Chapter Ten: Hogsmeade Discoveries
What Is This Thing Called Love?
Chapter 10 of 26
kittyperryThe gossip mill learns of Hermione’s attraction to Severus.
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Hermione had been using meditation as a way of controlling her anger and resentment at Harry and Ron for their appalling behaviour towards her following the earliest of Bill's DADA lessons. She had also found Severus' tips of channelling her Darkness into other endeavours extremely helpful when the Darker emotions took over her rational mind. She would go for brisk walks in the early mornings, kicking and stomping the unfortunate ground beneath her. Occasionally she would berate the unfortunate student, whose assignment she was marking, with vitriol so sharp it, sometimes seemed as though it could have come straight from Severus' own quill. She was generally fairly successful at managing their lack of attention to their long years of friendship. Each week, despite their continuing silence, Hermione wrote the boys a joint letter, trying to convey her feelings of contentment and joy at teaching and learning. She was desperate in her own way to not lose their friendship completely. So when a letter arrived from Harry and Ron just before the first Hogsmeade weekend, which was to be in the first weekend of November, requesting that she meet them in the village, Hermione was over the moon. She thought it would give them all a chance to heal the breach in their friendship.
Hermione went down into the village to meet Harry and Ron with Ginny, Dean and Neville with a big grin on her face. She paid no heed to Ginny's sly looks and whispers of getting a room with Harry at the Three Broomsticks. Hermione felt young and carefree, and dressed in her comfortable, figure-hugging jeans, jumper and blazer, she looked just like any other senior student.
Severus watched her go with a surprising ache in his heart. He did not want to admit it, but he was almost afraid that she would, while away from him, come to realise the folly of pursuing a relationship with him. He realised he was old and jaded. How can I compete with the joy and brightness these callow youths embrace so mindlessly? agonised Severus in desperation. He had never been bright and joyful, even as a teenager. Watching Hermione's beaming face as she walked to the main gates made him realise how young she really was. What is such a beautiful young woman doing with a bitter old man like me? thought Severus. For he could see in her Muggle clothes how truly alluring she was.
However, when Hermione met up with Ron and Harry, things did not go well. Despite her joy at seeing her friends, Harry seemed distant and preoccupied with snogging Ginny. Ron tried to hug her suggestively and whispered, "I've booked a room for us, 'Mione, just as Harry has for Ginny and himself."
At Hermione's shocked expression, Ron grinned confidently and said, "Ginny said you've not been seeing anyone at Hogwarts, and I thought you'd be desperate for a good shag right about now."
Hermione was furious. "You know I'm not ready for something like that. Besides, I thought we were over, given your lack of communication and our last conversation."
Ron laughed. He did not like the attention they were getting from the rest of the group. "Come on, 'Mione, you know that I'm the only one who will ever have you...now stop being such a prude. Live a little."
Hermione remained silent, but her glare spoke volumes.
Ron, however, seemed not to notice her anger and resentment. "Come on, 'Mione," he coaxed again. "You know the only reason I was forced to be with the others is because you aren't able to fulfil your responsibilities as an adequate girlfriend. Once we start shagging regularly, I won't need them."
Hermione was beyond hurt; she was incensed. In a quiet voice that dripped of ice, rather like Severus' when he was enraged, she asked, "And how, Ronald, do you expect us to shag regularly when I am teaching at Hogwarts?"
Ron just shrugged.
Hermione shook her head. "I think," she spat coldly, "you and I are totally unsuitable for each other. We have never had anything in common but our involvement in Harry and his quest."
Ron was furious at her utter refusal to sleep with him. "You're nothing but a frigid tease. You've been stringing me along with your letters and now you refuse to put out."
"It isn't like that," replied Hermione heatedly. "I wrote to you and Harry because you are both my friends. I'm sorry, but the thought of sleeping with you just turns me off completely."
"Well you're not going to find anyone else to shag you. You're a cold, frigid bitch," sneered Ron angrily as he stormed off.
Harry and Ginny, who had been amongst the observing throng, were shocked. Ginny was incredibly hurt at Hermione's rejection of her brother. Turning away from Hermione, she remarked loudly to Harry, "Our 'Mione is too good for us, now. She's always with the professors. She thinks she'll be the one to rescue slimy Snape. She's desperate to shag the Dungeon Bat."
