Bound
Chapter 7 of 15
BulletTimeScullyA ritual...
Reviewed"Severus?"
"Hmm?"
"May I... may I sit with you?"
His hand dropped from where it was propped under his chin as he turned in her direction. His brow furrowed for a moment before he smiled sadly, gesturing to the space beside him.
Hesitantly, she unfolded her legs and stood. Brushing her damp hair out of her eyes, she walked slowly towards him. He removed his left arm from where it was draped, allowing her to sit next to him, but not have to touch him if she didn't want to. Oh, how he wanted her to.
She did sit rather close, angled towards him with her right arm now occupying the space his left had vacated. Her smell had been intoxicating from a few feet away, but a few inches... it would surely drive him mad. Unsure of what he should say now, he clasped both of his hands in his lap and stared at the dwindling fire.
Her gaze could have seared a hole in the side of his head. Her brown eyes roamed over his face and its contours: the small, barely visible scar on his left cheek; the five'o clock shadow just beginning to show across his chin; the way his lips turned up just so at the corners.
She couldn't help herself. He was now staring intently at his entwined fingers, and when she touched him, he flinched away. Slowly, she reached out again and ran her knuckles over the underside of his chin and over his cheek. When he didn't turn away further, she gently pushed his black hair behind his ear and let her hand lie softly against his neck. His skin was warm and soft.
"Do you regret?" she asked, rubbing the knuckles of her hand back and forth across the skin of his neck.
She saw the muscles in his jaw clench as his brow furrowed. Obviously, he hadn't been expecting that particular question. That they should sit here together, on this night, and not talk about... things... was beyond reason. They hadn't been this close to one another in almost a year her skin literally prickled at the feeling of being so close to him, yet so infinitely far away. If only he could see her heart's desires, if only he could feel what she felt: the aching, the longing, the sheer, utter madness of it all, then perhaps he would no longer turn from her, no longer push her away.
He looked at her out of the corner of his eye as his mind worked over her question. Several times he started to speak, but did not. After a few futile efforts, he sighed. "Yes," he admitted quietly, slowly moving his left hand to grasp the one she moved against his neck. "I do... regret."
There was a moment of silence, the only noise the crackling of the logs in the fireplace, before she spoke:
"All of it?" she asked softly.
He pulled her hand to his lap, absently rubbing across the back with his thumbs. Moments passed, so many that she started to doubt that he'd heard her. Then, softly: "No, not all."
She leaned forwards a little, so she could look into his face. "Which ones?"
He drew a breath and paused, unsure of whether or not he should say the words rolling around in his head. "You," he whispered finally, so softly she almost didn't hear him.
Her eyes welled up with tears, and her breath hitched in her throat as she continued to listen. "You..." he said again, this time bringing her hand to his mouth, brushing it chastely with his lips. "Myself..." A light brush of stubble as he held it to his cheek. After a moment, he pulled away and slowly entwined their fingers. He finally turned his eyes to hers, looking at her over their clasped hands. "Us."
She squeezed his hand as a tear escaped the confines of her lashes and slowly rolled down her cheek, sparkling like a diamond in the firelight. God, she had missed him in the long months they had been apart. She was still his apprentice, even though she was nearly at Master level after more than three years of his tutelage. If all went well, she would be a Master in just eleven months time, a full four years since he had taken her on.
They had interacted as nothing more than teacher and pupil since he had decided that she was safer without him. A more preposterous notion she had never heard. He was Severus Snape, the most feared man in the wizarding world, save perhaps the Dark Lord and Albus Dumbledore. Anyone that crossed him had either underestimated the dark Potions master, was too confident for their own good, or had gone completely 'round the twist.
Besides, he had to protect her they were Bound. The vows that apprentice and master took were not to be treated lightly. The conditions were not as severe as those of an Unbreakable Vow, but they were serious enough in and of themselves. As she sat there, her small fingers entwined within his large ones, an ever-growing warmth fluttering in her chest, her thoughts drifted back to the night her new life had begun...
******Flashback******
~ September, 1998
-Wiltshire, U.K.
Hermione was nervous. No, nervous was definitely an understatement. Simultaneously, she was going to have a panic attack, pass out, and throw up... all over her formal robes her new, expensive... green... formal robes that Professor Snape had purchased for her.
Professor Snape.
