Intermission
Chapter 13 of 19
KingPig***Winner of the Judge's Choice: Best Avada Kedavra in The New Library Awards 2008***
A conversation between two friends ignites a passion, if not an obsession, to uncover Severus Snape's dark and violent past.
An inarticulate roar and the resounding crash that followed startled Hermione into consciousness. Wearily blinking her eyes in a vain attempt to make sense of her surroundings, she had only a moment's respite before another howl of pain assaulted her ears. She struggled to sit up, but a firm hand held her still. Slowly, her vision began to focus.
"R...Remus?" she asked, her voice sounding hoarse and broken to her ears.
"Hermione, love, shhhh. Lie back down." He turned his head away from her and whispered, "She's awake," to the room at large.
A room that looked eerily familiar, though her exhausted brain could not quite begin to place the names of the people and objects that crowded her view. In fact, their mere presence was quickly becoming overwhelming.
"'Mione! Merlin, you gave us a scare..." Ron's recognizable voice chimed.
"Hermione? Are you alright?" This was, unmistakably, Harry.
"Give her room to breathe, you two, gods!" Classic Ginny.
"Alright, loves, she's awake. Let's give her a bit to collect herself. C'mon, let's grab some lunch, yeah?" Hermione smiled as Tonks' unique blend of insight and authority infused the air as she ushered the muttering group out the door, leaving the young witch alone with a very relieved and also concerned Remus.
"How do you feel?" he asked quietly, searching her expression for any visible signs of pain.
"Where?" It was all she could get out. Her mind seemed to decide it would not supply the rest of the sentence.
"The hospital wing," came his calm answer.
"Professor?" She felt silly being reduced to one-word questions.
"He's here too."
"Alright?"
"Don't worry about that, Hermione. What matters is that you've returned to us. I'm more concerned at this moment for your welfare."
She swallowed thickly. There was so much she wanted to say, so much she wanted to ask, to explain, to understand. And yet... and yet, a feeling of intense apathy washed over her.
Another spectacular crash invaded her thoughts, and she visibly jumped. Remus' head whipped around at the noise with a strange expression plastered over his face.
"Alright over there, Poppy?" he called out tentatively. There was no answer. "Minerva?" he asked a bit more loudly.
"We're fine, Remus, we're fine," came the exasperated, curt tone of the Headmistress from a distance away.
"What?" Hermione asked Remus, again only able to verbalize the first word of her question.
The wizard turned back to her and belatedly feigned a small smile. "Nothing to worry about. Are you hungry?"
Confused at the rapid change of conversation, Hermione shook her head vigorously. The thought of food made her stomach turn. The thought of withstanding the pitying look that appeared on her former professor's face any longer also made her feel decidedly queasy. She turned away, intent on investigating her surroundings further.
She was in a partitioned area of the Infirmary, a curtain enclosing a small space that included herself, her bed, a cluttered nightstand, a comfortable-looking armchair, and Remus. It was sparse, it was clean, it was cold, it was sterile. Vases full of flowers charmed to last an indefinite amount of time littered the top of the nightstand, crowding her personal space. They let out a cloying perfume that tickled and teased her sinuses.
Stacks of books and newspapers were piled haphazardly next to the armchair, along with a few extra blankets and pillows strewn about. Hermione glanced up at Remus, her eyes full of fear. "H...how long?" There. She had graduated to two words. Her small feeling of victory was fleeting, however, as she witnessed a wince appear on the older wizard's face, darkening his expression. "Remus?" she queried again when he was not forthcoming with an answer.
He seemed to have found the crisp sheets of her bed suddenly very interesting as he mumbled, "Two weeks."
Her sharp intake of breath caused him to meet her eyes once again. "Two weeks?" she asked in a disbelieving tone.
"Yes, Hermione..."
"And him?" There was no question whom "him" referred to.
"Not quite awake yet. But," he quickly added upon seeing the sudden crestfallen expression she adopted, "don't worry about him, Hermione. Let's focus on your recovery right now..."
"That noise?"
"Well, he's showing definite signs of life," quipped Remus weakly. Another incomprehensible roar and the shattering of one of the nearby vases seemed to accentuate his point.
She watched with a certain lack of concern as the vase's water swelled silently across the tabletop before being spelled away by Remus. The displaced flowers met the same fate. "He's doing that?" she asked. Up to three words. Her progress seemed to go unnoticed by the wizard, however.
"Hopefully not intentionally."
"Non-verbally?" What a stupid question, she berated herself.
"And wandlessly, unconsciously."
She made a non-committal noise at that, followed by a rather large yawn. She felt a complete absence of fear that Snape's subconscious magical ability might affect her in any way, and it worried her slightly. Shouldn't she be afraid? Shouldn't there be more safety measures in place? Magical boundaries of some sort?