When Hermione's face turned red in embarrassment, Harry and Ginny both realised that Ginny had not been too far off the mark with her vindictive jab.
"What, do you want to sleep with the Greasy Git?" asked Harry in shock.
Hermione did not respond to the direct question. Instead she replied, "Really, Harry. You must stop saying things like that. You know we won the war because of him. He's a hero."
"He's no hero, he's a sick pervert. How long have you been sleeping with him? Is that why he asked you to come back to Hogwarts?" queried Ginny maliciously.
"Don't be silly," said Hermione. "I've only just realised how special he is. There's nothing going on. I've not slept with him, though it is none of your business if I do. I am now an adult."
"Ho, some adult to be taken in by that greasy bastard," countered Harry in disgust.
Hermione yelled furiously, "Don't call him that," before storming off back to the castle. She was so angry she didn't know what to do with herself. Her frenzied walk back to the grounds did nothing to help her cool off, and so she used another of Severus' tricks and began blasting the passing foliage.
Saturday dinner in the Great Hall was pure torture for Hermione. All the students sniggered at her or looked at her with shocked, even horrified expressions. When Minerva and the rest of the staff heard about the argument, for Ginny was not above telling everyone that Hermione wanted to shag the bat of the dungeons, they felt compelled to question a very irritated Severus.
In truth, Severus pretended to be irritated with Poppy's inquisitive question. However, a significant part of him was glad. Glad that Hermione had not been lured away by Weasley's youth as well as the fact that Hermione had not denied her attraction to himself. With the castle almost empty of its students, Severus had had time to think, and he had come to the unsurprising realisation that he more than desired Hermione. He had feelings for her, strong, almost Hufflepuffian emotions of tenderness and devotion towards her. Knowing that Minerva, especially, would put two and two together, he said to Minerva, "Oh, stop your needless questioning: nothing has happened. As usual the miscreants have got the wrong end of the stick and are making a mountain out of a molehill."
But Minerva was suspicious. She, unlike the others, knew to whom the prophecy applied. Furthermore, she had seen Hermione's tear-stained face as she had returned around lunchtime to the castle. Moreover, she had seen Hermione's flushed features when the gossip had spread around the Great Hall during dinner and the horrified look in the young woman's eyes when Poppy had questioned the headmaster.
After dinner, Minerva followed Hermione as she made her way to her chambers. There, once older witch had procured herself a cup of jasmine green tea and an after dinner mint chocolate, and made herself comfortable in the guest chintz armchair, she asked Hermione gently, "Lass, I don't disapprove. I just want to know if you are all right."
"Oh, Minerva," said Hermione. "I had such hopes for today. I so wanted Ron and Harry to be like they were before. Instead, all we did was argue and hurt each other." She sighed and tossed another log into the fire. "Nothing has happened between me and Severus. He's been a perfect gentleman. But I do like him."
Minerva nodded and took a sip of her tea. "Are you aware of the prophecy?"
Hermione nodded, "Yes, Severus informed me that he has been using the brewing sessions to get to know me better. But I don't mind." Looking directly at Minerva, she said, "I'm glad he took the initiative, for otherwise I'd never have gotten to know him at all."
Minerva nodded in understanding. "My dear, you know I am fond of you both. If you are sure about your attachment, then I can assure you that there is nothing in the school rules that stops an inter-staff relationship. Besides, your future apprenticeship will be with Filius, so there are no problems with regulations."
Hermione smiled her gratitude. "It's really good to know we have your support."
Minerva chuckled. "Always, my dear. I may be old, but I'm not blind. You both are so much alike that it pleases me that you have found solace in each other. Severus has been alone for too long. You will be good for him, and he for you."
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Loved it :)
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Thank you. I'm so pleased you did.
Another great story. Thanks for the wonderful read.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and leave a review. I'm so pleased you enjoyed it. xxx
Great story! I just have one question. Did Ginny, Molly and Ron ever truly find peace? I loved how everyone came together at the end. It was a really nice touch. Thank you for sharing your talent with the rest of us!
