Trespassing
Chapter 2 of 4
Southern_Witch_69Snape explains the reasons he takes advantage of Hermione each night and feels no remorse about doing so.
ReviewedDisclaimer: J.K.R. owns these characters, and I'm just using them.
Thanks go to my beta, NotSoSaintly. I offer her hugs and chocolate for taking the time to beta this story even though she doesn't care for the plot.
Warning: As with the first chapter, remember that this story depicts a situation where Snape takes complete advantage of Hermione. Please do not read it if you are bothered by molestation or rape.
It's so easy to watch you like this while you move about my home, keeping it clean and caring for the two old biddies that are here with us. You don't look at me often, and when you do, I simply ignore your presence, feigning reading or researching. It's been nearly a year since I found you in the infirmary huddled closely to Weasley's body, a dying Minerva, and an unconscious Poppy. The Dark Lord had found out that Potter had gone to the castle, and we'd moved to intercept him. The brat slipped away from us, but I don't care. He's off in hiding...coward that he is. He'll never get the nerve to try to find us.
As a reward for devising a way to get in through the Forbidden Forest without detection, I was gifted with keeping you to do with as I pleased. Your tears and blubbering disgusted me, but I knew that I could use you. Not having any house-elves, I figured your housecleaning skills would be particularly better than those of Wormtail's. After I summoned and broke all of your wands, I lifted mine and pointed it to Minerva, preparing to extinguish what little life there was left in her body. The woman opened an eye at that moment, and I faltered. It had been so long since I'd seen her, since I'd strayed away from the course I should have taken, since the night I took the headmaster's life. Slight guilt flooded my body for a moment, and I realized that by seemingly caring for their welfare, I would gain your complacency, ending the tears and perhaps making amends for past misdeeds.
I was correct, of course. You did everything I requested and have been doing so since then. Interestingly enough, a potion of my creation has given Minerva a rather impressive extension on her life. She hasn't the use of her legs, but she can now talk and feed herself. Just yesterday, she was able to play a game of chess with me. Poppy lives in a constant state of silence. Apparently, things happened to her that she chooses not to share with anyone, but she helps with the chores and the making of my potions. My home has never looked better; my ingredients have never been prepared so perfectly. Do you realize that the potions you help me with go to the Dark Lord and my fellow Death Eaters? Do you care?
Feeding you all rubbish about how I am still secretly working to help Potter to defeat the Dark Lord has enabled me to keep you all content. The three of you think that I am secretly hiding you away from the Dark Lord until Potter is victorious, thus giving you life when you might not survive otherwise. I pat myself on the back often. Who else but I could spin such a smooth tale and make it believable?
I often think of the first time that I touched your flesh, and I know our fates were sealed in that moment. You will never leave my home. There is much more that you are useful for. When you'd been at my house for only a couple of months, I saw that your candles were still burning in your room at a late hour. I went in to find you asleep, a book resting on your chest. The gown that you'd been wearing had moved up, revealing the curve of your arse, shaped by your knickers.
The sight of your exposed flesh sent a jolt through me and instantly aroused me. I had the urge to touch you, to see if your skin was as smooth as it looked. I moved across the room and extinguished your candles. It was then that I noticed that you hadn't moved a muscle. You hadn't heard the door, the rustling of my robes, or my steps. In that instant, I knew that I could likely touch you without you ever knowing it. What would it hurt if nobody knew?
Your room had darkened just enough that I could barely make out your face and body, as your window is mostly boarded, enabling moonlight to filter in only through a couple of small spaces between the slats. That night, I knelt down next to your bed and eased my hand out to rest upon the back of your thigh. When you didn't move, I inched it up very slowly, observing your body as I did so, noting that it was indeed soft and smooth. Finally, I was able to cup your arse and squeeze lightly. With each squeeze, my cock twitched. I knew that it had been too long since I'd had a woman, so I opted to relieve myself. Slipping a finger beneath the hem of your knickers, I allowed it to move along the bare flesh of your arse as I released my cock from my pants in order to stroke myself until climax found me.
