Chapter Thirty-Nine
Chapter 39 of 48
SquibstressBefore she was Professor McGonagall, she was Minerva Macnair. After an arranged marriage forces her into an impossible situation, Minerva does what she must to survive. When she makes a new life for herself, her secrets follow and threaten everything, including the only love she has ever found. The tale of a woman, her secrets, and how she keeps them.
Winner - 3rd Place, Best Drama-Angst WIP - Fall/Winter 2012 HP Fanfic Fanpoll Awards
24 June 1995
Alastor counted handfalls as he dragged himself across the floor.
One, two, three, four, five, six.
He stopped, propped himself up on one hand and his good leg, and pushed down his drawers. Despite his need, it took him a few seconds before his bladder released. He tried not to piss too hard; he knew from experience that he was close to the wall, and he didn't want it to spatter back at him. When he was finished, he rolled over on his side to relieve his bowels.
He usually tried to hold his water and shite as long as he could, in hopes Crouch would visit not too long afterward and Vanish the mess. He might even cast a few cleansing spells on Alastor. A sensitive nose, had Bartemius Fecking Crouch Bloody Junior.
After hitching his drawers back into place, Alastor pulled himself back across the cell. His left hand hit the canteen, sending it clanging and echoing through the small space.
Bugger.
He hoped it hadn't gone all the way to Loo Corner. Alastor would dig through the mess for it if he had to, though. Merlin only knew when Crouch would come to bring him more water.
Panic made his gorge rise. It seemed to come upon him more and more, although Merlin knew the idea of death held no horrors for him at this point. But thirst . . .
He'd been reduced to drinking his own piss once, and that wasn't a thing he ever cared to try again. When Crouch had returned...from a weekend off Dumbledore had forced on him, he'd said...Alastor had wept.
The panic threatened to overtake him.
Fuck it.
He began to sing quietly into the darkness to beat it down.
"If you'll be the lass of Aughrim
As I'll take you to be
Tell me that first token
That passed between you and me.
"Oh don't you remember
That night on yon lean hill
When we both met together
I am sorry now to tell . . ."
His belly made a plaintive sound, and he fell silent. The song put him too much in mind of Minerva. He only let himself think about her after Crouch had just left. It was too dangerous otherwise. In his weakness, he might let something slip under Crouch's Imperius.
What a fool I've been.
Alastor's predicament...and everything that was going follow...was the result of his stupid pride and stubbornness. Minerva had hurt him, refusing to marry him, and then lying to him about her Order activities, but he'd hurt her first. He knew it now. He'd had long, lonely years to think it over. He'd wanted to protect her, but he'd pulled her too close. He knew how important her freedom was to her, yet he'd tried to control her as surely as everyone else in her life had done before, and in the end, it hadn't mattered that he'd done it out of love.
By the time he'd come to that realisation, he'd been a cripple and mad into the bargain, and she was well quit of him. That's what he'd told himself, anyway. She'd wanted to be friends, sure, but that wasn't what he'd wanted. He'd wanted her, and by God, if he couldn't have all of her, then he wouldn't have any. The wanting was too painful. So he'd pushed away the one person left on this bloody island who really cared about him, until she no longer knew him well enough to know that Crouch wasn't him.
Now he'd never have the chance to tell her he was sorry.
His stomach cramped and complained.
Enough. Put her out of your mind.
How long had it been since Crouch's last visit? If his belly was gurgling, chances were the next one would be fairly soon. Crouch couldn't let him get too thin; the Polyjuice transformation would reflect any significant changes in Alastor's appearance.
Nevertheless, the day would come when Crouch would either kill him or leave him to rot. It wouldn't be too long now, Alastor reckoned. The second task was over ages ago...Crouch had come to crow afterwards. How many days since then?
You couldn't measure time in here; all Alastor knew was that there was too damn much of it. And too little left.
So he sang.
"As I went home on Monday night as drunk as drunk could be,
I saw a horse outside the door where my old horse should be.
Well, I calls me wife and I says to her, 'Will you kindly tell to me
Who owns that horse outside the door where my old horse should be?'
"'Ah, you're drunk, you're drunk, you silly old fool, and still you cannot see,
That's a lovely sow that me mother sent to me.'
Alastor got as far as Saturday:
". . . So I calls me wife and I says to her, 'Will you kindly tell to me
Who owns the hands upon your breasts where my old hands should be?'
"'Ah, you're drunk, you're drunk, you silly old fool, and still you cannot see...'"
A sudden shaft of light pierced the darkness, followed by a thunk and a rattle as Crouch let himself down into the compartment.
When Alastor opened his eyes, his doppelganger stood there, a handkerchief pressed to his nose.
"Gods, but you stink, Moody. Tergeo!"
Alastor noticed with alarm that Crouch's hands were empty. No food. No canteen.
It would be today, then. Or tomorrow at the latest.
He prayed to Jesus that Crouch would oblige him with a quick AK instead of... No. Best not to think about that.
"I didn't know you had such a fine singing voice," Crouch said. "A pity I never thought to try it out myself. But then, I've never much liked music."
He leant down and sliced off a small tuft of Alastor's hair. It still infuriated Alastor to see his wand in Crouch's fist.
"Last time, old man," Crouch said, stuffing the hair into his pocket. "In a few hours, I'll be finished living in your disgusting old carcass. And you . . . you will simply be finished."
Crouch rubbed his bad leg.
"It's been a very long ten months," he said, and it sounded almost like commiseration. "But when the Dark Lord rises again tonight . . . I'm only sorry that I won't get to kill Potter myself, after all the trouble he's given me. Not too bright, the Boy Who Lived, is he? But I'm sure the Dark Lord will let me take care of some of the other scum. I've earned my right to a little fun, don't you think?"
He began to pace.
"I'll start with Snape. Maybe I'll even keep him alive for a while, take him home, keep him in the cellar where my father kept me. Then that dim-witted Weasley boy. Make his blood-traitor mummy and daddy watch while I kill him. And Longbottom. No, Bella can have him . . . she'd like to collect the set, I think, and she deserves a toy after all those years in Azkaban."
He gave an obscene giggle, and Alastor wondered how no one outside had noticed had truly mad "Mad-Eye" was.
Crouch nattered on, elaborating on whom he would kill, and how. Alastor thought he was overly optimistic. Crouch apparently believed that all it would take would be Potter's death and Voldemort's return, and the rest of world would just stand by and let their lot take over. That, more than anything, was proof of his insanity.
Surely Crouch realised Dumbledore wouldn't roll over and play dead. Nor would Minerva, nor Shacklebolt, nor Tonks, nor Bones, nor any of the other good, talented wizards and witches who'd fought Voldemort and won the first time around.
Of course, who knew how long they could have held out if Potter hadn't rebounded Voldemort's curse and saved everyone's hide, including, miraculously, his own. And Albus clearly thought the boy would be important again.
Help me protect Harry Potter.
That's what Dumbledore had asked, and Alastor had failed utterly.
Frustration pounded at his temples and his blood was a herd of hippogriffs in his ears. He'd had one fecking job to do, probably the last one he'd ever have, and he'd muffed it before he'd even got started.
There was silence, and Alastor realised Crouch had had stopped talking. He was grinning like a demented child waiting for praise from its mother.
