Quid Pro Quo
Chapter 11 of 19
KingPig***Winner of the Judge's Choice: Best Avada Kedavra in The New Library Awards 2008***
A conversation between two friends ignites a passion, if not an obsession, to uncover Severus Snape's dark and violent past.
Severus Snape was sulking: his arms crossed in front of his chest, his body slumped in the chair, a tiny scowl marking his face as he stared distantly off to his left side, resembling nothing more than a petulant little boy. Minerva sighed. "Severus, I thought I made it clear that you were required to attend the dinner last night." His only response was a noncommittal grunt, forcing a little smile upon her face in spite of the situation. In the Headmistress' eyes, Severus Snape would always be a reflection of the little misanthropic first year she had first met those many years ago. "Mr. Snape, please remind me why you felt that the mandatory attendance did not apply to you." His head snapped up in attention when she addressed him, his face a fleeting mask of contrition.
"It's Professor, now, Headmistress, unless you are alluding to a termination of my position on the grounds of missing a dinner?" he asked innocently with a twisted smile.
She huffed. "Professor, indeed! I don't recall any professors that I've witnessed sitting and pouting in the corner of my office or deliberately disobeying a Headmistress' request. What sort of example are you setting for the children in your house, hmm?"
"I am not pouting!" he shouted a little too enthusiastically and demonstrated her point by further sliding down in the chair with a snort.
"Indeed." She fought valiantly to withhold her chuckle only a peek of an indulgent grin displayed itself. After a while, a comfortable silence settled upon the two as she continued to observe him, and he continued to mutter incoherently under his breath.
"Something came up," he finally stated with a grumble.
"Oh?"
"Issues... with my apprentice."
"She seemed to be able to adhere to my request. She showed up with Professor Lupin and his wife, Tonks, if my memory is correct."
"Yes, well, I'm sure she did," he spat out derisively.
Long used to his cryptic manner of speaking, Minerva gave Severus a few moments to explain his meaning. When nothing more was said, she prompted, "What sort of issues, my boy?"
"I'd rather not get into it, if you don't mind," he groused, not meeting her eyes.
"Hmmm, I see. You won't object if I invite her to this impromptu meeting, then, I assume? Perhaps she can better explain?"
"By all means, Headmistress," Snape growled with a dismissive wave of his hand.
Minerva gracefully rose to her feet and gingerly maneuvered her way around her desk to the fireplace, noticing the younger wizard's narrowed eyes following her every movement. Slowly, she extracted the Floo powder from within its porcelain container and tossed it into the fire with the words, "Hermione Granger," pretending not to notice the contemptuous snort that issued from behind her. As she leaned into the fire to retrieve his apprentice, Severus took the opportunity to adjust his posture and place a more intimidating scowl upon his features.
Moments later, McGonagall pulled herself away from the fireplace to make room for the younger witch to step through. The younger witch who looked decidedly frazzled and slightly frightened. Snape stood and flashed her a predatory grin, watching with undisguised glee as the color drained from her face.
Minerva took a few minutes to observe this interaction with fascination before she said kindly, "Please, take a seat, Hermione. Would you like some tea?"
"N...no thank you," the apprentice stammered, her eyes still locked with the narrowed eyes of the older wizard. The Headmistress frowned at Severus, wordlessly conveying to him to cease his customary bullying tactics as she summoned forth a chair for her former Gryffindor. Snape merely shot Minerva another innocent look in response.
Ignoring him, she spoke to Hermione, who was currently taking the seat offered to her beside the Potions master, her expression flushed with uncertainty. "Dear, please tell me how you have been? How is the apprenticeship going?" Here, McGonagall noticed a questioning glance that the younger witch sent to Severus, so the Headmistress quickly added, "Don't look at him, Hermione. Please, just ignore his presence for the time being." At this, the wizard snorted loudly.
Hermione found herself fidgeting as she looked up to her former Head of House, who was presently standing and leaning back against her desk. "Uhm... well, I think everything's going all right. We... erm... we had a few bumps, but I think we've smoothed them out?" Again, she stole a quick glance to the sour man seated to her right and was rewarded with yet another obnoxious snort.
"Right, right. Well, Severus was just telling me you and he had met with a few issues last night preceding the dinner, and though he won't explain this problem, he seems to think it excused him from attending the feast. I asked you here to see if you could clarify to me what happened, so that I might better address this concern. I, of course, expect the two of you," and here she glared openly at Snape, "to get along amicably."
