. Yelled at him quite a few times, in fact. Maybe Moody didn't like him.
Peter gritted his teeth. I'll just have to work harder then, he thought. I'll show them I'm good enough. Maybe good enough so that someone will request me next time.
~*~ Friday ~*~
Peter had never been so happy to see the end of a week as he was today, exhausted and bruised, just as James had said he'd be after his first week in training. With the added stress of working full time, Peter couldn't wait to get home, have a long soak in the tub and tuck into the meal his mother had sent over.
So, it was with immense joy that he greeted the night shift when he arrived to relieve him.
"How's it been today, Pettigrew?" asked Bancroft, setting down his pack and taking off his cloak.
"Everything's been quiet, thank Merlin," sighed Peter, who stood up to let Bancroft take his place. "It's all yours, mate."
"Have a date tonight?" Bancroft winked as he jerked his head over to Alicia McKenny, who, Peter was surprised to see, was standing across the room, waving. At him.
Peter waved back and blushed. He knew he should buck up the nerve to ask her out, but every time he tried, his tongue turned into a sausage.
"No," Peter answered. "I'm knackered. Long week."
Bancroft shook his head. "You're a prat, you know that, Pettigrew?"
Peter smiled and blushed again. "Yeah, I suppose I am."
He gathered his things and made his way out of the office and towards the lifts.
"Hey, Peter!"
He turned. Alicia was behind him, smiling.
"Um, if you're not doing anything tonight," she said, trying for a casual tone. "Would you like to go round the Leaky for a pint?"
Peter blinked hard. "Me?" he squeaked, then winced, knowing how stupid he sounded.
"Well, I've been waiting for you to ask me, but I thought I might get old and die before that happened," Alicia said, rolling her eyes. "Well?"
This was turning out to be a better end to the week than he could have imagined!
"Sure!" he said with a huge grin. "But, it's on me," he added.
Alicia laughed. "As it should be!"
Peter thought she had a lovely laugh.
The lift doors opened, and he and Alicia squeezed into the crowd of Ministry employees, all fleeing their offices on a Friday night. He was going on a date. He was a member of the Order of the Phoenix. Life couldn't be any more perfect than this, he thought with a sigh of satisfaction as the lift doors closed.
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Peter had a few more than just a single pint on his date and thought it best not to Apparate home, lest he find part of him splinched and left behind at the Leaky Cauldron. Fortunately, his flat wasn't too far, it wasn't raining, and he was happy enough to walk home, feeling better about himself and his future than he had in a long time.
He was thinking about Alicia, her easy laughter, her pretty hair, her lovely scent. Peter was so lost in his reverie that he didn't notice the two tall figures coming his way until they were nearly upon him. However, even in Peter's slightly intoxicated state, he recognised those robes... those masks....
Shit.
He fumbled for his wand, trying to remember something he'd learned this week.
What were we supposed to look for? Hair? Voice? Their hoods were up and they didn't speak. One of them raised his wand.
Shoes! That was it! Alice said to look at their shoes!
"Stupefy!"
And just before he lost consciousness, Peter noticed that one of them was wearing a distinctive pair of very shiny, purple, dragon hide boots.
A/N Thanks to celtmama and capella_black for their due diligence in beta'ing this chapter!
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Excellent, as usual! But, you made me cry . That cheery little scene at home with the Potter's with Harry taking his first steps that Halloween night, James and Lily so proud. That was just cruel to the reader! I'd always figured that with Harry being 16 mo. old that he had started talking and probably walking by the time J & L were killed. But, it was sad to read such a happy moment in their lives being the same night they died. --- I'll get over it in time for the next chapter though.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm just an evil woman. Next and last chapter to be up soon!Thanks!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm just an evil woman. Next and last chapter to be up soon!Thanks!
Oh my gosh! That was an evil cliffie! And I always wondered how Wormtail had Voldemort's wand? Clever! Does Severus realize Lily is dead? Because I remember in book 7 that Dumbledore told Severus that Lily was dead and he broke down in his office.
Can't wait for the next chapter!