"You done?" Alastor asked.
"No. But you are, I'm afraid."
He pointed his wand at Alastor, who forced himself to keep his eye steady on his murderer. Alastor thought fleetingly of Malcolm's three children and sent a hurried prayer to whoever might be listening that they'd grow up free and happy in spite of his blunder.
He waited for the blast of green light that would release him from this hell.
But Crouch lowered his wand.
"No," he said softly and turned away. "Ta, Moody."
He gave the incantation to Levitate himself out of the trunk and began to rise.
Alastor pushed off as hard as he could with his one leg and launched himself at Crouch's back. His arms wrapped around Crouch's thighs, and he hung on as Crouch's concentration broke and they both fell.
"Expelliarmus!"
The wand flew out of Crouch's hand, hit the wall, and clattered to the floor a few feet away.
"Accio wand!"
They'd both shouted at the same time. Alastor's spell was stronger, even in his weakened state, but his reflexes were off, not to mention his binocular vision, and the wand ricocheted off the side of his head rather than sailing firmly into his hand.
He rolled off of Crouch and dove for it, but just as his fingertips brushed it, he was hit from behind, and it skittered back out of his reach. Crouch was on his back. Alastor opened his mouth to cast another desperate Accio¸ but he had no voice. Crouch's hands had closed around his throat, his fingers pressing into Alastor's trachea. He tried to buck Crouch off him, but it was impossible with only one leg and a stump, and thirteen stone of imposter crushing him.
After an eternity, the hands released him, and he gulped in mouthfuls of stale air. The weight lifted from his back, and he flipped over, panting, to see Crouch standing over him, wand pointed in his face.
"I'm afraid not, old man. Stupefy!"
/***/
When the red sparks rose from the maze, Minerva quickly calculated that they were from Alastor's side.
There were several anxious minutes before Pomona came around the corner to give her the news.
"It was Krum. He's been Stunned, but Poppy says he'll be all right."
"Thank you."
"Looks like Cedric and Harry are still in it," Pomona said, giving Minerva a thumbs-up before hurrying back to her place with the champions' families.
Krum Stunned? That was odd. Minerva had been consulted on all the obstacles for the maze...she'd Transfigured the Sphinx herself...and she could think of none that would result in a Stunning.
Was it Miss Delacour, perhaps?
Minerva had a hard time believing it was either Potter or Diggory, but she supposed it was possible.
She continued patrolling her portion of the maze's perimeter, alert for any sign of trouble from within.
If asked, she'd never have admitted it, but she now harboured a secret hope that Harry might win it. He'd had help with the other two tasks certainly, but the third was the one she was least worried about. He was a bit of a prodigy in Magical Defence, and none of the obstacles in the maze were beyond his skills to manage if he kept his wits about him. The Sphinx's riddle was the only thing she thought might trip him up. It was Filius's doing, of course, and well . . . rational thought had never been Harry's strong suit.
Still, the boy wasn't a fool, and he might work it out before Cedric, who'd never struck Minerva as the swiftest gnome in the garden, or Fleur, of whom Minerva admittedly knew little. She and Olympe had avoided the topic of their champions during the pleasant hours they'd spent talking. To Minerva's delight, Olympe had remembered Malcolm, who'd been her student when she was Arithmancy mistress at Beauxbatons.
"We were quite sad to lose him," she'd said. "What is 'e doing now?"
"He owns an apothecary in Paris."
"Ah! So 'e returned to France, then? Trés intelligent, ce garçon. Comme sa mère."
"Merci, Madame Directrice."
Madame Maxime had clasped her enormous hands together and leant forward.
"Olympe. Je m'appelle Olympe."
"And you must call me Minerva."
Minerva had been glad to find a friend in Olympe Maxime. Albus had encouraged Minerva to seek her out..."You will likely find yourself in her shoes one day"...but she'd been reluctant. Alastor's treatment of her had beaten her down, and her emotions were too battered for her to want to invite new friendships, but the chance to converse with another smart, powerful witch who understood the enormous responsibilities she shouldered had helped Minerva forget her troubles for a time.
She looked to the sky as she paced the perimeter. It was remarkably clear, and she could see up into the stands. The hum of the crowd carried on the breeze and grew as the minutes ticked away with no more excitement from within the maze to divert them.
Minerva had lost track of time when the murmur was pierced by a single scream, then a chorus of them, rising to a cacophony.
What had happened?
She didn't dare leave her post in case any of the champions were still inside the maze, but her mind tripped across a variety of terrible possibilities even as she told herself not to be foolish. The crowd was overexcited and eager for something to happen, that was all.
Nevertheless, her heart thudded and dread tightened her chest.
The ominous form of Severus Snape appeared from around the corner.
"Come quickly. Diggory's dead. Dumbledore will need your help."
He disappeared in a flapping of black robes, and Minerva hurried after him.
Diggory dead? And Potter?
When she got to the front of the maze, she saw Pomona kneeling in the dirt, her hand on the shoulder of Amos Diggory, who was wailing as he clutched his son to him. From the way the boy's head rolled on his neck, Minerva knew that Severus had been correct. He was dead. She could hardly comprehend the enormity of it.
Albus stood between the Minister and Althea Diggory. Althea held herself stiffly, as if she could change the terrible events of the evening if only she didn't move. Minerva thought of Malcolm and was nearly staggered by the visceral agony of the association. She couldn't imagine what Althea felt at this moment.
Fudge said something Minerva didn't hear and that no one else acknowledged, and moved away from the scene, nodding at Dawlish and another Auror Minerva didn't recognise. They followed him out of the stadium.
Minerva went quietly up beside Albus and touched his arm.
He looked over at her, his face hollow with disbelief, which terrified her.
"Minerva," he whispered.
"Albus, what about Harry? Is he still in there?"
"No, he's . . . it was a Portkey, I think . . ."
"A Portkey?"
Minerva's presence seemed to bring him back to himself.
He gestured to her to move away so that Althea couldn't hear.
"He appeared outside the maze with Cedric's body. He's injured, in shock. It's happened, Minerva. Voldemort's back. Harry saw him."
Minerva barely processed the news of the Dark Lord's return. She was focussed entirely on Harry.
"Where is Harry?"
"Alastor took him." Albus's brow creased. "I don't know what he..."
"Oh, my gods, Albus . . ."
It had come to her with the power of an Avada Kedavra that Alastor wasn't Alastor. Later, she would wonder what had made her so certain, but in that moment she was as sure of it as she was of her own name.
Albus looked at her with an expression of puzzled consternation, then annoyance, as she struggled to find words to express the unthinkable.
"Alastor . . . we have to . . . Harry . . . he . . ."
Unable to form a coherent sentence, she clutched at Albus's sleeve.
"Alastor..."
Albus's eyes widened.
"Bloody hell," he said.
He turned and ran in long, loping strides down the pitch toward the exit. Minerva hitched up her skirt, unconcerned about how undignified it might appear, and ran after him.
Cornelius Fudge stood just outside the stadium exit, talking in hushed tones to the two Aurors, who were nodding gravely.
"Albus, where are you going? Wait . . . Minerva?" Fudge called after them as they streaked past him.
