Keeping
Chapter 31 of 33
Ariadne AWSSeven years after the final battle: Severus is neither here nor there - and is apparently unwanted, dead or alive, until a small black kitten pins his cloak to a cobblestone. Hermione learns that now and then life rests on the flip of a friendly coin. Does love have the power to cancel time? Only the cats know for sure, and they can't talk.
ReviewedSummary: In which everyone has ample time to poke at things. Some things break, some things steam, and Mimi gets a new toy.
A/N: There is always a chapter that buggers one beyond belief. My thanks to Anastasia, AnnieTalbot, Indigofeathers, and Lady Karelia for their patience as I wrestled with this one.
31: Keeping
"Meee?" Mimi yowled from the kitchen, and Severus heard the tell-tale scratching noise that indicated that his long-ago detention must be over.
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"WHUT IZ BASTRD?"
Severus stopped in the kitchen archway, his eyes raking the tabletop, where Mimi was licking the question mark experimentally.
"Dare I inquire who is the bastard du jour?"
Mimi turned and looked at him.
"'Of the day,'" he muttered. "To which bastard does the good Doctor refer?"
Mimi skittered out of the way as the cereal rearranged itself sharply. "YOO AND BUMBLFORK." She stared at the cereal, eyes wide. Letters went flying off the table as the last word rectified itself to read, "DUMBLDOR."
Mimi peered over the table at the scattered letters, and Severus picked them up, crushing them with his thumb. "Tell Hermione that the Librarian insists Dumbledore is not a problem."
"IZ. HE SCARF... SCRFIC... KILLT U. " The letters scattered and started over. "VOLDMORT BASTRD KILLT U, OFF COURS, BUT DUMBLDOR 2. HATE THEM."
Severus watched as the cereal continued to rant.
"U KICKT MI OWT OF DUNJIN. SED GIT OWT NAOW."
He nodded, remembering.
"WHUT NXT?"
He closed his eyes, trying to anticipate his past self's next actions...
But he didn't need to anticipate. Memories flooded recklessly into his mind with no regard for his usually rigid mental order....
Keeping his face harshly blank as he ordered her out of the dungeon lest she see...
Gripping the desk he'd never thought of as his own, exhaling slowly, a small, sharp twinge from his forearm...
A brutal kick for his instructor's chair, sending it crashing; sharp pain; the impact reverberating through his bones straight into the base of his skull...
And not a sound escaped him.
Slamming into his quarters, wheeling, clutching the mantel, the hearth empty, as always...
Always...
Concentrating against the pain in his foot, replaying his conversation with the Archivist the description of the coin, its function, its purpose... his thoughts running with increasing speed and volume toward the inevitable conclusion:
It can't be real can't be real it can't IT IS REAL.
Severus paced Hermione's floor. He had accepted Demetrios's expertise without hesitation of course he had, given his prestigious position; the fact that he was dead meant he was politically neutral but when it came to trusting Hermione...
That Granger girl will bear watching...
In Hermione's flat, Severus snorted, but the memories continued.
Wondering what her purpose was; how it involved him; against his will, as always; nothing new there...
Assistance. She must be after his assistance. Bollocks that as if his time was limitless, could expand to indulge her petty concerns. Let her turn to Potter...
Turning abruptly from his empty hearth and moving toward his desk where a small pile of essays lay as if meekly awaiting the lash of his quill, which Blast it he'd left it in the classroom...
Severus eased himself into a chair at Hermione's kitchen table, still remembering...
Stopping abruptly in the door to the classroom, his eye falling on charred remnants that had been quill before she had sparked it into ashes...
Because a Fourth-Year-Who-Wasn't had had enough force in her Shield Charm to rebound his spell, wreaking mayhem with his belongings...
Realizing that she'd not turn to Potter, no, not if she were as old as... as... as old she had no right to be.
A Gryffindor. Minerva's problem, then. Then, No.
Realizing that... that what? That other than Trelawney...
A snort, both in past and present.
... that other than that lunatic Trelawney, he was the only one who could hear her. How had the mad Archivist put it? The "object" of her "float."
