For Auld Lang Syne
Chapter 5 of 10
Agnus CastusNew Year's Eve at the Three Broomsticks.
Reviewed"Severus, I really don't know why you bothered coming here tonight," Filius Flitwick said with a hiccup. He then knocked back his mango-syrup and soda with a flourish.
Snape, too, was at a loss to explain his presence at the New Year's Eve party; the person who had persuaded him to attend had never arrived, and now it was almost midnight.
"Why be here with us, when all you do is scowl?" Filius continued. He took a bite of his cocktail cherry and dropped the small paper umbrella into the empty glass.
As Filius hopped off his stool his small foot nudged the side of Snape's leg. The pint-sized professor wandered over to the bar, where Madam Rosmerta greeted him with a stunning smile. The rest of the gathering paid no attention to the exchange; the Hogwarts group were in varying states of inebriation, and even Minerva McGonagall was chatting away happily to the centaur, Firenze, with a twinkle in her eye.
When Snape received his invitation to Slughorn's New Year shindig a few days earlier, he had thrown it straight onto the fire. But when Tonks' owl subsequently arrived with a note stating she hoped to see him at the Three Broomsticks that evening, Snape suddenly found reason enough to attend. Now, after enduring two-and-a-half hours of frivolous chit-chat and tedium, Snape was beginning to suspect he had been stood up.
Not that he was dating Tonks; he was merely having a mutually-beneficial carnal relationship with her, the rules of which they had not yet discussed. However, it now appeared Snape was at her beck and call and not the other way round, as he would have preferred. This disparity caused him more annoyance than the drunken ramblings of Hagrid, to his left, who was booming out yet another Hippogriff tale to Pomona Sprout. The Herbology Professor's cheeks were as red as a Gryffindor banner, and her words slurred whenever she managed a word in edgeways.
The whole occasion was boisterous and bothersome, and Snape reproved himself for his poor decision-making. He would not have attended the party if he hadn't felt his groin pulsating when Tonks' note had arrived. He could barely believe the actions even belonged to him; he was acting like some randy teenager on a promise. Snape stared into his pint of stout and studied the frothy tracks sticking to the side of his glass, which had been left behind after each sip of beer.
He was completely taken by surprise when the barstool beside him scraped noisily across the floor, and the mousey-haired Auror flung herself onto the seat with a large, bright blue cocktail in her grasp.
"Wotcher, Severus," she said, a slight smirk curling her lips.
The table of partygoers greeted Tonks with shouts and cheers and enquired of her Auror partner, Dawlish, whom Snape quickly located at the other side of the pub, talking to Ambrosius Flume from Honeydukes sweet shop.
When the good wishes subsided, Snape's low voice glided underneath the hubbub of the inn. "How good of you to show up," he said dangerously.
Tonks shot him a lofty look and took a sip of her drink, after which the cocktail changed colour to mauvey-purple. It seemed his lover's favoured drink was a Rainbow Revolver. Snape didn't know why he was surprised; it matched her personality nicely, but somehow the drink seemed less appropriate now. Not only had Tonks lost her Metamorphmagus abilities, but she had also lost some bubble and fizz, and he thought she'd do better with something plain, strong and dark. Like his stout. Or, like...
"Don't try to berate me, Severus. Dawlish and I were held up by your lot."
Snape felt his eyebrows creep up his forehead. "I beg your pardon?"
"You know who I mean: Death Eaters, servants of the Dark Lord, lackeys to You-Know-Who." She took another sip of her drink, which then turned the colour of rubies.
"I am no lackey," Snape hissed angrily as a fire-breathing Horntail growled ferociously in his chest.
Tonks laughed, full and loud, and some of the party guests turned to discern the cause of her mirth. Underneath the public scrutiny, Snape could not continue chastising Tonks, and he remained seated, barely controlling his pent-up aggression. He was not a lowly man-servant, and he found it intolerable that Tonks might believe such a thing. Worse still, she might believe him to be her lackey, someone who would obediently copulate with her, whenever she desired. That was not how this relationship was going to work. He would see to that.