No... no longer her Professor... soon to be her Master. She was starting to get cold feet, waiting here in the frigid night air, alone, in the dark. She stared ahead of herself, at the monolithic stone structure standing out against the setting sun. Stonehenge, a place of ancient magic, ancient people, ancient rites. What better place to have a ceremony such as this, an irrevocable bonding of two souls.
She stood in the damp grass, waiting to be called, while the late summer wind whipped her cloak around her, pulling strands of hair from underneath the hood and swirling them violently around her face. It's not that she was afraid, well, maybe a little but what if she let him down? She was his first apprentice, and while she had no doubt as to his abilities to instruct her in the art of Potions, she suddenly doubted her ability to live up to his high standards. Standards that had been nigh unachievable as a student. She couldn't fathom what he would ask of her as an apprentice.
"Oh God, what am I doing!?" she whispered, hugging her arms around herself, panic lacing her voice as she looked left, then right, desperately seeking an escape route. Just as she had made up her mind to turn and run, she heard Minerva's voice call from the darkness. "We are ready for you now, Miss Granger."
A halo of light appeared between two of the great stones, and Hermione could just make out the older witch's silhouette standing out against the flickering light behind her.
Shit.
Setting her jaw, Hermione took a deep, calming breath. 'It's just a ceremony... a few words, a few rites, and it's done with.' She carefully lifted the hem of her dark green robes as she started towards Minerva. The older witch, dressed in robes of a deep, royal purple with black beaded trim, smiled and stood aside as Hermione crossed the threshold and walked into the ancient circle.
She passed between several smaller stones on her way to the small clearing in the middle. A ring of torches, each at least seven feet tall, had been erected around the open space. In the dim light, she could barely discern three figures, two tall, one short. As she came closer, she saw the spectacled form of Albus Dumbledore standing at what appeared to be the head of the clearing. He was dressed in formal robes of the darkest blue, and she could just make out a tiny shimmer of beading along the hems.
As she came closer, she looked to her left, where she found her friend, her witness, Harry Potter. The flames from the torches reflected off his glasses, giving them a strange, eerie glow. He was clad in dark red dress robes, so dark that she had almost thought them black. No. Harry wouldn't show up here wearing black. Leave that color to the man standing to her right. She smiled a silent 'thank you' to Harry, who nodded, before she turned her attention to the man whose gaze she had felt on her since she had entered into the circle of torches.
Severus Snape.
Her head turned... and her jaw dropped.
His robes were white.
Pure white... like new snow or swan feathers.
She knew she was gaping, but she couldn't help it. Where normally there existed only a swirl of formless black robes, there stood before her now a dark angel, a vision that could only exist in dreams. Even beneath the hood of his white cloak, she could see that his hair had grown longer over the summer; it now hung just past his shoulders, black as midnight. The contrast of ebony hair against white fabric was startling. The cloak was pushed back over his shoulders, so she could see his that his high-collared jacket fit snugly around his chest and trim waist, while the back continued down past his knees. The faintest hint of silver thread could be seen along the lapels and cuffs, both of which were accented with small, ivory buttons. His trousers seemed to be made of a soft, light material, which glowed amber in the torchlight and fit snugly against his long legs. Silk, perhaps? Along the seam of each trouser leg, there was a barely discernable vertical stripe, made of a slightly darker material. Each stripe ran from waist to knee before disappearing into a pair of black dragon-hide boots.
Black boots... the only visible trace of the Potions master she had known for seven years.
This man before her was not the man she had seen everyday for nearly half her life. This was not the sour, mean, greasy teacher that had made her life, and many others, Hell for almost a decade. This man was not greasy, nor scowling, nor ugly in the least.
This man was... breathtaking.
She was so astonished, that for the first time in her life she was rendered speechless. Who would have ever thought that he had hidden all of... that... under those dreadful robes for all those years? The long legs, the wide shoulders, the trim waist... A moment passed, and then another, before anyone spoke. His soft baritone snapped her out of her reveries. "Miss Granger... if you are done ogling my person, perhaps we can proceed with the rest of tonight's requirements?"
She started and snatched her gaze away from where she had been watching the muscles of his left leg move underneath the fabric of his trousers 'Fascinating...' to lock eyes with him.
"Y-yes, sir... sorry," she blushed.
He simply nodded at her, one corner of his mouth lifting in a small smirk. "Shall we?" he asked, closing the distance between them and extending his elbow. Hermione hesitated for a moment, before placing her hand in the crook of his arm and letting him lead her to the very center of the circle. Once there, he dropped his arm, but did not move away. They both stood facing Albus, who looked between them before gesturing to the two people still standing on the outskirts of the circle.