Distilling what he knew of human character generally and of that student in particular, concluding with whip-blinding accuracy that she was here, she must be here to plague him on the matter of...
... of what?
Scowling...
He couldn't begin to imagine the focus of her research.
The area, then. Arithmancy... that or Charms... if she had any talent beyond reducing the library to precarious piles of maddeningly unrelated books, it lay in those subjects in finicky calculations and ill-calculated, attention-seeking displays. What assistance did she imagine he could possibly offer?
None. Obviously. He was no potions ingredient to be measured and used in her calculations.
In Hermione's flat, a short, mirthless laugh. "Of course you are, you idiot."
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Hermione sat at her usual table in the library still muttering to Crookshanks, who had been waiting for her outside the classroom door and who was now blinking at her from the nearby window ledge.
Leaning her head on her elbow, she stared at her History of Magic notes, asking them, "So what now?"
A brief pause whilst Crookshanks relayed her query through Mimi, then her neat handwriting exploded into, "NAOW U WAIT 4 ME."
She blinked at the size of the letters. "Wait for you? Wait for you to do what?"
"WAIT 4 PAST ME 2 STAWP KICKNG FURNICHUR. IDJIT JUST BROK HIZ TOE."
She rolled her eyes. "Lovely. Do you anticipate coming to your senses any time soon?"
Her History of Magic notes waited whilst Crookshanks washed an urgent bit of his tail. Then, "DEPENDZ."
"On what?"
"NO CLOO. IZZINT EVRY DAY U LRRRN U R OBJCT OF DIVYNE INTURV... INTRUST..."
Hermione's watched the cats struggle with spelling.
"... BUGGRING GREK GODDISS IN FORM OF STOODINT. CURISTY WIL OWT IN TYME."
She laughed shortly. "We can debate the question of my divinity some other time. What are you doing now? In your memories, I mean?"
"REZENTNG U."
"How spectacularly self-indulgent of you, Professor."
"RIGARDLSS, TROO."
Hermione leaned back in her chair and pushed her hair away from her face. "Well, I hope you don't make too long a business of it. Fourth Year wasn't exactly a basket of Pygmy Puffs the first time around, and I'd really like to get out of this uniform"
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"Great Merlin, Hermione." Severus swallowed.
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" it's getting rather too small and back into my own life before this castle gets any colder."
Her notes said nothing for several long moments.
Her lips twitched as she folded the cuffs of her blouse over the scratchy wool and pushed her sleeves up to her elbows.
Crookshanks leapt from the windowsill to her lap and shoved his head into her hand. Her notes rearranged to read, "MIMI SEZ HIZ THINKIN FUZZD UP."
She nodded. "Tell Mimi to give him a few minutes."
"MrrrOW."
Hermione rubbed Crookshanks's ears and waited.
Finally, her notes seemed to regain their composure. "I WILL PRBBLY AVOYD U FOR WEEK OR 2."
"Weeks?" She paled and sat straighter, her sudden movement sending Crookshanks to the floor. "Weeks? But... but you have a choice to make, yes? And a potion?"
"BREETH. IZ STIL SAYM NYTE U LEFT."
Hermione couldn't begin to understand how time was passing differently in the present and the past. "Shite."
"LANGUIJ, MIS GRAYNGRR."
"Oh, bugger your buttoned-up self and the Thestral you rode in on." She frowned, still trying to encompass the impossibilities of two independent yet conjoined times.
"PLEEZ STAWP THINKIN ABOWT MI BUTTONZ. TOO HARD."
Her eyebrows flew up. Although she knew, somehow, that he meant that she shouldn't make this any harder on either of them than it already was, a small gleam grew in her eye, matched by a quirk of a dimple in her cheek. "And how, exactly, am I not supposed to think about them... about you... when here I can see them and all I want to do is slowly undo each..."
Crookshanks' whiskers twitched as the ink blotted murkily on the page. "PRFSSR CHOK."
"U R CHYLD."
"Did you know you have nine buttons on each cuff? Really, Severus, how long did it take you to dress in the morning?"
"REPLY HAYZY AKS AGIN LATUR."