The entire time, you hadn't moved, never noticing that I'd used you. It was a completely erotic feeling for me. It's an exciting and powerful feeling to get away with something so salacious. In fact, I enjoyed those feelings as much as I enjoyed my climax. I wondered what else I could get away with. As carefully as I could, I fixed my clothing and eased out of your room.
And so, it began for us. You never moved much when I came to you, sleeping heavily and mumbling now and then, and you never once woke to take me to task or mentioned it to anyone else...even me. I suspected that you knew, on some unconscious level, but I wondered if you thought me to be some dream lover? Actually, it didn't matter to me any longer after the first couple of months. So long as I took extra care to keep you in a foggy, sleepy state, you would remain submissive, allowing my hands and mouth to do as they pleased. What could you do anyway? Whom could you tell? Where would you go? You all need me to "help" Potter and to stay alive.
Being in complete control of someone is something that I relish. Even when I see you bustling about my house, I know that you are mine...my servant, my assistant, and even my whore. It's been many months since the first night that I touched you. Interestingly enough, I found out a few weeks ago that by tasting your flesh, I could force your body to find release. It was that night that what I had suspected was realized. You knew what I was doing to you, completely and consciously. Your muffled moan and the feel of your pelvis slightly grinding against me had given me one of my longest and most satisfying orgasms. It was as if I'd won something. You'll never understand how powerful I feel, knowing I can elicit a response from you that you are unwilling to give me. I returned the favor in kind by whispering your name as I came. I followed suit when you remained silent after, obviously pretending to be asleep.
That you keep silent works fine for me. I don't want to get caught up in some silly conversation. I only want your body in payment for keeping you and your two friends alive. There is something that I've been warring with since the night I first tasted you, and you tried to mask your orgasm. I want to fuck you. And I will... later tonight. Had someone told me a couple of years ago that I would be having relations with one of my pesky students, I would never have believed that I could stoop so low as to touch one of you. Not that I feel low for taking what I want from you. It's that it's you whom I'm taking it from. You've never appealed to me. Even now, I don't find you all that attractive. I simply enjoy that you belong to me and that I can do with you what I will. Your life is in my hands.
I notice that you are about to retire. It's time to let you know my intentions. "Hermione," I say more calmly than I feel. You come to me obediently, not quite meeting my eyes. I push a phial across my desk to you. "You will drink this."
Watching you as you pick up the phial and sniff it is intoxicating. I can feel my groin jolting when your eyes widen, discovering that I am ordering you to drink a dose of potion that will prevent pregnancy. You know what this means. You know without my having to say one word that I intend to have you.
As you lift your eyes to meet mine, I can see your fear and the horror you must feel. I simply raise a questioning eyebrow and cock my head to the side as if to ask if there is a problem. Your eyes never leave mine as you bring the phial to your lips and down its substance.
"If that will be all," you say, slamming the empty phial down.
"Do have a good night," I murmur mockingly, pleased that you have accepted your lot in life without any dramatic outbursts. I know you loathe me. So be it. Before you leave the room completely, you look back once, and I see that your eyes are shining. You'll likely cry as you bathe. I'll give you enough time to collect yourself and prepare for me. As I sit and wait for you to be finished and for your candles to be extinguished, a small pang of regret flits through me. Dumbledore would be completely disappointed. All of our plans have been for naught. He ordered me to fulfill my vow to Narcissa by taking his life so that his Boy Fucking Wonder could carry on. Ha! Potter will not win this war, I see that now, and I've taken two staff members and a student to live as my captives, though they believe me to be helping them.
I push those thoughts aside and go to my room to prepare myself. I can feel the excitement threatening to burst in my veins. What will meet me when I come to your room? Will you fight me? Will you remain submissive? Will you try to enjoy what I can give you? As I cross from my doorway to yours, I can see that your room is finally dark, and as always, I open the door very slowly, noticing your shape lying motionless on the bed as I do so.