Neither Albus nor Minerva bothered to answer.
When they came through the main doors, Severus was there, striding purposefully towards them.
"They're not in the infirmary. Albus, I believe we have..."
"An imposter, yes. They may be in his office," Albus said. "Hurry."
Later, Minerva would marvel at the quickness of Severus's mind in following Alastor to the castle, but at the moment her thoughts were taken up entirely with finding Harry before it was too late. Questions about Alastor's fate tried to crowd in, but Minerva pushed them away. Harry was her first responsibility right now.
When they arrived at Alastor's office, Minerva didn't hesitate to draw her wand against the man she already thought of as the imposter, but Albus was faster, and Stunned him right through the heavy door.
Seeing Alastor's body inert on the floor...though it wasn't Alastor, of course...almost undid her.
I cannot do this.
There was a squeaking noise, and Minerva looked over at Harry, who was pale and shaking. There was blood on his shirt and trouser leg.
She went to him and tried to get him to stand, grateful for an excuse to get away from the scene before she lost control, but Albus stopped her, and his words about acceptance seemed aimed more at her than at Potter. But that may have been an illusion. Minerva was sure of very little during those surreal minutes in Alastor's office.
A moment later, when Albus dispatched her to find Sirius, she was confused. Albus would later tell her that when he'd realised Alastor might have been in the trunk for ten months, he'd thought the better of keeping her there until he knew more about Alastor's condition, which he was afraid might be very bad indeed.
The errand gave her time to think, and as she hurried back from the Headmaster's tower, she came to the same conclusion Albus had: the imposter had used Polyjuice, which meant that Alastor was most likely still alive. The hair from a corpse would not work, if she remembered her Potions lessons correctly. She hoped to all the gods that she did.
When she returned to Alastor's office, still anxious and distraught, the tale that issued forth from Barty Crouch made her ill, but her nausea was quickly overlaid with relief at his confirmation that Alastor was alive.
A quick darting of Albus's eyes toward the open trunk as he left her to guard Crouch told her what she was most desperate to know.
When Albus left her to stand guard, she kept her wand trained on Crouch, who sat quietly, arms and legs bound. All was silent, but for the steady weeping of the house-elf in the corner. After a moment, when it became clear that her charge wasn't going to move, Minerva backed a few steps toward the trunk and chanced a look inside.
There he was.
He wasn't moving. But Crouch had given every indication that he was still alive. Surely Albus wouldn't have left her here alone with Crouch if Alastor were dead, would he?
A glance back at Crouch told her that he was still quiescent.
"Alastor?" she called down into the trunk, hating how frightened and tentative she sounded.
"Alastor, please wake up."
He stirred.
"Alastor, it's Minerva."
"Minerva?"
His voice was thin and creaky, and the most beautiful sound she'd ever heard.
"Here I am, love," she said.
"Barty Crouch...the son..."
"Yes, we've got him. You're safe now."
"Potter?"
"He's fine."
Alastor smiled.
"Good lad," he said.
"Alastor?"
"Hmm?"
"Are you... are you all right?"
It was a stupid question, but he didn't seem to mind. He grinned like a man drunk.
"Never better." He lifted a hand to shield his eyes from the light and looked up at her. "Jaysus, but you're beautiful."
She let out a sound that was half laugh, half sob.
A moment later, his eyes closed and he seemed to fall back into a contented sleep, his snores reassuring her as to his well-being. She wanted more than anything to get into the trunk with him, take him in her arms, make sure that he was truly all right, but at that moment Poppy bustled in.
She wrinkled her nose on seeing Crouch.
"Where is Moody?" she asked. "Severus said he was here."
"He's in there." Minerva pointed to the trunk.
Poppy blanched, but went right to the trunk and climbed in.
Minerva resisted the urge to call down to her for a report on Alastor's condition, and less than five minutes later, Poppy re-emerged.
"How is he?" Minerva asked.
"He's weak. Been Stunned hard, among other things. His pulse is thready, and..."
When she saw Minerva's face, her mien softened. "He'll be all right, Minerva. He just needs a little care."
She bent over the trunk with her wand, saying, "Mobilicorpus," and Alastor's prone form, covered by one of Albus's brightly spangled cloaks, rose.
"Why is he unconscious?"
"I put him in a Stasis Sleep. He needs to stay calm, and being Levitated isn't pleasant. I'll wake him after I've had a proper look at him in the hospital wing."
"Thank you, Poppy." Minerva's voice caught, and Poppy patted her shoulder with her free hand.
"He'll be fine. He's a tough old bird."
Minerva gave her friend a watery smile.
Poppy spied Winky in the corner and put her free hand in her pocket to withdraw a small phial.
"Give this to the house-elf. It's Dreamless Sleep, a very small dose. Severus said she was distraught."
Minerva nodded, and Poppy guided Alastor's floating form from the room, her wand keeping him steady.
Minerva went over to Winky and knelt.
"Winky? I'd like you to drink this. It will help you sleep."
"Winky does not want to sleep. Winky wants to stay with Master Barty."
"I know, but there isn't anything you can do for him right now. When they . . . when they decide where to take him, you will be allowed to visit him. Professor Dumbledore will see to it."
Winky's enormous eyes, red and wet, met Minerva's. She took the phial and looked at it sceptically.
"Go on, dear. It's to help you."
Winky unstoppered it, but before she drank it, she said, "Professor McGonagall will make sure no one hurts Master Barty?"
"Yes."
Winky nodded solemnly, and tipped the contents of the phial into her mouth. A moment later, the phial dropped from her hand, and she slumped over, snoring.
Poor little thing.
Minerva turned her attention back to Crouch. She knew she shouldn't speak to him, but she couldn't help herself.
"I don't understand you."
He didn't respond.
"Your mother and father loved you so much. They were good people. How could you have turned to such wickedness?"
She was surprised when he spoke.
"I was born wicked."
He sounded empty. Still under the influence of the Veritaserum, then.
"No one is born wicked."
"I was."
"Why do you say that?"
"I liked killing. Even when I was a child."
Minerva was dumbfounded.
"You killed as a child?"
"Animals. You know . . . mice, birds . . . a few cats. Our Crup . . . Father strapped me when he found out what I was doing, so I learned to hide it. From then on, I played the good little son."
"But you knew it was wrong."
Barty shrugged.
"My father said so. I had no reason to disbelieve him."
"But you kept doing it."
"It felt good. And it impressed the boys at school."
"You told your schoolmates?"
"A select few. I needed protection. I was small. I was shy. I wet the bed. And my father's work made me unpopular in Slytherin. So I showed them what I could do. They enjoyed my creativity. And then one of them introduced me to the Dark Lord. He has such power . . . my father never dreamed . . ."
"That's what attracted you to him?"
He looked at her as if she were some exotic species of bird.
"Of course. And I am his favourite. He has promised to show me things . . ."
Minerva's attention was suddenly pulled from the horror of his words to the possibilities they offered.
"What things? Has he told you his plans?"
Crouch frowned. He was obviously aware, on some level, of what she was doing, and was trying to resist the potion's imperative.
Minerva's nerves were strung like a bow; if she played things right now, she might get information that could help them cut the coming war short.
