The Spell
Chapter 27 of 35
ClayPotterRose attempts the healing spell on Snape.
Disclaimer: Although I own none of this, I thank and bow to J. K. Rowling for turning a blind eye as I play shamelessly with her invention.
A/N: As always, I also thank my marvelous beta, JENGEORGE, for her help in keeping my characters in character and my story coherent. I also must extend my gratitude to WriterMerrin and the staff here at TPP for their relentless pursuit of perfect grammar and punctuation.
I would also like to apologize in advance for the song lyrics. I used an on-line Latin translator. I know nothing about Latin, having never taken it in school. Sometimes there were several words to pick from to represent the English word, and I have no idea if I chose the best or the worst of the lot.
Chapter 27
The Spell
After what felt like months instead of days, Sunday afternoon arrived, and with it, Professor Snape. Hugo ran to the door and flailed his arms around until they grabbed hold of Snape's Disillusioned robes and anxiously dragged him inside.
"Gran has been telling Rose all about your part in the war," he announced excitedly. Then he whispered, "but I don't think my dad likes you very much. He didn't get very good grades in your class, did he?" asked the boy sheepishly as the charm's effects slowly dripped off and Snape's long, lean form came into view.
"What did he tell you?"
Poor Hugo turned bright red. "I'd rather not say, sir. It was very disrespectful." They Hugo pulled himself up to his full height and pushed his bottom lip up in defiance. "And I told him so!"
"Well, thank you kind sir, for your gallantry on my behalf. But I'm certain that your opinion fell on deaf ears," Snape remarked snidely.
"My father's not deaf!" retorted Hugo.
Snape couldn't help but snort with laughter. "No, Hugo, that means that he paid you no heed." Hugo seemed just as clueless as he had a moment ago. "He chose not to listen to you, or at least he didn't value your opinion of me."
"Ooohh." The boy finally caught on. "He pretended to be deaf."
"Precisely."
"Yeah, that's pretty much what happened."
"So is this your way of warning me that your sister still doesn't like me?"
"That's it in a nutshell, sir."
Snape nodded thoughtfully. Well, he was used to blatant loathing from his students and just about everyone else, for that matter. Miss Granger, on the other hand, greeted him in the hallway with a kiss on the cheek. Then she lead the way to the kitchen. After being told that there was nothing he could do to help with the dinner prep, Snape settled down at the kitchen table on this late Sunday afternoon in August and began flipping through the pages of Rose's new potions text to find a suitable recipe to coach the kids through.
"So, Professor, are you going to make good on your promise?" asked Rose in a persnickety tone.
"What promise is that?" Snape asked warily. At times she almost reminded him of a Slytherin with her high degree of manipulative skills.
"Don't you remember last week? You said you would teach me the healing spell you used on Hugo."
He sighed deeply with dismay at her question. It seemed that she had not forgotten about it as he had hoped she would. "I also told you it was very advanced magic and you may not be able to master it at your age."
"And I told you with certainty that I could!"
Snape put on his best sneer. He had been reserving it for her, after all. "Arrogance, although not exclusively a Gryffindor trait, does seem to run rampant in your particular house." He raised his eyebrow at her.
She responded with a stone face. "And what's so hard about this spell, then?"
"Well," he pondered as he contemplated just how difficult he would try to make it for her, "the incantation is somewhat long, and it must be memorized and recited with precision. There is also a melody that must be followed, and although the key is not crucial, the melody is."
"Mum says that I have a pretty good singing voice, so staying on key should be no problem, and I can memorize just about anything that I read in only a couple of tries," she insisted. "So it should be easy."
Snape narrowed his eyes. He most definitely didn't like her attitude and had an almost overwhelming desire to cut her sizable ego to shreds, but he also very much wanted to get on her good side. He felt that, until he succeeded in that department, Sunday afternoons would continue to be an emotional rollercoaster for all involved. "Alright, I'll teach you the words and melody, but that's the easy part. You said last week that you had powers of concentration well beyond your years. This spell will truly put them to the test."
"Oh, yeah?" Her countenance reeked skepticism. "How so?"
Snape felt that the girl's tenacity and determination were both admirable and infuriating at the same time. "You must will the patient to wellness, so to speak. You must be able to visualize the injury fully healed and the person completely recovered with full use of the damaged area. It takes a great deal of concentration and visualization skills..."
"I can do that," she boldly interrupted him.
"I'm not finished yet," he said in a deathly quiet tone. "And if you interrupt me again, this lesson will be at an end. Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes, sir," she replied meekly, her ego finally somewhat deflated.
"You understand the principles of magic, yes?"
"That the energy from our willpower combines with the spells we use and is concentrated and directed by our wands to create the desired effects?"
Snape couldn't stifle his sneer. "Straight from the text." He pulled out his wand and began to caress it with his fingers. "But do you understand that, when you perform this particular spell, you are using your energy to direct and accelerate the patient's own body to heal itself?"
"Oooh!" Her eyes grew wide with wonder.
"This is why you must put your personal feelings aside. If you are too attached to someone, you could lose your objectivity and hence your ability to concentrate. If you hate someone, you might not want them to get well and the spell would be rendered ineffective. But you must still care about the person enough to want to heal them. You must tap into a higher type of caring... universal... unconditional. You must keep in mind that to heal this person, even if he is your worst enemy, is to heal yourself, because we are all connected."
Rose nodded thoughtfully. "Kind of like Eastern philosophy. We are all one drop in the great ocean of spirit."
Hermione glanced at Snape as Rose spoke. She knew that Rose had picked up a couple of books on world religion from the Muggle library over the summer for some light reading. Did she just see a look of astonishment cross his face? Or was she imagining it? Whatever it might have been, he was now wearing his usual impassive and inscrutable mask.
"That's the idea, yes," he admitted. "So, shall I teach you the words?"
"I'm ready when you are."
"It's rather long and in Latin. Perhaps a piece of parchment would be helpful."
Rose produced the necessary writing implements, and Snape went to work copying down the spell for her as he spoke.
"Oh Lumen Eternus,
Succurro mihi sano is vulnus.
Quis lace seorsum
Lunctum iterum.