Harry moved up to stand on Hermione's left, while Minerva moved to stand on Severus' right. Hermione spared another glance for her lifelong friend, now an Auror-in-training; he had been upset with her when she had first told him who she had approached for an apprenticeship. He had never like Professor Snape, nor would he ever, but after a thorough discussion on the reasons behind her choice, Hermione had finally convinced Harry that she knew what she was doing. Reluctantly, he had agreed to stand as her witness during the Bonding Ceremony if Professor Snape accepted her, that is.
It had only been a few days later, while sitting at breakfast on the day of the Leaving Feast, that Hermione had received an owl bearing his seal. Her hands were shaking as she had removed the parchment from the barn owl's leg and unrolled the letter, totally forgetting to give the owl a treat. After snatching a piece of bacon directly from her plate, it had left in a huff. Her friends had watched as her eyes furiously scanned the letter. It was short and to the point:
~Miss Granger,
I accept. Your Bonding robes have already been purchased and will arrive at Madam Malkin's on Tuesday next. See that you pick them up in a timely manner.
SS
Her robes. She looked away from Harry and back to Albus as she ran a hand over the soft green fabric at her stomach. The color was a deep hunter green. The robes had a low, curved neckline, lower than anything she had ever worn, and Celtic symbols were stitched along the edge in silver thread, matching those running along the hem and around the cuff of the elongated bell sleeves. Her waist was accented by a belt of a darker green, almost black, that was tied with a silver cord that fell to her ankles. Her cloak was black, the clasp at her neck silver.
A glance to her right revealed Snape standing very still, hands at his sides. All she could see of his face from beneath the hood of his cloak was the very tip of his nose. She smiled despite herself. Further to the right, she saw Minerva look over at her. The older witch must have seen Hermione look at Severus and smile, because one side of Minerva's mouth lifted in it's own small smile, accompanied by the adjoining eyebrow.
Before Hermione could contemplate the Deputy Headmistress's expression, she heard Dumbledore begin to speak:
"Is everyone accounted for?"
Four voices rang out. "We are here."
"Excellent. We may begin." The Headmaster gestured at Severus and Hermione. They turned to face each other, Hermione a trembling mess, Severus the epitome of calm. He reached up, or down rather... she was much shorter than he... and gently removed the black hood, settling it back over her shoulders. As she watched his face, fascinated, she felt him pull her hair gently from beneath the cloak and arrange it neatly about her shoulders. Putting his hands back at his sides, he gave her a small nod.
Hermione took in a deep breath through her nose and blew it out slowly through her lips. She had to stretch a little as she reached for Severus' hood. Her fingers brushed through his hair 'So soft...' as she slipped her hands underneath the edges of the hood and carefully pushed it back. Mimicking him, she took his hair in both her hands and pulled it free, laying it gently about his shoulders.
Their faces were very close together, seeing as how she had to reach so far, and she felt his warm breath on her cheek as she finished with his hair. It tickled, and goosebumps rose along her skin. Pulling back, she smiled tentatively at him. He smelled of sandalwood, leather, and something remotely... male. The corners of his lips lifted in a small smile as he nodded to her again and they both turned back to face Albus.
After a moment the old wizard spoke: "Are we ready?"
Again, four voices spoke as one: "We are ready."
Albus raised his right hand towards Harry. "Witness, have you come here of your own free will, to stand beside your friend as she begins this journey?"
"I have," Harry answered.
"So be it. Bring forth your strand."
The Headmaster held his open his palm as Harry stepped forward. Hermione watched as her friend placed a thin, red cord in the man's hand. "I bring with me the color red: the color of fire, the color of passion, love, strength,and protection. May it be so." With a nod of thanks from Dumbledore, and a pointed glance in Snape's direction, Harry stepped back to his place beside Hermione. She turned to him and gave him a smile of genuine gratitude as Dumbledore called out again.
His left hand was lifted towards Minerva this time. "Witness, have you come here of your own free will, to stand beside your friend as he begins this journey?"
"I have," Minerva answered with a nod.
"So be it. Bring forth your strand."
Minerva walked forward, and Hermione saw a bright flash of color as her former teacher placed her own cord in the Headmaster's hand. "I bring with me the color yellow: the color of the sun, the color of joy, happiness, and hope. May it be so." Another nod from the older wizard, and Minerva returned to her place beside Severus. Hermione saw him turn to his colleague and nod. When he turned back she was certain there was a shine in his eyes, but it was gone so quickly she must have imagined it.