"I... Well, that is," Hermione began haltingly. "We had a bit of a disagreement, and..."
"She molested me," stated Severus matter-of-factly. His expression was shuttered.
"I did not!" the younger witch shrieked in terror, her eyes darting between her two former professors frantically. The memory of the photograph Hermione had recently discovered surged to the front of her mind, unbidden. She felt a deep, heart-wrenching pain that he would insinuate that she would have been capable of committing such an atrocious act that he would even remotely compare her attempts at healing to that. Her palms began to tremble in sudden shame. Did he really think that was what I was doing?
"Severus!" shouted Minerva angrily. "That is quite unnecessary! There will be no outlandish accusations in this office!"
Snape shrugged indifferently as he leveled a dark stare at the Headmistress.
Watching the exchange, Hermione stammered, "II... He was hurt, Professor McGonagall, and I thought..."
Minerva blinked, the words rousing her from her reflections. "Hurt, Hermione? How?"
"Yes, please explain, Miss Granger," drawled the wizard as he leaned back in his chair and spitefully began to examine his fingernails thoughtfully. Both witches turned to glare at him.
"HHe... I didn't mean to...I mean, I did mean to, but not so hard, I swear!" Hermione pleaded.
"She slapped me," he clarified.
"Well, yes, all right, I did slap him..."
"Hard," he amended.
"That's enough, Severus! Let her speak!" scolded Minerva as she focused her attention back to the apprentice. "Go on, dear."
"I did. I slapped him. I'm terribly sorry...it was awfully disrespectful. I'm really, really sorry!"
As Minerva drew in a breath to further question the young woman, Snape interrupted with a smooth tone, "That's not all she did."
"I don't need your commentary, Severus! Let her speak! If you recall, I gave you a chance to tell your side of the tale, and you wasted it!" hissed the Headmistress. Again, the wizard gave a dismissive shrug. She looked again to Hermione with an expression that urged the young witch to continue.
"I...IkickedhimbetweenthelegsreallyhardandhegotsickandI'msorry!" the apprentice cried out in one breath as she leapt to her feet.
"What?"
"I was scared, but that's no excuse, I know! I... He came at me..."
"I did not!" howled Snape as he vaulted from his chair. Minerva hushed him violently.
"He came at you, dear?"
"Well, I mean... I slapped him, and he fell, and then he said, 'How dare you,'" Hermione did her best to impersonate her employer before continuing, "And he started walking toward me, and I just... I kicked him. I'm sorry. I take full responsibility." Hermione sighed and proudly pushed out her chin, looking for all the world as though she would willingly march to the gallows for her sin.
McGonagall had a deep frown etched into her face as she gazed at the brave young witch before her. "Well, I am certainly disappointed in your actions, Hermione..."
"Ah, she has more to tell," interrupted Snape with a sly grin.
Hermione shot him a nasty look and then winced as she said, "I... I Side-Along Apparated the both of us, and he was...well, he was sick, because of... of..."
"The assault," Snape calmly offered.
"Yes, and... it made him more sick. And he fell because he was dizzy, you see, and hit his head on the gates...the, the gates here at Hogwarts, you know, and it cut his head, and he passed out, and I, uhm... I was scared, and I couldn't get him into the castle, and I asked Remus to help." Here, she paused briefly at the sight of the malicious glare directed at her from the wizard before continuing, "So, so Remus and I, we...I used up all my energy to Side-Along! He, he Moblicorpused Professor Snape, and we took him to the Potions classroom, and I thought I could heal him because...because he wouldn't want anyone to know! I know he wouldn't! I was trying to protect his privacy." Snape snorted loudly once again, throwing Hermione off track for a moment before she could once again pick up the thread of her plea. "So I told Remus to go home and get Tonks because she was waiting on him, you know, and I... I found some potions there to, uh... to heal the bruising from when I slapped him and... and... well... Deflating Draught for the, uhm... the, the swelling... and I applied... cream for the pain to... toallaffectedareas!" The last part of her speech ran together quickly as she threw herself back in her chair, tears beginning to flow down her cheeks freely.
Snape smirked satisfactorily, returning to his seat, and motioned at Hermione as though this explained his absence from the dinner, and subsequent behavior, perfectly. The Headmistress peered at both her former students in absolute shocked silence. For moments, the only sign of life was that her mouth opened and closed in perfect demonstration of a fish. Severus' smirk grew into a smile that inched its way to larger proportions by the second, becoming more sinister and dangerous as the minutes passed by.