She suddenly realized that she didn't care. That she almost welcomed the danger. Would she feel any different if she was in pain? Would she feel less detached? Would she feel anything at all? She wondered if there were a way she could subtly provoke him to attack her, but quickly dismissed the idea at the thought that he would, almost certainly, be blamed, unconscious or not. Would she feel guilty? No, she shook her head, best to not test that theory.
"Take this," Remus lifted a chilled potion to her lips, "and try to sleep. I'll see if we can't manage to keep the noise down a bit."
The last words that left her lips before she succumbed to sleep were, "Don't silence him. I need to hear."
***
Hushed voices were penetrating her deep slumber, and she ineffectively tried to swat them away. Instead of drowning into the background, however, they seemed to grow louder and clearer. Hermione amused herself by attempting to place the voices. There were three, all adults, one male and two female. She allowed the last remnants of sleep to escape her as she began to focus on their conversation, slyly keeping the outward appearance of unconsciousness.
"How is she?" asked a brusque female voice that Hermione immediately recognized as belonging to Minerva McGonagall.
"Taking well to the treatments," replied the second female voice, one familiar to Hermione from her years as a student that seemed to attract trouble wherever she went. Madam Pomfrey.
"How long has she been sleeping, Remus?" asked the Headmistress.
A low voice answered tiredly from her immediate right, "For nearly twelve hours now. Him?"
"We've finally managed to sedate him, thank Merlin," Poppy responded in an exhausted, clipped tone. "I heard you speaking with her earlier. I'm sorry I wasn't able to assist you. She didn't, by chance, mention what happened?"
"No, and I didn't think it wise to press the issue. She had no idea where she was."
Silence blanketed the room for several minutes. Hermione was about to make a display of waking when suddenly Minerva spoke. "Run by me again what Mrs. Malfoy said?"
"She told me that she happened upon Severus and Hermione in the corridor in front of his office, that he was vomiting excessively and that Ms. Granger had collapsed quite suddenly. By the time I reached them, they were both unconscious and unresponsive," replied the Healer.
"What do you think, Remus?" asked the Headmistress.
"I don't know, Minerva. You said something about them having a heated disagreement not too long before this incident?"
"One you knew all too well about, young man."
"I had no idea the extent..."
"Well, while that explains his bruises, it doesn't quite explain the situation at hand, does it, dears?" interrupted Poppy in a clipped, no-nonsense tone.
Hermione nearly groaned aloud. How could I have been so insensitive? So violent? So hurtful?
"Do you think he...that it to say, they, might have attacked each other?" asked Remus suddenly, bringing Hermione out of her thoughts.
"No, I don't think so. I gave them both quite a stern warning, and I don't think either of them truly intended to hurt the other in the earlier incident. I doubt they would suddenly dissolve into a duel..." began McGonagall.
"I don't mean to insinuate..." the wizard quickly amended.
"Remus, I agree with Minerva. I don't think either would set out to do the other harm, especially this grave."
"Of course, not intentionally. I was merely wondering aloud if he might have let his temper get the best of him..."
"Let's not point the finger of blame, shall we? It doesn't matter who did what, just the what is all I'm concerned about," said Poppy.
"Remus, if you don't mind, would you watch over Severus? I'll take over for you with Hermione."
"Of course, Headmistress," replied Remus diffidently. Hermione heard him shuffle away. A tension dissolved in the air that she had not noticed had been there before. A few moments of uneasy silence ticked by.
"Hermione, dear, I know you're awake," whispered Minerva into the young witch's ear, startling the girl into opening her eyes. The Headmistress and the Healer both stared at her expectantly.
"He didn't do anything." It was all she could think to say. She heard Minerva mumble something under her breath and felt a prick of familiar magic on her skin.
"Silencing charm," the Headmistress explained off-handedly in answer to Hermione's confused expression. "What happened, Hermione? Do you remember?"
The young witch was silent, trying to gather the proper words in order to explain her theory. Poppy, however, had misunderstood her lack of response to mean that Hermione was unwilling to clarify. "Miss Granger," the Healer said in an affronted tone, "it is imperative that we know exactly what happened..."
"I know!" Hermione shot back petulantly. "I'm trying to figure out how to explain it. I think... Can Legilimency be performed without intent?" The last sentence was directed at Minerva.
"It has happened before, yes," answered the Headmistress.
"I think it happened in this case. I was trying to apologize for, well, for everything, but he was, and rightly so, still angry, and I might have pressed it, my apology, you see... Well, whatever the case, we were arguing, and then we were just glaring at each other, and I just, I fell in."
