I Want That One
TeddyRadiator53 Reviews | 8.11/10 (53 Ratings, 0 Likes, 7 Favorites )
On the night the light is defeated and the dark wins, Lord Voldemort grants a boon to his most valued and trusted spy.
This is a very, very dark and disturbing story of pain and punishment. If you find the idea of non-con and dub-con unsettling, please understand this will not be the story for you.
But also know this: at the heart of this story lies a mystery. All will be revealed if you dare to continue.
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Just a small town girl who loves HG/SS fanfiction. You can always find me at LiveJournal: http://teddyradiator.livejournal.com/ where I 'live' on the net. 
Reviews for I Want That One
Wouaouh ! J'ai adoré ta fic, elle est vraiment bien écrite, l'histoire est prenante, les situations sont crédibles et les personnages très bien décrits.Bravo!!!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Merci Beaucoup!
I'm glad you did an epilogue..
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Thank you!
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Thank you!
Thank you for a profound, heavy tale with a fantastic & happy ending--get the new world/life going & the miracles that are entailed with it! Thank you!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much - you always give the most wonderfully supportive and encouraging reviews, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate that. I realise this story is not everyone's cup of tea (my precious beta, stgulik, refused to read it, and has still never read it!), but I hoped that the mystery of why the horrific things happened made up for the torment I put my dear readers through.Thank you!!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much - you always give the most wonderfully supportive and encouraging reviews, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate that. I realise this story is not everyone's cup of tea (my precious beta, stgulik, refused to read it, and has still never read it!), but I hoped that the mystery of why the horrific things happened made up for the torment I put my dear readers through.Thank you!!
Hahaha! Wonderful, fitting end to Lulu
I don't think it'll be too much difference for Cissy--actually make her life easier- ha! On a more serious note--soooo glad that Severus has got the answers he's needed, as well as taking his *life* back and swingng the wand of justice to right what he might-- fantastic story telling!
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Thank you so much! I'm really thrilled you are enjoying the story!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much! I'm really thrilled you are enjoying the story!
The memories that are revealed, scraped from each other's depths are so very powerful with twists and turns painfully leading to the sordid culprit of this particular demon that Severus is wrestling with... what a release from body and mind--hope this will give/restore some peace & strength to Hermione and Severus to carry on... Fantastic chapter!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you - I hope the explanation was clear enough. It made sense in my head, and I hoped it would be understandable when I wrote it. This was an exhausting moment for them, for sure.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you - I hope the explanation was clear enough. It made sense in my head, and I hoped it would be understandable when I wrote it. This was an exhausting moment for them, for sure.
Yes--great shift in power and *pleasure* for both of them--only to be threatened by Lulu showing up *grrrhh* something (truly) wicked this way comes-- *holding breath again in anticipation of what this signals* Great chapter!xxx
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While I don't mind writing Lucius, I very rarely make him such a baddie, but someone had to be bad, and it might as well be him! lol
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While I don't mind writing Lucius, I very rarely make him such a baddie, but someone had to be bad, and it might as well be him! lol
Great twist at the end--he's adding fuel to the fire of his tortured soul with the Polyjuice potion, forced upon Hermione, of Lily--gah! I don't think he'll find what he thought he was looking for, needing... but he has yearned and fantasised and is so very wretched with need... and Hermione... Fantastic chapter!
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Thank you - this wasn't always happy reading, I know, but I have to confess, this was one of the most fun stories to write. Does that make me very bad? LOL
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Thank you - this wasn't always happy reading, I know, but I have to confess, this was one of the most fun stories to write. Does that make me very bad? LOL
Powerful, intense chapter--held my breath as Hermione deliberated suicide *letting breath out in relief*-- reading on!
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Thank you - you always give such encouraging reviews!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you - you always give such encouraging reviews!
Just love your powerful storytelling--savouring every word of it! Shallow, breathing, heart-thumping hard fantastic content! A Dark Fic lovers delight!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much - I really appreciate you giving my dark fic a try! I hope you will continue to enjoy it!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much - I really appreciate you giving my dark fic a try! I hope you will continue to enjoy it!
That was AWESOME. I love that Neville got to kill the bastard. :) And the end? That was just BEAUTIFUL. And a little funny. :D I love that she won't let him forget what he said. Bit of ageplay? LOL
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much! I'm not really sure I'd call it age play, but more just feeding a Daddy/lil girl moment. I'm sure that sounds like the same thing, but I think it's more a submission fantasy than anything else.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much! I'm not really sure I'd call it age play, but more just feeding a Daddy/lil girl moment. I'm sure that sounds like the same thing, but I think it's more a submission fantasy than anything else.
