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First, You Have to Understand
mia madwyn23 Reviews | 6.48/10 (23 Ratings, 0 Likes, 3 Favorites )
Some things are unforgivable. (Thanks to Juno-Magic and dressagegrrrl for fabulous beta work.)
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I came to the world of Harry Potter relatively early, after first resisting it because it just seemed too trendy. But when the first book came out in paperback in the US I picked it up at the airport when I was about to catch a flight, and two chapters in knew I would be ordering the original from amazon.co.uk in hardcover as soon as I landed.
I came to fanfic late, waiting until after I'd read DH. That means I've been totally obsessed with the fanfic world of Harry Potter, and most specifically the SS/HG ship, since August of '07.
I'm helplessly and hopelessly hooked.
Reviews for First, You Have to Understand
A lovely bit of complete and total deep understanding of a moment usually only taken at face-value. Most of us only see the fact of Lily's dismissal of Severus as callous unforgiveness. That if she really was friends with him, she should have been able to move past that. Hermione is able to view the situation from a different viewpoint: the one of Light (good) versus Dark (evil) and sees that that singular act of chosing to join the Death Eaters, spurned on by Severus' vengance, would have completely obliterated more than just Lily and Severus' friendship.
Good deep thinking, there.
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Yes, if the evil *was* out in the open. It's not clear that it was, when he joined. The massacre explosion seems to have come at the very end of VW1, and all but one of the named canon VW1 victims can be positively identified as Ministry/Order member (ie military targets) or family thereof (and thus possibly "collateral damage" or even "friendly fire").
Real-life terrorist groups routinely lie to potential recruits about aims and methods, and/or draw them in by offering belonging to the disaffected and friendship to the friendless. If you put any store in interview canon (I don't, but it does show her intent), JK said that Snape joined because he thought it would impress Lily, and it's hard to reconcile that with him *knowing* that the group threatened her. Regulus, who had DE cousins, still believed when he joined (*after* Snape) that Voldemort's purpose was to *rule* Muggle-borns and Muggles, not to kill them.So there's room to suppose that Snape didn't know he was joining evil. Especially since the Ministry was also evil, and in his own experience the leading lights of the Order had connived at attempted murder/covering up attempted murder (his).
Nevertheless, a very strong and moving piece.
Such meaning in so few words. Impressively brilliant.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Aw, thank you so very much!
Is this part of the Care of Magical Creatures universe? It has that feel to it. Good job. ^_^
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Thank you so much. No, it isn't, because I never even mentioned Lily in Care of Magical Creatures. I think this to be more canon (only, of course, EWE).
Beautiful! It feels absolutely right when you differentiate between what he said and what he did. And still the question remains if he would have done what he did when he had been forgiven what he said.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
There is so much we don't know, and may never. Thank you for your kind words.
Lovely. And it highlights the difference between Hermione and Lily.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Indeed it does. Thank you.
Wow. What a fascinating, rare admission that it isn't hers to forgive what happened all of those years ago. I don't know if I've ever read Hermione at once sympathising with her Gryffindor forerunner and also rising above it in such a solid way. His hope is in reaction to her strength--what a powerful foundation for the future.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
This little story was inspired by a lunch I had with subversa, dicky gloucester and annie talbot. It hit me very hard that in canon only the fact that he called mudblood is addressed, and later, that he accidentally was instrumental in her death. But to me the very fact that he joined the Death Eaters was much more significant than a word he called her, and it just made me ponder....Thank you for your very thoughtful review.
Response from WriterMerrin (Reviewer)
You're welcome. I think the Lily haters like to blame her for his decision to join the Death Eaters, but it was his decision, and not Lily or Lucius or anyone else can take that responsibility.
Now that was one beautiful, powerfully written piece.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Thank you so much.
Nicely written. Nice to see your handling of the reality of the past handled realistically AND the ability to see past it instead of how many just dismiss the past as "oh, its okay BECAUSE I love you."
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Thank you so much. He's definitely a hero, but he also did some very, very bad things.
Each of us, at some point in our lives, have received a gut-punch-of-reality that threatened to bring us to our emotional knees. Those of us who are fortunate do so in the presence of someone who loves us regardless of our deeds "and then, we move on" because their love is also our hope.This is a very powerful reminder of the healing quality of love. Very well done.Beth
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Thank you so much, Beth. I always love your reviews because you see so deeply.
Lovely. They handled that beautifully. Thank you for sharing!
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Thank you,
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
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You are more than a single moment.... A perfect summation of an incredibly complex man.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
He's so very complex. I think that's why we all love reading and writing about him.
*tears*Beautiful, darling. And you know how I feel about That Incident. But Hermione makes a good point, and I nod my head in understanding.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
It was at lunch with you, Dicky and Annie that I was inspired to write this, so you are a piece of it. Thank you so much.
I *heart* you! :D
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
And I *heart* you back!
Very good point. It was wrong, but it was in the past. :)
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Thank you so much!
My heart is in my mouth. What a profoundly touching moment.
So sweet. This could really turn into a good multi chap fic. Amazing job.
What a nice story. It looks at something from canon, but delves deeper, right into the heart of the matter, which is something we really didn't get to see before. This seems a necessary conversation, but one they can have, and then move on.
"But you are more than a single moment."
I love that line, because it is so true. If only everyone could see things the way Hermione does.
You've written this beautifully, as always. Thanks for sharing!
I'm not sure if I can add anything to the comments already left, but I want you to know how deeply this moved me. It is equisite!
This was so well done with so few words - and I think the greatest gift that Snape could be given, (or give himself) would be hope.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
I agree with you. And thank you!
I would love to know exactly what he did. Regardless, I am so happy this little fic ended on the note that even though she couldn't forgive him, him knew she still loved and and they would move on together. So sweet - he needs that.
Response from mia madwyn (Author of First, You Have to Understand)
Thank you so much for your review! I wrote this because I think as fangirls we often tend to blow off what Snape did to Lily when he called her a mudblood and treated her so cruelly. I believe it was as bad as if she'd been black and he'd been her friend since childhood, and then struck out and called her tne n-word in front of his friends [to fit in with them] and hers [to hurt her]. I do think it was unforgivable, and I wanted to address it in a way that honored his 'sin' and also the SS/HG pairing. Because for Hermione, another 'mudblood' after all, I do think it is worth addressing.