Chapter 8
If Only I Could Turn Back Time
Chapter 8 of 11
debjunkSeverus Snape regrets not becoming romantically involved with Hermione Granger in his past. Will a trip back in time solve all of his problems?
ReviewedChapter 8
"Now," she said as she stroked a finger along his jawbone. "Do you want to tell me why you've been using a Time-Turner?"
Severus' eyes went wide. "I beg your pardon?"
Hermione smirked. "Don't try to deny it. It's the only explanation for seeing two of you this afternoon. You had no idea I had just spoken to you a minute earlier. You're using a Time-Turner for something, Severus Snape."
"I'm doing no such thing!" he denied. Fear raced through him. What was he to do? She had figured him out in an encounter that couldn't have lasted more than five minutes. She certainly was quick-thinking. That, of course, was one of the reasons he loved her.
Hermione arched a brow at him. "Severus, as you know, I have extensive experience with Time-Turners. All the evidence is there. You were sloppy and got caught. Now, tell me what's going on."
She'll be angry. She'll not want anything to do with me. Merlin, what can I tell her? He argued with himself for a minute before deciding the closest thing to the truth would be the best way to go.
"I am using a Time-Turner, but it's not what you think. My future self came back to warn me about a choice I would make that would be detrimental to my future."
Hermione gave Severus a surprised look. "How far back did he travel?"
"Two years."
Excitement filled Hermione's voice. "Is he still here? Can I see him?"
Severus cringed. "I'm not sure if that's a good idea."
"Oh, come on, Severus! I already know about him. What damage could be done?"
"Hermione..."
"Please?" She looked at him with big, pleading eyes.
Severus scowled. "Do not give me that face, witch. I will not fall for it!"
She started to rub his arm. "But, Severus, I just want to see him. It will only take a minute. Please?"
Insufferable woman with her irresistible eyes! She knows she's got me wrapped around her finger.
"All right, but just for a minute!"
"Thank you," she said as she kissed him on the cheek.
Severus looked down at her, narrowing his eyes in mock annoyance. He grabbed her arm and linked his with hers before they set off for the castle.
"So, tell me why he came back..." Hermione said as they walked.
"I'll tell you when we're all together," Severus replied, frowning and gritting his teeth with worry.
The door opened, and Hermione stepped into Severus' room. Her eyes fell upon an almost exact replica of Severus Snape sitting on the couch, reading. The man looked up, snapped his book shut, and rose to a standing position, his fists clenched.
"What the devil have you done?!" he growled at Snape.
"She figured out we were using a Time-Turner and wanted to see you," Snape explained.
Severus' lips thinned to a slim line. "A word, please... privately?" he croaked out to Snape.
The younger man followed his twin into the bedroom. The door quickly slammed behind him. Severus wheeled around and glowered at Snape.
"You were adamant about her not knowing about us. Why did you bring her here?"
Snape waved his wand, casting a silencing spell before answering Severus. "She badgered me about the Time-Turner until I had no choice but to tell her about you. I just said you'd come back, but not why. She wanted to see you... insisted on it, even."
Severus' eyes narrowed. "So, you just waltzed her in here. Now what do we do?"
"She wants to know why you're here. I told her we'd explain when we were all together."
"You can't tell her the truth! What if she takes it badly? Everything we have done will be for nothing. Make up something... anything... just to get her off the track."
"No," Snape said with finality.
"No? Do you really want to lose her?"
"Of course not. We don't know how she'll react. One thing I do know is that a relationship is built on truth. I will not sabotage this relationship with lies. She has figured us out, she will learn the truth, whether we are the ones to tell her or not. It will be far worse if we lie now."
Severus' glare softened while he exhaled slowly. "You're right. Now that she knows part of the truth, we cannot hide the rest from her." He began to wring his hands together. "She will think we are trying to manipulate her."
"We are, aren't we?"
"Not like that, and you know it!"
"She may find the idea of a relationship with Weasley enticing," Snape said softly.
"I don't think so," Severus murmured. "She did only turn to him after she realized we were hopeless. We can only hope that she'll see us as wanting to fix this."
"Yes, our track record with women is so wonderful, we're bound to be lucky this time," Snape snapped. His shoulders sagged. "Let's just get this over with." He turned and exited the bedroom, closely followed by Severus.
Hermione looked to both men. "I can barely tell the two of you apart," she commented.
"I am only two years older. We should be virtually identical," Severus explained.
"Why are you here?" she asked Severus.
"I needed to warn myself of a possible problem in my future."
"What was that?"
"I'd rather not go into it," Severus said nonchalantly. He hoped she would just let this drop.
Hermione studied him for a minute. "Is there anything I can do?"
Severus scoffed. "You're already doing it."
