Creeping Like A Lizard
Chapter 17 of 20
cabepfirIn which Hermione returns to work, has a chat with Mrs. Neill, and reads an excerpt from Severus' new novel. With an illustration by the author.
A poetic genius is something I don't see
Why would a genius be trippin' on me
And he's looking at me now
But what he can't see
Is that I'm looking through his eyes
So many lies behind his eyes
And tell me stories from your past
Sing me songs you wrote before
I tell you this my poison prince
You'll soon be knockin' on heaven's door
~ Amy MacDonald, Poison Prince
The night swept away the storm, but left back the heat. When morning came, the day was exceptionally hot, the sky was a light cobalt blue and the sun was brightly shining; one reason more to hate the fact that it was Monday and that she had to leave the Yew House to resume working.
While Hermione fastened back her unruly frizz with a hairgrip to let a breath of air touch her nape, Severus was buttoning his cuffs, despite the evident sultriness. Seated on the bed, she glanced at him from the bottom upwards for a while before deciding to speak.
"You can wear short sleeves also outside, you know."
He spun around, glared at her, then returned his look to his cuffs.
"I'm overjoyed by your promptness in offering unsolicited directions, Hermione. Please, help me to remember... what did I venture to say only two days ago?"
She got up, walked next to him and cupped her hands round his face. Forcing him to stare directly into her eyes, she repeated slowly, "You can wear short sleeves."
Sighing, he pulled her hands gently away from his face as he replied, "I did, when I was in Portugal, and people complimented me for wearing such a cool tattoo. Do you find it preferable?"
She smiled. "It's good to hear that you did. Next time, perhaps... you can tell them it was a terrible Dark wizard's curse, or that... it's just a congress of your moles. Harry's scar turned darker after Voldemort's death, too, you know."
He snorted. "The Dark Lord was always fair in his rewards."
After lunch, supplied with a couple of his Moleskine notebooks, Snape followed her to the Brontë library. He took a seat in the reading room while Hermione slipped into the archives.
The two hours she devoted to the fifth and last tome of The Twelve Patriarkes were the longest time she stood separated from Severus in the last three days, after sixty-five hours spent together.
It felt a painful cut, like a breath jammed in her lungs, unbreathed. Still, she sensed his presence on the other side of the wall, beyond two rows of overburdened bookcases, beyond covers and jackets and paper and threads and bindings and leather and ink. Beyond their work, he was waiting for her.
To thread the needle with him looked so natural, in the end, to feel almost obvious. It happened with the inevitability of things that were meant to happen.
As she left the archives and crossed the reading room for her duty at the collection desk, Hermione was only too acutely aware of him sitting at his usual table, in the third row from the desk. For the first time, he sat facing the desk, and even if he didn't lift his head, she could feel his eyes surreptitiously following her from the archives' door up to her chair. Once she sat down, their eyes met and locked, and for the rest of the afternoon they just gazed at each other, eight metres distant, oblivious of other visitors surrounding them. Edwardian Bookbinding Practices lay unopened in her lap.
"So? What do you want to do this evening?"
"I'm sorry, but I have to go home this night, Severus. I haven't studied anything for three days, and I must study tomorrow morning."
"As you wish."
"Do you realise this? The selection is in a month, or rather less than a month! Only twenty-nine days, and I don't know anything!"
Severus chuckled.
"It's true! I'm not adequately prepared yet. And you distract me."
Severus laughed openly.
Too soon, Haworth Road appeared in front of them, with its two lines of anonymous, photocopied buildings. He bid her goodnight in the little walk that led to the door of number 51.
When she raised her head for the very last kiss (out of a series), Hermione finally got a glimpse of the light coming from Mrs. Neill's open window and of the very same Mrs. Neill overlooking at them from the said window, arms crossed on her breast.
Severus noticed her, too. "Mrs. Neill," he greeted her with a gracious bow of his head. "Good evening. As you may see, I have not trespassed your threshold, neither is it my intention to bring my ill repute into your abode. However, let me express my high regard for you. I had already the unparalleled delight of meeting you once, but I didn't know then that you possessed such great powers. I must now acknowledge that they vie with those of Mother Shipton. You are a Seer, Mrs. Neill, and had I the chance, I would like to introduce you to the other great Seer of our century, Professor Sybil Trelawney."
Mrs. Neill drew the curtains.
"That was amazing! Amazing!" cried Hermione, seizing him by the front of his shirt and planting a kiss soundly on his lips. "Twenty points to Slytherin!"
"Only twenty?"