Once I am next to your bed, I slowly sit down. You are quiet, and your face, as always, is turned to face the wall. I am slightly disappointed that you've decided to go the route of not acknowledging me, but deep down, I know that you want me. You'll just never admit it. If you openly respond to me or to what I do to you, you would be forced to face that you like what I do. I reach out to place my hand upon your bare calf and detect the diminutive stiffening of your legs.
Inch by inch, my hand glides up, and I smirk to myself as I notice that you've shaved. Both of my eyebrows rise in surprise as I notice you are sans knickers. I am not so arrogant as to believe that this is for my benefit. It is probable that you want me to do my deed and be done. However, I shall continue at whatever pace I deem fit. Ever so slowly, I reach the hem of your gown and begin lifting it, ultimately arranging it neatly near your shoulders so that it's out of my way.
I'm watching your face now, and I can see that your eyes are closed. I know that you are not sleeping, for I can feel the tremble in your body. You're nervous and uncertain of what I will do next. You are planning to not respond and ignore me. No matter. That will not deter me. Passing my hands over the soft flesh of your breasts, I leisurely slide them down to your center, parting your lips and using a finger to test your wetness. You aren't very damp, but that will change.
Wanting to feel my bare skin against yours, I move back and pull my nightshirt up and away from me. Just knowing that you are grudgingly giving me your unwilling body because you have no choice arouses me. I own you. I can do with you what I want. Nobody can stop me. I've never been the type to take a woman against her will, usually able to find someone willing to rut with me, but taking what is not freely given, desecrating the trust you have in me, makes me feel like a god. Your fate is in my hands, and sex...on my terms...is my payment. For the first time since I've been visiting you, I lie down at your side, careful not to move the bed much, making certain that I can feel your skin against me.
Casually propping myself up on one elbow, I use my free hand to lightly caress your body. You're tense and still trembling. I allow my fingers to begin working on your center and decide to use my mouth on your breasts. I like your breasts. They're not too small, not too big, and your nipples harden so easily. As I'm flicking my tongue over your lush mounds, I realize that I don't have to take such painstaking measures to be certain you don't wake. You know what I am doing.
Enthused, my tongue trails a path down to replace my fingers. You are pleasantly damp, and I feel that I could slide into you with ease. I feel you quiver faintly and wonder what's going through your mind. Are you afraid? Are you anxious? Locating your clitoris, I move my tongue over it, and when I feel your legs become rigid again, I know that you are trying not to react to my ministration. This sends a jolt down to my penis, making it harden even more. I don't think I've ever wanted a woman so much, ever felt such need burning down in my scrotum. I continue until your legs relax, flex, and lift ever so slightly. I would miss it if I hadn't started looking for it. The barely audible breath that you exhale abruptly tells me you've found release, though you try to hide it from me.
It's time. I move and crawl up your body, gently moving your thighs farther apart with my knees. I guide my erection to your opening and push in slowly. Your head is still turned to the side, and there is no reaction. Closing my eyes, I ease further into you, relishing the feel of your heat and wetness. You're very tight, and to my dismay, I realize that I am not the only man to have had you. I wonder how many have had the pleasure of your body. Weasley? Potter? That thought nearly puts me off, but soon, the need to seek my orgasm overrules any disgust I might feel. Weasley is dead. Potter will be soon. You may have been with either of them, but for now, you're mine.
My strokes are tentative at first because I want to enjoy you, learn you, and feel you, but it isn't long before I can no longer maintain such an unhurried speed. Now and again, I can feel you twitching around my cock, and I wonder how it feels to you. I open my eyes and see that you are now biting your lip. Interesting. I continue to watch you as I increase my thrusts in both speed and pressure. Your body feels so good to me. Better than I'd imagined. How long will it take before you can openly accept my advances? When will you eagerly part your legs and guide me inside of you on your own? I think I shall make that a goal. Perhaps. I may not even bother. It's all about me, isn't it?
The jiggling of your breasts, a slight rumbling in your throat, and the feel of your heat clasping me tightly brings about a sudden release. I spill into you completely, but I don't stop pumping until I'm entirely spent. I don't pull out, and I don't collapse atop you. I simply stare down at you, willing you to look at me. I want you to acknowledge what we are doing... what I am doing.
