In at the Eye
Chapter 10 of 34
little belovedHermione's wedding day arrives.
Wine comes in at the mouth
And love comes in at the eye;
That's all we shall know for truth
Before we grow old and die.
I lift the glass to my mouth,
I look at you, and I sigh.
- W. B. Yeats, A Drinking Song
***
The day had come at last for Hermione Granger to be wed. She planted her feet on the plush carpet and wriggled her bare toes. Today she was a girl in the pink-and-white bedroom of her adolescence. Tomorrow she would be somebody's wife.
She stretched her arms above her head and shook her mane of brown curls. It was a beautiful day. There would be sunshine and blue skies for Padma's wedding; there would be a balmy August evening for hers, with a full moon and a star-strewn sky. The tears were gone, and she was full of hope.
***
The atmosphere in the Patils' house was one of good-humoured chaos. Parvati had brought little baby Aidan with her, and he was doted on by everyone. Hermione had never seen such a beautiful baby; she wondered idly what her children would look like. She tried to picture a little boy who looked like Theo, but she just couldn't imagine it.
Padma was the very essence of calm. Hermione peered at her friend as she adjusted the waist of her lilac gown.
"How can you be so calm?" she asked. "I'll be in a complete state later on."
Padma smiled at her in the mirror and put down her lipstick. "Ginny and I will be there to keep you from freaking out. And if we don't manage it, I'm sure a bottle of champagne will do the trick."
Hermione sat next to Padma in front of her dressing table. "You look happy," she said, glancing at the radiant face beside hers in the mirror.
Parvati giggled behind them. "She'll be even happier tomorrow morning. D'you reckon Dean'll be any good?"
Padma looked smug. "I already know he'll be good."
Hermione gave a gasp. "Already?"
"Oooh!" Parvati said, grinning. "Sampled the goods already, have you?"
"Seriously?" Hermione asked. "You've already slept with him?"
Padma shrugged. "Try before you buy and all that!"
"Try before you buy what?" Mrs Patil asked, opening the door.
Padma's jaw dropped. She frantically scanned the cluttered dressing table. "This perfume!" she replied, grabbing a bottle. Hermione and Parvati guffawed.
Half an hour later, Padma was fully robed and ready to go. Hermione crossed the room and hugged her.
"You look stunning, Padma," she whispered. "I hope you'll both be very happy."
Padma beamed at her. "Thanks, Hermione. I'm really going to miss you. I don't know what I would have done without you these past few years."
Hermione was close to tears again. Padma had been the best friend she'd ever had, with the exceptions of Harry and Ron. "It's only one year, and then I'll be back."
They hugged again, and Hermione went downstairs, leaving Padma to have a final word with her twin sister.
The town hall in which Padma and Dean were to be wed was small and quaint. It looked pretty, decorated from one end to the other with bunches of white and purple flowers. But the flowers were put to shame by the extravagant dress of the Patil family. Wearing an attractive mixture of colourful robes and saris, they made quite a picture.
On the other side sat Dean's immediate family. Being a Muggle-born, he couldn't invite many of his relations, but a huge Hogwarts turn-out helped to fill his side of the hall. Theo had been forced to decline the invitation, as he and Hermione were not supposed to see one another until their own wedding.
Hermione waved excitedly at people she hadn't seen for many years: Seamus Finnegan, Lavender Brown, Ernie Macmillan, Angelina Johnson and there, right at the back with his wife, sat Ron. Their eyes met, and he gave her a small smile. She nodded in return and wondered whether or not he would turn up for her wedding that night when, as if in answer to her unspoken question, he gave her a huge grin and a thumbs-up. Suddenly, she felt as though a huge weight had been lifted off her shoulders. She returned his grin and thought everything was going to be just fine. Ron, sitting with his pretty, blond wife, would be her friend once more. The day seemed suddenly brighter.
The weather was beautiful, the hall looked beautiful, the guests looked beautiful, but nothing was nearly as beautiful as Padma Patil as she walked up the aisle to meet her husband.
***
Severus Snape frowned as he fastened his cuff links. If there was one thing he detested more than Gryffindors, it was weddings. Gryffindor weddings were, therefore, excruciating. He had no doubt that boy-wonder Potter would be there, along with the entire compliment of Weasleys. Charming. He needed a nice, stiff brandy.
He'd just picked up the crystal decanter when there was a loud crack, and Moe appeared before him.
"Excuse me, Master Severus, sir, but Mistress Cordelia is wanting to see you in her room," she said.