When Hermione entered the house, Mrs. Neill was sitting in the dining room, wrapped up in her fluffy pink bathrobe, a weary expression aging her features. Her mouth twitched as she watched Hermione passing in the corridor.
"One word, Hermione."
Hermione stopped in the doorframe, trying to assume the most neutral expression she could master despite her flush.
"You probably think I'm an old meddler, poking my nose where I shouldn't," Mrs. Neill said with a tired voice, "but I'm sincerely concerned about you. You could be my daughter, and that aside, you have been living under my roof for almost three months now. You've been a nearly perfect tenant, all things considered, and it's obvious that I care for you.
"I'm a nurse, and I see all kinds of people around. All kinds. And as much as you'd rather ignore relatives, patients, doctors and colleagues alike, you cannot help but observe the way they behave. And you understand many things.
"I've also my experience with men. Well, my divorce wasn't an easy one, so you can maybe blame it for my caution, but in any case I've learnt a lot, to my cost.
"This man you're going out with... He gives an idea of being untrustworthy. Shady. You probably think he's funny, considering those incomprehensible theatricals he put on to mock me. But I'd say it's a parade to fool you as well. I don't know, but I have this impression that there's something dangerous tailing him. He looks suspicious, probably... even evil."
Hermione took a deep breath. "Evil is a strong word, Mrs. Neill," she stated calmly. "But otherwise you are absolutely right. He is indeed as disreputable as you declare."
Mrs. Neill sighed. "Hermione, Hermione. You are still young, and thus you're easily tricked in believing that a dubious halo constitutes a fascinating appeal in men. But please, listen to me: things don't work like that. Blackness is only blackness, in the end; it never turns out as interesting as you supposed. Look for a good man, instead, not for some unrespectable allure that is even blinding you in believing that... that man of yours is attractive."
"Oh, but I don't contend it: I think he's horrid. He is ugly, nasty, disagreeable, and I'm not even talking about his flaws." Hermione pressed her index finger on her lips, musing. "In fact, Mrs. Neill, you are not so far from truth. Let me tell you more about him. In his youth, he joined a terrorist group."
"Oh, God. IRA?" cried Mrs. Neill, bringing a hand over her mouth.
"Then he was recruited by the Intelligence, and worked for them for twenty years. His teacher job was but a cover."
"Oh, dear Lord. An agent of MI6," Mrs. Neill said in a thready whisper.
"No, of Mossad," replied Hermione impassively. "And it's as bad as it seems. Let me destroy the myth that the service is something glamorous. Theirs is a filthy, ruthless job that can be performed only by stonehearted people. In truth, there are few offences he stopped short of committing. If it wasn't for his license to kill, he would be judged a criminal."
"Are you making it up, Hermione?"
"Oh, no. Why would I slander him?" He only saved my life some two or twelve times.
Mrs. Neill gaped at her for a couple of minutes, then murmured, "Do you think this relationship is wise, Hermione?"
"I definitely don't," she agreed.
"Then why are you pursuing it?"
"Maybe I gave myself to the irrational," she replied, and went off.
She could remember his lessons about obsessions, and hadn't she put them into practice? She had welcomed the absurd, without resisting it, and it had proved the best solution. She had plunged into that unreal sensation in Jorvik and she had abandoned herself to it after the night spent in the library's hall. She surrendered to the notion that she missed him when he wasn't there, as she was missing him in that moment, in her rented bedroom. The abnormal, for once, had turned out pleasing and good and right. That she had included him in her was right incontrovertible. That he stood with her was right undeniable, at least for the present. The time they had shared couldn't be taken away from her memory (no, no, please, no more Obliviate, I don't want to hear about that spell again), no matter what might happen next. To what they were doing there were no objections, no oppositions in her mind. The path was clear.
It was the third week of August, and students and scholars alike were returning to their studies. When, for the first time, she wouldn't mind being left alone in the library with Severus, visitors finally flowed in and remained there till ten o' clock.
Defying Mrs. Neill's disdain, Severus came every day to her home shortly before three, and they walked together to the library. Once there, they pretended not to know each other. During their strolls to and from the library, they started talking about Creeping Like a Lizard, discussing its plot and characters. Hermione was finally introduced to the character she had apparently helped to shape: Magdalene Stone, lady-in-waiting of Henry VII's wife.