For a third time, Dumbledore's voiced carried out across the night. "Apprentice," Hermione's eyes widened and her breathing quickened, "do you come here of your own free will, to stand beside this man as your Master until you yourself have claimed that same honor?"
Her voice trembled. "I have."
"So be it. Bring forth your strand."
Hermione reached inside her cloak and pulled her cord out of an inner pocket. She had chosen her color carefully. It reminded her of the man standing next to her, but it was also what she wanted for herself one day.
She placed the grey cord in Dumbledore's hand. "I bring with me the color grey: the color of security, reliability, intelligence, dignity, and maturity. May it be so." Dumbledore smiled at her as he added the cord to the others. She went back to her place next to Severus, and saw him glance at her ever so subtly. What would his color be, she wondered?
For a fourth and final time, the old wizard's voice rang out: "Potions master, have you come here of your own free will, to stand beside this woman, to guide her and instruct her until she too may claim the title of Master?"
"I have," Severus answered softly.
"So be it. Bring forth your strand."
Hermione saw Severus reach into his cloak as he slowly approached the Headmaster. He pulled his cord from within and placed it in the man's outstretched hand. "I bring with me the color white: the color of purity, innocence, peace, and humility. May it be so." Albus' eyes narrowed a little as he gazed at Severus, but his mouth turned up into a smile as he gave a final nod. Severus turned and reclaimed his place beside Hermione.
She couldn't help but wonder at his choice of colors. Each color was supposed to represent that which the bringer wanted for the relationship between Master and Apprentice, as well as for the two individuals that were to be Bonded. Peace? Humility? Obviously, there were many things about Severus Snape that she would have to learn.
Her attention was brought back to the clearing by Dumbledore's voice. He was adding his own cord to the pile. "Severus, Hermione, I have come here of my own free will, to bind you to each other, as Master and Apprentice, until such time that you, Hermione, have achieved the title of Master. I bring with me the color blue: the color of tranquility, stability, harmony, unity, truth... and trust. May it be so." He added his own cord to those resting in his right hand. With a wave of his left, there was a flash of light and a gust of wind, and instead of five short strands, one long, dark cord lay draped over Dumbledore's hand. His eyes grew wide with surprise, and he stared at the object in his hand for a moment before slowly speaking:
"Black: the color of power." He looked first at Hermione and then at Severus, his gaze calculating. "May it be so," he said as he finally gathered the cord in his hand. "Step forward."
Severus and Hermione stepped towards the old wizard who stood with the ebony cord held in his left hand, his wand now in the right. The wind chose that particular moment to rush through the stones, extinguishing most of the torches. Hermione and Harry looked around in a panic, afraid the ceremony had been disturbed, but the three others continued as if nothing had happened.
Dumbledore's voice again: "Severus, if you would." Hermione saw a brief flash of silver and then saw the Potions master flinch. Before she could comprehend what had just happened, he was holding his right hand out towards her, along with the hilt of a silver knife, the shine of the blade clouded by fresh blood. She stared at it for a moment, before realizing that he wanted her to take it. She reached out a shaking hand and grasped the hilt. It was warm where he had held it in his own hand. His blood covered the tip of the blade, as well as the thumb and forefinger he held it out to her with. All she could do was stare, transfixed.
"Miss Granger..." she heard Snape say, as if from a long way away.
She didn't respond.
A second time, louder, more forceful: "Miss Granger!"
She jumped. Composing herself, she looked to him, apologizing with her expression. "Your turn, Miss Granger." He indicated the knife she now held in her right hand. Her lips pressed together in a thin line as she lightly pressed the blade to the palm of her left. His warm blood ran from the razor edge, down over her skin, staining it red. With a deep breath, she closed her eyes and turned her head away, while at the same time closing her fingers around the blade. One swift pull of her right hand and a line of fire split across her left.
Tears were in her eyes as she handed to blade back to Snape, who watched her with an unreadable expression before handing the blade to Dumbledore. He took it carefully and wiped the blood off the blade and onto the black cord. "The blood of those who are to be Bound, freely given, will seal this cord of power and all that is contained therein." He finished wiping, and with a small flick of his wrist, the blade vanished.
"Now, for the final rite." Dumbledore once again gestured at Hermione and Severus. "Join hands, please." Hermione extended her bloody left hand to Severus, keeping her eyes locked with his, as she had been instructed. She felt the cool skin of his palm, also slick with warm blood, slide against hers. She thought she could detect a slight tremor in the always stoic man, but his face revealed nothing. It was expressionless, as always.