When the eyes of the room resumed their original focus, Tonks leaned towards his ear and spoke in hushed undertones. "I know you are no lackey, Severus. You're one of the bravest men I know."
A swell of pride extinguished the Horntail's fiery breath in Snape's chest. His expression did not alter outwardly, but his taut muscles relaxed, he sat a little straighter, and took another sip of beer.
Madam Rosmerta's voice rang out like a bell, magically magnified over the racket of the inn. "If you would all care to make your way outside, it is sixty seconds until midnight. We will see in the New Year with fireworks!"
Most of the patrons of the pub filed outside, taking their drinks with them, and Tonks arose. When Snape did not follow her immediately, she placed her cocktail glass on the table, spilling some of its contents, and then slipped her hand into his. With a tug, he was on his feet, sneering at the young witch as she pulled him through the back door and to the far end of the gathered crowd.
The night air was cold and still, and the pale light of the crescent moon shone onto the back garden of the Three Broomsticks, casting a thin veil of illumination onto the spectators as they listened to the New Year countdown. Snape felt some consternation about being seen publically with Tonks and pulled his hood over his head, shrouding his face in shadow.
Nineteen ninety-seven arrived, and the fireworks began, whistling and banging in a beautiful yet modest celebratory display. Extravagance was no longer the order of the hour, since so many wizarding families now suffered under the ever-present thumb of the Dark Lord, but the magical pyrotechnics flashing and crackling noisily in the night sky succeeded in producing delighted 'ooohs' and 'ahhhs' from the audience.
As a giant fiery dragon flew through the night sky, Snape felt the gentle pressure of Tonks' hand on his backside, and she squeezed his buttock playfully underneath his cloak. Snape jumped with shock, and then tried unsuccessfully to bat her hand away, but this only seemed to encourage her and she clutched his derriere, licentiously fondling him. Although he didn't want to be groped in a public place, he couldn't stop his crotch from betraying him, and an increasing swell of blood caused him to rise inexorably upwards.
When the firework dragon came rushing towards the spectators with its mouth wide open, the crowd tried to duck out of the way, and Snape made use of the moment's distraction by grasping Tonks' roaming hand away from his buttock. She responded by stepping directly in front, with her back towards him. Soon she was rubbing up against his half-formed hardness and laughing throatily, as if entertained by the magnificent phoenix now swirling in the erstwhile dragon's airspace.
Her hand found its way to his trousers and started to unbutton his fly, and Snape could fight no longer. The fumbling of her fingers mingled with a heady thrill; the danger of being found out, and his fear of losing control. She secured his length in her hand and gently stroked and coaxed him into a full-size erection. Snape held her arms securely to prevent her escape, enraptured by her delicate touch and youthful exuberance.
For a time, the darkness kept them safe and hidden from the distracted crowd, but when the deafening encore of airborne explosives reached its crescendo, Tonks gently tucked him away and carefully buttoned-up his fly. Throbbing and frustrated, Snape let go of her arms and pushed her away.
A chorus of Auld Lang Syne filled the night air and Snape stepped away from the singing throng, dragging Tonks unceremoniously into the shadows of the alley at the side of the pub. The air was smoky from burned-out fireworks, and the rowdy celebrations of the Three Broomsticks revellers concealed the sound of his angry voice.
"Just what do you think you are doing?" he snapped.
As his eyes adapted to the dark alleyway he could make out the outline of her face; she was illuminated in moonlight: black and white with shades of grey, small, petite, a little bit frightened, and very, very wary.
"You can't tell me you didn't enjoy it," Tonks said, faking boldness.
Snape used the weight of his body to push her up against the wall of the pub.