Alastor's long-ago advice about getting the truth from a recalcitrant subject...or student...rang in her head:
Make him want to tell you.
"Barty, the Dark Lord has told you a great deal, hasn't he? Things he's told no one else, because he trusts only you."
The frown melted into a smile.
"He has favoured me."
"He shares secrets with you. About what he plans to do . . ."
"To scum. Muggles and mudbloods and blood-traitors." He looked at Minerva, and the smile grew into a leer. "Like you."
"What is he going to do?"
Confusion clouded Crouch's face.
"He... no . . ."
"He's going to punish blood-traitors like me and Dumbledore, isn't he? We're . . . we're scum, aren't we?"
"Yes . . . scum . . . He's going to punish you all."
"But we... we scum control the Ministry, the Wizengamot. How will he ever punish us without taking them over first?"
"He will . . . he . . . will . . . no . . ."
"No? You think he will fail?"
"No! He will do it . . . once he controls the Ministry . . ."
"The Ministry will be very hard to take. I don't think even the Dark Lord would be able..."
"He has supporters. Inside."
"Ohhh," she said, as if the idea were a revelation. "Supporters inside the Ministry. Like you."
"No . . . scum . . ."
"Former Death-Eaters? The ones who escaped . . ."
"Scum. They never cared for him."
"Not like you. Who are they, Barty? The scum your Master trusts with the Ministry?"
Minerva became aware of voices in the corridor, and Barty swayed a little.
Not now!
"Barty..."
A sudden sensation of blistering cold ran through her, and her mind fogged over. Dark images hovered just outside her conscious thoughts, and terrible sounds echoed faintly in her memory.
"I'll take him from school, and you'll never see him again . . . I'll take him . . . never see him again . . ."
The door opened, and a Dementor floated in, followed by Dawlish and the other Auror, their Patronuses urging the Dementor toward Crouch.
No! This must not happen!
Minerva summoned her happiest memories.
She was on the beach, watching Alastor and Malcolm wrestling and splashing one another in the gentle surf . . . Malcolm handing Rosemonde...so tiny!...to her to hold the first time . . .
When she turned her wand on the Dementor, Dawlish stepped in front of her.
"It's all right, Professor. We've got it."
"But..."
Cornelius Fudge's voice cut her off as he entered the room.
"Oh. Minerva. Yes. Well, no need for you to stay. We have this in hand."
He gestured to the Aurors, who withdrew their Patronuses. The Dementor swept down toward Crouch. He had gone white, and slid from the chair in which he'd been seated.
"Expecto Patronum!"
The silvery cat leapt from Minerva's wand. It drove the Dementor to a corner of the room where it hovered as the cat prowled back and forth, keeping it in check.
The Aurors looked from Minerva to Fudge, who frowned and made an impatient gesture at them.
Dawlish pointed his wand at Minerva's Patronus and Vanished it. The Dementor went immediately back to Crouch, who was now pressed against the wall.
"No, no, nooo! Please don't, please . . ."
"Cornelius, stop this!"
But Fudge said nothing, his mouth set in a grim line, and she watched as the Dementor bent to Crouch, lifted his chin in its skeletal hand, and pressed its mouth to his lips.
She wanted to turn away, but she forced herself to stand witness as their best chance for avoiding another war was destroyed.
The creature released him and hovered a foot or two away from the ruined husk of Bartemius Crouch Jr.
Moments before, Minerva had hated him with every molecule of her being, but her loathing had drained away along with his soul, replaced with horror at what had been done to him in the name of justice.
Alastor would have stopped it.
He'd never held with the Kiss. Five of the Dark wizards...and none of the Dark witches...he'd helped prosecute had received the ultimate penalty, all after fair trials, and he'd made it a point to watch every sentence carried out.
He'd come to her afterwards once, sick with anger.
"It's unimaginable, Minerva. We have no right. I don't care what he did. He took life, but we took his humanity. If we deprive a man of his soul, how are we any different from them?"
It had taken hours to soothe him, and now she understood why. She was shaking, and her mind was aflame as if from a curse she couldn't escape.
Dawlish raised his wand and cast his Patronus. The Dementor drew away from Crouch, kept at bay by the Auror's Peregrine falcon.
Crouch's eyes were empty, and a thick rope of saliva hung down from his open mouth.
Minerva turned on Fudge, her fury like a thing alive, and he took a step backward, clutching his hat by the brim against his chest as if to protect himself.
"It was for the best," he said. "You must recognise...
"I recognise that you have condemned a man without benefit of trial!"
"He confessed! Snape told me."
"That doesn't give you the right to steal a man's soul!"
"May I remind you that I am Minister for Magic? I have every right..."
"No, you do not! No one has that right. And if you tell yourself you do, you're just as wicked as he was, no matter what lies you tell yourself to the contrary."
Fudge's face reddened, and he glanced at the Aurors.
She turned on them. "And you! Doing whatever you're told, without question, brining that thing in here like a pet you can control. Dumbledore will have your guts for garters...all of you!...when he finds out."
Dawlish looked helplessly at Fudge. "Minister...
"Get it out of here," Fudge said through clenched teeth. Gesturing at Crouch, he added, "Him too."
A swish of Dawlish's wand sent his Patronus at the Dementor, and the falcon swept it out the door, Dawlish hurrying out behind it.
The other Auror went to where Crouch was slumped on the floor and Levitated him. He gave a cry of disgust when Crouch's bladder let go, splashing the Auror's shoes with urine.
Minerva raised her wand.
"Tergeo!"
Her spell cleaned and dried Crouch, and she put her wand back in its pocket, despite the pleading look from the Auror. When he realised she had no intention of drying his shoes for him, he guided the hovering form of Barty Crouch out the door.
Fudge tucked his hat under his arm and followed them out of the office without a word. Minerva was at his heels.
"Have you any idea what you've just done?" she asked.
"Get hold of yourself, Minerva," Fudge said, walking quickly without looking at her. "The terrible events of this evening have clearly overcome your good judgement."
"My good judgement? You have destroyed a man who might have given us valuable information!"
"Nonsense. What valuable information could a . . . a lunatic provide?"
"Information about You-Know-Who's return."
Fudge stopped and turned to her. His face resembled watery pot cheese.
"He has not returned."
"Potter says he has."
Fudge turned away and resumed his brisk pace down the corridor.
"Potter is lying."
"Dumbledore believes him."
"Dumbledore is mistaken!"
"When was the last time Dumbledore was mistaken about anything?"
"Your loyalty is commendable, Minerva, but you are blinded by your admiration. Dumbledore has been hoodwinked by an attention-seeking young man. There is nothing Crouch could have told us that we don't already know. He was a dangerous lunatic and has been rendered unable to harm anyone else."
He spoke as if giving a speech, and Minerva realised he'd already formulated a story in his mind. She wondered if he believed it.
"What was his crime?" she asked.
They were on the staircase now, and Fudge stopped again. His eyes narrowed at her.
"What do you mean?"
"You said that Crouch confessed. To what crime?"
"He . . . he impersonated Alastor Moody. False imprisonment . . ."
"And is it customary to subject a man to the Kiss for such things?"
"He was deranged. Dangerous. Diggory . . ."
"How did Cedric Diggory die?"
"I don't . . . that's . . ."