She was lost in the blackness of his eyes, empty pools of midnight, as Dumbledore began the final rite. He held up his wand and with a wave, he set the cord to winding its way around Severus' wrist, willing the power of the Master to transfer to the Apprentice, to help guide and assist. "Do you, Severus Snape, vow to become Master to Hermione Granger, to teach and guide her as your Apprentice, to watch over her and protect her while she is in your care, to provide for her as her Master, and to forsake all others while so Bonded?"
"I do," Severus answered, his gaze never leaving Hermione's.
A flash of light, and the cord wound its way around their hands, in a pattern of infinity, before winding onto Hermione's wrist, willing her power to transfer to that of the Master, so that he may know her strengths, her weaknesses.
"Do you, Hermione Granger, vow to become Apprentice to Severus Snape, to obey him in all things as they relate to your station, to learn from him, to be humble in that learning, to forsake all others and strive to honor him as you achieve your goals through him?"
Her eyes were stoic, determined. "I do."
Another flash of light, and the cord bound itself around her wrist, connecting her to Severus. She was the one trembling now. Dumbledore looked between them, an omniscient expression on his face. "As your Bonder and friend, I now join you as Master," he nodded to Severus, "and Apprentice," he nodded at Hermione. "May it be so. Now, if you would please close the final seal."
So, now they came to the rite of the flesh. This was the part that Hermione had been dreading. The Bonding needed a 'joining of the flesh,' as well as the blood. The fact that their palms were pressed together was irrelevant only one rite could be taken from each part of the body. Since the rite of the blood had been taken from their hands, they were now useless for this part of the ritual. It was simple really, nothing complicated. They simply had to touch flesh to flesh and the ritual was complete. As Severus leaned slowly towards her, Hermione could hear Harry's huff of annoyance from behind her. When Severus' lips brushed hers in a quick, chaste kiss, she knew Harry had turned away, disgusted.
Hermione was not disgusted she was, once again, fascinated. Even though they did not move, his lips were soft and warm, not cold and stiff, as they pressed against hers. Her eyes closed and her free hand moved to touch his cheek, but he pulled away so only her fingertips trailed along his jaw. His expression was startled for a moment, before he gave her another slow nod and directed his gaze towards their entwined hands.
With a flash of golden light the cord disappeared, leaving streaks across Hermione's vision. The flesh of her hand now bore what looked like a tiny interwoven scar in the exact place the cord had been wound. She glanced to Severus and could see that his was the same. He let go of her hand, and she saw him look at his palm it was healed, as was hers. A single, thin scar was all that remained.
After a moment, they heard Dumbledore speak again. "So it is on this day, in this place, that you are Bound to each other, Master and Apprentice. May all your endeavors succeed."
With those final words, Hermione looked around her, at the Headmaster, at Harry, Minerva, and finally at Severus, who bowed formally. She returned the bow in kind, and as they straightened, the wind suddenly howled out of the night sky, extinguishing all but one of the remaining torches, and bringing with it the first raindrops of a late summer thunderstorm.
"I believe that is our cue," Dumbledore said, just before Apparating away. Minerva was right behind him, gone in a swirl of robes. Hermione turned to Harry and smiled. With a quick glance over Hermione's shoulder at Snape, he too Apparated home. That left Hermione alone with her new Master, a man she had barely spoken to since that day in his office.
She turned back to face him, the light from the single torch making his features soft. "So," he said, moving towards her, "was it what you expected?"
She rubbed her arms, not knowing why being alone with him would suddenly make her so nervous. "Well," she began, her eyebrows coming together as she thought for a moment, "even though I had read about it, the blood rite did catch me a little off guard." She looked at the scar on her left hand, tracing it with her index finger. "Stung," she said.
"Yes," she heard him reply. When she looked up, he was much closer, and before she could say anything, he had taken her scarred hand in his. Hermione watched as he ran his own finger over the line of new, pink skin. "It is a... powerful gesture, the spilling of one's blood for another." She stood transfixed as his feather light caress made her whole arm tingle. When she looked up again, he was staring at her intently, with a look she had never seen before. "No one has ever... willingly... spilt their blood for me, Hermione."
Her skin peppered with goosebumps as her given name crossed his lips. Slightly taken aback, she said the only thing she could think of: "I-It was a requirement, sir. The ceremony would not have been complete without it." She watched the unnamed emotion melt from his face, watched his features mold themselves back to their normal state.