Hermione looked puzzled. She looked into Severus' eyes. She could read nothing in them. The master spy was hiding his emotions well. She looked toward Snape. He too was hiding whatever he was thinking. She sighed. What was she doing already? Her head snapped up, and she made eye contact with Severus again.
"Do you mean this relationship?" she asked curiously.
Severus closed his eyes and nodded.
Hermione's mouth dropped open. "You came back to get him to ask me out?" Now she'd heard everything.
"I did."
A look of amazement crossed Hermione's face. "I'm flattered, but why?"
"Must you know?" Severus asked, his voice pointed.
"Well, this concerns my future, too! Yes, I must know."
Severus looked to Snape. He gave him a small nod. Looking back to Hermione he explained everything.
"You see, at this point in time, I was so blind that I let you slip away from me. I should have acknowledged your interest and pursued you, but I didn't know how, nor did I believe that you were interested at the time. After numerous attempts to get me to notice you, you finally gave up and turned your interest to Ronald Weasley." Severus rolled his eyes. "You fell in love with each other and were married the day I came here."
Hermione's mouth dropped open again. "I marry Ron? Really?"
Severus gave her a curt nod. Snape rolled his eyes.
"And you say that I love him, and he loves me?"
Severus nodded again. Snape looked sick.
"So, you have come back to... what?"
Severus came to Hermione's side. "I was a fool, Hermione. If I had just shown a little interest in you, none of that would have happened."
"How do you know that? How do you know that we won't break up and I'll wind up marrying Ron anyway?"
Severus' shoulders sagged. "I don't." He looked down to the floor. "In any case, I had to try. My life is empty without you in it. I have been suffering ever since you announced your engagement, knowing that it could have been us instead of you and him. I had to try and set things right."
"Are you sure that this is what's right?" Hermione asked. Her eyes flashed with anger.
"I... yes... I..."
"You just thought you'd go ahead and mess with my life. You had your chance, Severus. You blew it. What gives you the right to meddle now?"
"Hermione, I love you."
Hermione's anger still swirled around in her, but his words caught her off guard. How she had longed to hear those words from him, but now they were tainted with his deception.
"Wait," she gasped. "Just which one of you have I been dating?"
Severus looked to Snape. Snape straightened a little before saying, "The both of us."
Hermione's eyes widened. "What?"
"I was with you today, obviously." He pointed to his doppelganger. "He was with you the night you danced."
Hermione felt her anger swell again within her. "Is this all a game to you?" she cried. Her hands began to wave around in front of her as she imitated Severus' voice. "Let's see who can win Hermione. I'll throw myself in the mix and we'll ambush her together, then we'll see how she really feels about Ron."
"Hermione, I never..." Severus began.
"I am not some prize to be won by the man who can sweep me off my feet the hardest. Shame on you, Severus Snape!" She turned to Snape. "And you too!" Turning back to Severus, she poked him in the chest. "If you loved me so much, why couldn't you have just done something about it the first time around?!" She was shouting as tears began to stream down her cheeks. Her fists balled themselves up as Severus pulled her to him. She beat against his chest in frustration. "Why?"
"Because I am a fool! I could never see how someone like you could be attracted to me. I let you slip away without even trying! I badger myself every day for not saying or doing something before. Hermione, I just want a chance with you. If we come to the decision that this isn't going to work out, I will gladly back away and let you find happiness elsewhere. Even if elsewhere is with Ronald Weasley. I just want the chance that I threw away before."
Hermione searched Severus' face. He seemed sincere, but the fact that he was playing with her future kept her from forgiving him. "I need to think about all of this. When, and how, do you return to your time?"
"The Time-Turner I have is unique. It can be set to keep a person in a certain time for a set period. I will return tomorrow in the early afternoon."
Hermione's jaw clenched. "Tomorrow. I have until tomorrow to figure out whether I want to continue this or not?"
Severus looked down. His shoulders sagged. "You should take all the time you need. I will find out your decision one way or another."
Hermione pulled away from him. She looked to Snape, who was frowning. She frowned back at him. Straightening up, she looked Severus in the eye.
"I will come by tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'll have an answer for you, but I will come by in either case."
Severus gave a curt nod. She nodded back to both Severuses and left.
"That went famously," Snape groaned after the door had slammed behind Hermione.
"We can only hope she works it out in our favor."
"Given our track record, we should just admit defeat now."
Severus met Snape's eyes. "Lily chose another, that doesn't mean that Hermione will."
"When has love ever worked out for us, Severus?"
Severus looked to his twin. "Never up until now. I'm hoping for a lucky break."
Snape raised an eyebrow. "I didn't think we believed in luck."
"Neither did I, until I kissed Hermione."
Snape smirked. "Let's hope our luck doesn't run out then."
"Indeed."
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Latest 25 Reviews for If Only I Could Turn Back Time
291 Reviews | 6.34/10 Average
Beautiful story, absolutely loved it!
