Epilogue
Chapter 48 of 48
SquibstressBefore she was Professor McGonagall, she was Minerva Macnair. After an arranged marriage forces her into an impossible situation, Minerva does what she must to survive. When she makes a new life for herself, her secrets follow and threaten everything, including the only love she has ever found. The tale of a woman, her secrets, and how she keeps them.
Winner - 3rd Place, Best Drama-Angst WIP - Fall/Winter 2012 HP Fanfic Fanpoll Awards
Epilogue
24 December 1998
"I thought I saw young Mr Weasley here," Horace said as he led Minerva to the dance floor. "Has he decided to return to school after all?"
"No, I believe he's Miss Granger's escort," Minerva said.
They settled into the rhythm of the music, Minerva easily following Horace's strong lead.
"I would have thought Harry more to her taste," he said.
"No, I think it's always been Ronald. Those two have been dancing around one another for several years. It's nice to see they've figured things out. I was beginning to despair of them."
Horace spun Minerva in a dizzying twirl. His meaty hand reconnected with her waist and manoeuvred her expertly around the couple to their right. "They're fortunate to have found love so young. Some of us don't manage it until much later in life. If at all," he said.
His eyes misted over, and she looked away.
They danced without speaking for several minutes before the song ended. Strings swelled and swooped, and Ella Fitzgerald's sultry contralto filled the room. Minerva had intended to excuse herself from Horace's embrace at the song change, but instead she just adjusted her steps and took pleasure in his fine sense of rhythm and sure hand at her waist.
He said, "I'm glad the students deigned to include some music in the line-up that we old codgers could dance to."
"Indeed. I was afraid my eardrums would burst when that band started up. This is a blessed relief."
"Well, the young will have their fun. We can't begrudge them that after all they've been through. Besides," he said, "I recall that my father thought Celestina Warbeck an atrocity when I started listening to her on the wireless back in the '30s."
Minerva privately thought that Horace's father had a point. Although almost anything was better than the noise made by the quartet calling themselves "The Pure Mudbloods," which Minerva thought was almost as tasteless as their music. She sincerely hoped they had finished for good and not just buggered off for a smoke or a nosh.
With the so-called band on a break, the music had taken a turn for the old-fashioned, and most of the students had fled the dance floor in favour of the punch table or had found perches on the purple velvet cushions that dotted the room's perimeter, but a few determined couples still swayed in one another's arms. Minerva noted with satisfaction that Neville Longbottom continued to show up his schoolmates, moving Miss Lovegood surefootedly and smoothly around the floor. He saw Minerva watching and flashed her a cheeky grin.
The music, combined with the general din of teenagers making merry, made it hard to hear. Horace said something Minerva didn't catch, and she shook her head.
He leant down. "I say you look exceptionally lovely tonight, Headmistress."
"Thank you."
It was a true compliment coming from him, with his famous good taste. He was also, despite his size, a superb dancer, leading her effortlessly, and she was vaguely surprised to find she was enjoying herself.
She'd dreaded this, the first real celebration at Hogwarts after the war, but the students seemed to be having a good time. Even the staff were relatively relaxed, although that might have had something to do with Minerva's provision of a small but fine selection of whiskies and wines in the staffroom before the official start of the Yule Ball.
They'd needed this bit of frivolity, all of them, after the horrors of past year and the austerity of the months immediately following the war's end, and Minerva was glad Horace, Filius, and Pomona had convinced her to do it. The sixth- and seventh-years, not to mention the seven-plusses, had thrown themselves enthusiastically into the planning, with Horace's guidance, and, as it had turned out, Minerva had had to do little but approve the modest budget for the ball.
She looked over Horace's shoulder across the Great Hall. It seemed the entire school had turned out, and she was happy they'd decided to allow all years to attend. All the students in second year and above were war veterans, and it would have been beyond ridiculous to pretend one late night and some loud music would do any harm to 12- and 13-year-olds who'd seen the Cruciatus deployed in their school the previous year.
A flash blinded Minerva momentarily. When the spots cleared from her eyes, she saw Dennis Creevey wielding his late brother's camera.
As it sometimes did, the weight of the missing pressed in on her, crushing in their absence. She could almost hear Severus's waspish whisper about some Gryffindorian infraction of rules as she looked out at the scene, and she had to shake herself mentally to get him out of her head.
He would have hated this. Or pretended to.
A deep voice said, "Would it be terribly rude if I were to cut in?"
"Of course, my boy, of course," Horace said, relinquishing Minerva to her son's arms.
Malcolm didn't move as smoothly as Horace, but Minerva was delighted to finally share a dance with him. He'd been busy with chaperone duties most of the evening, and she'd barely had a moment to speak with him.
He said something, but she couldn't hear him, and he had to bend lower to speak in her ear.
"I said I would have asked for my dance sooner, but I had to take a couple of Gryffindors to the infirmary for a dose of Sober-Up."
At least some things never changed, she thought. "Did someone manage to spike the punch despite Filius's protective charms?"
"No, I tested it. Their revels were fuelled by a private stash of Firewhisky, apparently."
"Thank Merlin for that. If Fred and George Weasley were here, I'd suspect..."
A lump rose in her throat and stopped her words. What wouldn't she give to have Fred Weasley here, attempting to get Firewhisky, or something worse, into the punchbowl and conspiring with his twin to charm the music box to play something very loud and highly inappropriate. Merlin, but she wanted them all back, even Vincent Crabbe, who had spent the final months of his short, sorry life assisting Amycus Carrow in doling out horrific punishments to her students.
To cover her sudden burst of melancholy, Minerva told Malcolm, "Don't look now, but I think Rose is being chatted up by Derek Ainsley."
Malcolm's head swivelled madly on his neck.
"Where?"
Minerva swatted him on the shoulder.
"I said don't look! They're over by the punch table."
Malcolm manoeuvred his mother around so he could watch his daughter and the young Ravenclaw prefect chatting and laughing together.