Hermione's lips twitched. "Are you going to take points from Gryffindor because I fancy you, Professor Snape?"
A very long pause, then her notes re-formed to read, "PRBBLY."
"Bastard."
"BYND UR WYLDST DREEMZ."
"Oh, really? Tell me what do you dream of?"
Her parchment emitted a faint layer of steam.
Crookshanks arched his back, tail bushing, and he skittered backwards off the table, disappearing into the endless rows of bookshelves that screened her seat from the rest of the library.
She chuckled, running her fingers through her hair and braiding it loosely. Although her mood was improved for the moment and how could it not be? she knew there was nothing to be done. For whatever reason, she remained stuck in her own past, her only viable human ally a living, breathing... mmm... physically commanding Potions professor, whom she wanted very badly to... well, yes 'though she'd prefer to be at least a bit taller when that happened...
She leaned back again and closed her eyes.
She'd never borne the onslaught of the full strength of his magic before it had been all she could do to hold her Shield Charm against his Summoning spell. A simple spell, really; if he'd pulled anything more out of his arsenal, she wasn't sure hers would've held.
In its way, a duel was as naked as a kiss.
Eventually, she shook her head and forcibly derailed that particular train of thought. Sending a mental burst of exasperation in the general direction of Athena, Demetrios, and the Potions classroom, she took to the shelves where the advanced Arithmancy texts were kept.
Arithmancy had always calmed her nerves in school. She didn't think it would have the quite same effect under current circumstances, but there were a few problems she had left hanging in the Archive, and...
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Severus had barely recovered his command of himself after the button conversation when Hermione's Floo roared in the living room and he heard the voice of the operator spell.
"Mrs. Potter for Dr. Granger..."
He stood very still.
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However Hermione might have wished for her current Potions professor to sort out the finer points of divine intervention, history had its own opinions regarding the niceties of timing and, for that matter, time.
One moment, she'd been snug in the library, focused completely on one of the Archive's more challenging organizational problems (Atlantis was always threatening to slip its mooring and drift down the Thames). In the next, and with absolutely no warning, she was blurring through several days as though clinging to a racing broom gone berserk, watching her fourth-year self speed through long stretches so banal she couldn't imagine what history was thinking.
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When the operator spell received no answer, it continued, "Dr. Granger is unavailable, Mrs. Potter. Would you care to leave a Floonote?"
"Yes, thank you... oh, Harry, will you please take the baby or... no, just get me a quill... no, not the one James has been scribbling with one of the new white ones." A pause. "Oh, I don't know where you put them. Here, just hold him..."
A few minutes later, he heard the connection close.
Mimi hopped off the table and scampered to the archway only to freeze in response to something he couldn't see.
He looked into the living room as the last of the flames died away around a small, perfectly shaped apple on Hermione's hearth.
Mimi stalked it, crouched low and twitched her tail, preparing to pounce.
"That's Hermione's, not yours," he chided her, reaching for it.
At his touch, its peel unfurled, resolving itself into a gently rounded, perfectly smooth parchment.
Mimi wove hopeful figure-eights around his boots, looking up at the parchment as he read,
"H, Crooks is beside himself and the baby's throwing an awful fuss... when you get in, will you please, please come through and see if you can calm at least one of them? Thx ~ Gin.
P.S. Yes, Harry finally got us an iFloo. Frightfully trendy, I know - but I'm helpless to resist good design!"
He placed the parchment on a side-table, where it immediately turned back into an apple.
Leaving Mimi to sniff the apple and casting a hooded glance at Hermione's softly breathing self, he checked the potion glimmering softly, just as it ought and reached for the Poe volume he still carried tucked inside his robes.
A wordy bastard, but he required distraction.
Within a few moments, Mimi was dozing curled on his lap, and soon he was muttering scathing commentary on what sort of fool buries a heart in the bedroom?
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In the few moments when time slowed down and behaved properly, Hermione flung her thoughts through the cereal to check what time it was in present-day London.
The answer never varied: "FYVE MINNITZ AFTUR LAST TYME U INTERRPTID MI. WHEN IZ THER?"