"Tell her I'll be there in a moment," he replied, replacing the crystal stopper in the decanter with a sigh.
When he reached her bedroom, he found Cordelia standing before her mirror, experimenting with her hair. She had not yet changed into her robes and was wrapped in a dressing gown.
"Severus! Thank you for coming so quickly. I'm in rather a fix," she explained, looking strained. "I'd completely forgotten that it's tradition to present Hermione with a family heirloom." She crossed to a chest of drawers beside the mirror and extracted a silver box from within. "This pendant dates from the sixteenth century and was presented to me on my own wedding day. As I have no daughters, it must pass to Hermione."
He took the silver box from her and looked inside. The pendant was a large, heavy emerald set in overworked gold. It was obviously extremely valuable, but he didn't imagine it was the type of necklace a young woman would desire, if given the choice.
"Why are you giving it to me?"
She looked at him as if he were a child. "Because I'd like you to present it to Hermione."
He frowned. "After the wedding?"
"No, Severus," she said, looking annoyed. "Now."
"You expect me to travel to Hermione Granger's house and present her with this necklace?" he asked, incredulous. "Surely that's your domain?"
She glanced at the slender golden watch on her wrist. "Severus, I've not the time. I've yet to have my hair done."
"Ask Moe to deliver it."
"I can't spare Moe right now; I need her to help with my hair."
He pinched the bridge of his nose in frustration. His wife could be selfish to the point of obnoxiousness sometimes. "I'll ask Draco to do it. He's Theo's best man."
"Not Draco!" she exclaimed. "Tradition dictates it has to be a family member."
"Lance, then," he said through gritted teeth.
"She doesn't know Lance! Besides, he's bound to say something inappropriate and frighten the poor girl away."
He would not give in. "This is ludicrous, Cordelia! I'm not about to call unannounced on a former student who is in all probability even busier than you are. This is an errand for a woman."
She glared at him.
He glared back.
All of a sudden, she changed her strategy, and he knew the battle was lost.
"Please, Severus. Please!" she begged. "I'm the one who's made all the arrangements for the wedding, and I've been so busy that this little detail just slipped my mind."
"Cordelia," he said with as much patience as he could muster, "it is inappropriate."
"Nonsense! It's not every day my only child gets married," she said, her eyes glistening with tears. "My only son! Please, Severus ..."
He could not bear it when she behaved like this.
"Fine!" he spat, storming from the room. He could sense Cordelia's satisfied smirk behind him.
"Her address is written in my notebook!" she called cheerily after him as he descended the stairs.
He found the notebook in the sitting room and quickly flicked to the required page, his jaw clenched. Once he'd memorised Hermione's address, he left the house, banging the door behind him, and Apparated to the destination.
When he opened his eyes, he found he was standing before a neat row of large, detached houses opposite a leafy park. Number four was in front of him. It was a handsome, Tudor-fronted house with a well-kept, mature garden. The Grangers had indeed done well for themselves, he thought, but this was not even the tip of the iceberg when compared to the vast wealth of the Mill family.
There were no cars parked in the driveway, and as he rapped upon the door he knew a moment of hope: maybe there would be nobody at home.
His hopes were dashed mere seconds later when the door was flung open by a smiling Ginny Weasley. Her smile quickly disappeared as they regarded one another in surprise.
"Well," Ginny managed eventually. "You're clearly not Hermione's godmother."
"Very well-deduced, Miss Weasley," he sneered.
"Mrs Potter, actually," she snapped.
"Forgive me. I'd forgotten that particular misfortune had befallen you," he said with a smirk
She looked angry for a moment, but then she grinned and began to laugh.
"Do I amuse you, Mrs Potter?"
"You do, actually," she said, still smiling. "I'm glad to see you haven't changed."
She gestured for him to come in, and he crossed the threshold, wishing he was anywhere but here. He felt guilty for having given reign to his sarcastic tongue; Ginny had always been an excellent student.
"I see congratulations are in order," he said quietly in an effort to compensate.
She looked bewildered. "What do you mean?"
"You are with child?"
Her hand flew protectively to her still-flat stomach. "We've hardly told anyone! How did you know?" she whispered.
"You're a Gryffindor," he said simply. "It's written all over your face."
She remained silent, looking at him in astonishment.
"Might I speak with Miss Granger?" he asked, amused at her reaction.
She nodded, glancing at the silver box in his hand. "She's upstairs: first door on the left."