Cum amor quo mea pectus,
Aufero poena do illae cruciatus animus.
"Roughly translated it means:
Oh Eternal Light,
Help me to heal this wound.
What has been torn apart,
Must be reunited.
With love from my heart,
Remove the pain of this tortured soul."
"That's beautiful," whispered Hermione. Professor Snape tilted his head toward her in agreement.
"And the melody?"
"It sounds rather like a Gregorian chant, but let's be sure you have the words memorized precisely first," he chided her.
Rose scowled at him. She felt that he was holding her back. "But wouldn't knowing the melody help me to remember the words?"
Snape scowled back. "This is the way I teach it. I don't need to explain my reasons to you. Do you wish to learn it or not?"
"Control freak," she mumbled.
"Rose!" Hermione admonished.
"I will say this only once, young lady," Snape stood and loomed menacingly over her. "If you wish me to teach you anything potions, spells, incantations, transfigurations," he growled through gritted teeth, "you must learn it my way or not at all. My methods are tried and true. They have stood the test of time. I do not need suggestions from a..." He stopped as he realized that his desire for an amiable relationship with her was fast rushing down the drain with each of his biting words. With great effort, he swallowed the scathing insult he was about to hurl at her. "... a young, inexperienced student," he finished. His lips stretched into a thin tight line as he breathed deeply and willed himself to calm.
Rose snatched up the parchment with the Latin incantation written in Snape's spiky handwriting and turned to leave the kitchen.
"Just where do you think you're going with that?" He barked.
"To the family room to memorize it," she barked back with her chin sticking out at him.
"Let me hear you pronounce it first. Pronunciation is just as important as the melody."
Rose rolled her eyes dramatically and huffed for added effect. Then she held up the parchment, cleared her throat, and began to recite the words slowly and dramatically. When she reached the word "mihi," Snape stopped her.
"This is not Shakespeare. And it's not 'myhigh,' you insolent little..."
"Professor," Hermione scolded him gently.
He gritted his teeth and steadied himself before continuing. "In Latin, the letter 'I' is pronounced 'ee,' so the word sounds like 'meehee,' not 'myhigh.'"
"Oh, so it is," the girl said with a flippant wave of her hand as if the mistake was no big deal.
"The slightest mispronunciation will render the incantation useless. It seems you require my help after all." His sneer made her uncomfortable, and she dropped her gaze to the parchment in her hand. After a moment of pregnant silence, he figured that perhaps she needed some encouragement. "Everything else was adequate up to that point," he admitted grudgingly. "By all means, proceed."
She continued with her recitation and managed to finish with no more corrections needed. Then she read it again from the beginning, and this time her execution was flawless. Finally, she lowered the paper and said it word for word, already memorized. Snape lifted an eyebrow and nodded his approval. "Acceptable, but let me hear it once more to be sure."
Rose repeated herself in what she obviously considered a needless exercise. "Could we start on the melody now, sir?" she asked with overt politeness.
Snape shot a sideways glance at Miss Granger and caught her attempting to stifle a snicker. He was not amused. He turned his attention back to Rose. "Very well. As I mentioned before, it sounds similar to a Gregorian chant." He sang the first line and waited for her to repeat it. Then the next, and the next. The melody followed a typical Gregorian chant style with all words in a monotone until the dip at the end of the line. Although the longer lines were a bit more complicated, most of the incantation's melody was very basic.
She got it right on the second read-through. She could do it without his help and without sneaking a peak at the parchment on the third try. Snape kept his well-schooled, stony expression in place, but inwardly he couldn't help but be impressed with the precocious twelve-year-old.
"Good work, Rose," Hermione praised her. She knew from experience that Professor Snape would not tell her so, but a silent Professor Snape was usually a respectably impressed Professor Snape.
"Ah, yes, but now comes the hard part."
Rose moved closer to him, her wand held tightly in her hand. "How will I know if I can do it if I have no one to practice on?"
"Not a problem. I volunteer myself as guinea pig." Snape reached for his potions knife and spelled it clean with an antiseptic spell, then he carefully rolled up the sleeve of his left arm, revealing the ugly Dark Mark. Even though she had seen it before, it still made Rose shiver.
Hugo, who had been sitting at the table and quietly taking in the entire lesson, leaned in for a better look at the evil-looking tattoo. "Whatever possessed you to do that to yourself, sir?" he asked innocently.
Snape looked up into Hugo's sweet face, astonished at the question. As deep pain replaced his astonishment, Snape quietly answered the boy. "What, indeed, my young friend. I so desperately wanted to fit in at school, but I was a hopelessly inept social misfit. As a result, my choice of friends was somewhat limited. I listened to people who claimed to have my best interests at heart, and evil possessed me, Hugo, pure evil. I lost myself when I took that mark. And I had to lose the one person that meant more to me than anything in this world to realize the mistake I had made. Be careful the company you keep," he warned as he glanced back and forth between the two kids. "Don't let your peers talk you into anything that your heart and soul tell you are wrong. It is better to walk alone down the path of light than to walk down the path of evil surrounded by so-called friends."
Hermione and the children stared at him in shocked silence for what seemed like an agonizingly long time. Hermione had never heard him speak of his reasons for turning to Voldemort. But she knew what it was like to have no friends. She wondered at that moment just how different her life might have turned out had Harry and Ron not befriended her after the Troll incident during their first year. Her heart ached even more for Professor Snape.
"Now, on to more up-lifting things, yes?" They both nodded eagerly. "Here, Rose, let's see what you can do with this." With those words, Snape carefully sliced a short cut into his inner forearm lengthwise right through the skull of the offensive tattoo. He was careful not to cut too deeply, but there was plenty of blood to give a sense of urgency.
"Oh, dear!" Rose and Hermione both exclaimed at once. Hermione reached for a dish towel and placed it under Professor Snape's arm.
Snape found their concern amusing. "Don't worry. If Rose can't handle it, I can heal myself." He looked Rose directly in the eyes. "Now, remember what I said about the visualization and using your energy to direct my body to heal itself?"