Finally, Minerva found her voice. "Miss Granger, your actions were deplorable! I thought I could expect better of you!" Snape perched on the edge of his seat, his joy no longer contained by a smile alone; it had graduated into a fully villainous grin. "However," and here Snape's expression fell as McGonagall shifted her gaze to him, "I would like to know where you two were when this happened. Why did you have to Apparate at all?"
The wizard made a short, sharp noise at the young woman beside him, trying in vain to wordlessly convey to her that she should remain silent, yet she ignored him. "Because he took me to the Malfoys, Professor. He didn't say where we were going, just said I had to go. When we got there, I wanted to leave, but he said to stay. He offered another apprenticeship to Pansy Malfoy, and it all happened so quickly because I think one of the Malfoys drugged me...or us, I don't know."
"What?" the older witch shrieked. She stared at the wizard with an expression of pure, undiluted rage.
"Now, Headmistress, it really is not quite as terrible as Miss Granger makes it..."
"Severus Snape," she growled. "How dare you take Miss Granger, of all people, to the Malfoy home unprotected..."
"Unprotected?" he roared. "She was fully protected! I did not let her out of my sight for..."
"Enough!" Minerva shouted. She placed a hand over her eyes in exasperation.
A tinny voice suddenly piped up, "If I may, Minerva, the lady's actions certainly warrant legal action. If ever a student disrespected me..."
"Shut up!" all three shouted in unison at the portrait of Phineas Nigellus Black.
"Well, I never! A pox on the whole lot of you!" he cried out before disappearing from his frame. A few nervous titters were heard throughout the office from the remaining portrait figures as they looked on.
Snape resumed his sulking position, slumped down in his chair with arms crossed over his chest and a pouting expression, glaring down at his shoes. Hermione tried desperately to wipe away her tears.
"I just don't know what to do with you two," sighed Minerva. "I'm deeply disappointed in your behavior, both of you." She paused. "I'm at a loss right now, to be quite honest. Though you both may act like it, you aren't children anymore, and this can't be resolved with detentions, docking of house points, or even expulsion." She shook her head. "Both of you leave my office. There will be punishments, but I need time to think on it. If you both insist on acting like children, you will be punished like children. Go."
She watched them stroll out of the room in silence. "Oh, and Severus?"
Both turned, but it was Snape who replied, "Yes, Headmistress?"
"There will be no other apprentices."
***
Hermione walked briskly beside her employer through the dark corridors of the dungeons. Despite his attempts to subtly shake her off, she had followed him, intent on resolving this issue that created an impregnable barrier between them. Indignation swelled between the two, a passionate anger that embraced them both more and more tightly with each step they took. Finally, she could keep quiet no longer.
"You...you arrogant bastard!"
He halted abruptly and glared down at her from his impressive height, but held his tongue. Further encouraged, she roared, "I meant it when I apologized! I..."
But he silently interrupted her impeding rant by quickly advancing in her direction, a dangerous glint surfacing in those black eyes. Her heart rate tripled in speed as she was backed up against the cold wall; her breath hitched in her throat.
He continued to stare down at her pensively, cocking his head to the side as though she were an intriguing potions ingredient, an object to be studied, rather than a human being. Hermione felt a sharp twinge of claustrophobia under his scrutiny as he edged even closer still, closing the space between them rapidly. She could smell his scent, feel the heat his body radiated. She could also feel the surging power that sparked around his figure, as well as his fierce, masculine energy that circulated around the tiny hallway, drowning her.
"What do you want from me?" he asked in a quiet, silky tone. The pitch, the timbre of his voice melted away her thoughts, her anger, but not her fear. In the Headmistress' office, mere moments ago, he was a cheeky, disdainful, insufferable, immature, cocky semblance of a whining child. Now, the guise was gone, and she shakily stood before a commanding, compelling, potent man and where she expected terror to flood her veins, she instead felt a rush of primal attraction overwhelming her instinctual fear. His body was flush against hers now, and while her breathing had become ragged, his remained detestably steady.
She winced as she heard the word escape her mouth: "Bastard."
He chuckled: a pleasant, low, rumbling laugh. His knee inched upwards, prying apart her legs carefully. Seductively. "Quid pro quo, Miss Granger?" he whispered into her ear, pressing her shoulders back against the wall, holding her captive with not only his body, but also his voice.