Livvy
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
The next and last chapter will be in the queue shortly! Remember, this was written before DH came out. You can see for yourself how close I came!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
The next and last chapter will be in the queue shortly! Remember, this was written before DH came out. You can see for yourself how close I came!
to lose your parents and not have a good relationship with your sister is ruff. when peter swore to loyalty he never said to what he was loyal. and Severus is dead on.
You wrote: '... Severus finally met the Headmaster’s gaze and ignored the pain that seemed to tear at his throat as he uttered the words, “It is as we feared, sir. Voldemort has decided it is the Potter boy.” ...'I'm just curious about you having Severus referring to the Dark Lord as Voldemort, even if it is in a private discussion with Albus. It's been a long time since I re-read the books and I may be confused with fanon, but I thought Severus was alwas adament about not using LV's name.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm not certain, but I seem to recall that he refers to Voldy as the "Dark Lord" with Harry, but nothing when in conversation with Dumbledore. So it's a bit of poetic license at this point!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I'm not certain, but I seem to recall that he refers to Voldy as the "Dark Lord" with Harry, but nothing when in conversation with Dumbledore. So it's a bit of poetic license at this point!
I don't know if I have reviewed before now or not, but anyway, I just wanted to let you know I think this story is brilliant! It had been wonderfully written and each time the end comes, I can't wait for the next chapter - even though I know it's going to end in tears!
I do hope that the eighth book that Rowling mentioned she might do would be a book on the Maurauders Era. There are still so many questions unanswered. But, whether or not she does, I'm glad you've written this!
Livvy
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks for your very kind comments, Livvy!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks for your very kind comments, Livvy!
Just lovely… all of it. I love exploring the Marauder's era so deeply. You are taking us on quite a journey. You are so insighful about Peter. And I love how you have set up the circumstances that lead to Lily and Severus' fall out.
I think babies are smarter than adults. This chapter was well put together. Your brilliant you know it . The way you tell a story is awesome.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thank you for your very kind words, Arabella!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thank you for your very kind words, Arabella!
Another amazing chapter! Not only do you write a believeable story, [well, believeable within the realm of fantasy] but [and I too thank your beta readers!] I do not have to trip, stumble and fall over bad grammar, mispellings and dreadful structure. It's heaven, believe me!
Your story has just given Severus even more humanity than I had accredited to him ... and that's saying a lot! That he decided he needed to stop before the 'big bang therory' that was Lily's death at the wand of Voldemort. Of course there is also the thought that he was never as bad as 'all that' and he joined the Death Eater's at the behest of Albus in his quest for a spy - though why he would feel obligated to do a favor for Dumbledore is beyond me.
With your creation of Lily being empathic, I can see that tying into the "Book Harry" always seeming to have an intuition about things. [Not that he was right about SS.] Which sort of brings me back around to poor Peter and the screaming Harry. Was the baby just startled, or did he, like a kneazle, just know there is something off about Pettigrew!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
If you've ever had to manage babies, this is pretty typical, startle-reflex behavior. Peter IS a stranger to baby Harry. But we can give the babe some extra-sensory credits if you like!!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
If you've ever had to manage babies, this is pretty typical, startle-reflex behavior. Peter IS a stranger to baby Harry. But we can give the babe some extra-sensory credits if you like!!
This story just gets better and better. THe tension is building and I cannot wait to read your description of the Potters' deaths and how everyone reacts to it.
Livvy
I liked how James and Peter became friends. Lily as an empath—interesting take. I think it totally fits her as we know her in canon.
"Coming to Hogwarts, Severus allowed himself just a flicker of hope that his life would finally be his own" Aww =(
Albus payng attention to Severus as a student. Yes. And of course he would have. He probably had a plan in mind for him even then, or was watching closely to see what would become of such a strong, young wizard. I liked that inclusion. You think of so many little details to put in!
Your description of Lily and Severus meeting (officially) for the first time was wonderful. Different than canon as we now know it, but still good nonetheless. I like how she purposely ditched the Gryffindor lot, not only because of their unruliness but to actually be able to work with Severus.
Great chapter! (I'll get caught up on reading eventually!)