"'Fell in?'" asked Poppy in a somewhat softer tone.
"Into, into his memories. I didn't mean to. Merlin, I didn't mean to! The last thing I wanted to do was invade his privacy again..."
"'Again?'" prompted Minerva, but Hermione ignored her, not feeling that it was the right time to disclose the information she gained from the stolen shoebox. If there was ever a right time, that was.
"Well, the memories, they, they..." Hermione stopped short suddenly; the flashbacks of those visions was sending both her mind and the contents of her stomach reeling.
Correctly interpreting Hermione's instant sickly pallor, Poppy quickly conjured a sick bucket just as the young witch emptied her belly of whatever nourishment it had found within the bottomless vials of medicinal potions from the past several hours.
"I see," stated Minerva as soon as Hermione had ceased retching. She gently laid her hand upon the young witch's shoulder as the girl's body began to tremble with silent sobs. The Headmistress exchanged a knowing look with the Healer.
"Hermione, why don't you take a sip of this now," Poppy fed her a vial of foul-smelling potion, "and we'll let you rest. If you need anything at all, call out, dear."
The young witch settled back into her pillows and closed her heavy eyelids without protest, feeling emotionally and physically drained from the entire ordeal.
***
Days and nights slipped quietly away without the young witch's notice as she collected a small library of her own within the tiny space allotted to her in the infirmary. The books splayed across her bed were an assortment of Muggle psychology books as well as printed works that delved into the art of Legilimency and Occlumency; books that Remus and Tonks had tirelessly gathered for her during her continued imprisonment.
Hermione's third week of being sequestered in Madam Pomfrey's care was coming to a close with the fourth week dawning on the horizon. Yet still, Severus Snape had not regained consciousness. Still, the young witch drowned in a sea of guilt, fear, and a strange sense of apathy. Her books did nothing to settle her mind or to pique her interest as they once would have done. They seemed now to be merely an exercise in keeping desperation and boredom at bay. With a weak sigh, she trudged on through a paragraph outlining the symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder in the Muggle text Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition, more commonly referred to as the "DSMIV."
"Wotcher, Hermione!" called out a female voice suddenly. Startled, Hermione shrieked and dropped the heavy manual instantly. "Oh, didn't mean to scare you! I keep forgetting. Sorry, love," whispered the owner of the high-pitched voice, one Nymphadora Tonks.
"It's fine, Tonks. It's fine," sighed the younger witch. "You're here early, I think." Hermione blinked and looked around for the clock. The ancient timepiece mounted on the wall clearly stated it was one o'clock p.m. "I guess not. Lunch with Remus again?" She was not fooled by Tonks' sudden interest in her husband's eating habits; the older witch had taken it upon herself to make sure that Hermione was not without company for more than a few hours at most. A plan that reeked of Tonks', Remus', Minerva's, Harry's, Ginny's, and Madam Pomfrey's combined plotting.
"Yep, we had steak and kidney pie. Again." The older witch comically rolled her eyes.
Hermione nodded meekly and rescued the thick text from its fallen position.
"Hermione," Tonks began, her tone at once soothing and serious, "you still aren't eating very much. Do you want me to fetch something more, uhm, tasty than that?" She pointed at a discarded lunch tray adorned with an untouched Shepherd's Pie, her nose wrinkling in distaste.
"No, I'm okay."
"You sure? It's no problem. Want me to grab you a bite of Muggle food?"
"No, but thanks. I just want to rest a bit more. I'll probably be hungry when I wake up," Hermione lied. She knew by the sharp glance of the older witch that Tonks didn't buy it. Hermione added a faint smile belatedly. Tonks snorted in disbelief.
"All right, then, let me at least help you get all these books off the bed. It makes me feel better that you're reading again, though, mind you. You seemed so lost earlier this week..." And as Tonks continued what passed as her daily motivational speech, Hermione easily tuned it out in favor of snuggling into the warm blankets. She was asleep before the Metamorphmagus could finish her thought.
*
A strange sound, so soft it was nearly whispered, woke Hermione with a start. Lying still, she waited and listened for it to repeat. The Hospital Wing was doused in inky darkness, all the inhabitants sleeping it seemed, save for her. Silver shafts of moonlight pierced the blackness every few feet, illuminating patches of her room. The cold seeping through the stone was effectively halted by the Warming Charm cast on the patients' blankets, and it gave Hermione a feeling of security in the midst of such a brisk night.
Just as she began to drift off into another dreamless slumber, the odd noise tickled her eardrum once more, and she was once again awake and highly alert. She strained to hear as it sounded again, her brain quickly cataloguing the various possible sources. When it breached her auditory senses once more, she felt sure that she could label it as a yelp of distress, or pain.