Finally, I am rewarded. Your face turns, and I can just make out your eyes. I tilt my head to the side and study you intently. You're angry and horror-struck. That's plain enough to see. I smile smugly, however, because even though you didn't find release whilst I was within you, your body still responded to me. When I notice a few tears escaping from your eyelids, I decide it's time for me to leave. I was never good with crying women. You could probably console yourself better than any attempt I could make.
Surprisingly, you speak to me as I pull my body from yours, breaking our intimate connection. "I hate you," you whisper.
"I know," I return evenly. I am not bothered by your admission. Most of the people that know me have spent years loathing me. This is nothing new. I firmly believe that what you hate is that deep down you enjoy what I do for you and make you feel. I find my wand, cast a couple of spells to clean our bodies, and quickly dress. When I reach out to pull your nightgown back down, you wrench away from my gasp and yank it down yourself.
"Leave."
I shrug and say, "Good night." I don't leave right away though. I stand there for a moment and gaze down at you, as I normally do. You belong to me. It's heady and pleasing. I sigh in contentment and go back to my room.
Once I am in my own bed, I think about what transpired between us. Perhaps tomorrow night you will be more receptive. I turn over and begin to drift off into a pleasant sleep.
Southern's Notes: Not a very nice Snape at all. I think having lots of power over someone is a very heady sensation, and he would be the type of man to exploit that.
Someone requested via email that I do a chapter that shows how Hermione gets away from him. I may do that. Thanks for reading and for all the feedback.
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71 Reviews | 5.94/10 Average
I'm re-reading it, I like this story, and I absolutely love a dark, morally grey, baddie Severus, but unfortunately there are not many fics where he is actually bad or morally grey.
I'm re-reading it, I like this story, and I absolutely love a dark, morally grey, baddie Severus, but unfortunately there are not many fics where he is actually bad or morally grey.
There are no words I could use to describe the feelings that have now engulfed me after reading not only the story of Hermione and Severus but yours as well. I can only offer the sincere sorrow I feel in my heart for the tragic events that have happened. I can honestly say that I could not fathom any kind of abuse in that way and do not pretend to know what it is that you or anyone else has gone through. I can only hope that with time and distance that you can somehow learn to live with and be able to deal with what has happen and try and find some joy in this life and not let it define you. I have not experienced the tragedy you have had but I have had my own tragic experience. I know and can understand the feeling of being less than what you were and the feeling of never really being able to feel whole again. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
DAMN IT I hope Sn ape just wont get away with this! I would so hate it, if he does I wll jus thave to imagine some gruesome death myself. Hermione, run away as fast and as far away as possible get back to strength then get back and kill him slosly an dpainfully. Bah this was anti-climatic. Hermione has not been able to confront him and Snape was able to die a hero, to the world at least she will now never be able to talk about it. How will she ever get well now? Come on Snape show some of that strength and keep yourself alive till Hermione can finish the job. I dont think I oculd have ever forgiven him, no way. Well at least he found his conscience at last, i hope Hermione will be able to recover from the damage, however. I dont think she would ahve returned to him, fervently do not hope so, though some women do return ot their abusers... Harry should read that letter, hasnt he noticed in her behaviour that something is wrong... I hoped they could talk about it, but maybe not... I am happy Hermione found happiness in the end, even if Harry doesn tknow. I hope she will be able to cope, i just find it so hard that she has to bear it all alone and has no outlet for it. Again, I never could have forgiven Snape.
I have had some disturbing experiences in my youth as well so its a bit sensitive. I recently watched a movie called the war zone (199) and it was the most disturbing thing I had ever watched.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
I believe you must have missed the part where Snape died... or perhaps you were wishing him a more painful death? I'm not sure. Hermione doesn't want to share what happened to her. She may never tell anyone. Sometimes this is just how it is. Shame and humiliation goes a long way in stopping the admittance of what's happened, even though it's not the person's fault. She has "forgiven" Snape because that's her nature. She forgave him because in the end, he did help Harry and ultimately them. But she will never forget what's happened. That's a difference between the two. I believe Harry is doing the right thing by not invading her privacy. When she's ready to tell him, she will. If ever.