"Yes, sir," she answered with a professional air. There was no arrogance in her voice this time as she dropped her gaze to the blood that was trickling from his arm to the towel.
"Well, what are you waiting for? You want me to bleed to death?"
Her eyes met his again with an alarmed look. "Of course not, sir!"
"Then I suggest you get busy."
She took a deep breath, as did everyone else in the room, and placed her wand over his wound and closed her eyes. Then she slowly and deliberately sang the song as she waved her wand and knitted her brow in deep concentration. When she came to the end of the song, she heard Snape's voice.
"Again, and open your eyes this time."
"But..."
"Just do it."
Her eyes popped open and her demeanor immediately deflated. His arm was still bleeding just as much as before.
"I would have been amazed if you had succeeded the first time. Even your mother was not that extraordinary." He noticed Miss Granger blush out of the corner of his eye. "Try it again."
Rose sang the song with more vigor and volume the second time, but she kept her eyes open as instructed. Still no change. But she pushed her chin up and clenched her jaw. Then she sang the song again... and again.
After the forth try, Hermione finally intervened. "It's OK, Rose. Professor Snape did say it was a very advanced spell."
"And it doesn't help that she despises me," Snape added for good measure.
"I don't despise you, sir," she said with all the sincerity she could muster.
"Perhaps, but your father does, and I'm sure his opinion of me has colored yours."
Rose gave him a defeated and guilty look.
"That's OK, Rosy," Hugo announced. If you need to love the person you're healing, then you can heal me."
"Hugo, NO!" cried Hermione as Snape lunged for the boy, but before anyone could stop him, Hugo had taken Snape's potions knife and plunged it into his left forearm. The blood began to pour down onto the same towel Snape's arm had been staining, and as Hugo realized that he had cut himself dangerously deep, his heart quickened, causing the blood to squirt across the table.
"Oh, Merlin. Professor, do something quickly!" Hermione begged.
Rose stood in wide-eyed horror as Snape sprang into action. He conjured a short length of rope that he used as a tourniquet just above the cut on Hugo's arm. Then he transfigured the towel into a bowl and Scourgified the blood off the table. Then he turned to Rose who was still rooted in place by his side.
"Rose, look at me! You can do this. You have the tools. And Hugo's right. It's easier if you love the person. Tap into that love, and it will give you the power to heal him."
"But..."
"No buts. I know you can do it."
"Professor, please!" insisted Hermione, almost in hysterics. "This is not the time for experiments. HEAL HIM NOW! Before he loses the use of his hand."
Just then, a loud crash could be heard from the living room. Ron came bursting into the kitchen covered in soot from head to toe. "What in bloody hell is going on here? What's happened to Hugo?"
"Daddy?" exclaimed Rose in a shaky voice.
"I cut myself so Rose could heal me," Hugo admitted sheepishly, "but I cut a bit too deep, and I made a real mess of things. Sorry."
"Snape, DO something!" Ron joined in the fray.
"SILENCE! Both of you. How do you expect your daughter to concentrate with all this racket?"
"Rose can practice on somebody else, Snape! Heal him NOW!"
With a flick of his wand, Snape rendered Walnut Brain silent and immobile. He then turned his wand and his threatening glare on Miss Granger, but she had the good sense to cover her mouth with her trembling hands.
He turned to Rose, whose eyes betrayed her terror. He reached out with his still-bleeding left arm and touched her shoulder. "In battle you will face scenes much worse than this, with chaos all around you. Loud noises, people screaming in pain... But right now, we're safe in your mother's kitchen. Hugo's bleeding is under control; he's not going to die," Snape serenaded her with his velvety baritone. He could see the tension leaving her face; he could feel it ease away in her shoulder. "I won't let it continue to the point he loses use of his hand. But Hugo's right, as a beginner, you need to truly care about the person you are healing. You love your brother, don't you?"
"Yes," she whispered.
Snape nodded. "Then, you can do this, Rose. I know you can. Now, have another go."
"Should I close my eyes or keep them open?"
"Whatever makes you more comfortable."
Rose placed her wand over Hugo's arm, closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and began to sing the song. As Hugo and the three adults in the room watched with fascination, the cut began to knit itself back together, starting with the fleshy depths of muscle, veins and arteries.
"Again," he urged her gently.
As she sang and slowly waved her wand, she peeked through her lashes to witness the transformation. Snape could feel her excitement and the surge of magical power that it inspired in her. She opened her eyes fully as she neared the last line. But the cut still needed just a bit more coaxing to completely knit itself back together, so she repeated the song a third time. By the end everyone in the room let out a huge sigh and began to congratulate Rose on the amazing job she did, with the exception of Ron, who was still stuck in Snape's Body-Bind curse.
Snape treated Rose to a rare smile and even rarer praise for her performance. "That was nothing short of amazing, young lady. I was nearly fifteen the first time I successfully performed that healing spell. You have a promising future... promising, indeed."
"Thank you, Professor, but do you think you could show your appreciation by letting my dad out of the Body-Bind curse?"
"What? Oh, right. Sorry, Weasley, but you were blathering on to the point of breaking her concentration." Snape waved his hand absentmindedly and Ron stumbled where he stood. Then he stood up straight and took a menacing step toward Snape, who proceeded to ignore him as he inspected the self inflicted cut on his arm. "What in Merlin's name are you doing here anyway?"
"I could ask the same of you, Snape. I showed up here because I'm on call, and the alarm came through that an under-aged person was attempting a very powerful spell, so I was required to check it out. Imagine my horror when I came in here and my son's blood was squirting all over the kitchen! What are you playing at?" He turned to Hermione, enraged. "And you let him do it? What kind of a mother are you?"
"I think I liked you better immobile," Snape drawled. "And I thought your ex-wife had cut her fireplace off from the Floo Network."
"I added it back after Ron and I made peace. Perhaps I was a bit hasty in my decision."
"Dad," Hugo pleaded with his father to understand as Snape reached over and untied the tourniquet, "they tried to stop me from hurting myself, but I grabbed the knife when no one was looking. And, like I said before, I didn't mean to make the cut so deep. But Rose healed it, see? Good as new!" He flexed his fingers and waved his hand just to prove his point.