And it came from... the adjoining room.
Hermione uncurled herself from her tense, prostrate position and gingerly stepped out of her bed, keeping her ears trained to the repetitive cry as she followed. It was low, so muted, that during the breaks of silence in between, she questioned whether she had heard anything at all. But then it would break through, so hoarse and pleading, a whimper almost, that it pushed all thoughts of imagination and dismissal out of her head.
Slowly, cautiously, she advanced. Pulling back the curtains that separated the patients' beds from one another, separated her from him, separated her from all the injured students she located the origin of the haunting noise.
A pale, rogue moonbeam sliced through the opening of the curtains and landed on the deathly-pale face of her former professor. His eyes were closed, his black eyelashes a stark contrast against his chalky complexion. His face was gaunt, far thinner than she had ever remembered seeing before. He trembled uncontrollably, and his sweat-soaked, jet hair clung to his face. He thrashed slightly as another aching yelp escaped his parted lips.
Hermione cast a quick glance of appraisal around his room, looking for something, anything, that might alleviate his near-silent agony.
It was bare. No books, no flowers, no empty glasses left behind by visitors, no cards, nothing but a solitary chair protruding from the darkness. A glint of reflecting light that hovered underneath the spartan piece of furniture blinked out of existence as Hermione stepped near. Her heart burned with raw anger at his neglect. A feeling that suddenly banished her suffocating, week-long indifference.
She finally felt.
Quickly drawing the chair to his bedside, she sat before him with a mixture of gratitude and fear. Tenderly, she reached out with her small fingers and brushed the hair off his face.
Encouraged by his sudden silence, she hurried back to her room, only to return seconds later with her wand. Once again taking her seat, she began to quietly talk in calm, comforting tones as she transfigured a nearby quill into a washcloth. Using a modified Aguamenti charm, she wet the rag with cool water.
As she placed the cloth on his forehead and gently wiped his brow, his head turned slightly into her touch. With an aching heart, Hermione continued her ministrations, only staggering back to her own bed when the break of dawn approached and exhaustion overwhelmed her.
Following the young witch's exit, an oddly-marked feline slunk out from the shrinking shadows and repositioned herself at the foot of the wizard's bed, her body relaxed and fluid as she stalked her perimeter in silent sentinel, a pensive expression dancing in her eyes.
Author's Note Thousands of thank-yous to my extraordinary beta, Angel Mischa, and the invaluable advice from both Amsev and Irishredlass.
And, okay, so I said in the last A/N that shit would hit the fan in this chapter. Apparently not. I guess the characters needed a tender moment before launching into another heated exchange. To which I say, "Bah."
And, yes, I did some research, and the DSM-IV is actually used in the UK psychological field as a reference tool, and is highly respected, from what I've read. If you have evidence to the contrary, please let me know!
Up Next... The sleeping serpent awakens. That sounds really ominous, doesn't it?
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Wow, what a wonderful story!I've been finding those kind of stories for a long time.Love the way you describe Snape and his horrible past.This is the first time I've ever wrote a review on a fic.Please continue with your story! :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so very much! I'm so honored to be the first receipient of a review from you! I know I haven't updated this story in almost a year, but my RL career has had me working overtime constantly, and I'm almost finished with my all-consuming project, and around this time next month, I should have the free time available to post the next chapter. Thank you again!
I'll say that you've continued to write wonderfully. I like your plot, and the way you protray the characters. I've happily favorited this story and hope to see it up-dated soon.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! The story is on a little hiatus right now, as I have a deadline for my RL work – but in the next few weeks I should have time to come back to Conversations and update! Thank you again!
I LOVE your banner!! It looks amazing! And I really like the chapter! I hope the rest of this story is this good!
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Thank you so, so very much! I hope I don't disappoint!
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I do love Luna. What a wonderful vehicle she is for all things wise. If you need any help with chapter 20, don't hesitate to poke me. I promise there'll be no more disappearances! ;)
Author's Response: LOL! I'd be really, really, really grateful and appreciative of any help you'd offer! Kittylefish has graciously offered to beta for me, but I can use all the help I can get! LOL.
I have all but the very beginning of chapter 20 – which may be superfluous anyway (the beginning). Not sure.
I just found this story by accident a couple of days ago. Now I see that you have not updated for months. I do hope that nothing has gone so terribly wrong in your life that you cannot finish this thrilling tale. That is a selfish attitude, I know, but it is all your fault for being such a good writer. I simply must know how Hermione wins him over and helps him to realize how precious and beautiful and special he really is. Please, please update soon. Don't abandon this exquisitly written piece of fan fiction.