"Do tell me, Nymphadora, which part I was expected to enjoy? You, arriving two hours late? You, yanking me outside to observe deafening explosives? Or you, helping yourself to my body, as the mood took you?"
His nose was less than an inch away from her now, and he was aware that his voice had risen considerably in volume.
"Severus! Stop! People will hear you!"
"Muffliato," he whispered, holding onto his wand. "No-one will hear us now."
Her eyes widened at the implication.
"When you fondled me, you didn't seem at all concerned about witnesses," he growled. "Why be so shy now?"
"I..." she stammered.
"Don't cry wolf, just because you're no longer in control of the situation."
Her head thudded softly on the cold stonework of the wall. "What do you want me to say, Severus?" Tonks asked wearily. "Do you want me to apologise? Promise not to do it again?"
"I want you to do as I tell you."
His tone was menacing and conveyed the authority and power he intended to feel. He would show her who was in charge; he would create the agenda of their relationship, and eventually she would beg him to take her.
Snape Summoned an upturned, empty Butterbeer crate and commanded her to stand upon it. Their faces now at the same level, he could feel her hot breath on his lips. He ran his hands down the back of her knees and found the hem of her long, tweed skirt. His fingers snaked up her thighs and located her buttocks, which he pinched with such force that Tonks jumped. Snape relished the moment, then slipped his index finger under the lower seam of her knickers and traced the hemline slowly towards her core, feeling her rough hair beneath and warm wetness between her legs. Snape felt a flicker of satisfaction: the firework activity had aroused her too.
When he slipped his finger between her folds she melted at his touch. With a low moan, her head fell forwards onto his shoulder. A surge of supremacy made his erection strain uncomfortably against his clothing, and his Auror trembled, weakened and feeble, submitting to his every whim. He pushed her underwear aside, and he almost tumbled over the edge when the sensation of her slick heat encased his penetrating fingers.
Tonks' head rose slightly, and she whispered into his ear. "I'll do anything," she said, shivering. "Anything you tell me."
Her words were his undoing, and he quickly freed his erection, tore her knickers down to the floor, lifted her up until her legs wrapped around his waist, and took her with a forceful thrust.
Tonks screamed a moan into the muffled night air, and the noise excited Snape beyond belief. He pressed her body roughly into the wall, and his movements inside her became ragged and feral, as if some hidden beast had been unleashed from within.
Rejoicing in sinful, intoxicating freedom, he plunged deeper and harder, lost in a dark rhapsody of sensation. Becoming vaguely aware of Tonks' climax echoing down the alley, Snape joined her with a sudden rush of moans and violent shudders, until his increasingly flaccid muscles could no longer hold her weight, and her body fell limp in his arms.
He placed her gently down upon the crate, and she fell whimpering into his embrace, holding onto his shoulders for dear life. Snape cradled her head, stroking her hair away from her eyes, and he became aware of his unexpected transition from untamed beast to gentle lover; all he wanted to do now was hold her and take care of her. The change of emotion was disconcerting and humbling.
"Happy New Year," he whispered softly into her hair.
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Latest 25 Reviews for What the Lonely Know
27 Reviews | 5.0/10 Average
Wow. That was so unique and felt very honest and real. I appreciate your style and loved the last chapter. Well done!
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thank you so much - uniqueness is hard to achieve in the competitive world of Harry Potter fan fiction! This story took me back to a very lonely chapter from my own life, which may account for its realism and honesty. Your reviews have been much appreciated
Intense start. Not a couple I ever pictured but in a moment I'd desperation I can see it happening. I am curious where this will lead.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thanks for reviewing! The idea popped into my head years ago when I was feverish with a flu-like illness... Before this, I too had never pictured these two as a couple. The story was originally a one-shot, but the characters wouldn't leave me alone. I had no clue where they would take me, so I placed my trust in them and they led me in unexpected directions!
Nooooooooo! How dare you break my heart like that? Surely our Severus deserves some solace now!