"You should be proud of our daughter," Hermione insisted.
"Indeed," agreed Snape. "Now, if you will give me a moment, I need to heal this cut." He picked up his wand and aimed it at the still-bleeding Dark Mark.
"Wait, Professor," cried Rose anxiously. "If you don't mind, I'd like to try again. I think I can do it this time."
"Oh?" He raised a skeptical eyebrow at her. "Have you grown so fond of me in such a short span of time?" His voice held just a touch of sarcasm.
"As a matter of fact, yes." The girl admitted with a coy smile. "You see, just now, you and Hugo had faith in me..." Her wide eyes moved from Snape's face to Hugo's with a grateful nod. Then her gaze turned to disappointment as it fell briefly on her mother and father before returning to the obsidian depths of Snape's unfaltering gaze. "They didn't."
Snape shot her parents a quick knowing glance and found them both studying their shoes, appearing dreadfully guilty. He looked back at Rose with his trademark smirk firmly in place, put away his wand, and extended his injured arm. "By all means."
The girl didn't even have to close her eyes this time. The song came out of her as a spiritual melody sung from her heart. Snape's cut was completely healed before she had uttered the last line of the incantation. The others clapped and cheered as Rose threw her arms around Snape's neck. His eyebrows shot up in surprise, but he gently patted her back. "Thank you, my dear. Well done."
*****
Later that night, after the children had gone to sleep, Hermione nestled into her bed and looked back on the day's events. What a wonderful evening it had turned out to be, especially since Ron had to go back to work right after Rose had healed Professor Snape's cut. They enjoyed dinner immensely, and for the first time, everyone enjoyed each other's company as well. All three of them walked the professor to the front door, and after she handed him Harry's Invisibility Cloak, all three gave him a warm goodbye hug. Hermione wished for the day when her beloved professor wouldn't have to leave, when he would ascend the staircase with the rest of the family and help her to fill up the huge king-sized bed that her parents used to sleep in. She tried to picture it in her mind as she dozed off, her happy little family... her, Rose, Hugo, and Severus Snape...
"I still can't believe it," Hermione whispered into Severus' ear as she laced her fingers with his. They sat together on the stage where the faculty overlooked the graduating class in nice, neat rows of white chairs beside the lake at Hogwarts. It was Hugo's turn. He and Lily Potter had both graduated with high marks in all of their NEWTs.
As they looked out over the audience in the bleachers on either side of the graduates, they could see many friends and acquaintances, including the rest of the Potters, all of the Weasleys (including Ron and his new wife, Gabrielle Delacour), and Scorpius Malfoy sitting next to Rose, all watching their loved ones graduate. Hermione and Severus were required to sit through these rituals each spring as part of the faculty, but this time it felt different. This time her baby was graduating.
"Merlin, I feel old all of a sudden," she admitted to the love of her life as Minerva called Hugo's name and handed the boy his diploma. He was second to last in line, followed only by Blaise Zabini's daughter Annette, who was one of the few that year to earn an Outstanding in all of her NEWTs, as well as Head Girl status, and was therefore chosen to give the Valedictorian Address.
"If you feel old, what does that make me?" Severus asked sadly.
"You don't age, Severus. It's not fair!" Hermione complained as Annette used the Sonorus spell to amplify her voice for her speech.
"No? And what do you call these?" he asked incredulously as he picked out several gray hairs for her to gawk at.
"They match your dress robes silver for Slytherin. Don't you like your own House colors adorning your head?" she teased.
"SHHH!" Minerva swiveled around in her chair and glared at the couple as Annette droned on in the background.
Hermione and Severus stared back at Minerva with identical mock innocence. Over the years, they had spent so much time together that they had picked up each other's mannerisms, quirks and facial expressions. And they could read each other's moods so well that the other faculty members sometimes accused them of possessing ESP.
When the girl's speech finally came to an end, dozens of cone-shaped black hats with tassels were launched into the air, and a huge cheer erupted from the entire student body. Then the audience and faculty joined the students in their applause, and all rose from their seats to mingle and seek out family and friends. Hermione held tightly to Severus' hand. In years past he had used this time of mayhem to get lost in the crowd and escape to the quiet of their private quarters.
"Don't worry, love." He looked down at the iron-clad grip she had on his hand. "I won't disappear as I usually do. I love Hugo like my own son. I wouldn't miss this for the world." He wrenched his hand free and used it to pull her closer as they made their way through the crowd.
Ron, Rose and the rest of their party reached Hugo first. Back slapping and hand shaking were exchanged, a hug for Dad and kisses for all of the Weasley women. But when Hugo caught Severus' approach out of the corner of his eye, his smile broadened to one of mischief and he rushed towards the head of Slytherin House with a deep growl in his throat.
"Now, Hugo... Don't do it, Hugo, I'm warning you, young man..." But it was too late. "PUT ME DOWN, YOU INSOLENT BOY, BEFORE I HEX YOU INTO NEXT TUESDAY!!"
The immediate group was treated to the spectacle of Severus Snape being lifted off the ground by his stepson. The resulting roar of laughter vexed Severus even more.
Hugo gently let him down and took a quick step back. "I'm taller and stronger than you, old man. Admit it!"
"Brute strength is no match against powerful magic, boy. Care to challenge me to a friendly duel?"
Hugo rubbed Severus vigorously on the shoulder. "Perhaps, after I complete my Auror training, old man. Then I may stand a chance."
"Not likely," Severus grumbled.
Another round of hugs, kisses and handshakes were successfully executed, and the group formed an informal circle around Rose, Scorpius, Hugo and Lily. "So..." Hugo goaded his sister into talking.
"Today is about you, Hugo," she answered him in a hushed tone. "We don't want to steal the spotlight."
"It's alright, Rosy. I know you're bursting at the seams. Go on. Just say it!"
"Say what?" asked Ron in his usual clueless tone.
Severus smirked. He leaned in and whispered in Hermione's ear, "Look at her left hand."
Hermione gasped just as Rose flashed her hand in her mother's face. A huge, goblin-made diamond ring graced her finger. "Scorpius proposed. We're getting married!"