The plot of Creeping Like a Lizard went as follows:
Jacob Norton, better known as Funnel, returned to England from Burgundy with a plan to kill Henry VII on Margaret of York's (Richard III's sister) behalf. The spy frequented Tudor's court and studied the situation for a while. When everything was ready for the blow to strike, Funnel laid an ambush for the King. To his surprise, he was not to lead an attack, but to witness one instead. As he waited in the shadow, a masked man assaulted the King and disappeared faster than the blink of an eye. In his moment of bewilderment, guards arrived, and Funnel was caught fleeing from the crime scene. He was imprisoned for the King's murder. News reached him in prison that the murdered man was not the King, as he thought, but his double. Funnel had no idea who this double was, and nobody seemed to care. He was still considered guilty of the murder, in any case, with the aggravating circumstance that everybody believed he was aiming at the King himself.
Who was the dead double? Who had killed him? How was Funnel going to escape from the Tower?
A young woman came to visit him in prison...
"Now, isn't this a bit of a cliché?" commented Hermione.
Magdalene Stone, one of the Queen's ladies-in-waiting, came repeatedly to visit him. Somehow (bribery? Through the Queen's intervention? This part had yet to be properly resolved) Magdalene helped Funnel to get out of prison. But he was still on the run and had to hide. Magdalene became his only contact within the court. She brought him news and investigated for him. Together, they tried to solve the case of the murdered double.
"And? Do they solve it?"
"Do you want to know the end?"
"Sure. How can I judge the novel's balance otherwise?"
"What, you proclaimed yourself editor-in-chief number two?"
"Number one, please. And yes, I already know how you are going to call me."
"In the end, they all die. Horribly."
She laughed, and Severus asked her, "How would you end it?"
"Mmh, let me see. The double was an ordinary man who had just happened to walk along the same path as the King. He was killed by a creditor because of his debts. The murder has, in the end, no connection whatsoever with a plot against the King. No great conspiracy behind; all very casual."
"An interesting try, and quite close, actually."
"Sweet! Have I won the right to know what happens to Magdalene, at least?"
"She's accused of witchcraft."
"Seriously?"
"What do you think?"
"It may work."
"It's Funnel's turn to help her escape, this time, and they end up both on the run," Severus went on. "And this leaves room for the fourth book, in which Funnel will again plot against Henry VII."
"But he can't kill him, can he? Or do you plan to deviate toward alternative history?"
"No, he won't kill the King. But there will be trouble brewing."
Lamenting that 'she would read it anyway, sooner or later,' Severus handed her the notebooks with the first draft of Creeping Like a Lizard. The handwriting was so cramped and small to be almost unreadable. When it was written with a pencil, the text was barely visible, and when it was written with a pen, the ink had blotted the other side of the thin paper as well.
"I'm glad I studied Ancient Runes and Palaeography, in addition to being used to your hieroglyphics," she told him in accepting the notebooks.
"That's what second-hand editors get in volunteering," he said softly, arching his eyebrows.
"First-rate editors, please."
After Monday, when she wasn't busy with visitors' requests, Hermione spent her time at the desk reading, while he sat bent at his table, writing.
The fabric of her dress is not made to scrape against the filthy floor of my cell. Still, a part of me rejoices in watching the ruin of something paid with Tudor's money.
"There is nothing beyond death, Stone," I say, trying the words sounding empty futile as I utter them.
"This cannot be," she replies. "The fulfilment of our life will be when we will be rejoining God in his heaven."
If I were to tell her that neither God nor heaven exist, would she cry? Run away?
"Maybe for you," I snarl. "You are the one for which paradise can be imagined Funnel can't say something like this
"We find our own hell or heaven on earth, lass." God, how young she is.
"On earth we simply found the basis of what we'll receive in heaven."
I avoid pointing her that my basis are quite shaky. Instead, I tell her, "This is the way you console the Queen? The honeyed words of women, necessary to sustain a life which they haven't chosen?"
"Console her of what?"
"Don't be so dumb daft, Stone. Everybody knows she was in love with her uncle, and now she's obliged to shag the man who had him killed." *
"And you tried to kill him."
"That's what you think? Then why are you here?" I wanted to sound harsh, but in the end my voice is only weary.
* I expected her to squirm. Instead, she just looks firmly into my eyes, and I pretend to scowl and to not observe the fullness shape of her lips.
"And you tried to kill him."
"Then why are you here?"
"Because because I wanted the King dead, too."