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LOL, no, not a selfish attitude at all! I greatly, truly appreciate your review and encouragement! I do feel very guilty about the lack of updates, and thankfully I have no tragic excuse – I have just been extremely busy with "RL" issues regarding work, vacations, and, unfortunately, a horrible case of writer's block. However (!), I have written a bit of the next chapter, and am posting a little snippet of it on my livejournal today (I'm a bit worried that this particular section of the story might be too... fluffy, so I'm looking for some constructive criticism), which you can check, if you'd like, at http://kingpig.livejournal.com/ ... please let me know what you think if you do take a look at it, and don't mind a bit of a spoiler. Once I get it all worked out, and find a willing beta, then I should have something posted here soon. Thank you, thank you, thank you again!
I've been reading all day long to read this story in one rush and it was so, so worth it! Psychological stories are hard to write and I have to say that I love this one! Please keep going! xox
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Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I'm so thrilled you enjoyed it, and I agree, psychological stories are very difficult to write (and very draining) – but without at least some psychological aspect, a story can become very hard to read. I am working on the next chapter, but I am stretched a bit thin when it comes to RL occupation, RL in general, and the SBB project... plus the fact that Severus is just not cooperating :( But I am working on it, so please stay tuned, and thank you again!
Oh, welcome back! I just love having my empathy beaten up from all directions at once. Your portrayal of Snape's PTSD is so believable. I can imagine that he must feel like a accident victim brought to a trauma center to have his life saved. First you're found (by strangers), then immobilized on back board and hard collar to prevent further injury (whether or not you find it uncomfortable or claustrophobic), then you're poked and prodded and a mask put over your face. Transported who knows where. Everyone is talking at you all at once. You arrive at the ER and then they cut off all your clothes in front of God and everybody and proceed to expose you, open your wounds, clean them out with industrial solvents, manipulate your body, more needles but no pain meds, blinding lights, a whole cacophony of incomprehensible sound, and no control, no say in what is being done, nowhere to hide, no way to escape. And all the while, they say they are helping and you're supposed to believe them. **small animal sounds of distress**Hermione will need every bit of her very old soul's experience to help this terribly battered hero with the new soul to learn that there really is love in the world for him. Bravissima. Please continue.
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I absolutely adore your review, and I don't think I could ever apologize enough for my response being so late. *hangs head in shame* I'm very, very sorry!I love the analogy as well, as I never really thought about it in that context, although I had quite a similiar experience! (On top of all that you described, my little sister had witnessed the car accident, and because they put me on a board with the collar, she called my mom and told her I was paralyzed, then she called my grandmother to say I was dead. She was only ten, and I 16, so you can imagine my surprise when I was wheeled out into the lobby in a wheelchair, with only superficial wounds and one cut needing a paltry three stitches, and my entire family – including some I had never before met – greeted me with tear stained faces and the expression as though they were looking at a ghost. I fear most of them were disappointed I didn't at least break a bone, LOL!)And I agree that Hermione will need to draw on her wisdom-beyond-her-age reserves, but she'll also have a few issues of her own, in regards to emotional maturity, so it probably become a "blind leading the blind" scenario for a small bit.Thank you, thank you, and thank you some more! I don't know when the next chapter will be posted, but I am spending what little free time I can to devote to it! Please stay tuned!
Minerva must have a lot of grief on hr plate. She made some serious mistakes with Severus over the years. Hopefully he will be willing to try to let her make amends.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for the review! Yes, I believe Minerva is just now realizing the magnitude of her and AD's past behavior. I think Severus may be feeling as though it's really convenient, that MM and RL and PP suddenly want to apologize, now that the damage is done and was ignored for so long. But, that's not to say that Severus will completely shut her, them, out.Thank you again!