"Congratulations!" several people exclaimed at once. Rose practically threw herself at Hermione and Severus, wrapping her arms around both of them and kissing their cheeks each in turn. Then Scorpius moved to do the same, but he was cut short by a voice behind him.
"Oi!" Ron burst out angrily. "You're marrying a Malfoy? I thought I raised you better than that!" Everyone in the circle turned to him with wide, disbelieving eyes, and he cowered at their shocked reaction. "I'm joking, I'm joking. Can't any of you take a joke, for Merlin's sake?" He reached for Scorpius' hand and pulled him in for a hug. As they separated, Ron gave him a sheepish grin. "She'd have a hard time doing better than you, mate." Then he grabbed the boy's shoulder and turned him away from Rose. "A word of advice. You know that book Twelve Fail-Safe Ways to Charm Witches?" Scorpius nodded. "If your dad gave you a copy, chuck it in the fire straight away. Don't ever use the spells on her, or she'll kick you out on your arse!"
Scorpius threw his head back in generous laughter. "You needn't worry. Since her mum started teaching that class for witches only in their sixth year, the spells in that book seem to have lost their effectiveness. He doesn't even print it any more. He has ten thousand copies sitting in his warehouse because no one will buy it. I think he's started to burn them in his office fireplace in winter, if you want to know the truth of it."
Severus lifted an eyebrow and stole a glance at Harry, who returned his knowing look with a grin.
"And another thing," Ron felt the need to continue, "I got in a spot of trouble when I assumed that her mother would go along with keeping a witch on the side, so you best behave yourself in that department as well, or..."
"Or you'll have to answer to me!" Severus finished the sentence menacingly.
"And me!" added Ron.
"And me!" piped up Hugo, Albus and James all at once.
Scorpius' eyebrows disappeared up into his hairline. "Alright, alright. I'll behave. I promise." He raised his hands in surrender.
"So, have you set a date yet?" Lily asked Rose excitedly.
"I'll be finished with my apprenticeship at St. Mungo's by the end of August, so we were thinking sometime this fall."
"And where will the blessed event take place?" asked Harry.
"Well," Rose explained tentatively, "We're hoping for Malfoy Manor, but quite frankly I'm not sure if Mr. and Mrs. Malfoy will allow it."
Ron began to growl. "Bloody snobs!"
"Now, Dad."
"Father's working on them, Rosy. I'm sure by the fall they'll come around." Scorpius shook his head and glanced sadly at Severus. The unmistakable need for help was written plainly on his face.
"Perhaps I could pay your grandfather a visit."
"I would be most grateful, Professor. He and Grandma are still living in the Dark Ages with their blood prejudice attitudes. They're generous to a fault most of the time, but they have never approved of my relationship with Rosy. I'll marry her with or without their blessing," he admitted as he glanced at Rose lovingly, "but it would be nice to keep peace in the family."
"Understood. I'll do my best."
The happy couple made their way around the circle for congratulatory hugs and kisses, and the entire gathering began to move slowly towards the castle where an amazing spread awaited them in the Great Hall. Pumpkin Punch both virgin and spiked with elf-made wine sat in two huge punch bowls at the end of the staff table, which had been set up with an elaborate buffet. The long house tables had been replaced with many round tables which seated about twelve people each. But most people seemed to prefer to eat standing up so they could mill around and talk to everyone.
Severus clung to Hermione's side as the inane small talk and curious questions flooded his unwilling consciousness. After all those years of solitude, large crowds of people were difficult for him to endure for any length of time. Her close proximity was the only thing that kept him from slinking away or going insane. But for her sake, as well as his undying love for her children, he endured the social pleasantries.
"So, Severus," Arthur Weasley piped up, "How are you suffering through all of those dunderheads in your classrooms these days?"
"Actually, Minister, I..."
"Oh, Severus, don't be silly. Call me Arthur, just as you always have."
"Very well, Arthur," Severus agreed reluctantly. "I have the privilege of teaching only NEWT-level classes in both Potions and Defense Against the Dark Arts, so the majority of my students truly want to learn what I have to teach. Quite a pleasant change from my earlier days teaching all grade levels."
"I imagine fewer and smaller classes might give you more time for research and development," suggested Scorpius. "Perhaps you could write a book. Give that Ari Shamamian fellow a run for his money. Father says he has a new book coming out soon. Something about a Healer's Handbook. Father says it's full of everyday potions and spells that just about anyone would find useful. He expects it to be a big seller."
"Does he now?" Severus asked with a smirk. "Why should I waste my time when it sounds as if he's cornered the market?"
"Just a thought, Professor," Scorpius admitted. "You are brilliant in your own right, you know."
"I appreciate your confidence, my young friend, but I assure you, I keep quite busy." He pulled Hermione closer and looked into her eyes with quiet longing.
She could tell he had had just about all he could take of this social scene. She glanced towards the door then back at him. "Go on," she said just loud enough so that only he could hear her. "I'll bring the kids round to say goodbye before they leave."
"Walk me to the door?" he pleaded. She agreed with a silent nod, and they turned to navigate their way through the throng of people.
But just as Severus was about to let go of her waist and make his escape, a strong hand gripped his other arm, and he turned to face Harry Potter. "Got a minute?"
Severus tightened his grip on his wife. "Both of us?" he asked defiantly.
"Of course. I keep no secrets from Hermione. I'd rather you both hear it from me first anyway."
"Hear what?" asked Hermione with concern as the three of them stepped out into the hallway and moved away from the door.
"Arthur has had his fill of the Minister of Magic post."
"He never wanted it to begin with," Hermione interjected. "But someone without any skeletons in their closet needed to step up."
"He only took the post because I promised that when all of my kids were out of the house I would run to take his place. Well, Lily just graduated and he's anxious to step down."
"You're running for Minister of Magic?"
"Oh, Harry, that's wonderful!"
"We'll see how wonderful it is. I don't exactly have the personality for a desk job. There's not a diplomatic bone in my body."
"Oh, I don't know. You did a fair job negotiating a peace treaty between me and Ron for years."
They all shared a chuckle at that thought.
"I really don't relish the idea, but I'll give it a try."