"Did Voldemort kill him?"
"Certainly not."
"Then did Crouch kill him?"
"We don't know. Possibly."
"Possibly." She shook her head in disgust. "And what were his other crimes?"
"I don't know what you mean."
"If I understand you correctly, you do not believe that Barty Crouch aided and abetted a Dark wizard because you do not believe that Dark wizard exists. Is that so?"
"Crouch was deluded."
"But you admit that you are unsure of how Cedric Diggory died and whether Crouch was directly responsible."
"I'm certain we will discover..."
"You absolutely refuse to consider the explanation that Potter gave and that Crouch himself confirmed under Veritaserum. You call him deluded, yet you accept his confession as regards the kidnapping and impersonation of Alastor Moody. Am I correct so far?"
"That isn't..."
"Ergo, you have condemned a deluded man, at your sole discretion and without having bothered to interview him yourself, to the worst and most permanent penalty the wizarding world has to apply...the first and only time it has been invoked for a non-lethal offence, if I am not mistaken. So, Minister, I am asking you why."
"I do not have to explain myself to a schoolteacher!"
He continued down the stairs, Minerva following relentlessly in his wake.
"No. But if I have anything to say about it, you will have to explain yourself to the Wizengamot and the wizarding world at large."
"They will support me once they hear the facts."
Fudge stuck his hat firmly on his head and descended the last of the stairs.
"Where are you going?" Minerva demanded.
"Back to the Ministry. I have other business to attend to."
"Not until you tell the Headmaster what you have done. Or are you afraid to face him?"
"I am not afraid of Albus Dumbledore!"
"Good. Then you won't mind talking to him. I expect he's in the hospital wing with the boy Crouch has spent the past year planning to kill for no reason, as you would have it."
Fudge sped toward the main door and almost ran into Severus Snape, who was coming through it.
"Minister," he said, putting a hand on Fudge's arm as if to steady him. "The Headmaster would like to see you."
"Escape foiled," Minerva said.
Snape looked from Fudge to Minerva, raising his eyebrows at the expression on her face.
Fudge looked out the door as if contemplating running for it.
He huffed in exasperation.
"Very well," he said, removing his bowler and smoothing his thinning hair. "Where is he?"
Severus said, "He was in the infirmary when I left him, however I am afraid I was detained in delivering the message. I believed you to be on the grounds, and when I went to find you, I encountered a problem with your Auror guard."
"A problem?" Fudge asked sharply.
"He was in some difficulty with the Dementor," Snape glanced again at Minerva. "He had been overcome, so I lent my aid."
"Was he...?" Fudge asked.
"Kissed? No, but he was rendered incapable of performing his duties. I enlisted Hagrid to carry him to the gates."
"And the Dementor?" Minerva asked.
"I believe I dispatched it, Deputy Headmistress, but it would be advisable to set a patrol over the grounds this evening. The creature was quite . . . energised."
"Yes. Thank you, Snape," Fudge mumbled, and continued on into the hospital corridor, Minerva close behind him.
The idea that the Dementor might have been left unchecked at the school launched her fury into incandescence.
"You have endangered everyone in this school with your cowardice!"
"My good woman..."
"I am not your good woman!"
Fudge pushed the doors to the infirmary open with a bang, and she followed him in, still shouting.
She knew she was making an undignified spectacle of herself, but at that moment she didn't care.
It was only after Albus had dispatched her to fetch Hagrid and Olympe...probably to keep her from chasing Fudge down and covering him with painful boils...that she realised Alastor hadn't been in the infirmary.
After a grave meeting in the Headmaster's office with a shell-shocked group that included Olympe, Severus, Hagrid, and the Weasleys, she raced down the stairs to the infirmary.
"Poppy!"
"Hush, Minerva," Poppy said, hurrying over. "Potter is sleeping."
"Where is Alastor?"
"In his quarters. After I woke him, he refused to stay. I took him myself...he's still very unsteady."
"Thank you."
Poppy caught her arm as she turned to go.
"Minerva, he's going to be fine, but I'd feel better if someone were looking after him for the next few days. Maybe you can convince him to let . . . someone stay with him."
"I'll try."
Five minutes later, she found herself outside his door, trying to work up the courage to knock.
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Oooooh, crap. Minerva has gone through far too many things, which it would really turn her into the strong woman she is. I am really enjoying how the story keeps surprising me. Thanks for this fic! :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I love doing backstory for interesting characters we only really glimpse in the books!Thanks so much for reading and reviewing!
I wasn't expecting the true Bathilda Bagshot too! Such a treat! :)
oooh! Nice start!I love Minerva's character and I am really looking forward reading a whole story centered on her :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks. I love Minerva, as you can see by the number of stories I've written about her!
Ah! The Kids' POV. It would have to be Hermoine--none of the others are observant or discreet enough. Yes, Hermione, even old fogeys can be in love, and real love doesn't mind flaws... It would be interesting for Molly and Hermoine to discuss Alastor and Minerva during cooking lessons sometime. What would the kids say if they knew that Miinerva's married name was MacNair?Speaking of that, will we get to see Malcom, or Minerva's grandkids? Malcolm is still one of my all-time favorite OC's.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, Hermione, of course. And I'm glad you picked up on the parallel between Molly and Hermione, and their observations of McGonagall/Moody. It would be an interesting conversation, all right!We may get a glimpse of Malcolm and his brood soon.Stay tuned. It won't be such a long wait as last time!
Oh my!!! <Happy dance!>. I am so thrilled to see this! I'll have to go back and re-read it all. I cheated and just re-read the end of the last chapter to remind myself where we are. It was interesting to see the meeting of the reconstituted OOtP, and to see the discussion about using Sirius' house as headquarters. I also liked the discussion re:Umbridge. I never thought Dumbledore or Minerva were completely oblivious to what Fudge was up to there, but Harry's POV always seemed to suggest that. I was glad to see that Alastor is still with Minerva, too.Now to chapter 42!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks for your patience, LOL!I had to go back and reread myself before I finished the chapter.No,I don't think the grownups are nearly as gormless as the kids seem to think they are. You know how teenagers are.
I had to look twice in my inbox when the notice came in that this piece had been updated. To say I was excited would be an understatement. I thought to go back and reread before reading this update, but didn't have the time, and it was interesting to see all the order members, as well as the kids, in this chapter. My favorite bit was when Alastor was gruffing about Tonks refusal to fly into the clouds, and the assumption that Moody would have them fly to Wales and back to throw off a tail.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Updated at last.Glad you enjoyed Alastor being Alastor!More soon, I hope.
I had to look twice in my inbox when the notice came in that this piece had been updated. To say I was excited would be an understatement. I thought to go back and reread before reading this update, but didn't have the time, and it was interesting to see all the order members, as well as the kids, in this chapter. My favorite bit was when Alastor was gruffing about Tonks refusal to fly into the clouds, and the assumption that Moody would have them fly to Wales and back to throw off a tail.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, believe it or not, I'm trying to finish this sucker. I had to go back and read before I wrote it!It was fun to write a bit of Tonks--someone I never wrote before.Hopefully, there will be more before too long.
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
I'm excited! I might go back and reread everything now that you're active again.