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Thank you so much for taking the time to leave a review. I love hearing from someone who has read and enjoyed my story. As for Ron, Ginny and Molly finding peace, I think they will, but it will take time and it won't be easy. They really need to face their own weaknesses and they don't want to. But I think eventually they will.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Thank you so much for taking the time to leave a review. I love hearing from someone who has read and enjoyed my story. As for Ron, Ginny and Molly finding peace, I think they will, but it will take time and it won't be easy. They really need to face their own weaknesses and they don't want to. But I think eventually they will.
This was such an absolutely amazing story. It has become one of my most favorite tales of the love between Severus and Hermione. Thank you for writing such a wonderful story.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
You are very welcome. I am so pleased to hear from you and to know that you enjoyed the story. I had a marvellous time writing it.Can I ask you what you found special about the story?
That's right! Stop being snobs you Gyriffindore! Stop the bigotry you Slytherin! Now lets all sing some 
Bob Marley tunes
, smoke the peace pipe
then knock down the fences. Just don't lick the toads
or eat any shrooms until you're home with friends who can help you know what's real and what isn't. 
Any of you uncomfortable with that come over here and have a nice cup of tea and eat some magic cake.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Ha, ha, ha. You are so funny. You and I need to become friends and tear other fanfiction to shreads :) Seriously :) Look me up on facebook if you are on it. I'm the only Tasneem Perry there is in the whole world :)
Response from breastlady (Reviewer)
I would love to be friends! But I'm not on Facebook.I can't figure out how people have time for Facebook! 
I can hardly get all my email read. Second, I don't trust myself not to say something that goes viral and that I'll be sorry for later.
I'm rather out spoken and silly sometimes. I've heard that people have lost their jobs or not been hired for having incredibly stupid moments on Facebook and twitter. I could easily end up being that person.
I've been in the same profession, in the same town for 20 years and too many people here know my name! 
I work for a huge health care organization. I could just see one of our pediatricians or a patient looking me up and finding out what I'm really like when I'm not at work. About 10 years ago I remember a job evalution where my supervisor said, "I gave you exceeds expectations on almost everything, but there's one problem....I never know what you're going to say!"
She doesn't think I'm very funny. I'm much better now, as long as I have my white coat on. I try very hard to be good. 
But when the white coat comes off....there's no telling what I'd say. Feel free to contact me from my profile and I'll give you my personal contact info!
I'm really glad Snape wasn't there. He has to act right all the time because he's the Headmaster and my be politic. Hermione couldn't have hexed Ronald. I think Snape would have stopped her. The Headmaster of Hogwarts can't go around hexing people just because they piss you off. I'm glad Percy has come to his senses. I don't think Severus is going to be very happy with the situation. I hope the party at the Malfoy's goes better.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Thank you for another review. I am loving these little conversations we are having. Yes, Severus couldn't have done anything overt to Ron, but don't let that stop you from thinking that he could have done something that no one would have noticed.But yes, it was good for Hermione to handle it on her own. She needs to show the world that she can defend herself, that she is not just Severus' woman, or Harry's side-kick or whatever.
I'm happy for Harry and Hermione. Thanks for making him sweet again.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
I love Harry, and I would never have left him to suffer and be mired forever in Darkness. But, I did want to explore what could send someone as good as him, as pure as him into the pit of Darkness. Not all bad people are born bad, things happen to bring out their inner darkness.
How many Slytherin were driven to Voldemort by Dumbledore's out right dimissal of them as someone of value?
It's a wonder he wanted to save Draco. He had done nothing to save Severus. I wonder why Draco was different than the other Death Eater's children?
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Excellent point. I think Dumbledore was coming to realise that the Malfoys were critical to the balance of the war. He must have finally realised that if he was sending Severus off to die, that he needed another tool to use. I dislike and mistrust Dumbledore, so I am giving him the most draconian and cynical of reasons.
The little speech Snape made about Hermione surely knowing Severus chuckled. ‘Silly woman,’ he said, stroking her horrid hair. ‘I’m sure she knew that I would make sure that what she gave you was safe and proper for you to use.’As Hermione prepared to tell him off, he gentled her by placing his hand across her mouth. ‘I don’t mean to suggest that I don’t trust you or her, my dear, but I’m a naturally possessive and cautious man. Surely, you must have suspected that Gunananda would have shared with his wife his knowledge of me and my methods. Thus, surely you must have known that they would have expected me to fully peruse everything that you were given in Sri Lanka.’ reminds me of The Princess Bride
I love that movie!