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Hi! I'm so glad you stopped by for a read! This was completed before (by about one month!) the release of DH. I got some right, some close and some not at all. But I think it hangs together pretty well, nonetheless!Happy reading!
Have I said before how fascinating this story is. I loved the way you worked in the line, 'Potter’s need to seek attention...', that being such a point of contention of Sev's with the teen Harry. Makes me wonder if you've gone through the books with a fine-tooth comb or does it just gel together for you?
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Do you mean can I quote chapter and verse? hehehe...Sometimes...I did try to weave in echoes of the 'future' into this story, as a way to build up the characters to the point at which we meet them in JKR's tale.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Do you mean can I quote chapter and verse? hehehe...Sometimes...I did try to weave in echoes of the 'future' into this story, as a way to build up the characters to the point at which we meet them in JKR's tale.
So baby Draco had be born to this evil world his nasty family has helped to make. And Severus and Lucius know Lily is pregnant. Peter is a bastard trader. Finally a fic that has James as a dotting father, usually it's all Lily. Thank you. And Severus got to tell her well part of it anyway. Cool.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yeah. I always imagine James as a great stay-at-home dad!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yeah. I always imagine James as a great stay-at-home dad!
I love that Neville's parents are in this story. They rarely are in fanfic. Sirius seems to always found trouble. lol I am going to say this now I do not and will never like Peter the Rat. For those who do, I am truly sorry for you. lol. But I don't. Oh no Severus is the one who killed Regulus. No wonder Sirius can't stand him. Well one of the reason anyway.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yes,, Peter is rather pathetic - in his own peculiarly cluess way.I don't think Sirius ever knew about Snape offing Reggie (in my version!), but then Sirius never needed real reasons to hate him.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Yes,, Peter is rather pathetic - in his own peculiarly cluess way.I don't think Sirius ever knew about Snape offing Reggie (in my version!), but then Sirius never needed real reasons to hate him.
This chapter was an emotional roller-coaster. You have definitely not turned me off from the story, and I am eager to read more.
I have to tell you that I very much appreciate the way you wrote this chapter. There is no honor, no glory but at the same time the reader is not left awash in confusing double-talk, vagueness or flowery cover-up. You spit it out and left no room for imagining that war can not be that bad.
Because HP is a 'children's book', the evilness of the Death Eaters is not developed to the fullest. But adults surely realize that once the 'soldier' has joined, freely or was coerced into participation, they do what they will because they are as fanatical about the Cause as the Dark Lord, or because they will be killed if they don't do as told. The Death Eaters need to learn the Unforgiveables somewhere... unless their mum is Bella Black, it's not usually something they learn at home. While Dumbledore's Army was learning Jellylegs Jinx and Rictusempra, the Death Eaters are using Sectumsempra and Avada Kedavra. No wonder it took so long to do in Voldemort.
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks! Yes, my vision of Voldemort and the Death Eaters (does that sound like a rock band?) is pretty different from most fanfic writers. I think they'd need to be a pretty organized group of trained terrorists to be as effective as they were - especially in the first war. The leaders are smart and deadly, but with a purpose, as opposed to just death and torture for its own sake. So you'll never see my Voldemort on a throne or throwing around 'Crucio's'. Even, Bella, as sadistic as she is, isn't nearly as wacko as she becomes after spending a few years with Dementors.
I just wanted you to know that I've been reading since the beginning and I don't think I've reviewed before, but I wanted you to know that I think it took a lot of guts to write what you wrote. I agree, war is evil and evil acts are committed in warfare.
What was interesting was the sexuality of Severus' examination. I find it interesting that he would make a woman do that under the Imperius Curse. Is Snape deep down a misogynist? Residual mom issues? Lily issues? That he would make a woman do something to a part of her anatomy that is sexual and also to mutilate, as you said, breast, a word he had never said outl oud before, that is very interesting.
Good work on what must have been a gut-wrencher to turn out.