"I don't know what she sees in him," Malcolm grumbled. "His Potions marks aren't all they could be."
"Potions isn't everything. Ainsley is a very nice young man. And his Transfiguration work is outstanding. Horace says he's the best in the year, next to Rose."
"Speaking of Transfiguration, how is the search going?"
"Don't remind me. If the general quality of applicants doesn't improve, I'm afraid I'll have to try to prevail on Horace to put off his re-retirement for another year. I don't know what I'd have done if he hadn't agreed to take Transfiguration this year."
"You'd have made me do it instead of Potions," Malcolm said.
"Yes, I suppose I would have."
"At least you don't have to worry about replacing the Defence master every year. I think you've got him pretty well locked in."
"You know, I think I have."
The old Gershwin song ended and segued into something Minerva vaguely remembered from the 1980s, with too little melody and too many twangy bits.
"I think I'll go see what he's up to," she told Malcolm. "If I don't see you after your rounds, I'll see you in the morning."
He kissed her cheek, and she threaded her way through the bodies gyrating on the dance floor over to where Alastor stood talking with Poppy.
"And what are you two conspiring about?" she asked.
"We're trying to work out a time for Alastor to meet with my friend from St Mungo's," Poppy said.
"Schedule's a bit tight these days. Me boss is a harsh taskmistress," Alastor said.
"I thought you said there was no way God or Merlin could get you back to 'that hellhole'," Minerva said.
"Matron says I have to."
"It's for a good cause," Poppy said. "My Healer friend thinks he might be able to replicate Alastor's new prosthesis and improve it with a few charms. He says this Muggle prosthesis is much better than anything wizards have managed to come up with. Muggle technology is a wonder."
"Amen to that," said Alastor. "I should've fallen a thousand feet off me broom years ago."
Minerva's jaw tightened at the mention of his near-death.
He noticed and put a soothing hand on her arm. "Ah, sorry, love. Didn't mean to mention it tonight. I know it was an awful time for you."
"For everyone," she said crisply.
"Aye." He cleared his throat. "Anyway, I got this shiny new leg out of it, and it's a damn sight better than that piece of tin they gave me at Mungo's when I first lost it."
Minerva looked down at the artificial leg that stuck out below Alastor's kilt, and laughed. The brushed metal was bespangled with little green Christmas trees topped with blue stars and decorated with baubles that flashed alternately crimson and yellow.
"What on earth have you done to it?" she asked.
"Wasn't me. I let one of the fifth-years decorate it as a prize for managing to deflect all me hexes during class last week. This is what she came up with. Charms are pretty good. Notice the symbolic inter-House unity." He stuck the leg out in front of him and turned it right and left so Minerva could admire the student's handiwork.
"An unorthodox pedagogical approach," she said.
"Do you disapprove, Headmistress?"
"Not precisely, no. But you'll be changing it back before we go to bed."
He grinned at her. "Right-o."
"And on that note, I'm back off to check on the infirmary," said Poppy. "Next Sunday, then, Alastor?"
"Ok. Tell Healer What's-'is-Name that me leg and I'll be there by two."
When Poppy had gone, Minerva asked, "Do you want to sit down?" He'd been on the leg for hours, doing patrols and helping chaperone the party.
"No, I'm fine. I barely feel it."
"Your back..."
"Back's ok," he said. "In fact, the physiotherapist has dismissed me."
"Really? As of when?"
"This week. She says as long as I keep up the exercises, I don't have to come in anymore unless something starts bothering me again. Which it won't, with Poppy's charms and Malcolm's potions."
"That's good news."
"Yup. No more going down to Muggle London twice a week. Which means more time for other things," he said with a mischievous waggle of his brows. "Think I might take up dance lessons."
She laughed, and he said, "Oh, I'm serious, madam. I expect to be able to take you for a few turns around the floor by next year's ball. Gotta make sure none of these other wizards sweep you off your feet. You looked too happy out there with Horace."
"Horace was a treat after Hagrid. Not to mention Dean Thomas."
"Trod on your toes, did he?" Alastor asked, smirking.
"Remind me to make 'more coordinated than a newborn Abraxan' a requirement for Head Boy next year."
There was a break in the music. Minerva sighed when she saw that the band was gearing up to play another set.
A jingle pulled her gaze upward to a sprig of mistletoe floating in the air above her head.
"Oh, for Merlin's sake! I thought we decided to forbid charmed mistletoe."
"You decided," Alastor said. "The rest of us took no position." Before she could object, he kissed her quickly on the lips, and she heard the mistletoe pop out of existence.
She glanced around to find Neville Longbottom looking at them, the cheeky smile still on his face. She forced herself to glare at him, and he turned back to Miss Lovegood, whispering something in her ear.
Alastor followed her gaze. "Boy's coming along nicely," he said. "He's right on track for a N.E.W.T. in Defence, and in Charms, Filius says. Herbology, too, of course."
"He was an enormous help last year. I don't know what we'd have done without him."
Alastor peered at her, his gaze softening as he looked at her. "I'm sorry you were so alone."
"It wasn't your fault."
"Never again, Minerva. I promise you."
"Alastor..."
Pomona bustled up, saying, "All clear around the grounds, save for the usual activity in Greenhouse Two."
Minerva sighed. "Who were they?"
"Miss Higgs and one of Malcolm's."
Alastor's brows rose. "A Slytherin with a Gryffindor?"
"Noooo," said Pomona. "Not someone from Malcolm's House. One of his literally."
"You don't mean Max?" Minerva said.
"Tall boy. Long nose. Has his gran's eyes ... yup, that'd be him," said Pomona.
"Oh, for... do I even want to know what they were doing?" said Minerva.
"Nothing too serious, just a bit of snogging. I took five points each and sent them to their common room."
"Where they'll continue with their snog," said Alastor.