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Not really got into Princess Bride and don't think I really paid attention to the dialogue. I shall have to watch it again this weekend or something.But yes, it is foolish to imagine that Severus doesn't go through all her things and knows all she does. I mean, that's why she had the mail for the surprise birthday party go through Minerva, because she would imagine that he does scrutinise her correspondence. He is that kind of man and only someone like her who is strong enough and tough enough can handle him.
Good animagis choices! To register or not to register, that is the question.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Ha, ha, ha. Thank you. Choosing the owl for Hermione was not hard. It was linked to her bookworm and wise woman image. Severus was much harder, something magestic, but not lion-like :P
I think this is my first Longbottom's get healed story. Will the healers at St. Mungo's realize that they don't have the same magical strength required like Hermione and Severus? Maybe since it seem the Longbottom's were the worse case, the others won't require such strong magial power. I don't get Harry's lingering problem with Snape?
He knows Snape had no choice in killing Dumbledore. What happened to "the bravest man I ever knew"?
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
I think the healers and Severus too will document this, but you're right, the Longbottoms' were the worst case, the other will still benefit from the research being done. And now that Severus and Hermione know what needs to be done, they can find other ways for Healers working together to raise, and combine their magic, if not for long, then for at least small bursts of energy flow. I think Harry intellectually knows that Severus is the bravest person he ever knew, but it's easy to revere someone who is dead, it is much harder to deal with a living hero, one who loved your mother and hated your father and your god-father, both who you love.
What's keeping them from getting married? 
And what happened to Rita Skeeter? 
I guess great minds think alike when it comes to my questions in earlier chapters about Arthur Weasely. I am very glad Harry wasn't involved. He had already had to learn how to deal with Voldemort inside him so his darkness probably isn't as out of control. And he's always been a good boy.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Yes. Harry's always a good lad and he always tries to do the right thing.As for getting married, I think Severus doesn't want to rush Hermione. I think there's a part of him that's still worried that she is too young to know her mind.
Wow!! 
Ginny: "You bitch slap that little whore!" Ron: "Yeh, that's right! What? She thinks she's too good for this cock?" Jerry: Miss Granger declined our invitaiton to this sorted low class show. Ginny:"Who you callin low class, you wanker! She gets up and starts pulling Jerry Spriner's hair and is tackled by two large men who drag her off stage as the camera's follow them and she yells obscenities...Ron jumps up yelling "You take your hands of my sister, you buggering ass hole!" and runs at the large men. He is then tackled by two more large men and some big bald guy is yelling in his face only a haf inch from his nose, "You gonna calm down, or do we take you to muggle bootcamp you sleeze!" Jerry:"Well, that's all for our show today. Join us tomorrow as Ron, Ginny and Molly Weasely have their wands taken from them for a day and they experience Muggle Boot Camp!"
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Never watched Jerry Springer, but yes, perfect narration of what could happen.
Response from breastlady (Reviewer)
You're not missing a thing! 
It is total crap with low class people who, interestingly, always end up in a physical altercation with hair pulling and name calling. I'm sure it's not rigged or anything.
It's like, "Tina has a secret for her husband today. Let's call Dan out here. Alright Tina, tell Dan your secret." "Well Dan, I've been sleeping with your dad for two years and your son is really your half brother." Then Dan's mom and ex wife of Dan's dad, who happens to be married to Tina's dad, comes out and tells Tina what a little whore she is, then Tina runs over and starts pulling her out of the chair by her hair, until they are separated by the bald bouncers and the audience is screaming like it's the best thing they've ever seen.
The show is partially responsible for the destruction of our society here! The kids watch this crap every afternoon for years when they get home from school and their parents are at work. Then the kids turn into teenagers and young adults who think these trashy, vulgar, toothless, drug addicts, who sleep with 13 year olds and are covered in badly done tattoos are normal people. Jerry Springer is just the worst one of these kinds of popular afternoon television shows. 
He actually used to be a United States Senator.
Just kill me now!