......worshipping every inch of her...Oh God, you made me cry. Love's plaint- keening softly after that break-up that hurts. god, haven't we tried it sometimes.. how well written, like a straight needle you don't see in the text, Oh why isn't forgiveness easier to get and give. Those two proud people. Why did Minervagive up on him.? Doesn't she know he loves her?
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Sorry to have made you cry ;-) I think Minerva's earlier experiences have made her leery of difficult relationships. We'll have to see how they end up!
This is gripping, fabulous. I agree, there shouild be many more reviews, I adored the quick knowledgeable vistas into student life in Paris - more of these, if possible.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Again, sorry to be so late in responding (am just catching up after a crushing work season!)Thanks for reading, and I'm glad you enjoyed the Paris scenes!
First off, thanks so much for the update! I've been in the mood for HP fanfiction lately, but if I (start to) read one more story that turns out to be focused on evil!Dumbledore I may swear off forever. It's quite depressing.This was up to your usual high standards. The look inside Alastor's head when he was trying to convince himself that it was really Minerva outside his door (and even after he let her in) was both believable and heart-breaking. If Minerva is determined to salvage their relationship she has some hard work ahead of her.I liked how Minerva didn't let Alastor chase her away, and how she subjected Albus to the same spells Alastor used on her -- and that Albus let her. I also liked that they convinced him to stay. He will be needed. I really liked Minerva's POV, how she tried to think only of helping Alastor, and making him comfortable. The last bit was good too.
“I don’t think there’s much I’d mind tonight.”It was perhaps a terrible thing to say, given everything that had transpired, but it was the truth. She’d think about the Dark Lord and Cedric Diggory and everything else tomorrow. Tonight, there was only the fact that Alastor still lived.Sometimes when things are bad, you have to focus only on the good things, or you just can't handle it. We know she's going to do her part (and if you continue this through DH she has a very rough patch coming) so it's good to see her at least get a good nights sleep.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks.It was time to give Minerva and Alastor a bit of a break from the angst. They've been through a lot!Glad you enjoyed it.
You have outdone yourself. Again. I always enjoy seeing canon events from another POV, and I always enjoy Minerva's, but this is special, even so.First though, I loved seeing that Alastor still had some fight left, even after everything he's been through, and the glimpse we get here is just horrifying. But I was also very glad to learn that he's realized how much he screwed up with Minerva, and is even willing to admit it. I hope he stays willing...Minerva's thoughts about Harry were great. No, she probably wouldn't admit she favored him, and no, logical thinking really isn't his strong suite. I thought your description of Dumbledore in shock was probably quite accurate too. He had to have taken some time to assimilate everything, he's only human, after all. I was a little surprised to see how quick Severus was on the uptake, but then I realized that he knew something was up even before Harry returned -- he felt the mark burn when Voldemort called the Deatheaters from the graveyard, after all.I loved seeing Minerva's version of the Kiss, and her rant at Fudge was absolutely awesome.Then there's this:
"Alastor, it's Minerva.""Minerva?"His voice was thin and creaky, and the most beautiful sound she'd ever heard."Here I am, love," she said...."Alastor?""Hmm?""Are you-- are you all right?"It was a stupid question, but he didn't seem to mind. He grinned like a man drunk."Never better." He lifted a hand to shield his eyes from the light and looked up at her. "Jaysus, but you're beautiful."She let out a sound that was half laugh, half sob.Awwwww.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks for the lovely comments.Glad you caught the bit about Severus. I think some people were confused by that!Best,Squibstress
So tickled to see this updated! I'm also quite thankful that Barty hasn't caught on that Minerva and Alastor had a thing together. Thank goodness for small favors, eh? He could really destroy her if he did. Oh dear, I hope I haven't given you any ideas ...
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I'm really trying to get moving on this story.Ideas... ideas...
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
I also like how you contrasted real Alastor with impostor Alastor - aka Barty ... its quite a difference but similar enough to fool even some of his closest friends.I think I would like to see some of what our dear Alastor is thinking down in that trunk, but of course I am not trying to persuade you or anything.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I'm so glad that worked for you, because it was a connundrum. In canon, JKR made Crouch sound so much like Moody that of course, no one twigged to the difference. I didn't want to do that, but there was a fine line between making him too much and too little like the real Alastor.Have you read Selmak's "The Steadfast Tin Soldier"? (It's on FFN.) She did a fabulous (and disturbing) job of imaginging what it would have been like for him in that trunk.(And it's a lovely bit of AM/MM.)
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
Well then ... I suppose I'll just have to do that. In addition, as you probably already know, White Eyebrow also did a great job with his Moody in the trunk bit ... Alastor has been on my mind quite a lot these past few weeks ... with the new knowledge that I have of the surname ... who would have ever thought. All the more reason to love Alastor.
*groans* And again ... I forgot ... Well ... misclicked.
Oh ... forgot to hit the button for notification if you respond ...
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I do that all the time.I also forget where I've left my car keys, my car, my glasses...
Well ... the last line surely took me by surprise ... way to advance time by leaps and bounds!Its been awhile since I've delved into your work, and Slant in particular ... I had to reread a few things and still others have me scratching my head .... "Frogs?" ... but anyway ... Alastor's stubborn idiocy is quite perfect really ... well parallelled to Albus' inability to allow himself to be loved ... seems they have both fallen - or dove - into that fortress of solitude.Your work is amazing, as always.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Tee, hee.Yeah, now that the business between Albus and Malcolm has been dealt with, I thought I should get start getting on with Minerva and Alastor."Frog" is a somewhat pejorative term for French person. (Alastor is not overly fond of the French.)Poor Minerva. The men in her life are somewhat foolish about love, aren't they?Thanks for sticking with the story, despite my eratic updates.
Woohoo! An update!I was happy to see Malcom and Eliane's marriage, and that the revelations about the past haven't hurt his relationship with his mother -- or his fathers. Minerva certainly seemed more relaxed than we've seen her in a while. The last sentence was a bit startling. It was good to see that Malcom will make her a grandmother, but I do hope that we see her again before then!I was sorry, but not surprised, to see Alastor continue his downward slide into paranoia. Since this is adhering to book canon (my least favorite thing about the story), his relationship with Minerva has to be distant enough for her to not suspect Crouch when the time comes, and any reconciliation between them would negate that.I'm not sure what to think about Albus. If he is unable to love, it appears to me to be because he has chosen to harden himself (with his 'iron will'), rather than it being his natural state. It's as though he fears love, or maybe what he might be capable of doing for love? In his thoughts he seemed almost relieved that he didn't feel like a father to Malcom. His reaction to the wedding was surprising, to say the least. It certainly didn't seem as though there was any happiness or joy in his tryst with Malquin, nor did it seem as though either of them expected there to be, so I have to wonder exactly what he was seeking -- a form of oblivion or denial, perhaps? I do wonder what might break through his facade (and I do think it is a facade, but then I've always liked Dumbledore, flaws and all). Anyway, it was great to be able to read this, and I hope you will be able to update again soon!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks for reading and reviewing.Sorry about the canon-compliance--it's just ingrained in me, I think--but there may be some more surprises.Whenever I write Albus I always have to confront what I see as the complications canon throws in my way. I love him, but he does some really awful things to people he supposedly cares for, so I suppose these fics are my way of trying to work that out. In this fic, whether or not he's actually capable of love is up to the reader.Sorry too about the long interval. RL has thrown me a few curves, but I hope to get back to a more regular pattern of updates.Thanks for sticking with the story.