He began to climb the stairs and then hesitated. "Is she decent?" he asked, turning to Ginny once more.
"If by decent you mean dressed, then, yes, she is. She's already in her wedding gown." She turned and walked into the kitchen, where he could hear her whispering to Padma Patil.
He climbed the steps and found the door to his left ajar. With a gentle tap of his knuckles, he pushed it open.
Hermione Granger was standing in front of a full-length mirror, her back to him. When she heard the door open, she looked over her shoulder.
Severus's first reaction was one of complete shock. The girl's dress was well completely wanton. The line of the material scooped so low at the back as to be positively indecent; one could practically see her derriere. A well-shaped derriere, he had to admit, but still, it was shameless.
She turned to meet his shocked gaze, and as he took in the sight of her perfect makeup and the gentle wisps of hair that had escaped from the elegant twist at the back of her head, he realised that she didn't look wanton; she looked beautiful. Surely this could not be the same Hermione Granger that had driven him to distraction with her endless, irritating questions at Hogwarts? The person who stood before him was an undeniably attractive young woman.
She gasped, and her hands flew to her throat in a fit of self-consciousness.
"What on earth are you doing here?" she stammered, looking frantically about her.
"That's beside the point!" he said, trying to regain his composure. "What are you thinking, Miss Granger? You can't possibly marry a wizard in a dress like that. It's ... well ..."
"I had no intention of letting anyone see the back of this dress," she said, her cheeks colouring. She snatched a cape from her bed and fastened it to her shoulders with trembling fingers. "Nobody was supposed to see it except my husband. Will this do?" she asked angrily, showing him the back of her cape.
He nodded, uncharacteristically lost for words. The bare skin of her back was now hidden, but she still looked more beautiful than she ever had before.
"Have you come to try to talk me out of marrying Theo again?"
"No, Miss Granger," he answered. "The time for that has long since passed."
"Well?" she asked, her gaze travelling to the silver box in his hand.
"Forgive my intrusion, but Cordelia asked that I present you with a Mill heirloom. It is a family tradition, by all accounts," he explained.
He crossed the room and handed her the box.
"Why didn't Cordelia bring it herself?" she asked, taking it from him.
He was annoyed at his wife for having let down her daughter-in-law before she had even married her son. "She was otherwise engaged," he said, his lips pressed together in a line. "Hair arrangements and so on."
"I see," said Hermione. She opened the box and extracted the pendant, holding it up to the light. She smirked. "It's rather Slytherin."
"It's rather hideous," he added.
A small smile tugged at the corner of his mouth, and their eyes met in a brief and unexpected moment of camaraderie. They were both, after all, relatively new additions to the Mill family.
"Would you do the honours?" she asked, holding the necklace out to him.
"The honours?" he asked, confused.
"I mean would you mind doing the clasp," she said, turning her back to him.
He accepted the dangling pendant from her fingers and took a step towards her, feeling nervous and foolish. He placed the chain around her neck and, making a great effort not to allow his fingertips to brush against her skin, he secured the clasp at the back of her neck, trying to banish the still-fresh image of her bare back from his mind. His fingers shook as the scent of her perfume washed over him.
They both looked at the reflection of the necklace in the mirror.
"It doesn't look so bad once it's on," she said, tilting her head to the side.
He gave her a curt nod. "It does not detract from your gown."
She turned to face him. "Thank you."
"You're welcome. I'll leave you to your preparations." He turned to leave the room, anxious to escape her suddenly disturbing presence.
"Actually," she said, making him stop. "Maybe I could ask a favour ..." She reached for a wooden box on her dressing table. "Would you mind giving our wedding rings to Draco? It would save me having to ask Ginny to do it when we get to the barge."
Merlin, was he nothing but a courier to these women? He took the box from her outstretched hand. "Certainly, Miss Granger."
He'd almost reached the door when a moment of curiosity made him open the box. When he saw the rings inside, he whirled to face her.
"Are these Goblin-wrought rings?" he asked. He'd seen a ring like this before. He'd hoped never to see one again. "Tell me they are not, Miss Granger."
"Yes," she answered. "They are. They're Goblin-wrought."
His eyes narrowed, and he looked at her with mounting incredulity. "Do you mean to tell me that you've decided to take a vow of fidelity?"
"Yes, we have. I don't see why it's any of your business."
"Have you any idea what you're doing?" he hissed. He'd known she was naïve, but not so stupid as this.
"We want to commit to making this marriage work."