"Where they can't crush my Shrivelfigs," Pomona said. "Anyway, I'm exhausted, and I'll wager you are too. If it's all right with you, Minerva, I'll have a word with the band, get them to wrap things up."
"Yes, thank you, Pomona," said Minerva.
When Pomona had gone, Alastor leant down to whisper in Minerva's ear.
"Care to take a walk to Greenhouse Two, Headmistress?"
She suppressed her smile.
"Alastor, we are adults with our own room, which has a lovely warm fire going, and, as I understand it, some of Elgar's non-alcoholic eggnog waiting for us. Not to mention a very large and comfortable bed, which beats a pile of Pomona's Shrivelfigs any day of the week."
She felt his chuckle in her body. In the dark months after his supposed death, she'd heard it seemingly around every corner, only to be confronted again and again with his absence. To have it rumble in her ear along with his warm breath was a miracle she intended never to take for granted.
"You've sold me. Shall we?" He offered her his elbow, and they moved towards the doors of the Great Hall.
Hermione and Ronald intercepted them just before they went out.
"Ron just wanted to say hello," a slightly breathless Hermione said.
"Good evening, Mr Weasley," Minerva said. "I'm very glad you could come. I had the impression you didn't much enjoy dances."
Ronald looked unsure of what to say until Minerva smiled at him to indicate she was joking.
His mouth widened into grin. "Thanks, Professor. I'm kind of looking at this one as my do-over," he said with a glance at Hermione. "Professor Moody, good to see you, sir."
Alastor shook the proffered hand, saying, "I hear you've joined up with the Aurors."
"Yes, sir."
"Good man. Try to enjoy all yer parts while you've still got 'em."
Minerva pursed her lips, and Alastor just smiled back at her.
"Um, right. Thanks," Ron said.
"Goodnight, Professors," said Hermione, pulling Ron back towards the dance floor.
Minerva and Alastor made their way to the staircase to begin the long climb to the Head's Tower. They took things slowly, for both their sakes, stopping to rest for a few moments at each landing.
When they reached the second floor, Minerva said, "Let's go through the office. I have to pick up a few things for tomorrow."
"You're going to work on Christmas?"
"Just a few letters I need to respond to, and I can do them after breakfast in Malcolm's quarters so I don't have to come all the way back here."
"What time are they expecting us in the morning?"
"If Hélène had her way, it would be the crack of dawn, but Malcolm and Eliane have talked her down to nine."
"Very efficient of you to get your entire family moved to Hogwarts. Now you don't even have to leave the castle to do your Christmas visiting."
"Yes, it was rather clever of me, wasn't it?"
"Oh, you're clever, all right, Minerva McGonagall. Also entirely too beautiful for yer own good."
"Goodness, Alastor. I think you'd best have Poppy's Healer friend check your new eye."
"The eye works perfectly, thank you very much." He kissed her deeply, and when they broke, she resisted the impulse to look around to make sure no one had seen them.
Instead, she traced two fingers gently along the scar that ran below the false eye. It no longer bulged and swivelled madly around, but sat in his natural socket looking not very different from his other eye.
She said, "The new eye is very nice, but I hope you didn't give up the old one just because you thought I'd like this one better."
He caught her fingers and brought them to his lips, kissing their tips.
"As much as I enjoy doing things you like, no, it wasn't just for you. The old one hasn't worked quite right since Barty Fecking Crouch Junior used it, and it's a bit of a relief not to wear it. Except in class. Gotta keep the kiddies on their toes."
"Yes, having 360-degree vision would have been a huge help in the classroom."
Alastor took her hand as they continued their walk towards the Headmistress's office.
"Do you miss teaching?" he asked.
"Sometimes. Usually I'm so busy I don't have time to miss it."
"Malcolm says he's likin' it."
"That's what he tells me. I think he does miss having his own practice, though."
"I'm sure he does," Alastor said. "He doesn't miss some of his clients, though, he says. Especially that..."
"Madame Le Galle," they said together, then laughed.
D'you think Eliane is happy here?" Alastor asked
"Why? Has Malcolm said something?"
"No, I just wondered. She's always loved Paris so much."
"I can't imagine that it wasn't a sacrifice," Minerva said. "But Malcolm wanted to stay after the war, and I know she's happy to be here while the children are in school. Plus there's her work with Aurora and the centaurs. I think she's enjoying that."
"Yeah. I can't make heads or tails of it, though."
"Nor can I, but I suppose that's why neither of us is an astronomer."
They had reached the outer door to the Head's office, and once the spiral staircase had carried them up and they entered the office proper, Alastor limped over to lean heavily on the back of a chair.
"You're knackered," she said.
"A bit, yeah."
"Why don't you go on. I'll collect what I need and follow you up in a minute."
He straightened up and stretched. "Ok. Don't be too long."
"Don't drink all the eggnog."
"Wouldn't think of it."
Minerva shuffled through some papers on her desk as she watched him out of the corner of her eye.
He moved slowly up the staircase leading to their private quarters. He was overdoing things, she thought. Probably to prove to her...and maybe himself...that despite everything he'd been through, he was still the strong, stalwart warrior he'd always been.
She knew, though, that, despite the improvements, Muggle and magical, in his condition, he still had pain, and getting around on the prosthetic leg took more energy than he let on. She and Filius had managed to coax the castle to create a magical connection between his third-floor office and their private rooms in the Head's Tower, but he still had to climb the stairs several times a day to go to the Great Hall and other parts of the castle. He claimed the exercise was good for him, and she supposed it was, but she couldn't help worrying about him.
They'd agreed that, once Hogwarts was running to her satisfaction, and she was certain there was a good, solid staff and clear line of succession, she and Alastor would retire, likely in two or three years. Although she'd often thought that she'd like to stay around until Hélène finished Hogwarts...assuming Malcolm and Eliane stayed in Scotland after Max left school. But that would be another eight years, and Minerva didn't want to wait that long.