I should be surprised, but I'm not, that a girl so young harbours such feelings of disdain hatred. I'm more surprised to see her expression frightened by what she has just finished to say. No, teach not thy lip such scorn; for it was made for kissing, lady, not for such contempt. No, I can't really quote the whole damn play here
Hers can be only a trick, of course. Who is behind her? Whom she reports to? She could be anybody's spy, just trying to make me speak. Never can I wear my heart on my sleeve. I have, once more, to lie. Lie with her, on her, what you will. To my dismay, I have to admit that it's not completely brainless the one who sent this little dove to me.
"What? With your own hands?" I sneer. They are made to stroke, not to strik (Now STOP!) "What reward would you get in the heavens, then? Let murder to the soulless ones, and go back to embroider with your Queen."
Wait. What if it is the Queen who wants the King dead?
And if this child works for the Queen, aren't we on the same side?
But this can be a trap. As the rest. Her true master can be anyone but the Queen.
And what if the Queen actually fell in love with that repulsive sly fox of hers?
Magdalene stares at me as if she was refraining from confiding me a painful secret, in fear that I wouldn't understand. But I understand she is here because she's guilty, because a sinner always seeks the non-judgmental company of another sinner.
"I stitched the doublet worn by the false King," she whispers eventually.
"This Magdalene is nowhere like me," said Hermione.
"Perhaps she is a fictional character invented independently from you."
"Then what kind of information did I provide you?"
Severus stared at her as if she had suddenly turned into a dunderhead, then replied slowly, "I had already outlined what Magdalene would do in the novel, but couldn't ever get over the physical description of her. I have a very limited imagination when it comes to inventing characters' facial features and things like that. But I knew readers would want a description of her. I'd want one too if I were a reader of my own book. Besides, I knew Magdalene couldn't have red hair. When I went to visit the Malfoys in July, I kept observing the young ladies around there Astoria and her friends trying to decide whether one of them could lend her features to Magdalene. But they all looked too aristocratic for her, too polished and painted. Then, as I stood in the train coming back to York, the irritating memory of our lessons came back to me, and I understood that you could made a decent model for her. With that thought in mind, I went to check you again at the library."
"But there's no physical description of Magdalene in the book."
"There isn't... yet. Maybe there never will be. It's not that readers can have everything, is it. But I need to know what she looks like, to be able to imagine her while I'm writing. I need to imagine habits."
"Habits?"
"Habits, like biting your lip, fiddling with your hair, pouting all the time, walking usually on my left to leave my right hand free..."
"I don't pout," she murmured affectionately. She felt emotional. Not only because of what he was saying, but also because, somehow, he had reserved a place for her in the world he had created, because there was a room waiting for her before she had stumbled into his life again, since he had decided that a plain, no-nonsense, not red-headed girl would end up on run with Funnel.
A/N: Pink Raccoon 80 was peerless in her assistance with the plot of Creeping Like a Lizard, which we discussed in front of a Chinese meal. Any interesting aspect about the book actually depends on her suggestions. Thank you, dear.
Mother Shipton is an English famous prophetess, born in Knaresborough, Yorkshire.
"Teach not thy lip such scorn; for it was made for kissing, lady, not for such contempt": Richard III I, ii, 171-172.
"Lie with her, on her, what you will": Othello IV, i, 35.
This chapter was generously betaed by stgulik. Thanks a lot! Thanks also to RobisonRocket for the additional corrections.
It is very possible that, at the end of this fic, there will be a companion from Snape's POV (working title: I've Always Thought You Were Stupid). In the meanwhile, chapter 18 will be quote fest. Beware!
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Latest 25 Reviews for A Summer in York
80 Reviews | 7.81/10 Average
Congratulations on this masterpiece of love and acceptance. That two people can help to heal each other without resorting to outright demands is so richly presented here. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.Now on to I’ve Always Thought You Were Stupid. Beth
Response from cabepfir (Author of A Summer in York)
Thank you so much for reading this and taking the time to review each chapter. I'm truly honored to read such praise! Thank you.
Their relationship is beautiful and funny and filled with the most inventive lovemaking ever! You have written a story that is as nearly perfect as any ever written. You have a wonderful gift and I thank you for sharing this with us. Now I'm off to read the final chapter... before I read Severus' POV.
Beth
This is such a wonderfully written story. Everything about it rings with autheticity, and I love the story of Severus' family history.
The comfortable way they tease each other and trade mock insults is equally wonderful. What a great story!!!
Beth
PS: 5 Stars are not nearly enough.
I really enjoyed the insight into Dumbledore, Grindenwald, and Tom Riddle. Thinking of Dumbledore writing the "Prophesy" himself makes a lot of sense and does explain several things about the HP books.