Wow. You just keep... wow. That was amazing. I have no words.
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Thank you so much! I'm so glad you enjoyed it.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much! I'm so glad you enjoyed it.
Holy WOW. What a crazy-intense chapter! I can't believe they each thought the other had betrayed the Light. Poor things. Hm... wonder what will happen to ol' Luc?
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you! Yes, Lucius has a lot to answer for...
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you! Yes, Lucius has a lot to answer for...
Very nice ending after all the darkness. I was a bit afraid, during the last chapter, that Severus was going to turn out to be betraying her again, because the chapter still had the warnings, but this was all quite heartwarming. Pansy feels a bit undeveloped, though--was she not loyal, in the end? To raise her as a threat, including the hint that she sat dry-eyed through the account of the night of screams, seems a bit like a false trail. I liked Mrs. Granger throughout this. I'm glad she came up again in the last line.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you! Pansy was what Alfred Hitchcock used to call a McGuffin - a plot point that sounded significant, but was really a vehicle to move the more important plot along - that Severus needed to declare his intentions, and that, in the end, she is a cool Slytherin in the midst of hot-headed, emotional Gryffindors. And you can't really blame her for having the hots for Severus, can you?
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you! Pansy was what Alfred Hitchcock used to call a McGuffin - a plot point that sounded significant, but was really a vehicle to move the more important plot along - that Severus needed to declare his intentions, and that, in the end, she is a cool Slytherin in the midst of hot-headed, emotional Gryffindors. And you can't really blame her for having the hots for Severus, can you?
Aha, the tangled knots begin to unwind. It's hard to see this Severus as a sympathetic character, but he had some reason for being around the twist.
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Yes, it was hard to pull the reins in on him, I must admit!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Yes, it was hard to pull the reins in on him, I must admit!
Good job Herms, something has clearly reached a turning point.
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I like a strong Hermione - someone's got to put up with his moods! ;)
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
I like a strong Hermione - someone's got to put up with his moods! ;)
beautiful.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Lovely ending. What a nice counterpoint to the earlier darkness. :)
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Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Aha, knew there was a reason somewhere in his confusion. :)
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Curioser and curioser. :)
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Hmm, wonder if he'll still want her? :)
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At least she's still thinking and planning. :)
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Definitely dark. An ambivalent Snape, it seems. :)
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All is not what it seems.... ;)
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
All is not what it seems.... ;)
“We would have made a great sociological study, you and I.”Merlin, all the wrong things had been done for the right reasons.I think that these two thoughts sum things up pretty nicely. This chapter feels so dysfunctional, and yet hopeful. I find myself wavering between thinking that there is no way that even the most forgiving of souls can get beyond what happened between them and have a healthy relationship, and thinking that they just may be perfectly suited for one another given their shared past and their present feelings of unworth. Maybe they can heal together and have some semblance of normalcy. Maybe.As for Lucius, I hate him for ruining so many lives, but if he was truly trying to help Severus as he says, you sort of lose some anger toward him. I still think he deserves what he gets, but it kind of blurs the lines.I so hope that they can just disappear, but I also hope that they plan to make things right, even if they leave the country for awhile for some R&R. I don't know if they can entirely rest if they don't. We shall see very soon. *nudge, nudge*
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
I think YOU'VE summed it up - dysfunctional and hopeful! LOL That's what this ended up being, I think. And yes, there is one chapter left. I had it a moment ago - it was just sitting on the fridge.....
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
I think YOU'VE summed it up - dysfunctional and hopeful! LOL That's what this ended up being, I think. And yes, there is one chapter left. I had it a moment ago - it was just sitting on the fridge.....
There are so many warring emotions here, I don't know what to make of them all. That's not a bad thing. It is fantastic, in fact. I am feeling just as confused as they are. To feel such loathing and desire for the same person. To be so angry at someone and then to see them so broken that it dissolves the negativity almost against your will. To feel so helpless, hopeless ...How can this all work out?!?!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Believe me, when I was writing this, I was asking my Muse the same questions - where in the world are you taking me with this? Fortunately, he's ususally very gentle and loving, but he must have wanted me to explore this dark side of myself, because he wouldn't let me rest until I'd finished it!
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Believe me, when I was writing this, I was asking my Muse the same questions - where in the world are you taking me with this? Fortunately, he's ususally very gentle and loving, but he must have wanted me to explore this dark side of myself, because he wouldn't let me rest until I'd finished it!
oh no. Scary, sad, desperate. Both in such a terrible situation. Amazing chapter.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much. I really appreciate you hanging in there.
Response from TeddyRadiator (Author of I Want That One)
Thank you so much. I really appreciate you hanging in there.