So they'd go. Not far, still in Scotland, certainly, but somewhere they could finally relax and have some time alone. Not that either of them was likely to want to sit around a cottage, gardening or doing needlework, or whatever it was pensioners were supposed to do with their days, but a bit of a rest would be welcome.
Until then, there would be plenty of work.
She rifled through the correspondence the Head's owl had left on her desk. Among the usual official correspondence and notices from the Ministry, there was one letter addressed to her personally. She opened it with a flick of her wand and scanned the contents.
She sighed. It was another chastising note from an outraged citizen complaining about the Headmistress's "openly consorting" with another teacher without the benefit of marriage. She ripped it in half and dropped it in the rubbish bin. At least there hadn't been any Howlers for weeks.
And the governors had held their collective tongue on the matter, thanks in no small part to Molly Weasley's ability to strongarm the other governors into shamed silence any time one of them dared to question the morals of Minerva McGonagall.
Alastor had made no noises about marriage, for which she was grateful. The notion still stuck in her craw, even though Kingsley...or Minister Shacklebolt, as Minerva supposed she should call him, even in her own mind...had summarily done away with the Ministry's binding rituals and marriage charms.
Gerald's face flashed briefly through her mind...the Gerald she'd come to know before drink and debt had taken him over. His life had been warped by the antiquated values of traditional wizarding society just as surely as hers had. It had all been such a waste. Perhaps The Pure Mudbloods had the right idea after all, pointing out the utter absurdity of it all.
Now, the next generation had a chance to get it right. Harry, Hermione, Ron, Neville, Ginny, Luna ... and all the rest of them. To marry ... or not ... for love and bring up their children to know that a person's worth isn't dictated by where or to whom they are born, or even their intelligence or talent, but rather by what they do to and for others.
She looked at the pile of documents on her desk, selecting the most urgent and rolling them up to put them in her pocket.
Dumbledore's voice from the wall behind the desk startled her.
"How is he?"
She looked up at the portrait.
"Alastor? Fairly well, all things considered."
"No more problems with memory?"
"A few minor lapses, but nothing serious."
"Severus did a good job."
The sound of Severus's name on the portrait's lips still sent a ping of anger through her, but she tamped it down.
"Yes," she said. "I don't know how he managed to master memory charms along with all his other responsibilities, but he managed to do the job without anything important going missing."
"We worked on it quite a bit over the years. It was prudent for him to be able to selectively remove and replace memories, both his own and others'."
"Yes, I suppose it would have been."
She wondered if there were memories Severus had removed from his own mind and not replaced. She wouldn't have blamed him.
"You must have done an excellent job replacing Alastor's memories," the portrait said. "It can be a tricky thing."
"It was Malcolm. Severus left very detailed instructions, and he followed them."
"Ah. One master potioneer to another."
"Indeed. And we wouldn't have found them, if you hadn't told us where they were."
"I'm very glad to have been able to do you that service," the portrait said, and once again, her eyes filled.
She smoothed her palms over her robes.
"Yes, well. I'm glad most of you portraits survived more or less intact."
She straightened the paper on her desk and used her wand to put out the candles on the large candelabra, leaving only a few single candles lit around the office to light her way.
"And are you happy, Minerva?" the portrait asked, stopping her in her tracks.
She turned back to the portrait, who wore a ghost of the smile she remembered so well.
"Yes," she said.
"I'm very glad. You see? it all came out all right in the end."
"Not for everyone. Not for you," she said quietly.
"Oh, Albus did all right. He had a long, productive life. Work he enjoyed. Dear friends. His end was not a bad one, except for the pain it caused others. And I am glad that this bit of him remains in me, so that some part of him is able to see you happy and secure. You and Malcolm and Alastor. It would make Albus very glad."
"I hope so."
"Well, you'd best be off. Alastor's waiting."
"He is. Good night."
"Good night, Minerva. Sweet dreams."
~FIN~
Author's Notes
Thanks to all the readers who have travelled this far with me. I hope you've enjoyed the ride as much as I have.
I must note that the idea to have Snape rescue Alastor was one I first encountered in Troika, a wonderful Minerva-Alastor-Kingsley story by the talented Selmak. It's available under Selmak's author name on both Fanfiction.net and An Archive of Our Own, and I highly recommend it to anyone who loves insightful characterization married to intriguing story, all laced with wry wit and affectionate humour.
This work of fiction is based on characters and settings created by J. K. Rowling. All recognisable characters, settings, and plot elements are copyright © Ms. Rowling and her assignees.
The author believes this work falls within the scope of the Fair Use Doctrine as a transformative work.
For more information, see the Organization for Transformative Works.
All original characters, settings, and plot elements are copyright © Squibstress.
This work of fiction is available for use under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 3.0 Unported (CC-BY-NC-SA 3.0) license.
A few lines of dialogue were used from the following works:
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire © 2000 J. K. Rowling. London: Bloomsbury Publishing.
The Maltese Falcon © 1941 Warner Bros. Entertainment, Inc.
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows © 2007, J. K. Rowling. London. Bloomsbury Publishing.
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Oooooh, crap. Minerva has gone through far too many things, which it would really turn her into the strong woman she is. I am really enjoying how the story keeps surprising me. Thanks for this fic! :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I love doing backstory for interesting characters we only really glimpse in the books!Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!
I wasn't expecting the true Bathilda Bagshot too! Such a treat! :)
oooh! Nice start!I love Minerva's character and I am really looking forward reading a whole story centered on her :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks. I love Minerva, as you can see by the number of stories I've written about her!
Ah! The Kids' POV. It would have to be Hermoine--none of the others are observant or discreet enough. Yes, Hermione, even old fogeys can be in love, and real love doesn't mind flaws... It would be interesting for Molly and Hermoine to discuss Alastor and Minerva during cooking lessons sometime. What would the kids say if they knew that Miinerva's married name was MacNair?Speaking of that, will we get to see Malcom, or Minerva's grandkids? Malcolm is still one of my all-time favorite OC's.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, Hermione, of course. And I'm glad you picked up on the parallel between Molly and Hermione, and their observations of McGonagall/Moody. It would be an interesting conversation, all right!We may get a glimpse of Malcolm and his brood soon.Stay tuned. It won't be such a long wait as last time!