He abruptly released her hand and took a step back. "Of course, Miss Granger."
The rain started to fall harder. "Shall we, my Apprentice?" he said, gesturing North, towards Hogwarts. She nodded.
"After you then, Miss Granger."
She nodded, and after giving him a tight-lipped smile, spun in place and was gone with a barely audible pop, the skin of her arm still tingling madly from the lightest of his touches.
******End Flashback******
Next: Things in the present are discussed, and another flashback from Severus' POV.
A/N: Wow! This ended up a lot longer than I had planned (over 5000 words!).
Also, I realize Stonehenge is slightly cliché, but I've always wanted to visit and well, I was too lazy to invent my own henge! :)
Please let me know what you think! I wrote the Bonding ritual off the top of my head, so I hope it turned out alright. I found the meaning for all the colors on the web, though I can't remember what site... sorry! If you take the time to read, please leave me a little note, even if it's to say 'stop the insanity'... Thanks so much!
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Interesting read! Not much for DE Hermione but if I was this story would be it, you write it well. Wasn't sure if you were still active or not but I was curious about the story title and whether this story was inspired by Goodkind's series at all? Or did you just like the title and thought it fit your story as well? Was just wondering! :-)
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Hi! Man, it's been literally years since I first posted this story (or what I managed to finish of it). It was my very first attempt at FF, and I think I got myself in over my head. :D But thank you for the review, even though it's been 88 years since I've been around! The title was inspired by Goodkind's series, yes, and I thought it was a good theme for the story. But that's where the similarities end. Hopefully one day I can find the inspiration to finish this epic, which is sitting in pieces in my laptop. Thanks so very much and I'm thrilled that you liked it!
Response from DarkenCoul (Reviewer)
Goodkind's series is my most faavorite ever so the title caught my eye. If you do ever come back to it I definitely think its a story worth finishing! :-)
What an incredible story! I know it's been 3 years but I hope you will update. I'm on pins and needles!
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
It's been SO LONG I KNOW. I literally haven't posted anything in years, and for that I apologize to the people that enjoy my stories! The Muse left one day and never came back, but I've been thinking about jumping back in. SSHG was my first FF family, and I love all of you! And I miss you! So thank you so much for the review! 'm thrilled that you liked it! I'll do my best to drag the rest of this story up out of the dusty crypts of my laptop and get it finished one day!
This story has me in tears. I feel her fury and frustration, and his sorrow and determination. You are a wonderful writer and an amazing artist. You have me hooked!
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you so much! I know I haven't been around much, but I haven't lost my love for these two. Hearing that you guys are still reading gives me inspiration to continue my stories.
I'm still here and I still love this story! I'll PM you on LJ. Can't wait to see what happens next. I've missed you! Hope to chat soon! <3
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
HIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!! *tackle hugs* I'm still here... although sadly, very infrequently. I haven't lost my love for these two or this story, or for you guys! I'm looking to have some free time coming up after first of the year (in the form of one day off work every week, completely to myself), so hopefully that'll let me get back into the swing of writing. Thanks so much Toby! Love you!!!
Response from Toblass (Reviewer)
Hey Scully! PM me when you start getting the sshg feels again. I miss our brainstorming sessions. Hope you are well! ~Toby
*hugs you big time* And just where the heck have you been? I thought I was the only one having a very busy and sometimes frustrating RL. I was blown away when I got an email telling me that this had been updated! Woo hoo! After their meeting with Dumbledore and Harry'n Ron, Hermione came close to a total meltdown, but I don't blame her one bit! Ron is such a loser. I'm more convinced than ever that there is a good chance he might find himself on a sticky wicket while they're in Albania. If he's lucky Severus might save his arse in the nick of time (after letting him sweat a little).I wonder which Horcrux Harry and Ron found? And how difficult it will be to destroy it... It has begun.Welcome back!Beth
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
I know, I know... *hangs head in shame* RL has been... full, is all I can say. :) But it warms my heart to see you guys still here and reading this behemoth of a story. It's been four years now since I first started on Faith, and it may take me four more to finish it, but I will. Then it will probably get a revamp and edit, but that will come later. I'm going to have to go back and reread to remember a bit of what I had planned, but you can be sure there will be some Ron/Snape clashing! Thank you so much for the welcome back and for the review. You guys are what make it worth it! Much love!