"You don't need to adopt such powerful, ancient charms in order to commit to each other. Miss Granger, where is the intelligence for which you are so renowned? Have you completely lost your mind?"
She put her hands on her hips. "We've decided to take a vow of fidelity. The rings will activate if one of us is ever unfaithful. I thought it was quite sweet."
"Sweet?" he asked, his mouth curled in a sneer. "Do you know what happens when the rings are activated?"
"You feel it."
"Yes, you feel it! It burns, Miss Granger. It burns, and there's nothing you can do to stop it. Once that ring is placed upon your finger, you cannot remove it unless your marriage vows are magically reversed or one of you dies. It will burn with great intensity until the act of infidelity is over," he finished.
She bravely held his glare. "Neither one of us intends being unfaithful."
He pursed his lips. She was the very essence of naivety. "I knew a woman who entered into such foolish vows. Like you, she was carried away by romantic notions of what her marriage would be. I watched her cry every time her bastard of a husband gave cause for her wedding ring to burn, Miss Granger. Why would you subject yourself to such a fate?"
"I would hope that Theo, or I for that matter, would have the decency to divorce before taking up with somebody else, Professor Snape. If our marriage fails, we'll behave like mature adults and have our vows magically reversed."
He looked at her upturned face, so earnest and innocent. How could such a clever girl be so, so stupid? "Miss Granger, you are a fool."
Her eyes filled. "You've come all the way here to call me a fool? On my wedding day?"
He held her gaze for a moment and was sorry; he hadn't come here with any intention of upsetting her. She had saved his life, and all he could ever do was argue with her. Battling his dislike of physical contact, he reached out and lifted her chin with his finger.
"I know you are not a fool. I will leave before I cause further upset." He withdrew his finger from beneath her chin and walked to the door, pocketing the Goblin-wrought rings as he went. "I hope you and Theo will prove my worries to be without foundation, Miss Granger. And if it's any consolation ..." He paused, already regretting what he was about to say. "You look very ... lovely."
She stared at him. "I ... Thank you,' she managed.
He closed the door behind him and made for the stairs. He needed that brandy.
***
Hermione Granger stood before Theodore Nott, moments away from becoming his wife. He smiled at her, and she felt her heart soar.
He was handsome in his black wedding robes, and she could tell he liked her wedding gown. But even as she stood before him, in front of all their guests, she remembered her conversation with Severus Snape. Could he be right? Were they doing the wrong thing by opting for the fidelity vow? No. Snape was wrong. If their marriage did not work out, they would file for divorce and have the vows reversed. It was simple. And besides, they would make this marriage work; she was sure of it. Theo would not have wanted the fidelity vow unless he had every intention of upholding it.
She allowed her gaze to drift over the people gathered on the open deck of the barge. It was a beautiful evening: the stars were beginning to emerge through the dusk, and the lights of the London Eye glittered in the background. She could not imagine a more romantic setting for a wedding.
The little wizard from the Department of Births and Marriages who was conducting the ceremony reached for her hand, and she entwined her fingers with Theo's as they committed to each of their vows, the minister tapping his wand against their hands every time a vow was spoken.
When they had completed their binding, Draco came forward with the rings and gave her a wink as he presented them to the minister. They slid the rings onto each other's fingers and prepared for the final vows. Hermione could feel the powerful magic emanating from the Goblin-wrought ring and, for the first time, she blanched at what she was about to do. The tiny wizard held his wand over the rings and muttered the incantation for the fidelity vow.
"Theodore Nott. Do you commit yourself fully to this final vow?"
"I commit myself," Theo replied.
The minister tapped both their rings, and they glowed with an intense white light. Hermione felt a burning sensation on her finger, and panic suddenly rose within her.
"Hermione Granger," the minister continued. "Do you commit yourself fully to this final vow?"
Every pair of eyes in the room was upon her as her finger tingled. She looked at the minister, looked at Theodore, and finally she looked out at the crowd, where her gaze fell upon the austere figure of Severus Snape. She could hear her heart pounding in her ears.
"I commit myself," she replied, tearing her gaze away from her former professor and back to Theo.
The minister tapped their rings once more, and the white light faded along with the burning. She smiled hesitantly at Theo, and he beamed in return.
"I now pronounce you man and wife," the minister said. "You may kiss the bride."
They shared their first kiss as a married couple, and a loud cheer went up from their guests. There was an ear-splitting wolf-whistle from George Weasley. Hermione giggled.
Theo grinned at her. "My wife," he whispered into her ear.