Oh my!!! <Happy dance!>. I am so thrilled to see this! I'll have to go back and re-read it all. I cheated and just re-read the end of the last chapter to remind myself where we are. It was interesting to see the meeting of the reconstituted OOtP, and to see the discussion about using Sirius' house as headquarters. I also liked the discussion re:Umbridge. I never thought Dumbledore or Minerva were completely oblivious to what Fudge was up to there, but Harry's POV always seemed to suggest that. I was glad to see that Alastor is still with Minerva, too.Now to chapter 42!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks for your patience, LOL!I had to go back and reread myself before I finished the chapter.No,I don't think the grownups are nearly as gormless as the kids seem to think they are. You know how teenagers are.
I had to look twice in my inbox when the notice came in that this piece had been updated. To say I was excited would be an understatement. I thought to go back and reread before reading this update, but didn't have the time, and it was interesting to see all the order members, as well as the kids, in this chapter. My favorite bit was when Alastor was gruffing about Tonks refusal to fly into the clouds, and the assumption that Moody would have them fly to Wales and back to throw off a tail.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Updated at last.Glad you enjoyed Alastor being Alastor!More soon, I hope.
I had to look twice in my inbox when the notice came in that this piece had been updated. To say I was excited would be an understatement. I thought to go back and reread before reading this update, but didn't have the time, and it was interesting to see all the order members, as well as the kids, in this chapter. My favorite bit was when Alastor was gruffing about Tonks refusal to fly into the clouds, and the assumption that Moody would have them fly to Wales and back to throw off a tail.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, believe it or not, I'm trying to finish this sucker. I had to go back and read before I wrote it!It was fun to write a bit of Tonks--someone I never wrote before.Hopefully, there will be more before too long.
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
I'm excited! I might go back and reread everything now that you're active again.
......worshipping every inch of her...Oh God, you made me cry. Love's plaint- keening softly after that break-up that hurts. god, haven't we tried it sometimes.. how well written, like a straight needle you don't see in the text, Oh why isn't forgiveness easier to get and give. Those two proud people. Why did Minervagive up on him.? Doesn't she know he loves her?
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Sorry to have made you cry ;-) I think Minerva's earlier experiences have made her leery of difficult relationships. We'll have to see how they end up!
This is gripping, fabulous. I agree, there shouild be many more reviews, I adored the quick knowledgeable vistas into student life in Paris - more of these, if possible.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Again, sorry to be so late in responding (am just catching up after a crushing work season!)Thanks for reading, and I'm glad you enjoyed the Paris scenes!
First off, thanks so much for the update! I've been in the mood for HP fanfiction lately, but if I (start to) read one more story that turns out to be focused on evil!Dumbledore I may swear off forever. It's quite depressing.This was up to your usual high standards. The look inside Alastor's head when he was trying to convince himself that it was really Minerva outside his door (and even after he let her in) was both believable and heart-breaking. If Minerva is determined to salvage their relationship she has some hard work ahead of her.I liked how Minerva didn't let Alastor chase her away, and how she subjected Albus to the same spells Alastor used on her -- and that Albus let her. I also liked that they convinced him to stay. He will be needed. I really liked Minerva's POV, how she tried to think only of helping Alastor, and making him comfortable. The last bit was good too.
“I don’t think there’s much I’d mind tonight.”It was perhaps a terrible thing to say, given everything that had transpired, but it was the truth. She’d think about the Dark Lord and Cedric Diggory and everything else tomorrow. Tonight, there was only the fact that Alastor still lived.Sometimes when things are bad, you have to focus only on the good things, or you just can't handle it. We know she's going to do her part (and if you continue this through DH she has a very rough patch coming) so it's good to see her at least get a good nights sleep.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks.It was time to give Minerva and Alastor a bit of a break from the angst. They've been through a lot!Glad you enjoyed it.
You have outdone yourself. Again. I always enjoy seeing canon events from another POV, and I always enjoy Minerva's, but this is special, even so.First though, I loved seeing that Alastor still had some fight left, even after everything he's been through, and the glimpse we get here is just horrifying. But I was also very glad to learn that he's realized how much he screwed up with Minerva, and is even willing to admit it. I hope he stays willing...Minerva's thoughts about Harry were great. No, she probably wouldn't admit she favored him, and no, logical thinking really isn't his strong suite. I thought your description of Dumbledore in shock was probably quite accurate too. He had to have taken some time to assimilate everything, he's only human, after all. I was a little surprised to see how quick Severus was on the uptake, but then I realized that he knew something was up even before Harry returned -- he felt the mark burn when Voldemort called the Deatheaters from the graveyard, after all.I loved seeing Minerva's version of the Kiss, and her rant at Fudge was absolutely awesome.Then there's this:
"Alastor, it's Minerva.""Minerva?"His voice was thin and creaky, and the most beautiful sound she'd ever heard."Here I am, love," she said...."Alastor?""Hmm?""Are you-- are you all right?"It was a stupid question, but he didn't seem to mind. He grinned like a man drunk."Never better." He lifted a hand to shield his eyes from the light and looked up at her. "Jaysus, but you're beautiful."She let out a sound that was half laugh, half sob.Awwwww.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks for the lovely comments.Glad you caught the bit about Severus. I think some people were confused by that!Best,Squibstress
So tickled to see this updated! I'm also quite thankful that Barty hasn't caught on that Minerva and Alastor had a thing together. Thank goodness for small favors, eh? He could really destroy her if he did. Oh dear, I hope I haven't given you any ideas ...
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I'm really trying to get moving on this story.Ideas... ideas...