Response from dsky (Reviewer)
RL has a way of doing that.I am usually fairly rigid about canon myself. No matter how much I like a story, there's a little voice in the back of my head whispering 'but, but, but... that's not what/how it happened'. With HP though, there are so many conflicts, between the books, and interviews, and quasi-official websites, and Pottermore, that the only way to shut the voice up was to decide that only what's printed in PS/SS thru DH is canon. But it is all out there, and I can't un-know it, so I eventually decided, OK, if there are that many versions of the truth, I'll just pick the one(s!) I like best! (Everyone else does.) It lets me enjoy the RAMverse too, so that's all good.As far as Dumbledore is concerned, a lot of the negative things we learned were slanted through Rita Skeeter's pen, or his brother, or other people who didn't like him. He asked people to do a lot, but we're only privy to a miniscule part of whatever conversations went on, and he was the only general in a war with the future of the entire world at stake. He willingly died for it. People seem willing to give Snape a lot bigger break than they give Dumbledore, maybe because Snape turned out to be better than they thought (or maybe because Alan Rickman is so fantastic).I admit to only having read DH twice, and both of those a long time ago, so there may be some details I've forgotten, but I'm quite happy without them. I do love the universe though, especially the adults, and especially as expanded upon by FF writers. I can only take the kids in small doses, though. I do thank you for hours of entertainment, and your take on the characters and the universe is always entertaining.
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The door to Minerva's quarters banged open, and she swept through, dropping her bag on the table as she made a beeline for the liquor cabinet to pour herself two fingers of Cardhu. But she couldn't enjoy it; she was still too angry. She'd kept her temper in check all afternoon, but now it threatened to erupt full force and needed an outlet. She yanked her wand out of its pocket to point it at one of the cushions on her settee. It exploded in a riot of feathers, their indolent fluttering only stoking Minerva's ire. She Transfigured them into needles that hovered in the air, and imagined them pricking Sirius bloody Black until he screamed. Her fury was stemmed by the image but not scotched.I can go one better. She Transfigured the crimson velvet of the other cushion into a reasonable approximation of Black's too-handsome face, then sent the needles hurtling through the air to embed themselves in the cushion-cum-portrait. Black's fuzzy smirk changed to a silent scream of horror. The effort involved in the magic she'd just performed served its purpose, and she felt calm enough to have her drink.
*snip*
Holy CRAP! *dashes out of the room to avoid Minerva Wrath!*
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
I think you have painted Black and Potter EXACTLY how I saw them from the books ... EXACTLY! I can so relate to Minerva's anger now .... those MORONS!
OH and ...
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"Everything all right, lamb?" He looked up from contemplating his dish. "Sure. Why?" "You didn't eat much dinner, and now you've barely touched your cream-crowdie. When you've lost your sweet tooth, I know something's wrong."
*snip*
*grins* Daddy's boy, eh? I love eeet!
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
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"Oh, Malcolm—" "How could he have no idea that you might end up pregnant if he slept with you? Was he a complete fool, or just a randy bastard?" "Don't you dare!" she shouted, and Malcolm recoiled as if he'd been slapped. "Mum—" "No, you have no right to judge him! I lied to him, and I used him, used our friendship. And he forgave me, even though I believe it nearly killed him to find that he had a son he couldn't raise. He wasn't— Malcolm?" He had taken two staggering steps backward and clapped a hand over his mouth.
*snip*
See there - see that right there? See this is why you are brilliant. You showed us HOW Malcolm figured it out ... you show us how brilliant Malcolm is ... see, you could have just said it, but how dull that would be, but you SHOW us ... Malcolm figures out who his father is BY his mother's reaction! Who is she loyal to a fault to ... who is she absolutely devoted to, without being in a romantic relationship? Yeah ... brilliant.
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
*snip*
"Malcolm, wait, please." Her tone stopped him. "What?" "Come sit down. I have something else to tell you."
*snip*
ARG! The only thing I can think of is ... um the rat incident ... but ARG! Cliffhangers are not KIND!
Response from Fishy (Reviewer)
*taps foot* If I am going to submit these silly reviews, I bloody well expect you to at least read them! *snort*
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
My first response was "????" But then I saw that you submitted the review in July. Don't know why I didn't see them then, but a million apologies!I can't take total credit for the Marauders; the incident I alluded to was something JKR wrote as a fundraiser. (But Minerva's reaction is all my own, LOL!)Yes, I think Malcolm is pretty clever, like his parents.Thanks for the kind words!
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Malcolm didn't say anything, and Alastor prodded him. "Answer my question. Do you want kids?"
"What I want or don't want doesn't come into it. I can't have children."
*snip*
Now that sounds just like someone else we both know ... perfect really, Malcolm does seem to resemble his father more than his mother, the way you wrote him, and ironically, he doesn't even know his father yet.
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He didn't see. He didn't see at all, and that was fine by Alastor. It was better that way. Better Malcolm should think it was animosity rather than fear. He and Minerva didn't need to be lumbered with a useless old cripple who was prone to hearing things that weren't there. They both had better things to do.
Malcolm said, "She only wants to help. She cares about you."
"Don't need her help."
It sounded harsh and ungrateful, and it was. He was suddenly angry, and he couldn't be grateful that a woman who once loved him now felt sorry enough for him to spend her precious summer days caring for the gimp he'd become.
*snip*
Pride is a terrible emotion that does nothing but isolate us from those that care about us as well as cause us to put ourselves on pedestals, and we all know there is only one way down from a pedestal.
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She had a word—several words—and by the time she finished, all traces of Spleen's smile had evaporated, and he was stammering apologies and nodding his head in vigorous agreement when she told him that she expected to hear that Senior Auror Alastor Moody had received nothing but the most respectful and compassionate treatment, lest Spleen find himself answering to her, to Malcolm, and to Albus Dumbledore, Auror Moody's dear friend.
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I like this bit ... Minerva couldn't just say 'my family' but that's what she means ... which again causes me to wonder ... now that Malcolm knows - well in the next chappie anyway ... will he change his name ... I wouldn't think to Dumbledore or Albus would probably have a cow, but to McGonagall, I'd think that would be appropriate.
Spleen reminds me of a nurse I had when I busted my head open as a kid. He was so nasty to me. You do a very good job of making him absolutely awful. I so hate false concern and congeniality.
And I can see Alastor being a royal pain of a patient. *nods* I think that fits. No cooperation on his part what so ever. Much as I love him, I think I'd have to smack him here.
Did I mention that your work was brilliant? OH I did? OK well never mind then *whistles*
Shit. You are an evil, evil woman. I hate cliffhangers.
Malcolm took it much better than I thought he would, but then, in a way, he's been facing the same choice, so he should understand. And he's thoughtful, and intelligent, and... did I mention that I like Malcolm? I hope he takes the next bit half as well.
When she didn't respond, he continued. "How many mad Macnairs do you think I'd father? One? Two? How many is too many?"