*wipes tears violently*
OK, enough dramatics, back to the point.
You. Are. Outstanding. I am just amazed, to say the least. Wow. Just wow.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
How lovely to receive a new review after all these years! Thank you so much for sharing your emotional response to my writing and for your kind praise. I'd love to know what stood out from the story for you? *passes tissues*
Response from MayavanavihariniHarini (Reviewer)
You wrote about the leading duo with zero compromise.. They were TOTALLY true to character. Frankly I feel at times that writing good fanfiction is TOUGHER than writing original fiction. You just reinforced that idea. Perhaps moving Tonks back to Lupin is what gives the story its powerful quality that makes me love you and hate you at the same time!
I hope I could convey my feelings properly..English isn't my mothertongue, you see!
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Certainly, writing canon-compliant fan fiction is quite challenging, and forces authors to think carefully about plot and characterisation. I'm glad you think Snape and Tonks were true to character - I tried hard to make it so! Thank you for replying. You made my day
acutely insightful and realistic. thanks for the happy ending though it could so easily have resulted in unforgiveness
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thank you for leaving a review; it's nice to know this story is still being enjoyed all these years after publication. You found the ending happy? I suppose it was the lesser of two evils! Couldn't have them skipping off into the sunset together now, could we? ;)
Wrenching. It's a shame she never knew the truth.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Yes, it is a shame. Tonks was a bit too ham-fisted to get close enough to really know him, Snape was too scared to let somebody truly see him, and so despite their physical intimacy, they never shared real emotional intimacy. I like to think Tonks had an inkling, but sadly they both perished before the truth was revealed. Thanks for reading, and for leaving some nice shiny stars!
This is a truly engaging tale. I'm totally sucked in and can't wait to see how this resolves (even though I know it can't end well.)
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thanks for reviewing; it's nice to know this story is still being discovered and enjoyed by readers
Ooh! I got shivers when Tonks' eyes metamorphosed into Sevs. This felt a little like the calm before the storm for some reason. Everything is going well for them, but how can it end well? I wonder how the DADA classroom rendezvous will play out? Looking forward to finding out.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
The calm before the storm, you say? Very perceptive. I wanted them to have a bit of fun at some point in the story, because the end is coming as surely as the Chudley Cannons shall finish bottom of the Quidditch league. Thank you so much for the stars and your review!
They are both so in tune with each other; the metamorphosed reaction Tonks has from Sev - she's renewing herself, her strength again from him...hmmn, they're both getting into deep waters from which neither will be the same - though neither would maybe admit it, due to circumstances and consequences... as painful as it is, can't wait to read further :)
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
I love your interpretation of the metamorphosis; there's definitely a bond between them now, although it's not exactly conventional, and you're quite right - they won't admit it to each other, or to themselves. Next chapter's up; I hope it's not too painful for you!
Wonderful chemistry and insight into these kindred souls!
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thank you! Who says a Hufflepuff and a Slytherin can't have chemistry? Hehe
Perfect! Thank you - I was always struck by the intimacy of Severus' remark to Tonks - implying that he knew all too well her state of mind and emotions for changing her Patronus and fading looks - thanking you for fleshing it out! Speaking of 'fleshing' things out - thanks for this ship :) Poignant, wonderful & juicy; really capturing their immediate needs.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
I, too, noticed the intimacy of Snape's remark to Tonks at the school gates, and his nasty comment was the inspiration for this story. Thanks for reviewing!