But history never granted her enough time to answer.
After a particularly harrowing transition from her evening bubble bath to streaming out of the Great Hall after lunch an unremarkable few days later, she blurted, "Bugger Athena, anyway!" only to find herself on the receiving end of Lavender's impassioned and rather high-pitched censure.
"Hermione! Even though you're too mundane to appreciate the influence of Astral Entities..."
"'Astral Entites' my empirical arse," she muttered, wheeling away and heading toward the Entrance Hall with Crookshanks on her heels. "As if you'd believe the half of it if I told you, you ridiculous cow..."
She felt rather than heard an eyebrow lift in her immediate vicinity and drew herself up short.
Shite! Where did he come from? "Professor Snape?"
"A word, Miss Granger."
Nerves taut from hurtling in short, fast-forward bursts through days at a time, she snapped, "What is it? I've Arithmancy in five minutes..." I think.
"Five points from Gryffindor." As the Hall emptied around them, he loomed over her. "For insolence."
His voice seemed curl under her hair, and she blushed. Sweet Merlin...
With her younger self quiescent and apparently blissfully unaware in the back of her mind, Hermione looked down, trying to school her features into something resembling a neutral expression. Pixies preserve me, there are buttons on his trouser cuffs, too...
"If you're quite finished examining the floor..."
"Yes, sir. Sorry, sir."
The last student footsteps echoed away, and he spoke. "I've no use for legendary coins."
"I've little patience for the actual one," she muttered through clenched teeth.
He crossed his arms, and she risked raising her gaze to his hands.
Strong. Capable. Um... bad idea, Granger.
"What is your object in coming to this year?"
"I don't know."
"Impossible."
Hermione abandoned all efforts of not meeting his gaze. "What possible reason do I have to lie to you?" She crossed her arms back at him, and they glared at each other.
"Fifty points from"
"Take as many as you like! It makes no difference to me; if it does to history, then history will glue those rubies to the top of the hourglass with a Sticking Charm the likes of which not even the Founders ever imagined."
"You will address me as befits your..." Here he faltered.
"My what?" She laughed sharply. "Age? That hardly applies. My height, perhaps?"
He said nothing.
"Well, get used to it, sir; I don't get much taller."
A flicker of interest crossed his features.
Unnerved, she queried, "What?"
"So you survive to adulthood."
Oh. Chiding her ridiculously hopeful heart, Hermione shook her head. Of course he'd want to know how much time... "It happens this year I'm going to have to send my dress robes to London for alteration before too long if I haven't already. What month is it, anyway?"
His eyes glinted sharply. "You don't know?"
"I keep fast-forwarding."
"It is presently the 19th of September."
Happy Birthday, she thought sourly.
They stood there uncomfortably for a few moments. Finally, she broke the silence. "It was a nice bit of logic to try, though. That bit about my height, I mean."
Their silence outgrew awkward and hurtled toward unbearable.
Finally, he spat, "This is most unnatural."
"You're telling me, sir?"
He said nothing, his eyes seeming to measure her against some standard she could not begin to perceive.
When he reached no apparent conclusion, she said, "You don't trust me, do you, Professor?"
His eyes hardened, and she continued, "Well, of course you don't; how could you be expected to? You at least trust Demetrios, though, don't you? About the coin?"
He regarded her coolly. "The Archivist's credentials are impeccable."
"Well, you're going to have to trust someone. And he's utterly beyond politics, given that he's dead."
Something in his eyes glimmered briefly, and even as she saw it, she understood it immediately. Professor Snape - this Professor Snape wanted to die.
"I won't let you, you bastard," she said flatly, turning on her heel and heading toward the stairs.
"Detention! And fifteen points from Gryffindor," he snapped.
"Fine," she spat, not looking back. "I'm late."
As always.
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"I won't let you."
Book and kitten forgotten, Severus moved to Hermione's side.
She lay still, breathing softly.
"You're not going to make this easy on me, are you?"
Held rapt by the curve of Hermione's immobile brow, he didn't notice when Mimi extended a small, curious paw toward the apple.