Yay! I'm glad you're back!This is a great story, gripping and intense, though I found difficult to read sometimes.A lot of authors who go high on angst can't portray their characters as -well- f#cked up enough for what they've allegedly been through - your Snape is a stellar exception!It's chilling to watch him vacillate between the persona of the controlled Professor and that of a wounded child. You make it all psychologically believable - great job!My only worry is how on earth will he be capable of forming any sort of functioning relationship with Hermione.You DO have "romance" listed in genre tags for that story, albeit at the very end - is that how long we'll have to wait to see some lovin'?Do you have this story mapped out, or do you write as it unfolds for you? (I think I've read in one of your Author's Notes that it started off as one-shot. Sorry if I got it wrong, I seldom notice A/N's when on a reading binge.)Good luck in all your RL exploits, may nothing distract you from updating ASAP!Thank you for a great evening!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so, so much! Although it can be very difficult indeed, I'm so thrilled that you stay with it. And I very, very greatly appreciate your comment about my characterization of Snape as a realistic survivor of intense trauma. I often feel, because I'm my own worst critic, that I'm not truly conveying the gravity of his circumstances, so a review like yours means so, so much to me! I also share your concern over how he and Hermione will be able to form a healthy relationship – I know it will happen, as that's the true plot and original direction of the story, but <i>how</i> and how long it will take is a little worrisome, I admit. I do know that it is possible, as I write some of his childhood directly from my own experience, and I have found and formed a healthy relationship with my husband – it just took a while to do. And, also, I sadly don't have this story really mapped out, there was no outline – you are correct, it did just start as a one-shot, and I'm letting the story write itself. Which may upset some readers, because I have no idea how long this story will be, or exactly what obstacles it will contain, and I have a feeling people can tell that it's unfolding as it goes... mostly because, to me, it seems to jump around a lot, and there are a few scenes that have yet to be really explained (what Minerva saw when she walked into his room that made him so angry, what Hermione will do with the shoebox of mementos, what kind of potion Severus was about to drink before his fight with Remus...). Sorry to make this response such an epic novel in and of itself, but I really appreciate your insightful review, and I wanted to reply to it with the respectful explanation that it is due. Thank you so, so much again! Chapter 20 is in the process of being written as we speak!
“I bet this is a strange world to him.” Luna is so remarkably perceptive! And I do hope she is right about Hermione's ability to help this poor, tortured, brave soul.I think it may be a testimony to his courage that he did not become a true psychopath, that he did what he was driven to do yet still did not break into a thousand pieces.And good for Minerva trying to get through to him, telling him of her own shame and shortcomings, as well as of her love. He may never truly believe it, but his confusion suggests that perhaps he might be able to at least know that she believes it.Who is Patsy communicating so carefully with? And how will they use the knowledge of Severus' role in the family tragedy?Fascinating!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! In regards to the Luna comment, I'm really relieved that you enjoyed it. Their entire dialogue (HG and LL) was something I wasn't sure of including, even up to the point of clicking "submit." It was in constant risk of being cut, and I'm so glad that you liked it!As for Minerva and Pansy, I can't really elaborate on that just yet, as it's central to the upcoming chapters, but I don't think you'll be disappointed! Thank you again, your reviews are always delightful!
This was a most interesting chapter!! I loved the 'discussion' between Luna and Hermione. Luna always has such a deep understanding of life. I think her 'knowing' always leaves people a little confused. What really surprised me was the whole bit on Pansy's letter writing. It made me laugh as it is basically the same way I write things. The rewriting, the editing, the careful scanning to make sure it says only what I want it to say... it was funny to see my own unconscious process under a new light.I was also very taken with Minerva's heart-felt speech to Severus. "And every time you proved your intense loyalty, your passionate veracity, your inherent Light that shines so blindingly bright, it casts pale shadows over all the others I had ever perceived as heroes – every time, Severus, I would stand in awe..." - Oh Yes! That is our Severus.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you! I'm so relieved to hear that you enjoyed the scene with Luna and Hermione – it very nearly ended up on the cutting room floor. Even after it was submitted, I was very uncertain about it.LOL, yay, another person who writes things with such a neurotic process as Pansy and I do! I'm really bad about it, for because of this, it takes me forever to even type out a text message. And I see tones and inflections in emails, texts, etc., so people are always confused when I call them and say, "What did I do to make you so disappointed/angry/sad/etc?" They're like, "Wha?" and I say, "You used '...' after [insert word here], which could only mean you were slightly annoyed/uncertain/etc." It drives my friends, family, and especially my husband insane. And I'm thrilled that you enjoyed Minerva's speech to Severus, it was, admittedly, my favorite piece to write in this chapter. Thank you again!
this has to be one of the darkest fics i've ever read. but phenominally well written. everyone failed severus, everyone. and your story shows that perfectly. thanks so much and i await the next chapter.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! The next chapter is currently in the works, but has been delayed due to a recent death of a family member as well as current job deadlines looming over my head. I hope to have something up in the next few weeks, please stay tuned!
well, the idea of young snape having to take matters into his hands that way is fairly disturbing, and pansy sending off that article with her letter is of concern. perhaps minerva's words will somehow get through to him. very dense and complex chapter.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so very much! Things are starting to come together, and the next chapter is in the works!