"My husband," she whispered back with a sense of great relief. It was done. There would be no more conjecture. For better or worse, it was done. They turned and made their way to their well-wishers as man and wife.
***
Hermione was completely and utterly drained. It was only ten o'clock, but she'd had her fill of mingling with the guests. It was almost time for them to change and leave for the airport, and she'd already bade her mother and father an emotional farewell. She looked at them over her shoulder as she walked away; they seemed to be enjoying themselves they were talking to Arthur Weasley, who was interrogating them about the workings of microwave ovens.
She was stopped by Padma, who flung her arms around Hermione's neck.
"You were a lovely bridesmaid and an even lovelier bride," her friend said.
"You were the loveliest bride I've ever seen," Hermione countered, blinking back yet another bought of tears.
"I'm crying now. Sorry,' Padma muttered into Hermione's hair.
'That's okay. So am I."
"Will we be alright?" Padma asked.
"Of course we will," Hermione replied. "Aren't we always?"
Dean coughed and then peeled his wife away from Hermione with a roll of his eyes. "We've only been married nine hours and you're in tears already?"
Padma laughed and gave Hermione a final hug.
As Hermione made her way to the upper deck, she bumped into Neville.
"Neville, I'm so sorry we won't be there for your wedding."
"That's okay. It's only going to be a small affair anyway I want Mum and Dad to be there, and Merlin only knows what they'll do!"
Hermione smiled at him affectionately. "I hope you'll be very happy with Hannah, and I just know you'll be a great professor."
"Thanks, Hermione," he said, giving her a hug. "Look us up when you get back. And ..." he looked at her uncertainly.
"And, what?"
He dropped his voice to a whisper. "If you should come across Luna on your travels, tell her ... Tell her I had no choice," he finished, looking troubled.
"Don't you think you'll be happy with Hannah, Neville?"
He looked across the crowded boat to where his fiancée chatted with Susan Bones. He smiled. "I hope we'll be happy. Don't get me wrong, Hermione; I won't be sitting around pining for Luna I just want her to know. That's all."
Hermione nodded, and with a pat on the arm, she left him and climbed the stairs. At the top she found Harry and Ron, each of them puffing away at a cigar. When they saw her, they immediately hid them behind their backs. She put her hands on her hips.
"Cigars?" she said, trying not to smile. "Have you any idea how bad they are for you?"
Harry and Ron exchanged an anxious glance.
Hermione laughed. "I'll let your wives worry about it." She turned to Ron and felt suddenly shy. "Hello, Ron. I'm really glad you came."
Ron handed Harry his cigar and pulled her into a tight hug. "Ah, Herms," he said. "Of course I came. It's all water under the bridge, eh?"
She started to cry again; she couldn't help it. Harry handed her a handkerchief and flashed her a beaming smile. She knew he'd waited a long time to see his two best friends reconciled.
She dabbed at her eyes. "Ronald Weasley. Don't you remember what happened the last time you called me 'Herms'?"
"I still have the scars," he said, grinning. "I'm glad you married Theo I'm twenty Galleons richer for it." He punched Harry on the arm.
Hermione smiled. "I met Rose downstairs she's really lovely. Where on earth did you find her?"
"She worked in a shop in Ottery St. Catchpole," he explained. "Fred and George both fancied her and used to show her card tricks. A few months into Auror training, George dragged me down to the village to take a look at her, and the rest is history! She wasn't too impressed when she found out that they'd been using real magic to do all the card tricks, though."
"Your Dad must have been thrilled when you married a Muggle," she added.
Ron chuckled. "He's had her poor father plagued with questions about toasters and kettles. He's obsessed with Muggle kitchens."
Hermione promised to visit them both on her return and made her way to Theo, who was deep in discussion with his uncle Lance. She waited patiently by the gangway, not wanting to interrupt them. After a moment, she turned to find Severus Snape at her side. She managed a smile, worried about what he might say.
"I wanted to congratulate you," he said.
She examined his face, but he seemed genuine. "Thank you. Aren't you going to welcome me to the family?"
He gave a wry laugh. "I would if I felt in any position to do so. You'll soon find that you and I will never be anywhere but on the very periphery of the Mill family. We'll be tolerated, but never properly admitted. "
She glanced at Theo and Lance. They did appear to be a very close family. She returned her gaze to Severus Snape and extended her right hand.
"Truce?" she asked.
He hesitated for a second and then took her hand in his. "Truce," he agreed with a small smile.