Shit, he has probbably been in a battle with HArry, why cant Hermione go that last bit and know snape is betraying htem all, but that woul dundo her I think, still with her critical mind she would be able to see it. Now she is helping him get well again so he can attack them again.... I cant believe poppy is talking to hermione in this way! Also Snape is NOT helping htem. I hope she finds this out, i so hope she does. God I hate it when people say it is your own fault ofr wearing certain clothes NO IT IS NOT! Snape had NO RIGHT to do what he did to Hermione and he bloody well knows it too. Oh how can people be this way? I really dont understand bloody poppy she should know better, Hermione is a child still oh her body is mature enouigh... I hope Hermione will get her bloody revenge on everyone! I hate them all! I was happy that you put that note below the chapter because you understand the situation is not as it should be (duh of ocurse it is not) but with poppy I mean. I hope she finds out about Snapes other treacheries and then sets the whole house on fire. This is the most disturbing fic I have ever read just because of the psychological contents. I have read A LOT of stuff, ahve been into ss/hg for 9 years now or so but this just tops it all. I am going to take a shower after I finish reading the lats chapter because now I cant stop, I just cant bear it if Hermione would have to stay there all of her life literally in hell. I also am so disappointed in Minerva although indeed Snape can be believable I guess. I hope at some point his conscience will kick in if he has any left, i doubt it though, he is beyond salvation. I think this is even worse then a typical rape.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
She can't "go the last bit" and figure it out because she isn't more clever than he is. He gives her no reason to not believe in him. He's keeping them alive as far as they are concerned. She won't do anything that might bring harm to the others and suffers because of it. People in tough situations sometimes feel they have no choice. Well, of course I don't condone what Poppy said or any of Snape's actions. This is just the story I wanted to write and how I wanted to portray it. I decided to use characters that I enjoy writing to fill these roles.
I wodner how anyone can NOT be bothered by molestation and rape. I wonder if Snape was a traitor to the order or if Vodlemort just foind another way to win, the situation was precarious after all... Hmm bu tI guess this was written before dh so Snape might just be a follower of voldemort after all. Yes, in this situation I guess who could Hermione tell? No friends are around to tell... She is alone, god the desolation of it all, the misery. I hate Snape like htis sure I think he is a bastard and a petty bully but not like this... Shit she really should confront the fucking bastard, he really thinks she is sleeping. I hope she will kill him. I so hope Hermione will find out what Snape is doing, i eman that he is not helpin gharry and that she will totally loose herself and kill him, her spirit has to be somewhere... Yes gets away from him AND kill shim, he does not deserve to be left alive. I think Snape would enjoy exploit in a certain way, i think In-canon snape has honour through and has not gone completely to the dark side.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
This was written well before DH, yes. My personal feelings on Snape aren't conveyed in this story. This is just the character I made him to be to suit my own needs in telling a horrible story.
I have never really been into first-person perspective fics because for some reason they tend to be more difficult for me to get into. A third person (in the past, past tense I eman) always seem to work best for me to get into a story. But in this case maybe its best because you really know hwat hermione is going through. This really is disturbing htough, wow. I wodner why Hermione cant tell anyone, what the situation in general is. I guess I will find out, sigh... I wonder why she doesnt FUKCINGhex his balls off. Why doesnt she do anything..... Why doesnt sxhe at least yell at him... this shouldnt be so easy for him... he should know that what he is doing to her is unwanted and how much she hates him for it. Snape has been a spy for so long, how can he assume she is sleeping that would just b ethick. I wonder how he can be so careless at all, I mean if he really felt he had to do this then why not at least obleviate her afterwards... Not that I condone what he is doing dont get me wrong... And why in the hell doesnt she do something... It really freaks me out. Sorry not meaning to flame or anything. I think she should confrotnate him and yell at him tell hem what he is doing to her fucking kick him in the guts. She should NOT be just passive through this and let him pretend that she is not real. Maybe she cant tell anyone else although I doubt it but she can tell him in no uncertain terms. I dont udnerstand why she did not do this the first time it happened, tell him / hex him..... I just cant understand it, I know this kin dof stuff happens to peopl ebu tI thought it all started at an earlier age and I certainly did not think something like this woul dhappen to headstrong Hermione. I jus thope she gathers the strength and courage to put a stop to this and that she gets her revenge on him. I just really hope she will get out of this and get her revenge on Snape
I have read quite a few darkfics but I think this one is maybe the most disturbing of them all.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
I know you've read the rest of the story, so I shan't comment on your questions, as you know the answers already. Thanks for reviewing, even though it's been a disturbing ride for you.