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Ah, the beauty of American politics and your system of goverment. Here you need to go to public school [that's private school], have a spotless reputation [if at all possible] and be a toff or a toff wanna be to get into parliment. Seriously though, I do agree. I think trash has been given too much of a public/media viewing and so people think this is the way to act/behave. Before, we would hide in shame, now we lap it up and then complain that children have no moral compass. Duh. This is why we don't have a TV and don't watch TV. I've not seen any TV since 2000. That's 11 whole years of listening to BBC Radio 4, BBC Radio 3, Classic FM and reading. My evenings are so much more interesting. I have time to paint, to actually do arts and crafts with the radio on for news, music and entertainment.
Totally dig the incantation and magically induced orgasm. I want what she's having, thank you very much! It seems strange that the Malfoys are being more civil than the Weasely's. I suppose that the Malfoys are used to the good manners and graceful behavior expected with their status and the Weasely's have always been ruled by their emotions. I'm sure if the Malfoys were bitter that Severus was with a Muggle born they would have found a way to show their displeasure. They wouldn't stoop to something as vulgar as a howler in front of the entire school, though. I'm sure you'll clear this problem up by the end though.
Weasely's
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
You're spot on. The Malfoys I think realise that they have managed to survive the war by the skin of their teeth. They need to be on the good side of Severus as a war hero and now Headmaster. If he took up with a troll, they would accept the troll. They can't be seen to be biased now. The political climate it so volatile. The Weasleys on the other hand have had their first exposure to Dark Magic. They have no control over their emotions, they have no fall back option of knowing how to conduct themselves in society. So it's like many things influencing both parties and their behaviours.
For once I don't have to say "poor Severus" 
Sounds like you are very familiar with Sri Lanka. Personally, not a spicy food person but it sounded wonderful.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
I was born and spent the first 25 years of my life there :) So yes, adore Sri Lanka food. The thing with Sri Lankan spice though is that while it's hot, it's not just hot, there's a proper blend of spicy with creamy coconut, and sweet sour [i.e. the mango] so that when you mix it up on your plate the flavours evolve and become something much more than the individual dishes.
I don't think their New Years celebration was pitiful at all. I think it was wonderful! I did think how creepy it would feel to be the only 3 people in the entire castle, besides house elves and ghosts. I understand Ron being an ASS, but I don't understand Molly. She'd surely seen the pictures in the Prophet! She wouldn't condone Ron's womanizing. Her darkness could be directed at he an Ginny just as well as Hermione. Maybe it already is. I would think Mr. Weasely would at leat listen to Bill and support the family admitting this could possibly be true. Molly has always been hot tempered, but Mr. Weasely has always been measured. I would imagine that the kind of darkness he would experience would be directed at himself. I could see him being beset by guilt for not protecting his family from these consequences of using dark magic. Others surviving Order Members must be suffering too.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Yes, I think the problem is that Arthur is suffering from guilt and doesn't want to admit that even more is wrong. How can he forgive himself for losing Fred, when he himself survived. I guess the whole family is in need of actually doing something about their darkness, just as many in the order are. I think with Arthur it is a case of buring his head in the sand, hoping things will go away.
I'm so happy for Severus and Hermione. I hope this wonderful chapter doesn't forshadow the obligitory "now they have to have something bad happen" thing. Have they been taking precautions regarding birth control? How does Severus know that that ring may not do all of those things at the same time? It's too soon for a baby. They ruin all the fun. I also don't want anyone to think that Hermione is only marrying Severus because she has to.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
No worries, don't you think that as a Potions' Master he's not on some kind of birth control. I mean, he's likely to have taken something for long-term protection if he was being forced to rape during the Voldemort war years. He was a product of parents being forced to marry, he is the last person to take any kind of risk.
Hermione's parents surprised me with the amount of virtol and anger they had. I am so glad Severus went back to tell them what he really thought about
them. It was such a knee jerk reaction they had. I understand some upsetness regarding not asking them but don't they remember how much they used to love her? Needless to say, she's so better off with Severus and he wouldn't have to share her affection with anyone else.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Yes, I do agree. I was just listening to a radio programme on BBC 4 this morning about parents who told their daughter she was dead to them because she refused to marry the man they wanted her to marry. This kind of thing is so common. It is as though parents forget how much they love their children, they only think about what they want, what their standing is in the community, when really, the community probably doesn't give a damn, and if it does, then it is just the small-minded, petty parts of it that do care.