Too dazed to attempt to decipher his question, she merely nodded. He held her attention as she watched, entranced and confused, his tongue sweep over his lips suggestively. She found herself slightly aroused under his lustful gaze, this dangerous, unpredictable, powerful man that she felt she knew felt as though she had shared his emotional past in some way... He laughed again, though the tone of it changed perceptibly it seemed malicious, suddenly.
She stared into his eyes, seeking for some tell-tale sign that would express his mood, his thoughts. But they were blank. Cold. Shuttered. Much like the image of him as a child that haunted her dreams. Now came the terror, washing over her every sense, the horrifying realization that...
"This is what you want, Granger?" His voice dripped with revulsion.
No, this is wrong: something, everything, is horribly, terribly wrong! she screamed internally. She opened her mouth to try and explain, to attempt to reverse the dynamic that now played out before her but her words were soundless.
Smiling malevolently at her, he retreated slowly, silently mouthing the words, "Quid pro quo."
Author's Note Loads of gratitude to the amazing, gifted, magical Angel Mischa for tirelessly sifting through the mounds of mistakes to get this polished chapter to you and also heaps of thank yous to the always-deserving, wonderful, talented Amsev for late night chats and plot discussions. Without these two, this story would not exist.
Also, this chapter is probably the first that has no warnings attached to it. If I've overlooked something that needed a warning, please let me know. I figure that those of you who stuck with this tale after the last chapter, well, this chapter should seem G-rated.
Pffft. Warnings, who needs warnings?
Up Next: Pansy enters stage left.
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Wow, what a wonderful story!I've been finding those kind of stories for a long time.Love the way you describe Snape and his horrible past.This is the first time I've ever wrote a review on a fic.Please continue with your story! :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so very much! I'm so honored to be the first receipient of a review from you! I know I haven't updated this story in almost a year, but my RL career has had me working overtime constantly, and I'm almost finished with my all-consuming project, and around this time next month, I should have the free time available to post the next chapter. Thank you again!
I'll say that you've continued to write wonderfully. I like your plot, and the way you protray the characters. I've happily favorited this story and hope to see it up-dated soon.
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Thank you so much! The story is on a little hiatus right now, as I have a deadline for my RL work – but in the next few weeks I should have time to come back to Conversations and update! Thank you again!
I LOVE your banner!! It looks amazing! And I really like the chapter! I hope the rest of this story is this good!
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Thank you so, so very much! I hope I don't disappoint!
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I do love Luna. What a wonderful vehicle she is for all things wise. If you need any help with chapter 20, don't hesitate to poke me. I promise there'll be no more disappearances! ;)
Author's Response: LOL! I'd be really, really, really grateful and appreciative of any help you'd offer! Kittylefish has graciously offered to beta for me, but I can use all the help I can get! LOL.
I have all but the very beginning of chapter 20 – which may be superfluous anyway (the beginning). Not sure.
I just found this story by accident a couple of days ago. Now I see that you have not updated for months. I do hope that nothing has gone so terribly wrong in your life that you cannot finish this thrilling tale. That is a selfish attitude, I know, but it is all your fault for being such a good writer. I simply must know how Hermione wins him over and helps him to realize how precious and beautiful and special he really is. Please, please update soon. Don't abandon this exquisitly written piece of fan fiction.
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LOL, no, not a selfish attitude at all! I greatly, truly appreciate your review and encouragement! I do feel very guilty about the lack of updates, and thankfully I have no tragic excuse – I have just been extremely busy with "RL" issues regarding work, vacations, and, unfortunately, a horrible case of writer's block. However (!), I have written a bit of the next chapter, and am posting a little snippet of it on my livejournal today (I'm a bit worried that this particular section of the story might be too... fluffy, so I'm looking for some constructive criticism), which you can check, if you'd like, at http://kingpig.livejournal.com/ ... please let me know what you think if you do take a look at it, and don't mind a bit of a spoiler. Once I get it all worked out, and find a willing beta, then I should have something posted here soon. Thank you, thank you, thank you again!
I've been reading all day long to read this story in one rush and it was so, so worth it! Psychological stories are hard to write and I have to say that I love this one! Please keep going! xox
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Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I'm so thrilled you enjoyed it, and I agree, psychological stories are very difficult to write (and very draining) – but without at least some psychological aspect, a story can become very hard to read. I am working on the next chapter, but I am stretched a bit thin when it comes to RL occupation, RL in general, and the SBB project... plus the fact that Severus is just not cooperating :( But I am working on it, so please stay tuned, and thank you again!