Can't wait for the next chapter! Plese don't make it too long! I've just discovered your story and I really appreciate its psychological depth. But I have to confess that so far, I really don't see how Severus and Hermione could end up together. Not that I don't want them to! Snape seems to be a "hopeless" case. But I trust you to make it credible:)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I know it seems bleak for our heroes, but love often pops up in the most unexpected, even inappropriate, times. I can say it won't be all roses and rainbows – but have faith... love may not be able to heal <i>all</i>, but it can still heal.Thank you again! The next chapter is in the works, but may be delayed due to a recent death in my family in addition to a looming job deadline. I do, often, give updates to the story's progress on my livejournal – my LJ name is kingpig (I'd post the link but I don't know if I'm allowed to...)
okay, so Pansy might just be caught in a bad situation and not really doing something wicked, although she knows she needs to be careful. Minerva has finally communicated to Severus, and I hope she sticks with her intentions. the article Pansy found is heart-wrenching, and I can see a small Severus always regretting that he didn't act soon enough to save his mother's life. stupid wizarding world had no Dept of Social Services to care for wizarding orphans and maltreated kids! Dumbledore was not a good parent-figure to anyone.thank you for the new chapter, and thanks to Sonia and shellsnapeluver for stepping in to help you!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I agree, a Wizarding equivalent of a Dept. of Social Services is desperately needed – hopefully, in the future, Hermione will be able to remedy that. :)
I usually can't read stories that involve abuse and rape, but your writing manages to do that in such a touching manner that I find myself helplessly reading it all in one go. Thank you for such a powerful chapter.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you for such a wonderful review! I do apologize that it has taken this long to respond, RL has really caught up with me these last few months.RL as in real life, not Remus Lupin, lol. Just for my own clarification.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you for such a wonderful review! I do apologize that it has taken this long to respond, RL has really caught up with me these last few months.RL as in real life, not Remus Lupin, lol. Just for my own clarification.
Just re-read this wonderful tale, well as much as you have written, and am eagerly awaiting your next chapter...
Loves you, Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I dearly appreciate your reviews. I did write a little of the next chapter, and it is turning out to be pretty dark. Grrrrr, I can't wait until things start to look up. Did you have a chance to go over the SS/HG x-change stories I sent? Did they send okay? I ask because the last time you replied to my email I didn't get it, only your message on LJ. If you haven't had a chance, I totally understand!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No I went through it that night and wrote you back a lengthy reply as well as beta'ed it.
Damn it... Did you get either of them back??? I am VERY reliable and if I say I will do something I do. Shite a brick, I think I deleted it too. Please re-send.
I think you should go with the second one as the Zombie one will be too complex, unless you want to write like the wind. I like the Zombie one better for plot, but I think you will receive more reviews for the other one as that is what people want... NOT ME.
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Aaaw :( I'm so sorry. For some reason, it seems as though I can't receive emails from you, but I can send them to you. I'll give you another email addy to try (kingpig@mac.com) when I resend you the files. I didn't mean to imply that you didn't do it, just that I'm afraid I can't receive emails from you, or that perhaps you are a little busy. I agree with what you said, and I will probably go with the first prompt (though I'm afraid to state either here, as the prompter may be reading the reviews...). It is less complex, but I really would have loved to do the, uh, more interesting one. But I agree, it is something that does not lend itself to a short story format – it is something I'd like to explore in depth. So, I'll do the the prompt that most people might want to read, and then after the exchange, I'll probably write the more interesting prompt in a chaptered format, dedicate and credit the idea to the prompter, and probably ask permission to write it. I'll resend!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
Okay. Have just woken up. Am feeding the dogs and then the kids are next however, I shall get right on it.
love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I dearly appreciate your reviews. I did write a little of the next chapter, and it is turning out to be pretty dark. Grrrrr, I can't wait until things start to look up. Did you have a chance to go over the SS/HG x-change stories I sent? Did they send okay? I ask because the last time you replied to my email I didn't get it, only your message on LJ. If you haven't had a chance, I totally understand!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No I went through it that night and wrote you back a lengthy reply as well as beta'ed it.
Damn it... Did you get either of them back??? I am VERY reliable and if I say I will do something I do. Shite a brick, I think I deleted it too. Please re-send.
I think you should go with the second one as the Zombie one will be too complex, unless you want to write like the wind. I like the Zombie one better for plot, but I think you will receive more reviews for the other one as that is what people want... NOT ME.
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Aaaw :( I'm so sorry. For some reason, it seems as though I can't receive emails from you, but I can send them to you. I'll give you another email addy to try (kingpig@mac.com) when I resend you the files. I didn't mean to imply that you didn't do it, just that I'm afraid I can't receive emails from you, or that perhaps you are a little busy. I agree with what you said, and I will probably go with the first prompt (though I'm afraid to state either here, as the prompter may be reading the reviews...). It is less complex, but I really would have loved to do the, uh, more interesting one. But I agree, it is something that does not lend itself to a short story format – it is something I'd like to explore in depth. So, I'll do the the prompt that most people might want to read, and then after the exchange, I'll probably write the more interesting prompt in a chaptered format, dedicate and credit the idea to the prompter, and probably ask permission to write it. I'll resend!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
Okay. Have just woken up. Am feeding the dogs and then the kids are next however, I shall get right on it.
love Sonia :)
Hey Babe,
I am going to read this wonderful story again now. Just read the first chapter because I love it so very much.