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
I also like how you contrasted real Alastor with impostor Alastor - aka Barty ... its quite a difference but similar enough to fool even some of his closest friends.I think I would like to see some of what our dear Alastor is thinking down in that trunk, but of course I am not trying to persuade you or anything.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I'm so glad that worked for you, because it was a connundrum. In canon, JKR made Crouch sound so much like Moody that of course, no one twigged to the difference. I didn't want to do that, but there was a fine line between making him too much and too little like the real Alastor.Have you read Selmak's "The Steadfast Tin Soldier"? (It's on FFN.) She did a fabulous (and disturbing) job of imaginging what it would have been like for him in that trunk.(And it's a lovely bit of AM/MM.)
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
Well then ... I suppose I'll just have to do that. In addition, as you probably already know, White Eyebrow also did a great job with his Moody in the trunk bit ... Alastor has been on my mind quite a lot these past few weeks ... with the new knowledge that I have of the surname ... who would have ever thought. All the more reason to love Alastor.
*groans* And again ... I forgot ... Well ... misclicked.
Oh ... forgot to hit the button for notification if you respond ...
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I do that all the time.I also forget where I've left my car keys, my car, my glasses...
Well ... the last line surely took me by surprise ... way to advance time by leaps and bounds!Its been awhile since I've delved into your work, and Slant in particular ... I had to reread a few things and still others have me scratching my head .... "Frogs?" ... but anyway ... Alastor's stubborn idiocy is quite perfect really ... well parallelled to Albus' inability to allow himself to be loved ... seems they have both fallen - or dove - into that fortress of solitude.Your work is amazing, as always.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Tee, hee.Yeah, now that the business between Albus and Malcolm has been dealt with, I thought I should get start getting on with Minerva and Alastor."Frog" is a somewhat pejorative term for French person. (Alastor is not overly fond of the French.)Poor Minerva. The men in her life are somewhat foolish about love, aren't they?Thanks for sticking with the story, despite my eratic updates.
Woohoo! An update!I was happy to see Malcom and Eliane's marriage, and that the revelations about the past haven't hurt his relationship with his mother -- or his fathers. Minerva certainly seemed more relaxed than we've seen her in a while. The last sentence was a bit startling. It was good to see that Malcom will make her a grandmother, but I do hope that we see her again before then!I was sorry, but not surprised, to see Alastor continue his downward slide into paranoia. Since this is adhering to book canon (my least favorite thing about the story), his relationship with Minerva has to be distant enough for her to not suspect Crouch when the time comes, and any reconciliation between them would negate that.I'm not sure what to think about Albus. If he is unable to love, it appears to me to be because he has chosen to harden himself (with his 'iron will'), rather than it being his natural state. It's as though he fears love, or maybe what he might be capable of doing for love? In his thoughts he seemed almost relieved that he didn't feel like a father to Malcom. His reaction to the wedding was surprising, to say the least. It certainly didn't seem as though there was any happiness or joy in his tryst with Malquin, nor did it seem as though either of them expected there to be, so I have to wonder exactly what he was seeking -- a form of oblivion or denial, perhaps? I do wonder what might break through his facade (and I do think it is a facade, but then I've always liked Dumbledore, flaws and all). Anyway, it was great to be able to read this, and I hope you will be able to update again soon!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks for reading and reviewing.Sorry about the canon-compliance--it's just ingrained in me, I think--but there may be some more surprises.Whenever I write Albus I always have to confront what I see as the complications canon throws in my way. I love him, but he does some really awful things to people he supposedly cares for, so I suppose these fics are my way of trying to work that out. In this fic, whether or not he's actually capable of love is up to the reader.Sorry too about the long interval. RL has thrown me a few curves, but I hope to get back to a more regular pattern of updates.Thanks for sticking with the story.
Response from dsky (Reviewer)
RL has a way of doing that.I am usually fairly rigid about canon myself. No matter how much I like a story, there's a little voice in the back of my head whispering 'but, but, but... that's not what/how it happened'. With HP though, there are so many conflicts, between the books, and interviews, and quasi-official websites, and Pottermore, that the only way to shut the voice up was to decide that only what's printed in PS/SS thru DH is canon. But it is all out there, and I can't un-know it, so I eventually decided, OK, if there are that many versions of the truth, I'll just pick the one(s!) I like best! (Everyone else does.) It lets me enjoy the RAMverse too, so that's all good.As far as Dumbledore is concerned, a lot of the negative things we learned were slanted through Rita Skeeter's pen, or his brother, or other people who didn't like him. He asked people to do a lot, but we're only privy to a miniscule part of whatever conversations went on, and he was the only general in a war with the future of the entire world at stake. He willingly died for it. People seem willing to give Snape a lot bigger break than they give Dumbledore, maybe because Snape turned out to be better than they thought (or maybe because Alan Rickman is so fantastic).I admit to only having read DH twice, and both of those a long time ago, so there may be some details I've forgotten, but I'm quite happy without them. I do love the universe though, especially the adults, and especially as expanded upon by FF writers. I can only take the kids in small doses, though. I do thank you for hours of entertainment, and your take on the characters and the universe is always entertaining.
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The door to Minerva's quarters banged open, and she swept through, dropping her bag on the table as she made a beeline for the liquor cabinet to pour herself two fingers of Cardhu. But she couldn't enjoy it; she was still too angry. She'd kept her temper in check all afternoon, but now it threatened to erupt full force and needed an outlet. She yanked her wand out of its pocket to point it at one of the cushions on her settee. It exploded in a riot of feathers, their indolent fluttering only stoking Minerva's ire. She Transfigured them into needles that hovered in the air, and imagined them pricking Sirius bloody Black until he screamed. Her fury was stemmed by the image but not scotched.I can go one better. She Transfigured the crimson velvet of the other cushion into a reasonable approximation of Black's too-handsome face, then sent the needles hurtling through the air to embed themselves in the cushion-cum-portrait. Black's fuzzy smirk changed to a silent scream of horror. The effort involved in the magic she'd just performed served its purpose, and she felt calm enough to have her drink.
