Aftermath
Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart
Chapter 3 of 20
SquibstressIf war is hell, Severus Snape and Minerva McGonagall are in the Ninth Circle. During Snape's awful year as Headmaster, he and Professor McGonagall draw closer as they are forced into a desperate arrangement.
ReviewedChapter Three: Aftermath
"At least let me give you a sleeping potion," pleaded Poppy.
Minerva sat at the edge of a cot in the infirmary. "Fine," she whispered. She stuck the phial Madam Pomfrey handed her in the pocket of the robes her friend had conjured for her.
These sleeves are too short for me, Minerva thought.
Pomona Sprout appeared with a cup of tea. "Drink this, love, it'll help," she said, secure in her belief that a hot cuppa was the balm for all hurts. Maybe she was right.
Minerva took it without looking at either of her two friends, who exchanged anxious glances. They were silent while she sipped the steaming tea.
Poppy broke the silence. "Minerva, I should examine you for injuries," she said quietly.
"I'm fine," Minerva said, her voice stronger. "My wrists are sore, but I have healing balm back in my quarters."
"That's good," Poppy replied gently, "but I need to make sure you have no internal injuries."
Minerva looked at her friend for the first time since the rape. "I'm fine," she said more forcefully than she intended.
"Minerva—" began Pomona, then stopped when she saw her friend's chest begin to heave. She shot a panicked look at the mediwitch, who quickly conjured a paper bag.
"Here, breathe into this… that's it… nice and easy," she said, holding the bag over Minerva's nose and mouth. Gradually Minerva's breathing slowed and her heart rate returned to normal.
The three women sat in silence for a few moments. Then Minerva summoned her strength and spoke.
"I don't believe I am injured, Poppy," she said quietly. "I would just like to return to my quarters and rest. If I notice anything… amiss… I promise I'll let you know right away." She silently pleaded with her friend to let her escape the ordeal of an internal exam. All she wanted was to take a shower.
Poppy looked at her. Feelings of friendship grappled with her professional judgment. "All right, Minerva. But I don't want you to be alone tonight. Maybe Pomona could stay with you?"
"Pomona's place is with her Hufflepuffs," replied Minerva. "They may need her now." Her heart lurched as she realized that her Gryffindors were alone. She knew she couldn't face them. She had no comfort to offer. Not tonight.
Her eyes filled with tears that she willed not to fall. "Pomona, would you see to my students, just for tonight? I don't think I'm strong enough for that just now," she said, her voice threatening to break.
"Of course, Minerva."
"I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking of the students," said Madam Pomfrey. "I should be here in case anyone needs me. Minerva, I'm afraid I have to insist you stay in the infirmary tonight."
"Poppy, I really need the comfort of my own quarters. I'll be fine on my own, really," insisted Minerva.
"Would you allow Rolanda to stay with you? As a compromise?" Poppy pleaded.
The flying instructor was hardly the first person you'd turn to for a shoulder to cry on, thought the mediwitch. But she was reliable and fiercely loyal to Minerva, who loved Quidditch almost as much as Madam Hooch did.
"All right," breathed Minerva.
"Good. Pomona, could you Floo over to Rolanda's and ask her?"
"Of course," said the Herbology teacher. As she got up, she took Minerva's hand and kissed the back of it. "We'll get through this," she said, her voice quavering. "And kill the bastards," she added fiercely as she left. She waited until she was out of the room to let her tears fall. They wouldn't help Minerva, who had yet to shed her own.
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Latest 25 Reviews for Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart
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I hope they both got what they needed from this encounter. I'm glad, too, that she stayed.
The situation seems so hopeless, especially when you aren't seeing any of it from Harry's POV. And the end ... It's a lovely idea. I hope it turns out okay.
It's too bad she doesn't have a girlfriend who is safe to confide in. I hope they leave her be as she really is dealing with it in her own way.
I love the honesty that continues to occur. And, them sitting down to a game of chess almost seems as if they are leading normal lives. Almost.