This is so poignant. I feel sad for both of them knowing what is ahead for them. I really think that Snape is deluding himself here; he claims to want something undemanding, but I have a feeling he wants more - maybe not necessarily from Tonks, but I think Snape is a one woman man who craves intimacy and all that it brings, despite what he says. What Tonks wants is less clear - perhaps to herself as well. She is obviously in love with Lupin, but I suspect she feels something for Snape. Yes, she wants him as a 'fuck-buddy' but he is an emotional support too, whether either of them acknowledge it or not. I know this can't end romantically well for either of them, but I am intrigued to know how you will end it. Thank you for a lovely take on two lonely people's lives.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Reviews like yours make posting on TPP worthwhile; thank you for your insightful words. I think there's a lot of denial and distortion going on between them, but I think they also draw comfort from each other. Both of them suffer the pain and loneliness of unrequited love, and both have an inability to move on. I'm intrigued by the lies the characters tell themselves. I hope the ending completes the story for you.
I like the way you compared Severus to a dragon when he got angry. Tonks extinguished him quick enough;) Also loved the tenderness at the end. Good job.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thanks for your review,
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
. I'm pleased you enjoyed his transition from anger to tenderness.
So very poignant and well-done; thank you - my three favourite characters... thanks for filling in the gaps in such stirring ways!
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
I hope I handled your three favourite characters well! Many thanks for all your reviews.
Enjoyed the telling, biting dialogue and reflections going on between/in both of them. Thank you for capturing the angst and turmoil of each. So sad. And realistic. Reading on...
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
I'm glad you enjoyed the dialogue, which is getting edgier as time passes by. Sadness and realism, wow - thank you!
I knew the ending did not bode well for our man, but at least there was some sort of hope and the promise of a happy ever after for Tonks. Of course we know how short that happy ever after is going to be for the two of them, but its nice to think that they had some happiness, if only for a brief time. Thank you for sharing this little glimpse into the lives of two, or perhaps I should say three lonely people.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
And thank you for reading and reviewing,
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
. I'm glad you saw some happiness and hope in these characters, during a very bleak time of their lives.
I'm sad to see this end (especially as I still had hopes about Teddy being a Snape) but I really enjoyed this story from start to finish
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
I'm glad you enjoyed the story. Snape and Tonks weren't sustainable enough to last until the time she fell pregnant with Teddy; Snape couldn't handle intimacy and Tonks couldn't manage without it. Thanks for reviewing!
What achingly empty lives. This was an extremely well written story.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
"Achingly empty" really sums it up well; their lives are so lonely and bereft. Thank you very much for your kind review.
Perfect... really felt like I was at Grimmauld Place; everything really captured spot-on, all the details and description (the last line really hit the spot!); really love your perfect characterisation and the banter and chemistry between Tonks and Severus. Yummy! Thanks!
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thanks,
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
, it was nice for me to go back to Grimmauld Place, I quite like it there. I'm pleased you're enjoying the chemistry between the two characters; Tonks always struck me as a witch who could hold her own in a conversation, and I've had fun playing her off against Snape. Many thanks for reading and reviewing!
I like your Tonks and Severus. It is nice he has some moments of interacting with another person in relatively peace in this awful year of his
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Yes, this has to count of one of his least enjoyable years at Hogwarts. Thanks for your review!
Wow Snape did something kind for someone else (although of course there was a nice thank you in it for him:)). Good chapter looking forward to more.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
He did something kind but ultimately self-serving. Snape is a Slytherin, after all. Thanks for the review and the shinies
Nicely done :)
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thanks. Are you referring to any part in particular?
Response from Lexandrac (Reviewer)
I just love the emotional bits in this chapter, Severus' sadnesss, as well as Tonks' is almost palpable.
I'm glad they aren't ending it, I'm enjoying this story too much for it to be over :). I've always thought Tonks and Severus could have made an interesting couple. Looking forward to more.
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Thanks for your encouraging review. I was also glad they decided not to end it... yet. Tonks and Severus popped into my head one day and refused to leave, and up until then the pairing had never occured to me. There will be ten chapters in total. Hope you enjoy!
Wow that answered the one question I had after the incident which was "Who is Teddy's real father?"
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
Teddy's father is Remus Lupin, after all.
very sad
Response from Agnus Castus (Author of What the Lonely Know)
I know. They seem doomed...