Oh, welcome back! I just love having my empathy beaten up from all directions at once. Your portrayal of Snape's PTSD is so believable. I can imagine that he must feel like a accident victim brought to a trauma center to have his life saved. First you're found (by strangers), then immobilized on back board and hard collar to prevent further injury (whether or not you find it uncomfortable or claustrophobic), then you're poked and prodded and a mask put over your face. Transported who knows where. Everyone is talking at you all at once. You arrive at the ER and then they cut off all your clothes in front of God and everybody and proceed to expose you, open your wounds, clean them out with industrial solvents, manipulate your body, more needles but no pain meds, blinding lights, a whole cacophony of incomprehensible sound, and no control, no say in what is being done, nowhere to hide, no way to escape. And all the while, they say they are helping and you're supposed to believe them. **small animal sounds of distress**Hermione will need every bit of her very old soul's experience to help this terribly battered hero with the new soul to learn that there really is love in the world for him. Bravissima. Please continue.
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I absolutely adore your review, and I don't think I could ever apologize enough for my response being so late. *hangs head in shame* I'm very, very sorry!I love the analogy as well, as I never really thought about it in that context, although I had quite a similiar experience! (On top of all that you described, my little sister had witnessed the car accident, and because they put me on a board with the collar, she called my mom and told her I was paralyzed, then she called my grandmother to say I was dead. She was only ten, and I 16, so you can imagine my surprise when I was wheeled out into the lobby in a wheelchair, with only superficial wounds and one cut needing a paltry three stitches, and my entire family – including some I had never before met – greeted me with tear stained faces and the expression as though they were looking at a ghost. I fear most of them were disappointed I didn't at least break a bone, LOL!)And I agree that Hermione will need to draw on her wisdom-beyond-her-age reserves, but she'll also have a few issues of her own, in regards to emotional maturity, so it probably become a "blind leading the blind" scenario for a small bit.Thank you, thank you, and thank you some more! I don't know when the next chapter will be posted, but I am spending what little free time I can to devote to it! Please stay tuned!
Minerva must have a lot of grief on hr plate. She made some serious mistakes with Severus over the years. Hopefully he will be willing to try to let her make amends.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for the review! Yes, I believe Minerva is just now realizing the magnitude of her and AD's past behavior. I think Severus may be feeling as though it's really convenient, that MM and RL and PP suddenly want to apologize, now that the damage is done and was ignored for so long. But, that's not to say that Severus will completely shut her, them, out.Thank you again!
Yay! I'm glad you're back!This is a great story, gripping and intense, though I found difficult to read sometimes.A lot of authors who go high on angst can't portray their characters as -well- f#cked up enough for what they've allegedly been through - your Snape is a stellar exception!It's chilling to watch him vacillate between the persona of the controlled Professor and that of a wounded child. You make it all psychologically believable - great job!My only worry is how on earth will he be capable of forming any sort of functioning relationship with Hermione.You DO have "romance" listed in genre tags for that story, albeit at the very end - is that how long we'll have to wait to see some lovin'?Do you have this story mapped out, or do you write as it unfolds for you? (I think I've read in one of your Author's Notes that it started off as one-shot. Sorry if I got it wrong, I seldom notice A/N's when on a reading binge.)Good luck in all your RL exploits, may nothing distract you from updating ASAP!Thank you for a great evening!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so, so much! Although it can be very difficult indeed, I'm so thrilled that you stay with it. And I very, very greatly appreciate your comment about my characterization of Snape as a realistic survivor of intense trauma. I often feel, because I'm my own worst critic, that I'm not truly conveying the gravity of his circumstances, so a review like yours means so, so much to me! I also share your concern over how he and Hermione will be able to form a healthy relationship – I know it will happen, as that's the true plot and original direction of the story, but <i>how</i> and how long it will take is a little worrisome, I admit. I do know that it is possible, as I write some of his childhood directly from my own experience, and I have found and formed a healthy relationship with my husband – it just took a while to do. And, also, I sadly don't have this story really mapped out, there was no outline – you are correct, it did just start as a one-shot, and I'm letting the story write itself. Which may upset some readers, because I have no idea how long this story will be, or exactly what obstacles it will contain, and I have a feeling people can tell that it's unfolding as it goes... mostly because, to me, it seems to jump around a lot, and there are a few scenes that have yet to be really explained (what Minerva saw when she walked into his room that made him so angry, what Hermione will do with the shoebox of mementos, what kind of potion Severus was about to drink before his fight with Remus...). Sorry to make this response such an epic novel in and of itself, but I really appreciate your insightful review, and I wanted to reply to it with the respectful explanation that it is due. Thank you so, so much again! Chapter 20 is in the process of being written as we speak!