Well now that was intriguing. I enjoyed the non-linear narrative and I was able to keep up with it, which is kudos to your writing. It's the most angst ridden fic I've read to date but all in all, a very good start and I look forward to reading more.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you so much! I'm very glad you weren't confused by the narrative... I truly don't intend for things to be written that way... it just sort of happens. :) There is still plenty of angst to come, so you'll get your fill, I promise. Thanks again for following!
I like her comment about being forced to hug. Too funny
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
I can just see her trembling as she has to restrain herself... hehe... Thanks for reading!
I'm sure this is a snapshot of what some families that have lost babies have gone through. You seem to have brought a realism that so few authors can do with such a tragic subject. My heart aches for all parents who have lost babies...
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you so much! Sorry it took so long to reply... RL and all. :) I've been hesitant about this subject all throughout the story... even though it hasn't been touched on much. I couldn't imagine losing one of my children (my husband and I have three: a son, 3 1/2 years; and two daughters, one is 5 years and the other 2 months), and I didn't know if I could do Severus and Hermione's loss -- and their subsequent emotions -- justice. I'm so glad it doesn't seem contrived; they did lose a child under extreme circumstances, and that is something that I know would break even the strongest of hearts. Thanks again and I hope you continue to enjoy things!
This was wonderful, beautiful. It was exactly the kind of thing I was looking for. *goes off to read more*Thank you. :)-Ky*with hugs*
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you so much! I hope you continue to enjoy things as much as I've been enjoying writing it!
This chapter made me cry =(Well written, heartbreaking ~
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thanks! I'm sorry I made you cry, but then again I'm kinda glad that the chapter made you react that way. :) It was meant to be sad and sorrowful, and I'm so glad you liked it!
Beautiful, well written <3The song matches them so perfectly-nice choice.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you very much! I'm extremely inspired by music, so I'm glad you thought that it fit. :)
This chapter is filled with remembered sadness and hope for the future. Since their Bonding Ceremony, Severus and Hermione have lived such emotional lives—it's has been like living on a runaway train. They were caught in a morass of competing powers, between the evil machinations of a terrible Dark Wizard and the efforts of the Light to combat this evil.
I know that what has happened in this chapter is not the complete solution to all their heart aches, but it is a good beginning for healing. There are still many problems before them, but I think they have begun to dismantle this wall that Severus had put in place between them in the hope of protecting Hermione from further harm. I know he thought it was the best thing at the time, but it only brought pain and anguish to them both.
I think they will look back on the previous night and this day's visit to the cemetery as a turning point. No matter how painful last night had started out to be, they were able to reach out to each other and speak of all the things that they could not talk about before. Visiting Aislinn's grave and speaking to her of their love for her and the sadness of her death seemed to chisel that last stone from the wall of never ending hurt.
In the Prologue we found out that they had a secret place where they could be together to cherish each other in private and away from prying eyes:
"They would meet here, and for a few precious hours, they would be together without a single thought for the outside world. No master to answer to, no looking over their shoulders for the glint of a blade in the dark, no lies, no deceit; only two souls escaping the madness, if only for a moment."
I hope they will be able to continue to meet in their secret place. And I hope that someday they will be able to defeat the Dark Lord and reclaim their lives and live their love free from the evil that now encompasses their world.
This is one helluva good chapter!Beth
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you so very much Beth! Their lives have been a runaway train, something that I think Hermione was unprepared for when she first signed on. ;) They did make a small step towards rebuilding what they once had... and I think you're right that this night and the visit to the graveyard will be a huge turning point. They both want the same thing... only their anger and stubborness (and perhaps Severus' misguided sense of blind loyalty to certain omnipotent wizards...) has been keeping them apart. I'm so glad you enjoyed the chapter. I've no doubt that they will eventually find happiness, but how long and difficult that journey will be, I don't know.Thanks again for the great review and for taking the time to read!
Excellent chapter, nasty cliffe, look forward to more soon I hope. Your very good at painitng really amazing pictures.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thanks very much! I hope you continue to enjoy things! I wish I could paint like that... the images are just photomanipulations that I made with Photoshop. I'm glad you like them though!
I love this story and do hope that you will continue with it. I am not having any trouble following the flashbacks and find that it adds to the drama of the story.Thanks
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you very much! I'm so glad the flashbacks aren't confusing... I was *very* worried about that aspect of the story. I sincerely hope you continue to enjoy things!Thanks for the R&R!