Livvy
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks so much livvy! I really appreciate your response to this very difficult part of the chapter. Yes, it was horrible and excruciating to write this and the upcoming parts of this chapter. I honestly hadn't given much thought to the sexuality issues when I wrote this. The idea that a woman would be picked for Severus for his 'test' seemed perversely right to me. On reflection, though, I think that there is some hatred-of-mother and emulating-father thing going on behind it all. It's just horrible, no matter how you look at it.Thanks for sticking through this!
Response from livvy6 (Reviewer)
Absolutely, my fics are SS/OC and I think there is so much sexual dysfunction and stunted development there with women that it comes out in my writing, not to mention he is a very tense and respressed son of a gun!
I got a very interesting review on my latest story. She commented that my fics seem to deal alot with themes of abuse and rape. What can I say? I think he has an obsession with Lily that is out of control and basically he is a psychiatrist's delight! There's more than enough dysfunction to go around.
Livvy
I love this story, and am eagerly awaiting the next chapter!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks so much! The chapters are going up as fast as the mods push them through the queue!
Your depiction of Severus' possessiveness of his finished potions speaks of the Dark Magic's possessiveness of him. I think of him as being very duty and honor bound, so doing the best he can in his work would be of utmost importance to him. So eager that he does not notice the darkness drawing him in?
Poor boy is so desperate for acknowledgement. It's so sad to think if just one or two things had ever gone the right way for him, he would never have accepted the Dark Lord and could have been one of the most acknowledged, brilliant of wizards to come out of Hogwarts. All but for Fate. [Yes,
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
knows Severus Snape is a fictional character. Really, she does.]
Wouldn't it be funny to listen to Voldemort lisp, 'possessiveness'! He'd get stuck and hiss on forever.
This chapter has a lot of details that help put things together and move the story along.
I liked how you gave a relationship to the Potters and the Longbottoms. You are telling pieces of the story of which I had never given any consideration! Like James' and Lily's wedding, how they got involved in the Order, what Snape did with his life other than at school or once he was a Death Eater . . . And if I didn't know better, didn't know the story or the character, I'd feel almost sorry for Pettigrew. I would be hoping that he would somehow break free or hide or get the Order's help or just flat out refuse in the end. I'd have been hopeful for him, but it makes the story all the more tragic and real, knowing what he will do as per canon as I watch you lead into that. Great stuff so far!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I did try to fit in EVERYTHING that had been unexplained before DH. Fortunately for me, most of it is still unexplained! And the bits that were... well... I think my versions hold up as possible!Thanks again for reading!
This story looks like it will be a wonderful read. I really enjoy stories that elaborate on canon, especially on events that occurred before Harry was born. I look forward to reading this!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
I welcome you to my small, but hearty band of readers! Thanks for coming on the ride and for leaving a comment!
Finally nagged myself into leaving a review. I love this story! I've been with it since the 4th chapter and can not believe hardly anyone leaves you a review ... including me .
So I sing your praises for a wonderful, believable story. For being prompt with updates, for long chapters, for not whinning about lack of reviews and for just getting on with it because you want to.
I am in no way a fan of any of the Marauders, much less Pettigrew, but you have given Peter life, demension and reason for being the way he is. I've always wondered about how he ended up in Gryffindor, friends with Potter and Black, how he landed in the Death Eaters ... but didn't care enough about him to think about it .
On the other hand, I'm amazed the Snape fans have not found this story. [Yeah Severus!] Maybe he just isn't prominent enough in the story...
Enough blathering. I like the story!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Thanks for making my day!!! I'm so glad you pushed yourself to leave a comment, especially as there are only a handful of you actually reading it!! This is very much a Severus story, more so as time goes on!
Yay to you!
starmom
Oooo, his boss, eh? I loved how you worked the Prewett brothers in! Can't wait for the next chapter (I'm crossing my fingers that Snape's in it, lol)!!
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
Hey, there! Thanks for being one of my small band of readers,
Response from starmom (Author of Trust and Betrayal: A Prequel)
!! And for leaving a review! Yep, Severus is coming up... and he's not doing so well.
I feel like I could envision it all happening.
Seeing it from everyone's point of view makes it easier to get where they are coming from and to see what they went through.