Her gaze moved to the champagne flute in his hand. "Have you had a lot to drink?" she asked, surprised by his geniality.
He arched an eyebrow. "I should take points from Gryffindor for such cheek, Miss ..."
She cocked her head to the side. "So, what do you call me now?"
"Mrs Nott?" he asked.
She laughed. "I don't think so. How about Hermione?"
He regarded her for a moment, and she wished she could tell what he was thinking. "Hermione it is," he said.
She smiled. He'd never called her anything other than 'Miss Granger' before, and she found she rather liked the sound of her name on his lips.
"Do I get to call you Dad?" she asked, trying to look serious.
He grunted. "Absolutely not!"
She laughed. "I didn't think so."
"But you may call me Severus," he added. "If you wish."
For some reason she found this olive branch from the man whose life she had saved more touching than anything anyone else had said to her all evening. "Severus," she said, battling tears again.
Luckily, she was saved by her husband, who took her by the hand. "We really need to go if we're going to make it to Heathrow on time," he announced.
She nodded and smiled up at him.
Theo extended his hand to Severus. "Goodbye, Severus," he said, and they shook.
"Goodbye, Theo," Severus replied and then moved his gaze to her again. "Goodbye, Hermione."
She smiled at him one more time and then, arm in arm with her spouse, she descended the gangway and departed for her honeymoon. An entire year would pass before she set eyes on Severus Snape again.
***
Severus watched Theo and Hermione walk along the gangway, admiring the way her satin cape moved in the warm breeze. In many ways, he supposed his stepson was a lucky man.
He lifted his glass to his mouth and sighed. Try as he might, he could not rid his traitorous mind of the image of Hermione Granger in her backless dress.
***
A/N: So, there we are. The deed is done, and the backless wedding dress has made quite an impression on our favourite professor. The next chapter, which should be up on Friday, takes place a year after the wedding, on Hermione and Theo's return from their honeymoon.
Thank you all, again, for your support and reviews. I do make an effort to respond to every review, although sometimes it takes longer than usual when RL gets in the way. But please do keep the reviews coming. They are a joy. They feed me and make me edit faster. ;)
More soon, LB x
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I have read this for zillenth time still love it as much as i did the first time
I read and loved this story the first time around... mourned its disappearance, and just TODAY discovered it is back in its new form! I'm devouring it and so very very happy. THANK YOU!!!
Ohhhhh..... So good again. I'm so sad it's over!! Back when the first version was up, I wrote a few notes about how much I loved your original characters. They have SO much life. Lance and Moe are amazing; bitchy Cordelia is amazing! You are so gifted. My heart is full of this story.
I just finished reading Denial. I'll admit, I did not read it the first time it was up, so I can't compare, but I just wanted you to know it was one of the best I've read in a while. I don't normally comment on stories, and I'm trying to get better about it. It made me sad when yousaid how it caused you such sadness to lose all your thousands of reviews from the first version. And I hoped that this would help make up for it a little, and I wanted you to know that I appreciate your sacrifice to bring us a better written story. :)
Sincerely,Shay
I must say that for being revised and edited I'm finding a lot of grammatical errors and/or typos in each chapter.
Beautifully written chapter as Severus realizes what he truly feels for Hermione. Excellent writing! Thank you for this story.
Love the happy ending!!! It's perfect that Moe gets to help with the baby and check in on Lance. The future sounds promising - will we see Twice again? New work would be great, but as always my first love is for WMFL (edited or unedited), PLEASE!
Definitely my favorite fanfiction of all time.
It’s been a great pleasure to read ‚Denial‘ again – has it been really five years? It was one of my favourites when you first published this story. You’ve done a brilliant job with the rewriting - it is more stringent, not each aspect spelled out elaborately in every little detail. Though I can feel with everyone who has to cope with miscarriage, the first time around the theme dominated the last part of the story to much in my opinion. I think it’s far better as it is now, probably thanks to your experience in writing.
Anyway, thousand thanks for all your time and energy you’ve put into ‚Denial‘ – please don’t remove it again. Or at least give us a little warning well ahead when you think it would be necessary for your RL endeavours in publishing – all the best with that, btw – so we are able to secure it for another read. And it would be truly wonderful to see more SS/HG-fics from you.
Great story! Thank you for reposting. Good luck with your writing career.
This has been a delightful reread of your story! Thank you for reposting it! I believe I enjoyed it even more this time around.