Very good, loved the gentle care and especially his comfession to ehr about what he might think of her or desire of her.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thanks very much! Both of those scenes were a lot of fun. I'm glad his drug-induced confession didn't come off too cheesy or OOC -- I was very worried it would.Thanks for the R&R!
I am glad that you have Severus being so torn up about his daughters death. You have given him a depth of emotion that JK did not. Poor Hermione, I could understand not wanting to reliving that kind of pain.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thanks! I've always thought that Severus was a pretty deep character, even though we don't see much of it in the books. We get a glimpse of his emotions in PoA when Sirius escapes and in DH during The Prince's Tale, but other than that he's a cold, supposedly unfeeling git.He's so closed off most of the time, but I believe he's withholding some very powerful emotions. You're very right about Hermione not wanting to relive such a tragic part of her life. Hopefully, they'll both be able to grieve and perhaps move on.Thanks again for the R&R!
This just gets better and better.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you very much! I hope I can keep you interested! :)
Hermione needs to learn to be more careful. Wonder who is behind her.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
She definitely does need to be more careful. You would think that she'd know better by now... *sigh* Thanks for reading!
I remember reading the prologue before but not the rest of the story. This was beautifully written. I could really feel Severus' pain. I look forward to continuing this story.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you so much! I'm so glad you came back to read the rest. I hope you continue to enjoy things!
Oh, man, who wouldn't lose their heart at such a confession, drug induced or not!!!
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
I'm glad you liked Sev's little confession. I was worried that it would come of too cheesy or OOC, but I think that Severus (my Sev, at least) is simply a very lonely man who is starved for affection and love, and the potion loosened his inhibitions enough to admit it. What he said definitely struck a cord with Hermione, though she doesn't realize it yet. Despite the tough exterior, Severus is a perfectly sweet man... when you nearly kill him and then drug him within an inch of his life... ;)Thanks for the R&R!
Ohhhhhh... When Severus was telling Hermione how beautiful she was that night of the Bonding Ceremony, well, let's just say I was just in heaven. For him to have told her (even under the influence of a strong pain potion) that he could easily have imagined her becoming his wife.“You were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen.” His gaze took on that faraway look again, and his voice was barely a whisper. “You have no idea, Hermione, how easy it would have been for me to stand there and imagine that instead of my apprentice, you were becoming… my wife.”Believe it, dear Hermione, your Master has admitted that he finds you very beautiful and would have you as his wife if you would have him as your husband. Even if he is under the effects of the potion, he is still lucid enough to be able to admit his true feelings.Godz, I love this chapter! Everything about it rings true from her anguished emotions of having expertly cast the Killing Curse, to Severus' admission of love... yeah, I think that was what he was saying... that he loves her and wants her to be his wife.But we all know when the sum comes up in the morning, our dour Potions master will wrap himself in his cloak of absolute self-control and he will not mention those thoughts again... for a while anyway.Be patient, Hermione, he will come around. It just might take him a while.WOW! Thank you for this fabulous chapter. Lots of hugs to you, Beth
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
I'm glad you liked it! I was very worried that his confession would come off too cheesy or OOC. Then again, who hasn't said something when under the influence of powerful pain killers that they'd never admit otherwise... While I don't think he actually loves her yet (but he will, don't worry), I think that he sees in her the potential to be someone that he could love, someone he could spend his life with... after all, he did do a lot of thinking before he accepted her as his apprentice. The relationship that they've entered is complex, and Severus did tell Hermione to do more research into the aspects of it... maybe there are some things about being an apprentice that even a 'know-it-all' doesn't realize... Hmm... we shall see...And you're right... if he does remember what he said, he won't mention it, and I think Hermione has enough sense not to bring it up... hehe...You're welcome, and thanks for the great review as always! *hugs*
Oooooh he was offended.....ouch.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Poor Severus... he did seem a bit offended by her comment, didn't he? Thanks for the R&R!
That was intense and beautiful.
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thank you very much! It was splendid fun to write that chapter... I love magical rituals. :)
That was a very intense ceremony. I can imagine in the wizarding world being Master and Apprentice would have far more meaning. :)
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Thanks! Yes indeed, it has far more meaning than even Hermione realizes... ;)
Did Voldemort know they had been lovers at this point?
Response from BulletTimeScully (Author of Faith of the Fallen)
Yes he did. I hope the timeline isn't too confusing. :) I'm doing my best to make the rest of the flashbacks (and there will be several) go in order... Thanks for the R&R!!