Interesting how different Albus and Minerva view their situation. And these two having to play act at sex ... I hope they can persevere.
Very well written & engaging. Love your Minerva, stalwart, compassionate, unbelievably strong. Excellent characterisation.
This seemed an unusually brutal and depressing sort of story, when I read the first few chapters, so I haven't been following it. (I'm a rather unsophisticated reader and usually prefer there to be at least some fluff.) But today it was rainy and dark, and I started your again and read it straight through. It's really brilliant--full of all sorts of wonderful bits, including particularly Minerva's sermon to her Gryffindors about rape, her friendship with Rolanda and Pomona, her conversations with Severus, the fact that Severus's memories of her faked subjugation distracted Voldemort enough to thwart Nagini's capture of Harry and Hermione, and her testimony before the Wizangemot. Your final chapter from Harry's viewpoint, illustrating the effects of her and Severus's many sacrifices, was a wonderful way to wrap the story up, and Minerva's transfiguration of her Order of Merlin was the perfect final note. Very nicely done indeed--it was truly a bitter story, but full of the sweetness of comradeship and honor.
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
It's certainly a brutal story in many ways, so I quite understand your reluctance to continue with it. Thanks for giving it a chance. I'm glad you enjoyed the remainder of the story, and thanks for the kind words.
An amazing story! Great job!
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Thanks. I'm glad you enjoyed it.
This is the first time that I have read MM/SS pairing that didn't disgust me. Usually, it seems so improbable and contrived due to the age difference, personality and other factors. Your excellent writing has made it seem a possible story development that is more than readable--it was very well handled.
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Thanks for the kind words.
Wow, this is really heavy stuff. You are doing a great job of dealing with the characterization.
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Thanks. Heavy indeed.
OMG--this is SO INTENSE! I can hardly believe you packed so much emotion into each chapter! Very well written--especially since it is such difficult subject matter.
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Thanks. The story ended up being longer than I anticipated, so there was a lot of ground to cover.Thanks for reading.
I used to read nothing but HG/SS Fanfiction. I finally started branching out to other pairings and (not that this was a typical pairing story) it was one of the best ones I've read. Thanks!
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Thanks for the kind words.Thanks for giving this a try. I tend to read mostly Minerva-centric stories, and it's always fun to branch out and read something a bit out of my usual circle.
Awsome safe word. Absolute genuis!
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Why, thanks!
Love the fact that they are able to be reasonable...affectionate even, after. And that he stopped. And that he found out she defended him.
Sounds like he had a crush on her when he was younger. :)
Hmm. Dumbledore needs to learn a little tact. :)
Well done. What a visual in my minds eye.
Thank you again for sharing~Elou
Holy mother uh pearl! Go Minerva! Damn, she 's one tough broad. *giggle* I'm not sure I could be as accommodating without developing an attachement for someone she obviously has respect for.
Thank you again for sharing~Elou
Now she is in charge it will help both of them cope, I suspect. :)
Poor Severus is a bit out of his depth! :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Severus is young and hasn't had much in the way of opportunity to develop normal relationships. I really feel for the poor blighter! Hope that comes across.
I wasn't sure about reading this story, but I'm intrigued. And reading. It's a difficult theme, and I can't see where it is heading, but hope travels with me, and I do hope that Severus wins out in his battles in your universe.
She's tough, perhaps even tougher than he is. :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Minerva is very tough--veteran of two previous wars, don't forget. Also, she's older and has a far broader experience of the world than has Severus, at least in my Potterverse.Thanks for reading and commenting!
Great chapter. Keep it up! :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Thanks, and thanks for reading.
Just what she needed. :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
I think the students love her a lot more than they ususally let on.
Aha. Knew he'd done something clever. :)
Response from Squibstress (Author of Because it is Bitter, and Because it is my Heart)
Yes. Magic is very useful, isn't it? ;-)