"Then, congratulations are in order, because I doubt that anyone will even attempt to run against you," Severus informed him.
"So, you like this idea?" joked Harry, "the bane of your existence becoming Minister of Magic?"
Severus shook his head and his look softened. "Yes, my friend. You'll have my full support."
"Well, in that case, could I have your support as my new Secretary of Education?"
Severus roared with laughter. "I am no more suited to a Cabinet position than I am to teaching nursery school."
A vision of Severus Snape, dressed in his austere black teaching robes, towering over a group of toddlers as they trembled at his feet came to mind, and Hermione covered her mouth as she unsuccessfully tried to quell her convulsive laughter.
"Care to share?" Severus asked incredulously.
"I'll tell you later," she managed to say between breaths as her mirth slowly subsided.
"Well, then," Harry continued as he tried not to laugh at his own vision of Snape teaching nursery school, "if I ask Minerva to fill the position, would you be willing to replace her as Headmaster of Hogwarts?"
Severus raised an eyebrow. "She may have someone else in mind." He glanced at his wife out of the corner of his eye.
"But you're her Deputy. I would presume..."
"Haven't your many years of marriage taught you never to presume what a woman will do?"
Hermione slapped his arm playfully. "You know she'll make you Headmaster."
"And, if the Board of Governors approves my appointment, I will accept."
"Excellent. Thanks, Severus. I knew I could count on you." Harry patted Severus' shoulder. "Guess I'd better go find Minerva, then." Harry turned and made his way back into the Great Hall.
Severus let out a labored sigh. Then he stole a glace around to be sure they were alone in the Entrance Hall, and he pulled her into the nearest alcove to afford them a bit more privacy. "Harry Potter, Minister of Magic. Merlin's maelstrom, what is the world coming to?"
Before Hermione could think of a retort in defense of her oldest and dearest friend, Severus had cupped her face in his hands and captured her lips in his own. All thoughts of politics melted away as his tender kiss warmed her heart. They had been married for almost seven years now, and the only seven year itch she had was still for him.
As his hands moved from her face to her shoulders, his lips began to travel down her neck to his favorite spot... that coveted place where Secret Recipe mingled with her skin. "Mmmm," he murmured. "So much more pleasant than inane conversation, don't you agree?"
"Hold that thought for later, love. You might be able to get away with disappearing, but if I go with you back to our quarters, you know they'll come looking for us. We won't have a moment's peace until they leave."
His hands moved to the small of her back as he pressed the lower half of her body into his. His excitement was obvious. "You want me to hold this thought 'til later?" he asked as he ground his pelvis into hers for emphasis.
"Yes."
"You wound me, witch!" He gasped and clutched his fist into his chest with mock sorrow.
"Oh, stop it." She rolled her eyes. "Wouldn't you rather we could take our time and enjoy each other?"
As if on cue, Hugo came running through the huge oak doors from the Great Hall. "There you are! What are you two doing out here?" As he eyed his mother and step-father, he realized that he had interrupted an intimate moment. "Oh. Sorry. I should have known. You two are worse than Rosy and Scorpius!"
Severus dropped his hands and stepped away with a smirk. "I needed a break from the crowd. Do come and see me before you leave." He quickly planted a chaste kiss on his wife's cheek. "Kill-joy," he muttered under his breath. Then he turned and sauntered down the stairs to the dungeons, his robes billowing behind him.
As Hermione took her son's arm and they passed back through the doors to the Great Hall, the scene faded, and she drifted into a much deeper, dreamless sleep...
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677 Reviews | 6.73/10 Average
I hope you stil intend to finish the story xoxo
Response from Buckshotwon1 (Reviewer)
No problems. Hugs
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Someday. I haven't forgotten. Now that I work full...
I can't fault you for making a working relationship between HG & RW. I think it's better that way and better for the kids. I never thought he was evil. Just self absorbed and easily misguided.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
I tried to be realistic about their relationship. I have known married couples who werer terrible together, but after the divorce, they got along much better living separate lives. They were just not meant to share a house. In real life most people are not purely good or evil. They come in shades of grey. Thank you for reading. I still swear I will finish it someday.
SS's breaking heart made me cry!
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Hi. Thank you for your review. Yes, the chapter was meant to pull on your heart strings.
Omg its been 5 years ago I started to read your fic back in 2008 and it was such an upset when you stoped updating the next year. And just today I was looking for my old e-books and saw your fic and immediatly went here:) It seems you keep on updating so you just ought to finish such an amazing story!;) may the muse be with you🙏🏻oh and sorry for my awful English:)
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Hi
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
. I am so bad to have not updated in such a long time. I feel really guilty for leaving everyone hanging at such a suspensful moment, but my life has been crazy since I stopped writing. I have a full time job with overtime, I go to school part time, and I spend a couple of hours a day in my car going from place to place because work, school and home are so far away from each other. I think often about my story and how I would like to finish it. I have an outline. I even have parts of it written, but not the next part. That one has kept me stuck because I want it to be funny, but the comic muse has deserted me lately. I guess I just have to force myself. But time steals away many of the things I would like to do. And I have to sleep in there somewhere. I have not abandon it. I will finish it eventually. Thank you for taking the time to remind me that people are out there that are still interested.
I am SO pleased you started updating again. I always did love this story. :)
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Thanks. It has been a while since my last update but I hope to be writing again soon. Please continue to be patient with me. I will finish it. I promise.
But I want more! Drat. I rarely start works in progress b/c I can never contain myself enough to wait for updates on things I like. Somehow I didn't notice this wasn't finished, so here I am, all jittery, needing my fix. Next chapter plz?
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Next chapter still needs some work. Sorry. Much of it is written, but I really want it to be funny. Comedy is hard to write. Please be patient with me. My life is crazy right now. Too many irons in the fire.