There was a roaring in her ears, and her belly attempted to turn over.
Not now.
Somehow, she'd convinced herself that Malcolm wouldn't see things the way she had done as a young woman faced with the same dilemma. That worry had been packed away with the last of her wedding silver and Gerald's clothes when she'd fled the horrors of her marriage for the promise of new freedom in her native land. She realised now that her unwillingness to admit the seriousness of Malcolm's feelings for Eliane Giroux had perhaps been another way of avoiding the issue.
Well said. It's frightening sometimes, how easy it can be to convince ourselves that what we want to be true, is true, and it takes a major setback for us to re-examine our beliefs.
A familiar anger gripped her, and she crossed her arms tightly around her body. What did her son--or any of her students--know of difficult choices? They, who had been born into a post-Grindelwald world, with freedoms they enjoyed without understanding how much it had cost. And now there was another war because of it, because so many people failed to understand that, yes, constant vigilance was required to keep those hard-won freedoms for everyone, witch and wizard, pure-blood and Muggle-born.
Well said again, and true about so many things.
"How could he have no idea that you might end up pregnant if he slept with you? Was he a complete fool, or just a randy bastard?"
"Don't you dare!" she shouted, and Malcolm recoiled as if he'd been slapped.
"Mum--
"No, you have no right to judge him! I lied to him, and I used him, used our friendship. And he forgave me, even though I believe it nearly killed him to find that he had a son he couldn't raise. He wasn't-- Malcolm?"
He had taken two staggering steps backward and clapped a hand over his mouth.
I loved this. How quickly she rose to Albus' defense, and how quickly Malcolm figured out who it was when she did.
I liked the bit at the beginning too -- about how immature James and Sirius were, and how she channeled her anger. I always thought the Marauders went from prats to saints a little too quickly. At least here you show that it took a little time.
Well done once again. I've been anticipating this chapter since almost the beginning of the story, and I was not disappointed. I think I could have quoted the whole thing. I love Minerva and Malcolm together, and I liked seeing things from Minerva's POV. I am eagerly awaiting the next installment!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I truly didn't intend for this to be a cliffie, but the chapter was getting long.I think it helped that Minerva's news meant Malcolm could follow his heart. I'm glad this chapter met expectations. I've been thinking about it since I first conceived this story (pun intended), although I didn't think it would take me quite so long to get here!The opening bit about James and Sirius was inspired by a 500-word story JKR wrote to benefit EnglishPEN, so I used it for my nefarious purposes. I think they were abominably immature and cocky, which I can only imagine drove Minerva to drink, LOL!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
I truly didn't intend for this to be a cliffie, but the chapter was getting long.I think it helped that Minerva's news meant Malcolm could follow his heart. I'm glad this chapter met expectations. I've been thinking about it since I first conceived this story (pun intended), although I didn't think it would take me quite so long to get here!The opening bit about James and Sirius was inspired by a 500-word story JKR wrote to benefit EnglishPEN, so I used it for my nefarious purposes. I think they were abominably immature and cocky, which I can only imagine drove Minerva to drink, LOL!
Whew! Alastor just can't catch a break, can he? This section:
There was no such diffidence with this one. Alastor was being pulled forcefully in a direction he was sure he didn't care to go.There was no air, and it was fast becoming a question of who'd pass out first.
I'm god damned if it'll be me.
His consciousness was funnelling away. Alastor marshalled his last bit of magical energy and concentrated on a single stone in the floor of the Ministry cell--the one with the scorch mark where a supposedly Petrified collar had surprised him by firing a wordless curse--just that stone and nothing else.
There was a burst of light, and his chest expanded. At the same moment, his back hit something hard enough that if he'd had any air left in his lungs, it would have been knocked out of him. Something warm and wet was on top of him, and when he opened his eyes, he saw the Death Eater's eyes only millimetres from his. They were lifeless and staring.
is just outstanding. I really feel and see the whole sequence.
I loved seeing Malcolm again, all grown up and still with Eliane. I loved that he stepped up and became the 'adult' to comfort Minerva when she needed it. I had wondered about his reaction to the breakup, Alastor really was more a father to him than anyone else. (She obviously hasn't told him Albus is his father. Not that I'm surprised by that.) I'd guess Minerva told Malcolm about the break-up the way she did because she didn't know what else to say -- they broke up in September, and she just wrote a short note at the end of a letter in October? It was probably as hard for her to write it as it was for him to read it. And three years on, clearly she still loves Alastor, but I don't think either of them could change enough to make it work between them long-term.
As much as I love Malcolm, I always get a sense of foreboding when he is around, probably because I'm afraid you're going to up the ante on the angst, and he's Minerva's real weakness. He's also probably my favorite OC in any story I've read. He's just so real, and you've done a wonderful job of getting inside his head as he's grown-up, giving him age-appropriate reactions and thoughts. That and he seems like a thoroughly decent guy.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yeah, this is sort of the "abuse Alastor" section of the story.I'm so glad you enjoy Malcolm! He is Minerva's greatest weakness, as you say, and they do have some unfinished business, so there will be a bit more of him.
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yeah, this is sort of the "abuse Alastor" section of the story.I'm so glad you enjoy Malcolm! He is Minerva's greatest weakness, as you say, and they do have some unfinished business, so there will be a bit more of him.
I adore this version of Alastor so much that it really hurts to see him becoming a lonely, suspicious drunk. Which is probably a compliment to your writing, but it still makes me sad!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks. I love Alastor too. We always hurt the one we love. At least, writers do. I strongly suspect we're all secret sadists.Thanks for reading and commenting!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Thanks. I love Alastor too. We always hurt the one we love. At least, writers do. I strongly suspect we're all secret sadists.Thanks for reading and commenting!
An update! An update! [Happy Dance]
Oh, how sad! She's keeping things from him to avoid the arguments, and he's setting tests for her to make her prove she cares, and lashing out to get some reaction, and after Gerald she doesn't have it in her to sustain that kind of relationship, and it's all going downhill, and they're just making each other unhappy -- and it's just too, too, sad.
She found she didn't really want to know, and it shamed her.And
Despite the water she'd just had, her mouth was dry again, and the creeping sensation of guilt picked at her chest.
And
She said, "I'm sorry. I didn't want you to worry. I was--
And
"And you didn't trust me?"
"Should I?"
Minerva has enough guilt over Malcom's conception and what she did to Gerald. She doesn't need manufactured guilt because she's trying to avoid conflict with Alastor because he can't accept her choices. He's right too, about how very, very dangerous it is, but he's handling it all wrong, and he's so close to the edge psychologically that after dealing with Gerald and his father, she can't handle it in Alastor too, but she's the only thing keeping him grounded, tenuous as it is... It's hard to see him spiraling out of control. Thank goodness for Kingsley.
As always, you make me empathize with everyone. I wonder how well Minerva is handling it?
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, finally an update! I was sorry to do it with such a morose chapter, but them's the breaks.Yes, it's a guilt-and-misunderstanding fest all around.Thanks for reviewing!
Response from Squibstress (Author of A Slant-Told Tale)
Yes, finally an update! I was sorry to do it with such a morose chapter, but them's the breaks.Yes, it's a guilt-and-misunderstanding fest all around.Thanks for reviewing!
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