"Hermione’s new relationship with Harry is plausible in this story (they only have each other). I think she just needed time to realize that Snape was no longer there and couldn’t touch her or force her to do anything she didn’t want to do."This statement, while you know it to be true, I can also attest to its validity. My husband and I slept in the same bed for nearly 2 years before he woke up without bruises. Poor man couldn't even attempt to wrap his arms around me while I slept without me lashing out at him.This is a very different view, and a very emotional one at that. The added element of being blamed for enticement makes it even more so.Well written, as always. Even when the content is disturbing--which makes it more difficult to write well.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
Thanks for your heartfelt feedback. Sometimes I like to write about certain things to clear my mind. :)
I'm glad I decided to read your story. Generally, I really dislike anything non-con and won't even go there. As far as my experiences go, I feel like you've got everything right here and it was nice to read someone who actually knws how to properly handle the subject. Thank you.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
I appreciate this very much. Thank you. It's definitely a touchy subject to deal with and very disappointing to see how some stories just toss it in for "excitement" or something. :(
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
I appreciate this very much. Thank you. It's definitely a touchy subject to deal with and very disappointing to see how some stories just toss it in for "excitement" or something. :(
Good story. Cried when Severus died.
Very disturbing indeed... Interesting Snape POV...
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
thanks for reading
i hope you found this somewhat cathartic to write. thank you for sharing that tender part of yourself with us.
i hope you found this somewhat cathartic to write. thank you for sharing that tender part of yourself with us.
Thank you says it all.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
thanks for reading. :)
again your strength seems to be unlimited. when i was 14 i was abused. that pain will never leave. almost two years ago now i took an overdose with the intent of ending my life. but i woke up nd have re-built my life. harry potter for me was always an escape. an outlet that no one eles could touch or break. i again solute you for being abel to write about something so personal. something i am not sure i could ever do. this story holds truth. however painfull that may be. your writing is a gift.abz x
i just wanted to say that i thought the courage and strength it must have taken to write this story and tell us about your past is amazing. iam so sorry that you had to go through that. i just wanted to say that i understand that pain and i solute u.x
What a difficult story this must have been to write. It was hard to read, but at the same time, it was brilliantly written. Kudos to you for tackling a difficult subejct. I am glad she and Harry found love.
Reading the story I have to say I did not feel much of anything, just numb, but finishing it now... I just want to cry, only I am not sure whether I am vrying for Hermione or you... or me. Or whether they are sad tears or tears fo relief.
I am sorry, honey, I wish no one would have to experience that and am totally blown away that you are able to write this and confide as you have, years later or not.
Poppy's reaction is so true, so believable. ONe always imagined others will react differently, leapt valiently to our aid and they often don't and it is heart-breaking.
I am glad Snape apologised in the end, though I doubt I would be able to feel the forgiveness Hermione expresses. Also glad Harry did not read the letter. Somehow it would not have turned out well, regardless of what his reaction was.
I love your other writing, and I am glad to wrote this one as well.
I. . . I don't really feel safe saying anything about this story. I can say that I really feel sorry for Hermione, although I know this doesn't even scratch the surface.