I'm glad Hermione choose Severus! It was indeed the right choice!Loved your story. Thank you.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Awww, gee thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Awww, gee thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
This was so sweeeeeeeet!!!
Awesome! Im surprised he didn't curse first and ask questions later, the old snark.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
That would definitely be in character, wouldn't it?
Good. If anyone desrves to be happy it is Severus. I am so glad he got his happy ending.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
So is he,
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
... so is he! Thanks for reading and reviewing! ~Me
Mmmmmm. Two Snapes and a witch. Glad she came to her senses and made the right choice. I just hope Snape doesn't mess it all up.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
It really is too bad the older Snape couldn't stay! But hopefully, younger Snape will not blow it.
Hermione Snape sounds miles better. She can't settle for Ron when Severus has just told her he loves her!
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Given all the facts, as she has here, she'd be a fool to settle for Ron. Really, why just have half when you can have the whole wonderful thing?
Uh oh. They failed to reason that by changing his past, they are changing Hermione's future as well. Oh, yes, they also forgot how independent she is too
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
True. Hopefully, they'll all like the future.
Good girl Hermione. I knew she would get suspicious after the library incident. How are they going to get out of this one?
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
With Slytherin cunning, no doubt.
Hehe. I loved the two of them practicing together. "He had his head on Snapeâs shoulders, and he was rubbing his chest. The image almost made him gag".
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Yes, it's not really a pretty picture. Poor guy... all this for love.
Oh my. I would definately like to volunteer my services to play Hermione Granger in the movie version of this!
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Sorry, I get dibs on Hermione.
Hmmm. Hermione seems just the witch to bring Severus out of himself. If that doesn't work, a swift kick on his self-pitying behind from his older self just might!
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
I think both of those will definitely help.
Both Snapes fighting over who gets to kiss her... Sigh. I'm glad older!Snape took matters into his own hands.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Yes, not one, but two. Be still my heart.
Two Snapes working together to get Hermione. As long as the younger one doesn't mess this up, its a done deal!!
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Indeed.
Yip. I can see Snape, having survived the war, truly regretting not going for what would make him happy. Although I think this is going to get a bit muddled, I am glad he is finally considering his own happiness.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
It's about time he thought about himself. Too bad he didn't do it a couple years earlier!
He made it back just in time for his wedding! Well done. I enjoyed the story and am glad I caught back up, my life got very busy for awhile. I look forward to reading your other stories [once I know who you are of course ;-)] Good luck!
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed this. It will be fun to find out who we all are when the reveal comes.
Yay! Good choice was made. Wonder what Severus is going to encounter when he returns to his time?
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
She did the right thing. She's no dummy. She can see the potential with Severus.
Quick and easy decision to make, Hermione and Ron I don't think have ever been suited. Maybe Rowling thought Ron grew up in the 19 year break, but I doubt it. Glad to see Hermione might end up with someone she is better suited for...course I had better keep reading to make sure that's who she ends up with.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
I'm sure Ron did grow up some, but his jealous streak is a mile wide. Also, he couldn't care less about knowledge, something that Hermione can't live without. I would think that whatever attraction they have would grow old when faced with someone who really doesn't understand you.
Poor Snapes...Severus at least should have known that Hermione would not take kindly to the fact that she was being manipulated in order to please what could be one man's whim. Guess they'll just have to wait to see what happens. And while they wait, I'll go to the next chapter and find out without the wait. ;-)
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
I think Severus did know, but he knew this was his only chance too. He took the risk.
I'm so glad that everything worked out in the end for our couple. Taking a chance on going back in time to try to give her the love she deserved was the most romantic thing he could done for her. Fantastic story. Well done! :D
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Thank you! Severus really recognized his major blunder. He did the only thing possible. And how romantic was that?
Wow! Great story to get over all the HBP movie blues...if I could turn back time I'd have JKR re-writing that particular ending in DH..and let's just scrap that epilogue altogether!Brilliant how the 2 Severus's would bounce from each other. Paradoxes? Pah, what paradoxes?A great new slant on an old plot. I shall wait to see who you are when voting is over...great little fic. You deserve to win !
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it so well.I too would turn back time and make JKR fix the end and epilogue. What was she thinking? Ron and Hermione? Give me a break! Attraction can only go so far.
OH what releif! I am so glad all is well in the past. I can only hope it held and see what the future is like now! Im on pins and needles I tell you!!
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
I should have the end up soon. I've sent it along to my beta. Thanks!
i think i actually want her to end up with ron in the end here. it just seems more right from the feel i get from this fic.
Response from debjunk (Author of If Only I Could Turn Back Time)
Really? Huh. Well, you'll have to see what happens. A lot can happen in two years, both good and bad!