Well you answered my worry about rules. Ginny is sure being a little bitch! It would be so tempting to get her off by herself and tell her what a I thought about her and that she'll be sorry someday. I'd be hard pressed not to pass her in the hall and say, "Hi Belatrix, I mean Ginney." I'm so glad I'm such a mature old hag. After I actually thought about it I probably realize it would just lower me to her level. I think Bill should be notified that Ginny is having side effects from her use of dark magic. It is his sister after all. Maybe he could work with her. Severus isn't embarrassed that she publicly admits her feeling for him. So now we just have to deal with his misplaced idea that she will change her mind. I'd tell Ronnald and Harry to fuck off! 
quietly though. Don't want to end up in the papers. There must be a fuck off hex. They could mysteriously break out with pus boils on their foreheads that spell out ASS HOLE! Can just you imagine road rage in the wizarding world?
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Ha, ha, ha. I enjoyed your review. Yes, I think reacting to Ginny would only make her feel validated, and you don't want to give her that kind of satisfaction. I think Bill knows his sister is in a mire of Darkness, but he can't really do anything at the moment because Arthur is still trying to deal with the changes to Molly. Besides, the whole family needs to work on this together.
They had better be careful if they want to keep this under wraps until she is not taking any of his classes. I don't care what anyone else thinks about her, she doesn't care what anyone else thinks about her, but we can't have the school board imagining a scandle, now can we? Breath.. Take some deep breaths... and wait until you are in his chambers before you shag like the animals, kids.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
Oh, totally. They just can't afford a scandal, or even a whiff of a scandal really. They've bought worked too hard to let their reputations suffer because they lost control in a public spot.
It's about time! I'm glad their first time wasn't with Severus in his cups. He would have believed he had practiclly raped her once he was himself. If Hermione had been an old broad like me, she would have ask him if he had any sobering up potion around, then see if he still wanted to bed her. But this gives us more plot to continue the story with, more time to draw out the sedution. 
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
You'll hate me drawing out the seduction soon :) But Hermione isn't as bold, and I don't think I thought of her asking for some sober-up.
They are spending a great deal of time together. Does she wonder why he is being so nice to her? Also, I have always tried to imagine that Severus had found a way to avoid straight out forceful rape. How does one do that if they find it extreamly distasteful. Wouldn't it be difficult to perform? It is a wonder he did not lose himself during his time as a spy and truely become a Dark Wizard. What kept him wanting to be one of the good guys? What prevented him from giving in to the lure fo dark magic if he had turned off empathy, pity or desire to be good? What kept him from rationalizing he wasn't actually becoming a dark wizard and that he could control it.?
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
I think the thing that saved him was that he could never forget how much it pained him to see Lily's rejection. However much I dislike Lily Potter, she was the one thing that he clung to. He may have totally reinvented her, but she was useful, because he knew that she would never ever tolerate him being a Dark Wizard. Also, I think he was just too intelligent to lose himself to the Darkness completely. He could see what it did to people like Riddle and Bella, and he was stronger mentally. As for being able to rape people even when he didn't want to, I can't believe that he didn't have a lust potion or a viagra type pill of his own to help him perform.
Finally!
I really wouldn't think ice on ones clitoris would be condusive to orgasm in that it would act as a vaso contstrictor rather than increasing blood flow to the area. I would think one would have to remove the ice after the woman was aroused, to finish the deed. But she had been pretty desparate. Maybe anything that touched her would have cause an orgasm.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
I think at this point, any attention from Severus would have made her come. He's been so restrained for so long. And he does like the power games he plays.
I wouldn't really think of the 7th years as her peers except for the the few who had come back to finish their NEWTS. The other children would have all been year behind her and she has a naturally bossiness to her, that I'm sure she had admonished those kids during her time as Head Girl. Anyway, if she choses to be part of the staff, she will eventually need to realize it is not relevant whether students "like her". She's no longer a peer of any of them, not even the returning adults. She is in a position of authority. It has advantages but it also means saying good bye to making friends at school. The staff are her friends, now. Severus must truely be lonely not to fight this more. How long can he hold out before he desires to truely seduce her. Not long, I hope.
Response from kittyperry (Author of What Is This Thing Called Love?)
You're right, of course, and I think Hermione is coming to realise this. But it is a change, and she's seen so much change that giving up everything else she knew to be true is much hardner now. But she will get there. Severus is playing a waiting game, the seduction will take place at a slow pace :)