“I bet this is a strange world to him.” Luna is so remarkably perceptive! And I do hope she is right about Hermione's ability to help this poor, tortured, brave soul.I think it may be a testimony to his courage that he did not become a true psychopath, that he did what he was driven to do yet still did not break into a thousand pieces.And good for Minerva trying to get through to him, telling him of her own shame and shortcomings, as well as of her love. He may never truly believe it, but his confusion suggests that perhaps he might be able to at least know that she believes it.Who is Patsy communicating so carefully with? And how will they use the knowledge of Severus' role in the family tragedy?Fascinating!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! In regards to the Luna comment, I'm really relieved that you enjoyed it. Their entire dialogue (HG and LL) was something I wasn't sure of including, even up to the point of clicking "submit." It was in constant risk of being cut, and I'm so glad that you liked it!As for Minerva and Pansy, I can't really elaborate on that just yet, as it's central to the upcoming chapters, but I don't think you'll be disappointed! Thank you again, your reviews are always delightful!
This was a most interesting chapter!! I loved the 'discussion' between Luna and Hermione. Luna always has such a deep understanding of life. I think her 'knowing' always leaves people a little confused. What really surprised me was the whole bit on Pansy's letter writing. It made me laugh as it is basically the same way I write things. The rewriting, the editing, the careful scanning to make sure it says only what I want it to say... it was funny to see my own unconscious process under a new light.I was also very taken with Minerva's heart-felt speech to Severus. "And every time you proved your intense loyalty, your passionate veracity, your inherent Light that shines so blindingly bright, it casts pale shadows over all the others I had ever perceived as heroes – every time, Severus, I would stand in awe..." - Oh Yes! That is our Severus.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you! I'm so relieved to hear that you enjoyed the scene with Luna and Hermione – it very nearly ended up on the cutting room floor. Even after it was submitted, I was very uncertain about it.LOL, yay, another person who writes things with such a neurotic process as Pansy and I do! I'm really bad about it, for because of this, it takes me forever to even type out a text message. And I see tones and inflections in emails, texts, etc., so people are always confused when I call them and say, "What did I do to make you so disappointed/angry/sad/etc?" They're like, "Wha?" and I say, "You used '...' after [insert word here], which could only mean you were slightly annoyed/uncertain/etc." It drives my friends, family, and especially my husband insane. And I'm thrilled that you enjoyed Minerva's speech to Severus, it was, admittedly, my favorite piece to write in this chapter. Thank you again!
this has to be one of the darkest fics i've ever read. but phenominally well written. everyone failed severus, everyone. and your story shows that perfectly. thanks so much and i await the next chapter.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! The next chapter is currently in the works, but has been delayed due to a recent death of a family member as well as current job deadlines looming over my head. I hope to have something up in the next few weeks, please stay tuned!
well, the idea of young snape having to take matters into his hands that way is fairly disturbing, and pansy sending off that article with her letter is of concern. perhaps minerva's words will somehow get through to him. very dense and complex chapter.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so very much! Things are starting to come together, and the next chapter is in the works!
Can't wait for the next chapter! Plese don't make it too long! I've just discovered your story and I really appreciate its psychological depth. But I have to confess that so far, I really don't see how Severus and Hermione could end up together. Not that I don't want them to! Snape seems to be a "hopeless" case. But I trust you to make it credible:)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I know it seems bleak for our heroes, but love often pops up in the most unexpected, even inappropriate, times. I can say it won't be all roses and rainbows – but have faith... love may not be able to heal <i>all</i>, but it can still heal.Thank you again! The next chapter is in the works, but may be delayed due to a recent death in my family in addition to a looming job deadline. I do, often, give updates to the story's progress on my livejournal – my LJ name is kingpig (I'd post the link but I don't know if I'm allowed to...)