That was a lovely proposal scene. *sighs happily*
LB ... it has taken me so long to review this final (sniffle) installment, because I have been so pressed for time, and it would be unfair to give a drive-by review for a story that is so dear to my heart.
You've done an amazing job with this epilogue. Often times they are surplus to requirement, but this was so very necessary. At the end of the previous chapter, you feel hopeful for Severus and Hermione, and it could have ended there with us knowing they would likely be okay. But, there were far too many loose ends that would have been tragic to leave hanging.
I love that you don't shove any details down our throats, but instead, you show us a day in the life and slip in little comments here and there that let us know what has been going on, and the state of emotional affairs. Severus is being such a loving husband, exactly what Hermione needed after such a loss. They are so good together, and I suspect that will only grow year after year.
Lance and Moe ... after reading this story, they feel like family to me. They certainly are to Severus and Hermione. And true to form, Lance comes through for them with his gift of Moe. Nothing would have made the house-elf happier than to be around babies. And she is not going to leave Lance hanging by any means. It just isn't in her nature.
Hermione's parents learned of Severus and didn't react too badly. And Hermione finally had someone to share in her grief who knew exactly how she felt. I'm sure Padma and possibly others had plenty of love and sympathy for Hermione, but without having gone though a miscarriage, they can't exactly understand what she is going through.
Harry and Severus made nice. Not that they were at terrible odds or anything, but there was sort of a "Hermione is important to both of us, so we get along or else."
Theo came to the wedding, and I, too was touched by that. I don't know why it seemed so important to me, but somehow I suppose it was an official closure to the past, and even though they didn't need his approval, perhaps it was his way of atoning for leaving her in the first place. Regardless, it seemed important to me.
And sweet, sweet Neville and his lovely bride. I couldn't be happier for them.
I should stop rambling, but I can't imagine a better ending to what has been one of the most fulfilling rides in all of fanfic. I do hope that this is not the last we see of you in the fanfic and ofic world. Best of luck to you in both!
Fantastic. I may just re-read AGAIN!
Thank you for re-posting this it has yet again been a pleasure.
even better this time around.
I suck at comments/reviews, but I felt I had to leave one here. You are an amazing writer, and you've written an amazing story. I read the original years ago, and I thought it was great then. This version is even better. I'm so glad that you've decided to re-post it. I hope you never stop writing--whether it's fanfiction or your very own stories. I look forward to your future works!!!
Thank you for adding this epilogue -- it was a wonderful way to tie up the story! :)
I've just read this wonderful story through to the epilogue and you've brought me joy, tears and laughter tonight--thank you for sharing your story and talent with us!
Ohhhh..... Thank you little beloved for sharing all of this with us again. Thank you for sharing the story of why you hid it for a while. And thank you, thank you, thank you for the promise of future writing. You have really made my weekend. I wish you the very best with your original fiction... I hope we hear from you soon! --Ruth
What a touching insight into their pain and loss -- and hoe for the future. Thank you for such a lovely story.
thank you for a wonderful story
This was one of my very favorite stories the first time around, and nothng has changed. It's simply wonderful. Best wishes as you try to become a published author, but meantime, follow that SS/HG plot bunny!
As this story comes to an end, I am forced to think about the real world again and reflect on how very very fortunate Hermione Granger Snape is to have so many people who love her so much. I am very happy that Severus has found someone who loves him and is getting to have a real family. I thought of Hermione's trials and tribulations and was reminded that there are many people living in this world who are like Severus Snape than we would like to think about; people facing life alone, enduring awful problems with their health, with money and in sadness, without family or dear friends to comfort or advise them. Thank you for providing solace with your stories.
So much unnecessary emotional pain in just 48 little hours. Hermione can't go through life wigging out every time she hits a hard place. It does affect others when she does this. I do hope that she develops some common sense and emotional self control as she matures. Severus has. He didn't rush into worse case scenarios when she disappeared. The old Severus would have realized he waited too long to let her know what happened, imagined she had washed her hands of him and would have retreated to his lair to lick his wounds with a bottle of fire whiskey. If Hermione had not rushed into imagining the absolute worst, without substantial proof, she would not have had to endure this alone.
Severus had promised her they would be together no matter what. She could have grasped onto that and held onto it. She didn't trust him. Yes, finding his things gone would have been quite alarming. But she knew he was asking for a divorce so that they could be together. Would it be out of the realm of possibility that Cordelia Mill would proverbially "throw all his stuff out on the lawn" over it?