Rose was very rude, but when all is said and done, she is daddy's little girl, and will stick by him nomatter what. As she grows older she may see that Severus is a good man, and accept him in their lives. I have been wondering, given the role both her parents played in the war why does she know so little, knowing Ron he would be more than willing to tell war storys, but Hermione said the children know very little of their parents ordeals at school.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
I think you are right, that Ron would want to brag about their exploits at school, but I also think Hermione would advise against it. She wouldn't want her kids to think it was OK to go looking for trouble just because their parents did. I also took my cue from the epilogue in book seven. All the kids on the train are staring at Harry, but when one of their children asks what everyone is staring at, Ron says it's him, he's really famous. If he had told his kids about everything that happened, they would know that people were staring at Uncle Harry, not their father. So that makes me believe that at least at this young age, even Ron would keep his mouth shut about their adventures at school.
I am REALLY hoping that Umbridge gets what she deserves.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Things are not always what they seem. But don't worry, you'll get your wish.Thanks again for taking the time to read and review. It means the world to me.
Ron is learning that age old lesson " Kama is a BITCH " and who better to teach it than Lav Lav.
Severus' dream was wonderful, I hope it comes true in the end.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Many of my readers wanted something horrible to happen to Ron as a result of his cheating on Hermione and trying to keep her children away to get her back. I'm not a vindicative person, and I find that usually these things work out without me taking revenge on my own. So I let Hermione stay out of it. Karma does have a way of making a person pay, and I'm glad to know that you enjoyed the way things back-lashed at Ron.Thanks so much for reading and reviewing.
Well, that was just a mean place to leave things! He is so going to kill her. I'll let you decide if "her" means Rita or Hermione, lol. I really have no idea what is going to happen now. Perhaps they can run away and become teachers at Possum Pouch. :)
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Most of the next chapter is written, but it is not quite finished yet. Do have patience with me please. I know where this is going, I just have to take the steps to get there.Thanks so much (again) for reading and reviewing. Your's is the only review for this chapter after a whole week. I used to have a following... Oh well. Don't worry, I'll finish it, even if you, I and my betas are the only ones who read it!
Response from HBAR (Reviewer)
I don't know what keeps people from reviewing. It takes very little time (unless you are on your phone and it keeps erasing you note!), and it keeps authors writing. I would hate to see people stop posting for lack of reviews.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Most of the next chapter is written, but it is not quite finished yet. Do have patience with me please. I know where this is going, I just have to take the steps to get there.Thanks so much (again) for reading and reviewing. Your's is the only review for this chapter after a whole week. I used to have a following... Oh well. Don't worry, I'll finish it, even if you, I and my betas are the only ones who read it!
Response from HBAR (Reviewer)
I don't know what keeps people from reviewing. It takes very little time (unless you are on your phone and it keeps erasing you note!), and it keeps authors writing. I would hate to see people stop posting for lack of reviews.
I'm on my phone and it is a pain in the ass to review here, so suffice it to say that this chapter was excellent, Ron and Hermione included.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Hi,
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
. I usually read on my phone as well, so I know just where you are coming from. I thank you so much for taking the time to read and review. The reviews spur me on to scrape the moments together that I need to finish this, although from the look of the reviews, I don't have many readers left. My own fault for waiting so long to get back to it. One cannot force inspiration to strike, however, so I do the best I can with the time and muse that I have.Thanks again for the complement.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Hi,
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
. I usually read on my phone as well, so I know just where you are coming from. I thank you so much for taking the time to read and review. The reviews spur me on to scrape the moments together that I need to finish this, although from the look of the reviews, I don't have many readers left. My own fault for waiting so long to get back to it. One cannot force inspiration to strike, however, so I do the best I can with the time and muse that I have.Thanks again for the complement.
Really liking the mystery as it is coming together now. ;)+the hints of the future are such a tease!
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Thanks for the encouraging comments,
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
. I appreciate the review and the fact that you are hanging in there with me.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Thanks for the encouraging comments,
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
. I appreciate the review and the fact that you are hanging in there with me.
I'm having several ideas about the culprit and that development was something I was sort of hoping for. Verrry interested about next chapter.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
It takes a while before all is revealed, but all will be answered eventually. I like plot twists. Hope this keeps at least some of you guessing for a while.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
It takes a while before all is revealed, but all will be answered eventually. I like plot twists. Hope this keeps at least some of you guessing for a while.
I am interested to see what Severus and Kingsley come up with for the restaurant. And, are they really seeing the future somehow in their dreams? And Rita ... If she had any sense at all, she would have approached Hermione who proved to be trustworthy in the past. But alas ...
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Rita doesn't have the luxury of approaching anybody. As you know by now, she is under someone elses influence... someone not very nice. It is easy to hate Rita, but things are not always as they seem.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Rita doesn't have the luxury of approaching anybody. As you know by now, she is under someone elses influence... someone not very nice. It is easy to hate Rita, but things are not always as they seem.
I don't suppose there is any chance that Snape is a feline animagus? Just where are they?!?! * is nervous*
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
As far as I know, Snape has no Animagus form. Where he and Harry ended up is answered in the next chapter, as you already know by now. Nothing to be nervous about, although I do feel sad for Hermione.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
As far as I know, Snape has no Animagus form. Where he and Harry ended up is answered in the next chapter, as you already know by now. Nothing to be nervous about, although I do feel sad for Hermione.
I had forgotten what a cliffhanger this is. I am so glad you are back to posting. I have to say that while I am with Hermione that Umbridge is definitely involved, I don't have a clue how this is going to end up. I suppose as long as Severus gets the girl and stays out of Azkaban, the rest will fall into place.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
That is the best reason for writing, to be sure he gets the girl in the end. They both deserve to be happy.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
That is the best reason for writing, to be sure he gets the girl in the end. They both deserve to be happy.
Rita disappearing is very concerning, indeed. Poor Winky, so frightened. Poor Snape is probably still floored as to how she escaped. I am as well. *is nervous*
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
By now you have read ahead and know that Rita escaped up the chimney, a place Severus didn't think to ward. Oh well. He doesn't know that she is an unregistered Animagus.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
By now you have read ahead and know that Rita escaped up the chimney, a place Severus didn't think to ward. Oh well. He doesn't know that she is an unregistered Animagus.