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL oh no! If you read it all from the beginning, all the plot holes will become obvious!! *ducks*
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No, because it is not complete yet. If it were complete then sure there would be a whole heap of plot holes ;)
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL I need to remember to fill those holes at some point...
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL oh no! If you read it all from the beginning, all the plot holes will become obvious!! *ducks*
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No, because it is not complete yet. If it were complete then sure there would be a whole heap of plot holes ;)
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL I need to remember to fill those holes at some point...
Uh oh. So many intriguing questions! What is Pansy's role in all this (and it's interesting to see her reluctance); Hermione's decidedly odd not-Hermione'ish dream certainly explains her sleeping through the disturbance Pansy caused.I really liked Poppy here. Her concern for Severus feels achingly real.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for the thoughtful, encouraging review! I very much enjoyed writing Poppy's scene, and I felt very saddened that I have to write him leaving like that, which only ramps up her anxiety and concern to new levels. I hope she'll forgive me.Thank you again!
I enjoyed Poppy the most in this chapter. Her concern made the chapter for me.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Oh, I am so glad you enjoyed that! It was very cathartic to write Poppy's scene, in a way. Thank you for the thoughtful review!
Ah so, the precious, precious shoebox and its contents have once again been "found." Hermione still seems to be tangled in Severus' most intimate memories. Is he in any way tangled in hers? And Pansy Malfoy ne Parkinson, a woman who feels scorned by everyone, presented with such an "opportunity"... What will she do with it? I wonder what happens when someone hands a beyond-Hades fury a monkey wrench? Welcome back.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for this thoughtful review! Unfortunately, I'm not quite "back" yet... I will try really hard to update before Feb 1st, but as that is my newest work deadline, I can't make any promises. But I'll try! And, though it'll be explained more in coming chapters, I'll go ahead and answer at least one of your questions... No, Severus is in no way entangled in Hermione's memories. It's a one-way phenomenon. Thank you again!
The dream Hermione is having is quite interesting!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you for the review! I'll be able to explain the dream more fully in the coming chapters.
Another tantalyzing chapter, filled with more questions than answers (that is not a criticism!).Poppy's concern is very touching, while Severus' near-catatonia is frightening. And what in heaven's name is Pansy up to, and at whose behest? (I know you've warned of a not-at-all-nice LM, so I'm assuming he's part of it, but part of what, I wonder?) That letter (and the box it came from) should be interesting--what is it doing there?And what's with that funky, odd dream? Who is dreaming, and how do Hermione and Severus get so mixed together, and in Lily's presence?SO many questions! Hope you have time to give us more soon--this is a dark and twisty tale, and I am hooked!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL, thank you so much!! I just adore your reviews! I had a lot of fun writing Poppy in this chapter, and I think if she had her way, she would have showed up at his doorstep intending to spend the next two weeks with him, 24/7.As for the dream, it will be explained in depth a little more later, but I'll try and clarify it a bit for you now. It's not quite so much a dream as it is one of Severus' memories, inexplicibly (for now, and did I even spell that right?) connecting her and Severus like a long-distance, unconscious Legilimency... thing. Heh. I promise, it will all become clear (...eventually)!I will try really hard to update before Feb 1st, but as that is my newest work deadline, I can't make any promises. But I'll try!
(blinks...) wha??? I need more, please!!! what did Pansy find, are Lucius-Cissa-Draco part of the thing she's in, who is masterminding the thing that Pansy is in, what is the meaning of Hermione's dream?? at least I know Severus is able to get about on his own, and he prolly feels "safe" at Spinner's End. I will cross my fingers for you to finish your yourdeadline! thanks for updating.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for this wonderful review! I really, really want to answer your questions right here in this response, but then I know it will take all the fun of discovery out of it. I will try really hard to update before Feb 1st, but as that is my newest work deadline, I can't make any promises. But I'll try!
so happy to see the update! and i do hope it won't be so long until the next, as what a place you've left off! i shudder to think of pansy seeing what's in that box - poor snape has already been violated enough. plus, not knowing what her agenda is, it worries me. anyway, i am still really enjoying this story. happy holidays and good luck with the work stuff. and i hope rl lets up soon so we can hear more from you on this story!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for the thoughtful review! I do have a work deadline of Feb 1st, so I can't promise an update until after that date, but I will work really hard to try!