I like the way SS and HG banter and sometimes argue... and how Hermione doesn't take any crap from Severus either.
Beth
I love this slow progression in their relationship—the gentle hand holding, and arms around each other, the small kisses becoming slowly more passionate. It is a thing of beauty.
Beth
Lovely chapter! Hermione's talk with Adele was eye opening, I believe. And I'm glad Severus decided to accompany her on the wheel; I'd like to believe they have taken a huge step in their relationship.
Beth
LOL! Adele Boddington is a fount of information! It really made me happy that Severus' tendency to play everything close to the vest has been so completely undermined my his friends. Well done.
Beth
I love this chapter!
Beth
I think Severus and Hermione have crossed a crucial barrier. Sharing your unhappy memories with someone else who has had similar experiences can be very theraputic... perhaps not right away, but over time the pain can be lessened.
Beth
Poor Hermione. Her old flame has married another woman, she stole a vial of Dreamless Sleep from Harry and Ginny, and now we find out that Molly cursed her. What else can go wrong?
And where is Snape? How much more torture must these two have to face before things begin to move in a more positive direction? Poor Hermione and Severus.
My heart is breaking for them both!
Beth
Boy Howdy! Those two need each other now more than ever!
Beth
This chapter is completely lovely. Thank you.
Beth
Mrs. Neill is a piece of work, isn't she? I wonder what it was that led her to assume that Hermione had invited Snape to her room? There must be a fairly busy group of neighborhood gossips at work here.
I hope that Snape will be able continue to escort Hermione home each night. I think he is good for her. And her for him.
Beth
I'm glad they have agreed to a pact. The more I think on it, the more I think they both need each other.
Beth
This chapter is brilliant! In giving Hermione what she insisted she needed (as opposed to what she really needed) is the only way to break through her denial. I wonder how long it will take for her to ask him to help her again?
Beth
Hermione is having so many struggles, and the only one who can help her is a former professor who is invloved in one of her worst memories. I hope she can come to trust him.
Beth
OMG! She's suffering flashbacks of the war... how horrible!
Beth
Awesome beginning! I have so many questions–which I'm sure will be answered in due time.Beth
Response from cabepfir (Author of A Summer in York)
Thank you! I hope you'll like this fic.
The way Snape and Hermione both play loose Mrs. Neill is a hoot! That part about a terrorist group and Mossad and a license-to-kill was perfect for stringing her along,
Good going!
Beth
Truly one of my favourite fics. I love the depictions of Severus and Hermione as people, not just as a relationship. I've recced this today on One Bad Man over on LJ. Thank you! MelodysSister
Response from cabepfir (Author of A Summer in York)
Thank you so much!
I am loving the interaction between these two, but I'm dying to hear the inner dialogue these two are having. At least Hermione's as you've been providing. Keep going! I find Severus' arguments against magic highly interesting.
Does she still find him ugly? So she now realizes that the attraction at the Jarvic was real. She is enchanted. I wonder what Severus is thinking and going through.
I am not OCD. I have CDO. It's like OCD but all the letters are in alphabetical order, as they should be. (not mine) Now she knows where he goes and that he hadn't deserted her after their special night. I hope she has made the connection in any case. I am still wondering, like Hermione. Has Severus' loss of magic also affected his longevity? It would be so sad for Hermione to find the love of her life only to have him age prematurely before she does. If this story were to go the way I wish it, he would get his magic back when he and Hermione make love for the first time. I hope that isn't too saccharine for you. Now I'm thinking I'd better read the last chapter to make sure it has a happy ending. I sometimes...well, I frequently...almost always end up doing that because I can't bare sad endings. Real life is sad enough and I read to escape that sadness.
How gently he courts her. Does he know? Is it his intention? At this point I feel she hardly deserves him, but if not her than who? They have too much in common. She will eventually understand him in a way no other woman would be able to. And she will hopefully see that he understands her in a way that no one else ever could. That bright beam of love has a hollow, cold place patiently waiting for her warmth and light.
I read this chapter with bated breath. You did not disappoint. Severus' story is a gift. Hermione is still sooo young. She doesn't see that they do not hate each other. Why can't she see that him spending time with her is a great compliment? He doesn't waste his time on fools. I guess she is still too self involved to see the other side of the tapestry. I have a feeling he has the patience to wait for her to come to her epiphany. Does she really think him ugly? That's really too bad. I hope she grows up enough to see her opportunity. Maybe Severus can tell her how to be free from Molly's curse. I wouldn't believe in it if it weren't for Luna's comment. I trust Luna.