I had intended to stop and review each chapter while I reread since I didn't do so the first time around, but I am reading on my phone while I await the repair of my computer and it is a bitch to do so. But, I had to drop in here for a moment because this chapter has one of those scenes that has always stuck with me since I read it. That is the healing scene between Severus, Rose, and Hugo. It is such an intense yet wonderful moment of bonding. Love it!
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Thanks so much
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
, that is one of my favorites as well. I read alot on my phone. I have read all of your reviews as you posted them, but I can't respond on my phone. Sorry you had to wait for my responses.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Thanks so much
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
, that is one of my favorites as well. I read alot on my phone. I have read all of your reviews as you posted them, but I can't respond on my phone. Sorry you had to wait for my responses.
Oh, how awful! I had sort of hoped that Severus was being too cautious, but he was spot on. I suppose at least Hermione has no reason to keep Rita's secret now. Or perhaps she can use it as a bargaining chip to get Rita to spill about the blackmail. Or perhaps Severus will be so pissed off that he will kidnap Rita all over again, and this time she wil be lucky if she gets away in one piece.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
No one gets dissected in my story. I'm a peaceful person. All will eventually end happy. It will get rougher before it gets better, but it will end happy, don't worry.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
No one gets dissected in my story. I'm a peaceful person. All will eventually end happy. It will get rougher before it gets better, but it will end happy, don't worry.
Well, that was unexpected (and wonderful). I must have more!
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
More coming soon. Thanks for sticking with me. Glad you enjoyed it the second time around too.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
More coming soon. Thanks for sticking with me. Glad you enjoyed it the second time around too.
Draco may be A slytherin, but Severus is THE Slytherin. As for Hermione and Severus, it seems to be, two steps forward, and one step back with them.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
I agree - Severus is THE Slytherin. Draco has such an ego. I very much wanted Severus to beat him at his own game. That was a very fun chapter to write.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
I agree - Severus is THE Slytherin. Draco has such an ego. I very much wanted Severus to beat him at his own game. That was a very fun chapter to write.
Poor little Winky, how heartbreaking for her, I'm so glad that she is safe with Severus now. I am a little suprised at some of the comments about the situation between Viktor and Hermione, even women who have been highly trained in martial arts have been known to be paralised with fear, in those circumstances, Hermione did manage to fend Viktor off, but that dosen't make it any less traumatic for her, rape happens in the mind first.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
I was surprised by the one girl's comment as well. I feel like Hermione thought she knew Viktor and was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt - in other words, she thought he would have taken "no" for an answer. Obviously she was wrong. When she realized this, she became hurt and confused, wondering if she had done something to warrant such behavior on his part. Most women feel sullied under such circumstances, even though she was not raped. She was still grabbed and groped, and that is not pleasant under any circumstances. Caressing and foreplay are one thing, unwanted grabs and gropes are another.
Response from mick42 (Reviewer)
I can only speak for myself, as a survivor I can tell you that I am nither small nor frail,but was still unable to fight off my attacker { someone I knew } it was the inferance that power would keep her safe that I found disturbing, this implys that the woman is at fault,if she for whatever reason can not fight back. I know that it is inposable to fully understand, unless one has lived through such an event, so I pray that no one reading this, will ever fully understand.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
I was surprised by the one girl's comment as well. I feel like Hermione thought she knew Viktor and was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt - in other words, she thought he would have taken "no" for an answer. Obviously she was wrong. When she realized this, she became hurt and confused, wondering if she had done something to warrant such behavior on his part. Most women feel sullied under such circumstances, even though she was not raped. She was still grabbed and groped, and that is not pleasant under any circumstances. Caressing and foreplay are one thing, unwanted grabs and gropes are another.
Response from mick42 (Reviewer)
I can only speak for myself, as a survivor I can tell you that I am nither small nor frail,but was still unable to fight off my attacker { someone I knew } it was the inferance that power would keep her safe that I found disturbing, this implys that the woman is at fault,if she for whatever reason can not fight back. I know that it is inposable to fully understand, unless one has lived through such an event, so I pray that no one reading this, will ever fully understand.
I have always had a soft spot for Winky, and you write her so well. As for Viktor, there is nothing as sad as a former jock, that still thinks he is a catch, he's lucky that Winky was there to pull Severus back from the edge. Looking forward to finding out more about, Otto, Rita and Lav Lav .
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
This is sort of the "part 2" of my story. We'll get to the bottom of it all eventually.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
This is sort of the "part 2" of my story. We'll get to the bottom of it all eventually.
I'm very happy that Ron has been sorted out, and the children are now able to see their mother.Severus is being very nobel, but I hope that he and Hermione get together, sooner or later.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Sooner or later... I promise. Keep enjoying those dreams they share. I put them in there to hold the readers over, and to give hope to our favorite couple.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Sooner or later... I promise. Keep enjoying those dreams they share. I put them in there to hold the readers over, and to give hope to our favorite couple.
I am wondering how Ron would react to someone using the book on Rose, forsing her into a marriage she doesn't want, these spells are the equivalent of a date rape drug. Even if Hermione goes back to Ron "for the sake of the children" what does he think wil happen when they grow up, Hermione will have no reason to stay once they are of age { seventeen in the wizarding world } she will leave anyway, all he is doing is postponing the inevitable, but what can one expect from someone who takes realationship advice, from Malfoy and Nott.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Just as Harry chided him. Ron listed to the advice he wanted to hear. He would have done anything to get Hermione to stay with him. He was holding on to a dream that he had kept since adolescence. It was so very hard to let go. Many people stay in a bad marriage because they remember the way it "used to be" and hope to get that original feeling back. Sometimes it's just really hard to move on.
Response from mick42 (Reviewer)
As a wise man once said"you can't go back to OZ" but it must be so hard not to keep trying.
Response from ClayPotter (Author of Secret Recipe)
Just as Harry chided him. Ron listed to the advice he wanted to hear. He would have done anything to get Hermione to stay with him. He was holding on to a dream that he had kept since adolescence. It was so very hard to let go. Many people stay in a bad marriage because they remember the way it "used to be" and hope to get that original feeling back. Sometimes it's just really hard to move on.
Response from mick42 (Reviewer)
As a wise man once said"you can't go back to OZ" but it must be so hard not to keep trying.