Sure, she could be angry and hurt over him leaving her so long without a word, but she could have done something to distract herself while she waited to give him a piece of her mind and demanded an explanation. Yes, he said he didn't want children. I understand, she would be worried about telling him she was pregnant, but he has clearly demonstrated that he is not the old Professor Snape. He has shown himself capable of change. Unfortunately, he still hasn't done enough to earn Hermione's trust.
It would be tempting to want to hide and not face him with this new emotionally charged problem, but after all he has done for her in the last year, he deserved better.
Hermione still has some growing up to do. She hasn't actually been concerned about Severus' feelings. Hermione has only been able to be worried about her own feelings and her feelings about Severus' feelings as she imagines them to be, and how those feelings might affect her. He may have done a dumb "guy thing", but Severus' has mainly been worried about Hermione's well being and her feelings from the very beginning of the story.
*Sigh* It has been such a wonderful experience to be able to enjoy your story again. It has been our great fortune that you've come home and shared your talents with us once again.After reading the epilogue I recalled that the first time I'd read it, I left you a review about how I could see the happy future that lay ahead of Hermione and Severus--the beautiful family they would have and even their grandchildren. Your writing is so vivid and compelling that my imagination just runs away with me.I've been overcome with a fit of smiling ever since I read your comment about having "been bitten by a rather insistent plot bunny with an idea for a longer, chaptered SS/HG tale." Woo Hoo!!!May you enjoy every success in your ofic and your fanfic. I will be watching this space for the next one of your stories you post here.I remain your devoted reader,Beth
Response from little beloved (Author of Denial)
My dearest, dearest Beth. Your reviews are so much more than a joy. I remember that review very, very well! We decided that their daughter was named Cara (friend) and that they went on to have a son, and then another daughter. Thank you so very much for your readership and kind reviews this second time around. I promised you an e-mail with attachment - I hope you don't mind that I waited until i had finished editing. I will have it to you very soon. Thank you so much for every kind word. Much love, LB x
Response from braye27 (Reviewer)
Good gracious, woman! You've brought me to tears. Thank you for reminding me about the name, Cara, we chose for their daughter! I filled every review with, I hope, just as much love as you put in the story itself. Two daughters and a son then. They have such a lovely family! *I promised you an e-mail with attachment - I hope you don't mind that I waited until i had finished editing.* I don't mind one whit. I'll keep my eye out for it. (I have this ridiculous mental picture of myself taking out an eye and setting in front of my monitor when I go to bed at night to watch for the email.)Be well and happy writing! Beth
Response from little beloved (Author of Denial)
My dearest, dearest Beth. Your reviews are so much more than a joy. I remember that review very, very well! We decided that their daughter was named Cara (friend) and that they went on to have a son, and then another daughter. Thank you so very much for your readership and kind reviews this second time around. I promised you an e-mail with attachment - I hope you don't mind that I waited until i had finished editing. I will have it to you very soon. Thank you so much for every kind word. Much love, LB x
Response from braye27 (Reviewer)
Good gracious, woman! You've brought me to tears. Thank you for reminding me about the name, Cara, we chose for their daughter! I filled every review with, I hope, just as much love as you put in the story itself. Two daughters and a son then. They have such a lovely family! *I promised you an e-mail with attachment - I hope you don't mind that I waited until i had finished editing.* I don't mind one whit. I'll keep my eye out for it. (I have this ridiculous mental picture of myself taking out an eye and setting in front of my monitor when I go to bed at night to watch for the email.)Be well and happy writing! Beth
Rather enjoyed them getting adopted by a cat as the same thing happened to us (and she's still around 20 years later).Your story was a joy to read and though I am sad to see it end I have hope for more thanks to your insistent plot bunny. I must admit to feeling selfish and hope to see more from you soon. But I also wish you the best of luck with your original pieces. You are a fine writer and seem well-deserving of getting published. Keep at it--be persistent like old Voldy trying to kill off Harry!
Response from little beloved (Author of Denial)
Dear
Response from little beloved (Author of Denial)
, thank you so much for every one of your lovely reviews. And wow - twenty years! MIAOW! I'm so delighted you enjoyed Denial, and I do hope I will have a new story for you soon. Many, many thanks and hugs, LB x
Response from little beloved (Author of Denial)
Dear
Response from little beloved (Author of Denial)
, thank you so much for every one of your lovely reviews. And wow - twenty years! MIAOW! I'm so delighted you enjoyed Denial, and I do hope I will have a new story for you soon. Many, many thanks and hugs, LB x