I am grateful that Snape realised it was wrong to take advantage of her, though. I'm glad he was sorry, and I think Hermione was very. . . kindhearted to forgive him. If that ever happened to me, I might've forgiven him, but not really. I mean, that sort of thing can't just be forgiven and brushed away. It lasts.
Well, I suppose I can say stuff. I really wasn't sure at first that I liked this story, but I also somehow feel that I needed to read it. It's good to know not everything on here is smut, though that has been proved to me other times. This was a very well-written story (if with a dark plotline), and I love your other stories.
Thank you for an. . . enlightening experience.
~Katie
very good story, although controversial. But no one can ignore these things. Even if it is many years later, it must've taken a lot of courage to write this. I could never imagine this happening to me or anyone i know. But it does happen. Thank you.sincerely,Deborah
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
Thank you for reading. :) Yeah, it was hard to write, but I'm happy that I did.
That was a very moving story and brought up rather horrid memories for me as well. All I'll say is that I have been called a cynic. I TRUST NO ONE except my mum, step-mum and dad. I'm VERY over-protective concerning my children, and though I know we can't always keep them safe, I have to do my best. Thank you for letting me bleed right along with the characters.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
Yep, I can understand that completely. I don't let my son out of my sight if I can help it. I just don't trust people and am naturally suspicious. Thank you for the review. I appreciate it. I hate that you've experienced this, but at least you know you aren't alone. ~hugs~
Egad! That was an incredibly moving story! Woof, I'm all teary eyed now. Very courageous of you to write--particularly the author's notes. Strong work.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
Thanks for reading. It's amazing how many people have commented and told me that they've gone through similar situations.
Response from Fawkes_07 (Reviewer)
Sadly, I'm not amazed at all. It's so common it's practically an archetype. Stupid society.
You so rock and are so brave for sharing with us...I am honored that you would be so forthcoming. Just know, I know it isn't much but, you are not alone. What has always helped me lots is realizing it could of always been worse, there is always worse. No matter my nightmarish stories are, reality always does me one better. My difficulties I feel have lead me to deep self awareness. Not to mention an increadible black sense of humor. I find it hard to share with others especially ones who have never been abused. God it took a long time to get over just the horrible night terrors. I do know I can survive just about anything, not a very happy thought but it gives an ablity to enjoy life more. I have been to hell and walked through to the other side. I feel I really apreciate the sun shining or just looking at the moon etc. I am trying to work out some deep seated sh*t about mothers that abuse. It is horrible when you reach out for help and are met with hostility, or even the unwillingness to see the abuse. I just decided that whatever happened to me would stop with me and not be passed on to my kids, it was very generational. I feel that this darkness inside me has always drawn me to characters like Severus, maybe it is one wounded animal sensing another. Anyway if you have read this far... wow! Thanks again for sharing. You really are a great writer.
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
Thanks for the response. I appreciate that. You wouldn't believe how many people have emailed me or reviewed with stories of their own. It just makes you realize how much of this is out there affecting us all the time. I think it's especially horrible when you ask for help or try to tell someone, only to have them turn it around as your fault or to make you feel like shit about it. Very sad. Like you, one thing I've made certain of is that my son would NEVER be in that situation. Hence, he always stays with me, doesn't go visiting overnight or playing any place that I'm not watching.Things like this simply ruin the person for life. Maybe ruin is the wrong word. But I definitely think it affects a person's life and choices made. I certainly would have turned out differently, I'm sure, had this never happened to me. Again, thank you so much for responding. :)
That was truly beautifully written. I know it's a hard subject to brouch and it must have been hard for you to write. Kudo's to you. Cheers, Sonia
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
Thanks, doll. :)
This is a good story. I read it several months ago, before I started making notes on the fanfiction I read and before I realized how important reviews are. Now I've found the story again, but I have not read it again. It is, as you say, difficult to read. But it is very good and touching. I remembered it easily after rereading the first two paragraphs.
Not that I can EVER imagine Ron or Harry in any way better for Hermione than Severus, but what do I know ;-)
Response from Southern_Witch_69 (Author of Dark Desecration)
Thank you very much for reading and letting me know what you thought. I appreciate it.