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Holy CRAP! *dashes out of the room to avoid Minerva Wrath!*
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
I think you have painted Black and Potter EXACTLY how I saw them from the books ... EXACTLY! I can so relate to Minerva's anger now .... those MORONS!
OH and ...
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"Everything all right, lamb?" He looked up from contemplating his dish. "Sure. Why?" "You didn't eat much dinner, and now you've barely touched your cream-crowdie. When you've lost your sweet tooth, I know something's wrong."
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*grins* Daddy's boy, eh? I love eeet!
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
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"Oh, Malcolm—" "How could he have no idea that you might end up pregnant if he slept with you? Was he a complete fool, or just a randy bastard?" "Don't you dare!" she shouted, and Malcolm recoiled as if he'd been slapped. "Mum—" "No, you have no right to judge him! I lied to him, and I used him, used our friendship. And he forgave me, even though I believe it nearly killed him to find that he had a son he couldn't raise. He wasn't— Malcolm?" He had taken two staggering steps backward and clapped a hand over his mouth.
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See there - see that right there? See this is why you are brilliant. You showed us HOW Malcolm figured it out ... you show us how brilliant Malcolm is ... see, you could have just said it, but how dull that would be, but you SHOW us ... Malcolm figures out who his father is BY his mother's reaction! Who is she loyal to a fault to ... who is she absolutely devoted to, without being in a romantic relationship? Yeah ... brilliant.
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
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"Malcolm, wait, please." Her tone stopped him. "What?" "Come sit down. I have something else to tell you."
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ARG! The only thing I can think of is ... um the rat incident ... but ARG! Cliffhangers are not KIND!
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
*taps foot* If I am going to submit these silly reviews, I bloody well expect you to at least read them! *snort*
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
My first response was "????" But then I saw that you submitted the review in July. Don't know why I didn't see them then, but a million apologies!I can't take total credit for the Marauders; the incident I alluded to was something JKR wrote as a fundraiser. (But Minerva's reaction is all my own, LOL!)Yes, I think Malcolm is pretty clever, like his parents.Thanks for the kind words!
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Malcolm didn't say anything, and Alastor prodded him. "Answer my question. Do you want kids?"
"What I want or don't want doesn't come into it. I can't have children."
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Now that sounds just like someone else we both know ... perfect really, Malcolm does seem to resemble his father more than his mother, the way you wrote him, and ironically, he doesn't even know his father yet.
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He didn't see. He didn't see at all, and that was fine by Alastor. It was better that way. Better Malcolm should think it was animosity rather than fear. He and Minerva didn't need to be lumbered with a useless old cripple who was prone to hearing things that weren't there. They both had better things to do.
Malcolm said, "She only wants to help. She cares about you."
"Don't need her help."
It sounded harsh and ungrateful, and it was. He was suddenly angry, and he couldn't be grateful that a woman who once loved him now felt sorry enough for him to spend her precious summer days caring for the gimp he'd become.
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Pride is a terrible emotion that does nothing but isolate us from those that care about us as well as cause us to put ourselves on pedestals, and we all know there is only one way down from a pedestal.
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She had a word—several words—and by the time she finished, all traces of Spleen's smile had evaporated, and he was stammering apologies and nodding his head in vigorous agreement when she told him that she expected to hear that Senior Auror Alastor Moody had received nothing but the most respectful and compassionate treatment, lest Spleen find himself answering to her, to Malcolm, and to Albus Dumbledore, Auror Moody's dear friend.
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I like this bit ... Minerva couldn't just say 'my family' but that's what she means ... which again causes me to wonder ... now that Malcolm knows - well in the next chappie anyway ... will he change his name ... I wouldn't think to Dumbledore or Albus would probably have a cow, but to McGonagall, I'd think that would be appropriate.
Spleen reminds me of a nurse I had when I busted my head open as a kid. He was so nasty to me. You do a very good job of making him absolutely awful. I so hate false concern and congeniality.
And I can see Alastor being a royal pain of a patient. *nods* I think that fits. No cooperation on his part what so ever. Much as I love him, I think I'd have to smack him here.
Did I mention that your work was brilliant? OH I did? OK well never mind then *whistles*
Shit. You are an evil, evil woman. I hate cliffhangers.
Malcolm took it much better than I thought he would, but then, in a way, he's been facing the same choice, so he should understand. And he's thoughtful, and intelligent, and... did I mention that I like Malcolm? I hope he takes the next bit half as well.
When she didn't respond, he continued. "How many mad Macnairs do you think I'd father? One? Two? How many is too many?"
There was a roaring in her ears, and her belly attempted to turn over.
Not now.
Somehow, she'd convinced herself that Malcolm wouldn't see things the way she had done as a young woman faced with the same dilemma. That worry had been packed away with the last of her wedding silver and Gerald's clothes when she'd fled the horrors of her marriage for the promise of new freedom in her native land. She realised now that her unwillingness to admit the seriousness of Malcolm's feelings for Eliane Giroux had perhaps been another way of avoiding the issue.
Well said. It's frightening sometimes, how easy it can be to convince ourselves that what we want to be true, is true, and it takes a major setback for us to re-examine our beliefs.
A familiar anger gripped her, and she crossed her arms tightly around her body. What did her son--or any of her students--know of difficult choices? They, who had been born into a post-Grindelwald world, with freedoms they enjoyed without understanding how much it had cost. And now there was another war because of it, because so many people failed to understand that, yes, constant vigilance was required to keep those hard-won freedoms for everyone, witch and wizard, pure-blood and Muggle-born.
Well said again, and true about so many things.
"How could he have no idea that you might end up pregnant if he slept with you? Was he a complete fool, or just a randy bastard?"
"Don't you dare!" she shouted, and Malcolm recoiled as if he'd been slapped.