Floatnotes:
1. To the best of my knowledge, no individual or corporate entity holds copyright or trademark on a lowercase "i." However, f ths assumpton proves ncorrect, the nternet polce wll fnd me eventually and edt ths chapter accordngly.
2. "The Tell-Tale Heart": The Poe story that endures Severus's critical scrutiny. The self-explanatory title has zero metaphorical pertinence whatsoever, because wouldn't that be too obvious? ... ... *looks at you. ... Yes?
*twirls quill.
~ A.
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So, I read this story quite a long time ago, and for some reason remembered it as being finished. Rather startled when I couldn't continue on after this chapter. I hope you haven't given up on it entirely. I have enjoyed your writing more than anything I've read in quite a long time. I love the interaction in our two favorite swots. You bring them to life so close to how I imagine them myself. If you ever need any encouragement or assistance please let me know. I'd be happy to do anything to help this story find its ending...
For the love of Snape, please update this! It's A brillant story and I'm dying to see it completed.
Please continue this fanfic!! I would really love to know what happens to Mee and if Hermione gets back to herself.!!!!?
Best. Fic. Ever!!!!
I keep on wanting to review, then I just have to read the others first, and they say it all so well.
All I'm left with, is: I love Meemee, the two not -quite ghosts, with their wonderous physicality , -ties ..??
Hermione's faith and brilliant mind, and the transparent,happy texture in the writing.
It is so good. Satisfying, like Impressionists, or Bach.
Favouriting it, obviously.
Sighing quietly:please let him live, with her.
What an utterly brilliant, enthralling story! Please finish it, I can't stand not knowing how it ends!
How did I ever miss these updates? I am so glad that I came across them now! Wow, over two years since the last updates that I saw, and I still remember so clearly what was happening in this story. That just goes to show how memorable and intriguing your writing is. I so very much enjoy this story, and I just love Mimi. And the detail of the hourglass turning in the fireplace - as someone who wrestles with inadequate and infuriating technology, I love this!
Woohoo! New chapters. Excellent as always. I love the two different and yet similar Snapes. So much fun to read. I'm looking forward to future chapters. Thank you.
“She will do as she is bidden.”
Hermione laughed shortly. “You don’t have much experience with cats, do you?”
Nor much with personal interactions either...
Love the humour!
Great developments and revelations!
Too funny!
Ooh, love hanging in the balance.
Hmm, interesting development.
The letters on the table scraped almost silently into “Wtf?”
To Mimi, of course, that meant “Whut that forr?” – but Severus didn’t see it, and Mimi couldn’t have explained it to him if he had.
It amounted to much the same thing, regardless.
Too funny and way above his head. :)
Demetrios is great! I love the little insular world you've created for Hermione in this story!
Love the cereal, too funny!
Mimi is too cute!
Glad to see this posted and updated! Off to re-read!
Ok, I am in the middle of my first reading of this story, but I just had to comment. I love some of the concepts in this story so very much, and even all the references and connections to philosophy and history and such. Demetrios is awesome. Ahhh...I love it! *rushes to continue*
I was so delighted to see the updates for this story that I went back and re-read it from the beginning! I can only echo all of the other well-deserved compliments here and sit back to wait anxiously for the next update.
Oh, I'm hooked on this story! Thank you so much, and I look forward to more!
OMG, she is going to bring him back, so she can kill him.
Aha!! A breakthrough! At least I think so. And I'm so glad the kitten was found. Please don't make us wait too long for the next update?
The potion emitted a single bubble and turned a sullen shade of blue.
When enumerating your many strengths, did I remember to mention that you are unparalleled in WHIMSY????
"Oh, do go on grasping at that straw, for as long as you can..."
~permits self small shiver of delight~
"When I know your guilt, your despair, your self-imposed hair-shirt of heroic self-sacrifice? Fighting through the broken glass of your words, trying to find one elusive moment when you can actually hear me? When your insults and sarcasm make my teeth ache even as my heart breaks for you?"
Well, there's your whimsy, and then there's your lyricism. Your poetry. Lovely, dearest.
But best of all ...
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A kitten in the Library? The books will never be the same. ^_^