okay, so Pansy might just be caught in a bad situation and not really doing something wicked, although she knows she needs to be careful. Minerva has finally communicated to Severus, and I hope she sticks with her intentions. the article Pansy found is heart-wrenching, and I can see a small Severus always regretting that he didn't act soon enough to save his mother's life. stupid wizarding world had no Dept of Social Services to care for wizarding orphans and maltreated kids! Dumbledore was not a good parent-figure to anyone.thank you for the new chapter, and thanks to Sonia and shellsnapeluver for stepping in to help you!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I agree, a Wizarding equivalent of a Dept. of Social Services is desperately needed – hopefully, in the future, Hermione will be able to remedy that. :)
I usually can't read stories that involve abuse and rape, but your writing manages to do that in such a touching manner that I find myself helplessly reading it all in one go. Thank you for such a powerful chapter.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you for such a wonderful review! I do apologize that it has taken this long to respond, RL has really caught up with me these last few months.RL as in real life, not Remus Lupin, lol. Just for my own clarification.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you for such a wonderful review! I do apologize that it has taken this long to respond, RL has really caught up with me these last few months.RL as in real life, not Remus Lupin, lol. Just for my own clarification.
Just re-read this wonderful tale, well as much as you have written, and am eagerly awaiting your next chapter...
Loves you, Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I dearly appreciate your reviews. I did write a little of the next chapter, and it is turning out to be pretty dark. Grrrrr, I can't wait until things start to look up. Did you have a chance to go over the SS/HG x-change stories I sent? Did they send okay? I ask because the last time you replied to my email I didn't get it, only your message on LJ. If you haven't had a chance, I totally understand!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No I went through it that night and wrote you back a lengthy reply as well as beta'ed it.
Damn it... Did you get either of them back??? I am VERY reliable and if I say I will do something I do. Shite a brick, I think I deleted it too. Please re-send.
I think you should go with the second one as the Zombie one will be too complex, unless you want to write like the wind. I like the Zombie one better for plot, but I think you will receive more reviews for the other one as that is what people want... NOT ME.
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Aaaw :( I'm so sorry. For some reason, it seems as though I can't receive emails from you, but I can send them to you. I'll give you another email addy to try (kingpig@mac.com) when I resend you the files. I didn't mean to imply that you didn't do it, just that I'm afraid I can't receive emails from you, or that perhaps you are a little busy. I agree with what you said, and I will probably go with the first prompt (though I'm afraid to state either here, as the prompter may be reading the reviews...). It is less complex, but I really would have loved to do the, uh, more interesting one. But I agree, it is something that does not lend itself to a short story format – it is something I'd like to explore in depth. So, I'll do the the prompt that most people might want to read, and then after the exchange, I'll probably write the more interesting prompt in a chaptered format, dedicate and credit the idea to the prompter, and probably ask permission to write it. I'll resend!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
Okay. Have just woken up. Am feeding the dogs and then the kids are next however, I shall get right on it.
love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much! I dearly appreciate your reviews. I did write a little of the next chapter, and it is turning out to be pretty dark. Grrrrr, I can't wait until things start to look up. Did you have a chance to go over the SS/HG x-change stories I sent? Did they send okay? I ask because the last time you replied to my email I didn't get it, only your message on LJ. If you haven't had a chance, I totally understand!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No I went through it that night and wrote you back a lengthy reply as well as beta'ed it.
Damn it... Did you get either of them back??? I am VERY reliable and if I say I will do something I do. Shite a brick, I think I deleted it too. Please re-send.
I think you should go with the second one as the Zombie one will be too complex, unless you want to write like the wind. I like the Zombie one better for plot, but I think you will receive more reviews for the other one as that is what people want... NOT ME.
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Aaaw :( I'm so sorry. For some reason, it seems as though I can't receive emails from you, but I can send them to you. I'll give you another email addy to try (kingpig@mac.com) when I resend you the files. I didn't mean to imply that you didn't do it, just that I'm afraid I can't receive emails from you, or that perhaps you are a little busy. I agree with what you said, and I will probably go with the first prompt (though I'm afraid to state either here, as the prompter may be reading the reviews...). It is less complex, but I really would have loved to do the, uh, more interesting one. But I agree, it is something that does not lend itself to a short story format – it is something I'd like to explore in depth. So, I'll do the the prompt that most people might want to read, and then after the exchange, I'll probably write the more interesting prompt in a chaptered format, dedicate and credit the idea to the prompter, and probably ask permission to write it. I'll resend!
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
Okay. Have just woken up. Am feeding the dogs and then the kids are next however, I shall get right on it.
love Sonia :)
Hey Babe,
I am going to read this wonderful story again now. Just read the first chapter because I love it so very much.