"Mum--
"No, you have no right to judge him! I lied to him, and I used him, used our friendship. And he forgave me, even though I believe it nearly killed him to find that he had a son he couldn't raise. He wasn't-- Malcolm?"
He had taken two staggering steps backward and clapped a hand over his mouth.
I loved this. How quickly she rose to Albus' defense, and how quickly Malcolm figured out who it was when she did.
I liked the bit at the beginning too -- about how immature James and Sirius were, and how she channeled her anger. I always thought the Marauders went from prats to saints a little too quickly. At least here you show that it took a little time.
Well done once again. I've been anticipating this chapter since almost the beginning of the story, and I was not disappointed. I think I could have quoted the whole thing. I love Minerva and Malcolm together, and I liked seeing things from Minerva's POV. I am eagerly awaiting the next installment!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I truly didn't intend for this to be a cliffie, but the chapter was getting long.I think it helped that Minerva's news meant Malcolm could follow his heart. I'm glad this chapter met expectations. I've been thinking about it since I first conceived this story (pun intended), although I didn't think it would take me quite so long to get here!The opening bit about James and Sirius was inspired by a 500-word story JKR wrote to benefit EnglishPEN, so I used it for my nefarious purposes. I think they were abominably immature and cocky, which I can only imagine drove Minerva to drink, LOL!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I truly didn't intend for this to be a cliffie, but the chapter was getting long.I think it helped that Minerva's news meant Malcolm could follow his heart. I'm glad this chapter met expectations. I've been thinking about it since I first conceived this story (pun intended), although I didn't think it would take me quite so long to get here!The opening bit about James and Sirius was inspired by a 500-word story JKR wrote to benefit EnglishPEN, so I used it for my nefarious purposes. I think they were abominably immature and cocky, which I can only imagine drove Minerva to drink, LOL!
Whew! Alastor just can't catch a break, can he? This section:
There was no such diffidence with this one. Alastor was being pulled forcefully in a direction he was sure he didn't care to go.There was no air, and it was fast becoming a question of who'd pass out first.
I'm god damned if it'll be me.
His consciousness was funnelling away. Alastor marshalled his last bit of magical energy and concentrated on a single stone in the floor of the Ministry cell--the one with the scorch mark where a supposedly Petrified collar had surprised him by firing a wordless curse--just that stone and nothing else.
There was a burst of light, and his chest expanded. At the same moment, his back hit something hard enough that if he'd had any air left in his lungs, it would have been knocked out of him. Something warm and wet was on top of him, and when he opened his eyes, he saw the Death Eater's eyes only millimetres from his. They were lifeless and staring.
is just outstanding. I really feel and see the whole sequence.
I loved seeing Malcolm again, all grown up and still with Eliane. I loved that he stepped up and became the 'adult' to comfort Minerva when she needed it. I had wondered about his reaction to the breakup, Alastor really was more a father to him than anyone else. (She obviously hasn't told him Albus is his father. Not that I'm surprised by that.) I'd guess Minerva told Malcolm about the break-up the way she did because she didn't know what else to say -- they broke up in September, and she just wrote a short note at the end of a letter in October? It was probably as hard for her to write it as it was for him to read it. And three years on, clearly she still loves Alastor, but I don't think either of them could change enough to make it work between them long-term.
As much as I love Malcolm, I always get a sense of foreboding when he is around, probably because I'm afraid you're going to up the ante on the angst, and he's Minerva's real weakness. He's also probably my favorite OC in any story I've read. He's just so real, and you've done a wonderful job of getting inside his head as he's grown-up, giving him age-appropriate reactions and thoughts. That and he seems like a thoroughly decent guy.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yeah, this is sort of the "abuse Alastor" section of the story.I'm so glad you enjoy Malcolm! He is Minerva's greatest weakness, as you say, and they do have some unfinished business, so there will be a bit more of him.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yeah, this is sort of the "abuse Alastor" section of the story.I'm so glad you enjoy Malcolm! He is Minerva's greatest weakness, as you say, and they do have some unfinished business, so there will be a bit more of him.
I adore this version of Alastor so much that it really hurts to see him becoming a lonely, suspicious drunk. Which is probably a compliment to your writing, but it still makes me sad!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks. I love Alastor too. We always hurt the one we love. At least, writers do. I strongly suspect we're all secret sadists.Thanks for reading and commenting!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks. I love Alastor too. We always hurt the one we love. At least, writers do. I strongly suspect we're all secret sadists.Thanks for reading and commenting!
An update! An update! [Happy Dance]
Oh, how sad! She's keeping things from him to avoid the arguments, and he's setting tests for her to make her prove she cares, and lashing out to get some reaction, and after Gerald she doesn't have it in her to sustain that kind of relationship, and it's all going downhill, and they're just making each other unhappy -- and it's just too, too, sad.
She found she didn't really want to know, and it shamed her.And
Despite the water she'd just had, her mouth was dry again, and the creeping sensation of guilt picked at her chest.
And
She said, "I'm sorry. I didn't want you to worry. I was--
And
"And you didn't trust me?"
"Should I?"
Minerva has enough guilt over Malcom's conception and what she did to Gerald. She doesn't need manufactured guilt because she's trying to avoid conflict with Alastor because he can't accept her choices. He's right too, about how very, very dangerous it is, but he's handling it all wrong, and he's so close to the edge psychologically that after dealing with Gerald and his father, she can't handle it in Alastor too, but she's the only thing keeping him grounded, tenuous as it is... It's hard to see him spiraling out of control. Thank goodness for Kingsley.
As always, you make me empathize with everyone. I wonder how well Minerva is handling it?
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, finally an update! I was sorry to do it with such a morose chapter, but them's the breaks.Yes, it's a guilt-and-misunderstanding fest all around.Thanks for reviewing!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, finally an update! I was sorry to do it with such a morose chapter, but them's the breaks.Yes, it's a guilt-and-misunderstanding fest all around.Thanks for reviewing!
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