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL oh no! If you read it all from the beginning, all the plot holes will become obvious!! *ducks*
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No, because it is not complete yet. If it were complete then sure there would be a whole heap of plot holes ;)
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL I need to remember to fill those holes at some point...
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL oh no! If you read it all from the beginning, all the plot holes will become obvious!! *ducks*
Response from sbrande (Reviewer)
No, because it is not complete yet. If it were complete then sure there would be a whole heap of plot holes ;)
Love Sonia :)
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL I need to remember to fill those holes at some point...
Uh oh. So many intriguing questions! What is Pansy's role in all this (and it's interesting to see her reluctance); Hermione's decidedly odd not-Hermione'ish dream certainly explains her sleeping through the disturbance Pansy caused.I really liked Poppy here. Her concern for Severus feels achingly real.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for the thoughtful, encouraging review! I very much enjoyed writing Poppy's scene, and I felt very saddened that I have to write him leaving like that, which only ramps up her anxiety and concern to new levels. I hope she'll forgive me.Thank you again!
I enjoyed Poppy the most in this chapter. Her concern made the chapter for me.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Oh, I am so glad you enjoyed that! It was very cathartic to write Poppy's scene, in a way. Thank you for the thoughtful review!
Ah so, the precious, precious shoebox and its contents have once again been "found." Hermione still seems to be tangled in Severus' most intimate memories. Is he in any way tangled in hers? And Pansy Malfoy ne Parkinson, a woman who feels scorned by everyone, presented with such an "opportunity"... What will she do with it? I wonder what happens when someone hands a beyond-Hades fury a monkey wrench? Welcome back.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for this thoughtful review! Unfortunately, I'm not quite "back" yet... I will try really hard to update before Feb 1st, but as that is my newest work deadline, I can't make any promises. But I'll try! And, though it'll be explained more in coming chapters, I'll go ahead and answer at least one of your questions... No, Severus is in no way entangled in Hermione's memories. It's a one-way phenomenon. Thank you again!
The dream Hermione is having is quite interesting!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you for the review! I'll be able to explain the dream more fully in the coming chapters.
Another tantalyzing chapter, filled with more questions than answers (that is not a criticism!).Poppy's concern is very touching, while Severus' near-catatonia is frightening. And what in heaven's name is Pansy up to, and at whose behest? (I know you've warned of a not-at-all-nice LM, so I'm assuming he's part of it, but part of what, I wonder?) That letter (and the box it came from) should be interesting--what is it doing there?And what's with that funky, odd dream? Who is dreaming, and how do Hermione and Severus get so mixed together, and in Lily's presence?SO many questions! Hope you have time to give us more soon--this is a dark and twisty tale, and I am hooked!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
LOL, thank you so much!! I just adore your reviews! I had a lot of fun writing Poppy in this chapter, and I think if she had her way, she would have showed up at his doorstep intending to spend the next two weeks with him, 24/7.As for the dream, it will be explained in depth a little more later, but I'll try and clarify it a bit for you now. It's not quite so much a dream as it is one of Severus' memories, inexplicibly (for now, and did I even spell that right?) connecting her and Severus like a long-distance, unconscious Legilimency... thing. Heh. I promise, it will all become clear (...eventually)!I will try really hard to update before Feb 1st, but as that is my newest work deadline, I can't make any promises. But I'll try!
(blinks...) wha??? I need more, please!!! what did Pansy find, are Lucius-Cissa-Draco part of the thing she's in, who is masterminding the thing that Pansy is in, what is the meaning of Hermione's dream?? at least I know Severus is able to get about on his own, and he prolly feels "safe" at Spinner's End. I will cross my fingers for you to finish your yourdeadline! thanks for updating.
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for this wonderful review! I really, really want to answer your questions right here in this response, but then I know it will take all the fun of discovery out of it. I will try really hard to update before Feb 1st, but as that is my newest work deadline, I can't make any promises. But I'll try!
so happy to see the update! and i do hope it won't be so long until the next, as what a place you've left off! i shudder to think of pansy seeing what's in that box - poor snape has already been violated enough. plus, not knowing what her agenda is, it worries me. anyway, i am still really enjoying this story. happy holidays and good luck with the work stuff. and i hope rl lets up soon so we can hear more from you on this story!
Response from KingPig (Author of Conversations)
Thank you so much for the thoughtful review! I do have a work deadline of Feb 1st, so I can't promise an update until after that date, but I will work really hard to try!